Sunday, June 20, 2010
I am grateful that after having surgery early 2009, Daddy lived beyond the dr.īs predictions until April 29, 2010. He had a heart attack and left us briefly during that surgery - I arrived shortly after and he was sitting up in a chair in his hospital room. When I said good-bye after a month helping with my parentīs care last year, I guessed it would be the last time I saw him in person. We did get to have many phone conversations in that time.
My father suffered a great deal in his lifetime, but always had a smile to greet me and a compliment for me. He was proud of all of his children, but like me, hated it that I live on another continent. As a young person, I never imagined what it would feel like to be so far away when my loved ones are in need. But, I made that choice and raised my family here. When ourson left us in death, I realized how very little my family knows our children and regretted not pushing hubby into going more often and staying longer. Still do. Canīt change that.
Now Iīm living long distance from our kids and that adds its own kind of emotional uproar inside of me. We are doing the best we can and we see them as often as we can. Our living children visited my parents/their grands recently (nd last year). And, you know, I feel gratitude towards them and God that they WANT to be with us and WANT to spend time with other family members. Not all offspring do. And, as I often say, kids donīt come with guarantees!
Well, I keep on working on the emotional eating. Wonder if I will ever get over this. I know it fills a space that I wish wasnīt there. I know that it is not a spiritual void because my spiritual life helps me to lean harder on my heavenly Father and what I know to be true. A place to run when I am overwhelmed with uncomfortable circumstances and difficult moments. And that is all they are - moments; moments that I am learning to get through without sticking something unhealthy in my mouth, or at least, catching myself doing that and stopping it!
It is MY Life, after all, and I am the only one that can make the change!
Saturday, April 17, 2010
I wasnīt sure I was going to have time to blog this week held off last weekīs, too. Tonight, my plans got changed quickly. I thought I had 30 minutes more to get ready but, alas, my ride could not wait and here I sit! At first, I was not happy about it I still had bread in the oven, so no way could I be ready in time. The bread is for hubby and the piglets-in-their-blankies are ready for tomorrow nightīs meeting. I was asked to make these they are no longer in my eating repertoire. And they will be relished, I know! Hubby wanted me to make a few for him. Well, so sorry, I was asked to make 100 and thatīs all there are. BUT I made enough dough to make him his favorite cinnamon swirl bread. Heīs happy!
I also ran out of time for my cardio, and thought, well, I will just do it in the a.m. I donīt usually exercise on Sundays but Iīd mke an exception. AND NOW I have time to get it in today! I am beginning to feel a little better about missing out on this meeting. It is not the end of the world!
The good news about these past two weeks is that Iīve done all my planned at-home exercises 6 sessions of cardio (including kettlebell training, elliptical, rebounder, boxing, and some walking) and 6 sessions of Strength Exercises. Sundays I take it easy, trying to catch up with other things. I have read more than an hour every day - a book, Bible, and some online research. I have tried to watch an occasional DVD too. This week I also hunted up some more strength exercises and cardio routines. Itīs nice to have those on hand for trips. I try to stay on track whenever we travel.
This past week, I did some major correspondence, updated a website, and wrote an essay about the ants of Brazil! That was fun and I am glad to have it finished. Phew! Iīm trying to get to the bottom of the two stacks of papers on my desk - a study, The Spark, a form thatīs almost complete, photos that need to be scanned (I got the scanner working again!), the manual for my cell phone (itīs a hand-me-down phone Iīve been using for months and just recīd the manual!), and a few old lists.
Our sweet daughter is now engaged and weīre excited about their plans-being-made. I do not like being so far away from our kids and not getting upclose better acquainted with the groom or our sonīs wife. How grateful I am for the internet connections itīs just not enough! Iīm beginning to seriously think about the two quilts that are cut out that I want to make for them. This might be the year for that.
Iīve added a few more kettlebell exercises this week. I measured both Saturdays. As of today, no measurable weightloss. I have lost 3 whole inches on the circumference though in the places I want to lose! Thatīs a great beginning and I will keep this up. Kettlebells are too heavy for travel but when I am home they will be used 3X a week.
I keep researching to find out more about the weightloss challenge. Guess itīs just a matter of calories in and calories expended. I continue to hope that my bod will finally decide itīs okay to let it go. I still refuse to spend money for a trainer or gym. I want to be sure I will continue sticking with the program without investing any more than on home equipment. It is more convenient and constantly calls to me, Hey, beautiful, get over here and let me show you how to have fun!
It is MY Life, after all!
Delta Goodrem & Olivia Newton John- Right here with you (about not giving up or giving in)
Lyrics here -
Time of My Life-David Cook w/ lyrics
(Lyrics are dropdown below the video)
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