Tuesday, November 01, 2011
I hate the way I look. Through the years of mental and physical abuse I have gained 110 pounds because of emotional eating.! I avoid going out in public as often as possible because I feel so gross about my body. If I do go out I keep my head down and try not to make eye contact. Being this overweight is physically and mentally painful. I can't fit into certain seats, (I have even broken chairs) I have to walk sideways through a turnstiles, get tired and out of breath easy, just standing up talking to someone hurts my back, I leave an indentation in my bed (anyone looking at it would think it is one of those foam mattresses!), can't cross my legs, men look the other way, and worse thing of all, I love the rides at Disney but I am scared of trying to get on a rides and be told I am to fat.
I want to lose weight, not only for my health but for my self-confidence. But to lose weight I need to exercise, but exercise hurts. So I am stuck.
But there is hope! Sparkpeople! Through SparkPeople I have been blessed with so many kind friends offering tons of support! I started this journey last year. It has been filled with obstacles and setbacks. But I can not give up. I still have hope. SparkPeople is that hope!
I am getting my Spark back this week!
Monday, September 05, 2011
I can not believe I have not written anything but my grocery list and to do list in almost two months. I have almost forgotten how. I have totally let myself go, emotionally and physically. I can not believe it has been a year since I started trying to lose weight. July 2010. Seems so long ago, so much has happened. Every time I would start to lose weight and get into a routine, BAM, something would happen to change my course. When something major happens in your life, such as my great-aunt passing away July 5, it is so hard to get back to normal. Whatever normal is. I guess the only way is to get back into the saddle and start moving. So that is what I am going to do. Starting with tracking my food, and blogging. One day and one step at a time. I can't give up. I need to be strong.
Monday, May 09, 2011
I have been lost in the forest of nothingness and overload. But, I finally found a machete and cut my way through the thick darkness, thorn bushes and found a clearing. Now I am back on the path to a better me. A better me allows me to take care of those who need my help.
I was horrified when I ran my BMI. Here are the results:
BMI is over 40 (Obese Class 3 : Morbid Obesity)
With a BMI of 40+ you have an extremely high risk of weight-related disease and premature death. Indeed, you may have already been suffering from a weight-related condition. For the sake of your health it is very important to see your doctor and get specialists help for your condition.
Ok, time to stop with the excuses, and as Nike would say “JUST DO IT.” No more Excuses!!!
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