Tuesday, September 19, 2006
"The things that are hard to bear, are sweet to remember." - Lucius Annaeus Seneca
"Above all, be patient with the situation and with yourself. Don't lose your way by being blinded by disappointment, frustrations, and failures. Ponder the goals in your life and the obstacles you might face. Make appropriate plans to overcome those roadblocks even before they occur. Think of the reward of reflecting on a goal you have reached, rather than one you failed to see through. Most big dreams involve big effort!"
Be patient with myself. Thatīs a hard one. I think Iīm harder on myself than I am on anyone else. I disagree that itīs sweet to remember the hard things Iīve experienced! Yes, Iīve discovered that I am proud of myself for passing through some very dark times and hard experiences. Iīve been telling that to the ME in the mirror often. The sweetness is in knowing that I made it, that I am stronger, that I am on the other side of these things. But I carry with me memories of some things that I continue working out now - they donīt go away because they are still in my present.
I know these quotes are meant to help us in facing things having to do with changing our lifestyle and having to do mainly with eating and exercise. What I always think about when I read them is MY life - where I came from, what I continue facing, how some hard things donīt go away. Iīd like to change some things in my past, but then, I wouldnīt be who I am today. I donīt think Iīd be obese either. But here I am, this conglomerate of who I have become. I am facing ME and I am becoming a changed person. Thatīs good.
Still, some hard things donīt go away. My determination is to do this lifestyle changing even though and in spite of the hard things that stay with me, and the memories of hard things that were not and are not sweet. I will- I choose to go on!