Thursday, November 14, 2013
Well, this morning I actually feel pretty good. My muscles were worked but I'm not sore (yet! ). And it was kind of relaxing, I guess just getting into a rhythm and hearing the pull of the cable, which made me think of waves on a beach. I'll be going Tues-Thurs after work. Last night I did have to leave early, so I really only got about 20 min. into it. The instructors said the first week they're just trying to get everyone familiar with the machines, but that eventually the workouts will be 1 1/2 hours long!
And BOY, do I need this! My weight is back up to 151 (this past weekend sure didn't help ) waist at 33" and body fat at 38%! Horrible stats, but I'm going to see if this rowing helps any of that. I'm in this through mid-February, then we'll see if I renew or join the OCU rowing team. I already feel a change of mindset as far as eating goes. As soon as I signed up for it I started thinking about more quality nutritional eating, instead of the crap food I've been pigging out on lately. Of course, it's only been a day so I can't really expect that much. End of November is a better time to re-evaluate.
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Well, today I signed up for an Erg class at Chesapeake boathouse - basically it's a rowing class on a machine. OCU sponsors a corporate rowing team, but there's a fee for joining that's about $150 - a bit more than I want to spend, what with me having to pay a similar fee for the jazz ensemble, plus committing to practice times, etc. But this is just lessons, and it's discounted to $50 thru February, and I can go 2-3 days a week.
So, WHY do this? Because my weight is back up and I need to do SOMETHING about it. Because maybe if I pay cash for something I'll actually DO it (seems to work for the Jazz Ensemble). Because I want to build up some upper-body strength. Because all I ever do is Cardio. Because I wanted to try Kayaking last summer but never got around to it. I think those are good reasons. My first class will be tomorrow evening, so I'll report back on Thursday. Let's GO!
Thursday, November 07, 2013
Well tonight the Jazz Ensemble will play at the dance/fundraiser I've been practicing so hard for. Last night I did manage to play all of the songs once, and for sure there are a couple I will probably fail at -- but I think that jamming with other people is making me a better guitarist than merely sitting in my room practicing a song by myself. And I feel pretty good about some of the other songs!
Of course, I won't get in until late, so no exercising except for a quick walk on my lunch break, and they're feeding us dinner (playing for supper ), but I don't know what it will be. I remember last year it was quite good, so probably not real low-cal. Well, them's the breaks!
Monday, November 04, 2013
Okay, this is me whining but it seems like dieting is impossible right now. I think I'll save enough money for the NZ trip before I lose any weight, and in fact it was above the 150 mark all weekend There's just so much stress right now, and I had an extra practice in Norman yesterday so I grabbed a bite to eat at Taco Bueno on Lindsay street (note to self: don't eat there again!). I still have 8 people living in my home, although admittedly baby Annie doesn't eat that much. Still, that's alot of mouths to feed. My daughter & her hubby have started new, better paying jobs and have helped with groceries, but I have lost almost all control over meal plans and even what kind of food we buy. Our fridge/freezer is pretty full, and we do have chicken breast and frozen veggies as well - but also pot pies, battered cod fillets and steak fingers. And with 2 little grandkids we also seem to make alot of mac & cheese.
I do okay on breakfast and lunches most of the time, having cereal with fruit and diet tv dinners, but sadly I've become addicted to chocolate muffins (heck, chocolate in general!). I don't really believe in food addiction (see previous blogs) but chocolate is a pretty fierce desire. So, I got this idea to try and make my own lower-calorie muffins, and I found 2 recipes to try out - but I misplaced them and didn't end up making any last weekend, so today I was back on the chocolate muffin binge. Just a little too much chaos right now, but I really hate that I've gained back so much weight! A lady I work with is on a very-low-cal diet, eating around 870 cals a day, which I think is INSANE, but she insists she can't exercise and says this is the only thing that works. I CAN exercise, in fact I did get in about 35 min walking today, so I know it's the diet that needs work. Gotta break this muffin addiction, or at least find a lower cal sub. I did shell out $75 for a better pair of walking shoes for my walking breaks - OUCH! - but it was necessary. And whenever I try the muffin recipes out I'll let everyone know how that went and give a recommend. Bye for now.
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Note to myself:
Goals 2 & 3 are coming along. The jazz ensemble will play a fundraiser next week. Last year I only knew 4 songs, and not that well. This year I'm up to 10, about half of the playlist, and may be able to add 1-2 more. I think it's better to concentrate on playing those 10 songs well, however, than to try and cram in too much.
The book is also coming along. I've finished 6 chapters and have started a 7th. I am not sure what completion date I should go for, but I hope to have the 1st draft finished by year's end.
The trip to New Zealand is kind of stalled out - I've managed to save up about $700, but can't seem to get above that mark, and of course Christmas is coming up. I've (stingily) set a limit of $30 per person, and have pretty much made up my Christmas list. However, that is subject to change. Holiday dinner will be interesting; my hubby, older daughter and her family are going to Colorado Springs for turkey-day to visit my father-in-law, and so he can meet his newest great-grandkid. So it will just be me and Margaret. I doubt I'll cook much, if anything. Christmas dinner will be REAL interesting, as I still don't have any room to so much as put up a tree this year, what with everyone living in my house. But I will hang stockings at least. I'll buy a stocking for baby Annie, but what would you put in a stocking for a 4-month old?
Of course, the trip to NZ is still more on track than the "get healthy and strong" goal. I listed a goal weight of 135 only about 15 to lose, but have made NO progress in that regard. Today there was a staff/faculty appreciation breakfast, and I've eaten enough for 3 meals, mostly sugary treats but a little protein and some strawberries. Right now I feel like CRAP! I'm tired but not sleepy (doesn't help that I got so little sleep last night). I walked around the campus for my lunch break, putting in about 45 minutes, and plan to get on the elliptical at home for about 30. (Of course, I also plan to practice for 1-2 hrs and not watch TV - we'll see. ) But even if I skip dinner (probably) and spend an hour on the elliptical, it won't undo the damage from the binge eating I've done today.
Why do I binge eat? Because the food is free, it's there, it looks good, etc. I have no "stop" control. I don't think I'm a "food addict" (okay, maybe to chocolate), I think something else is going on. I've done binge spending before - just the other day I bought this silly toy online, lemme see if I can upload it:
Isn't it cute? A little Thorin Oakenshield from "The Hobbit" movie - and the actual inspiration for my story. I get locked in on something, obsess about it somewhat for a period of time, but eventually it fades away and some new obsession comes along. It's not OCD, it's probably closer to a creepy stalker syndrome. And yes, my current obsession (along with lots of other past obsessions) drive my family CRAZY!!! What does this have to do with binge eating? I think it's all one and the same - if it's not food, it's some movie/icon/whatever. It's a personality quirk of mine that I'm trying to learn how to deal with. I am TRYING to channel this current obsession with The Hobbit/Thorin Oakenshield into an original storyline, to try to do something constructive with all that energy instead of merely driving my family insane. And I need to figure out how to do that with FOOD! I'm sitting here literally stuffed and almost sick from all the sugary carbs , complete with a headache. And yet there's a blueberry muffin and a banana sitting on my desk. I can honestly say I don't want either one, but the binge voice in my head is not letting me throw them away. I suppose I can save them for tomorrow, find a way to wrap up the muffin, the banana should keep just fine.
So, tonight's plan is to practice, have a protein shake after the workout, and get my laundry done (Tuesday is my new laundry night). Should be doable. Sorry I wrote a book, but there you are.
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