Wednesday, October 01, 2014
Well my last blog may have been full of self-pity, so this one will be better. No, I'm still not "trying to lose weight" before the home situation improves - too much stress for that, BUT I don't want to use this as an excuse to gain weight, either. So I logged on today for the first time in almost 2 weeks to log my walking time. Like I said, going to keep up the exercising & (somewhat) healthy diet, and keep enough of an eye on the scale to keep from gaining. As of today I still weigh 153 1/4 lbs, roughly the same as the beginning of the year. But oh, well, just gotta keep on keeping on. It's a modest goal to be sure, but we are going into the holiday season. My current goal is to weigh the same (or a little less) in 3 months.
Friday, September 19, 2014
I am seriously considering taking a break from the whole "weight-loss" thing, partially because I'm not losing any weight but mostly because a certain home situation still hasn't been resolved, and may not be before the end of the year. Yesterday I had something of an emotional meltdown over it. I ended up having a burger for dinner and some chocolate ice cream when I got home - yeah, emotional eating. Didn't get on the treadmill like I intended, watched a movie instead. It was funny and a little uplifting. I felt a little better when I got up this morning, but I avoided the scale like the plague! I doubt I can lose any weight until this home situation is resolved, so I'm wondering if I should just "Let It Go" for now.
Yes, that was corny, I know. BUT I logged on to SparkPeople intending to ask if anyone thought that was a good idea or not. I'm not planning to "give up" so much as just set it aside for now. Still exercise as much as possible, still eat my produce, but forget about dieting (which I can't seem to do anyway) and the scale for now. Maybe accept that I'm 54 years old, and there's only so much I can do - it's not that much weight anyway (yeah, it does sound like a copout, but I'm not in the mood to keep trying & failing to lose weight). But the first thing I saw after I logged on was an article about the 9 habits that can make you SAD, and I read it. Comfort food, wallowing in self-pity, etc. can make a bad situation worse. Still, I don't feel like trying to lose weight anymore; maybe it's not that important - maybe it never was. I want to be strong and healthy, so I'll keep working on that, but I also need to find a more constructive way to deal with this home situation until it's finally resolved. It's not something I can personally fix. I've made my feelings known, possibly made the situation worse, so I really do need to find a way to keep the emotions at bay that doesn't involve comfort food. No one else likes the situation either, but I know I can't change anyone else's attitude, only my own. Yeah, maybe keeping up the good work on diet & exercise but letting go of the weight loss expectation would be a good thing for now. But feel free to reply if you think I'm wrong!
Friday, September 05, 2014
So I've been tracking food for nearly two weeks, and here we go again: weight drops down to around 151, the goes back up to 153-54. I spent five months earlier this year trying to drop down below 150, and it was down for a little while. So I'm adjusting my calories down a bit, to the 1300 - 1500 range instead of 1500 - 1650. I don't dare drop below 1300, that just isn't enough food!
I'm also changing the diet & exercise plan a bit. Earlier this week I read yet another report on a study of low-carb diets, which shows that people on these diets lose more weight AND more body fat. The thought is almost depressing to me, I love cereal, bread, brown rice & pasta. BUT I've also said for ages that "if I could just cut out the junk food" - well, I've actually done a pretty good job of that and I STILL can't lose weight. So I'm going to try the Biggest Loser plan again (except for the 1100 cals a day, get real!) limiting grains to 2 servings of whole grains daily. In fact, it will probably be 1-2 servings daily. The biggest impact will be on lunches - no more pasta-based TV dinners. Instead it will be some kind of veggie-based soup or salad, and a serving of protein. Also giving up those low-cal snack bars in favor of either yogurt or some kind of protein drink/bar. I MUST have chocolate, so the chocolate will be limited to the protein drink/bar and a few (VERY few) dark chocolate covered almonds from Sprouts.
As for exercise, I have started doing more ab work/toning, and realize I need to be lifting weights somehow. I need to see if I can get my hubby to take me to his company gym for that about 2X weekly. Still planning to do cardio, but obviously I'm either not doing enough cardio OR all those reports that say weight-lifting will build muscle to burn more fat are correct - we shall see.
Of course this all might get easier in November, when my daughter that's been staying with me (along with her hubby & kids) gets a house - Praise the Lord! I love her & the grandkids to pieces, but this has REALLY been stressful, and let's face it, probably contributed to the weight gain. No more Mac & Cheese after they leave, that's for sure!
Tuesday, September 02, 2014
I don't know why I always have so much trouble on the weekend - I still don't know how to track food when I eat out, and I ate out twice! Saturday we went to Ron's Hamburgers (not a terrific choice for dieters), and that night we got pizza from WalMart (another not great choice). Did better Sunday with a batch of Salsa chicken I made, plus a seafood salad from WalMart. Then yesterday we took Margaret to Golden Corral. I did okay, made a HUGE steak salad and had just a little bourbon street chicken, BUT 2 breadrolls AND dessert - that part wasn't so good. Burgers for dinner, meh.
It didn't help that I got so depressed Saturday, just a lot of little things that made me feel bad, ending with an argument with my hubby over a possible furniture purchase - DUMB! I did manage to run a little Saturday, but no exercise Sunday or Monday (except for a little Mall walking). The good news is, my oldest daughter & her hubby signed a contract on a house - YAY!!! The BAD news is, they don't close until Oct. 31st! Yeah, I know I'm going to miss them when they're gone, IF I live that long!
Today's a new day, though. The weekend actually felt LONG, and I think I was ready to get back to the office. Bit bored right now, need my boss to give me something to do. It rained this morning, but I was able to get in a 10-minute walk & looks like the rain is done, should get in more walking at lunch & afternoon break, PLUS I should be doing better food-wise. No real progress on the scale this week, but oh well,
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