Thursday, December 04, 2008
Must blog tonight! I am ultra busy and a few things have been added to my list today! I have another translation project that needs to be completed in two days! Will be going to two engagements - at one I have a presentation ready. The other, I relax. I won't be on SP much for the next few days.
Tonight, I put up the Christmas tree and made a garland of buttons, as well as, a few other ornaments made from the beautiful old buttons given to me by a friend in NJ. The tree looks amazing! I'll take a photo later so you can see. Most of the ornaments will go to DD when we go over to see her on Christmas Eve. I've collected 15 ornaments for DS and DIL, ornaments that are significant to what I wish for their marriage and home. I plan to use them at a Christmas presentation next week, then I'll mail them to the kids.
How I love Christmas! It has always been my favorite holiday. I enjoy searching for just the right gift for the people on my list. I'd love to be able to give a gift to everyone I know! We've nearly completed our shopping list. In a few days, I'll wrap and tag them all and place them under our tree.
Now, in regard to the holiday food! I have gotten kinda outa control. Well, not like in past years, but the new pants have tightened up. I don't want to lose what I've gained, nor do I want to gain what I've lost! You know what I mean, don'tcha?! I've gained a new perspective on life - MY healthy life! With all the temptations of holiday foods, I've allowed myself to indulge in too many things that are not good-for-ME! If I'm not watchful, I will gain back the weight I've lost and go backwards by not listening to my good sense reprogramming!!!
So, this is what I propose to do about it:
~ I will do at least 30 minutes of exercise Monday through Friday without fail! If necessary, I will fit it in as I go about my work.
~ Throughout the day, when I know I'll be going out, I will eat small meals of wholesome, high fiber, vitamin-rich foods before I go to any engagements.
~ At events, I will allow myself small portions of everything that I want while avoiding ALL high calorie beverages.
~ I will spend more time in preparation for events so that I feel good about myself and avoid emotional eating!
~ I will think carefully before each bite of food and I will plan my eating so that I eat plenty of fruits, vegetables, and protein throughout the holidays.
~ I will try to get in a little more water than usual each day.
~ I will be prepared in advance so that I am not rushed or embarassed. Those things usually provoke emotional eating.
~ I will enjoy the people with whom I'm spending time. I will try my best to live in the moments!
~ I will grieve and remember my son, as well as, painful memories, without turning to food for comfort.
~ I will reward myself for each victory reinforcing the care that I am taking to live this healthy lifestyle choice!
~ I will smile at everyone I meet.
~ I will listen to music, watch Christmas programming and DVDs so that I relax more often.
How I love the holidays! They hold special meaning and memories of many other years of celebration. It is good for ME to focus on the spiritual aspects of my life during these times. I do not want to ever return to the emptiness I felt for so long. I cannot say that depression is no longer a part of my life. I can say, however, that it is less constant and I am less fearful than I once was. I am living up to what my name signifies - Victory! Victory is sweeter than any candy, pie, cookie, or cake! Much more fulfilling!!!
Friday, November 21, 2008
Still rushing around! With all this hustle and bustle, it's beginning to feel a lot like holidays - Thanksgiving Day's coming, Christmas is coming, hope to see the kids again, holiday decorations, etc. We've got an artificial tree downstairs and a friend has loaned me lights. I've got ideas for cheap ornaments. Have purchased a few gifts and have ideas for a few others. The house is in disarray and we'll be travelling again for a few days. I am thankful that we're not receiving many guests so I can ignore some of the cleaning. Must get to the Christmas cards and thank yous!
I have been overeating too many days and betcha the scale will show it on the first! I've been keeping my promise to stay off of it! Took the challenge to increase my BMR for a couple of weeks because of my increased activity to see if I can kick-start the weight loss again. It is a little scarey cuz I have maintained the wtloss by staying in the recommended calorie range and have increased the intake gradually. Well, it is an experiment, and if I have gained , I'll drop back down. My clothes don't feel tighter at all!
This week, I have only done one session of Strength Training. Not good for me! Next week is gonna be tough what with travel, Thanksgiving plans, houseguests, etc. But then it'll be over way-too-soon, and I'll get back into the routine. I imagine around Christmas I'll have similar challenges. This isn't the healthy way I've chosen, so I'll just keep up what I know is better and be careful with what goes in mouth, enjoy a few goodies, and go from there. Nevermore will I live the way I have in the past where I deprived myself or felt deprived and sad, watched others eat goodies, and then overate to compensate all those ugly feelings inside of me! Nevermore!!!
I wish YOU a beautiful Thanksgiving full of rich memories and memory-making!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
How I LOVE Pumpkin Pie! Actually most anything containing pumpkin is fine by me! I sometimes make those brownie mixes by adding pumpkin and bran. Better for me and, did I say, I LOVE pumpkin in ev'rything! Pumpkin Pie, Pumpkin Muffins, Pumpkin Cheesecake, Pumpkin Soup, Pumpkin Smoothie, and even just straight Pumpkin! It doesn't hafta be sweet to satisfy my NEED for it!!!
It's great fun to be in the U.S. where I can have REAL pumpkin. In Brazil, we use winter squash (which pumpkin is, BTW!), which is great but just not as good as the real thing! So, I've been buying pumpkin and have it on hand for whenever and whatever. Poor DH does NOT like pumpkin, but it doesn't bother him to see me eating it or smell it in the kitchen. Oh, and, just in case you were wondering, I use healthy ingredients when making that list of Vitamin A-rich specialties!
I'm continuing in a very busy sched and it's great! Only prob is that I get on SparkPeople so much less, and I absolutely don't like THAT at all! I've been working on getting my eating under control and not doing so hot in that regard. At least, most of the time, I am making healthy choices - like that wonderful homemade raspberry pie that Margie served us on Sunday!!! WOW! That was soooooo good! We're going back tomorrow evening for a Harvest Dinner and pies are on the dessert menu! Maybe she'll bring one of her specialties! Yes, I must choose carefully cuz pies are not low in calories, esp. the crust. I am so amazed that I can eat pie! When I began my SparkJourney, I was so accustomed to "die-eting" that I was strict with myself and didn't allow for any extras at all. Now that I'm exercising regularly, I have found that I am maintaining without gaining. Yes, I hafta be careful not to return to old patterns of constant overeating and lack of movement. So far, so good!!!
Occasionally, I still feel concerned that I might fall into the old patterns, and actually have a few times these past 2+ years. Gratefully, that is the old me. The moment the new me realizes that I'm headed in a bad direction, I get up and do something active, drink a little more water, and choose healthier food options. And that's the way it is and will be for the rest of my life! It is MY life, after all!
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
What a lovely day yesterday was - warm and sunny! We voted in the early morning , then DH dropped me off for a day of mostly sewing pillows for DD with SIL. We had a great time and chatted about a huge variety of topics. She shared leftovers for lunch, then we visited a couple of stores. A lot of people were out and about. We took a long, brisk afternoon walk with her DIL's sweet little doggie! By 5, we were back for supper and our DHs joined us for a lively dinner discussion. All in all, it was a fab day and I loved every minute! Once back home, I succombed to mindlessly snacking in front of the TV for about an hour, ingesting more calories than I should've! I was a bad girl after such a great day!!!
As I prepared for bed, I decided that I should not allow my late night snacking to squelch the happiness of a great day. Unfortunately, I woke in the night with a headache, and it's still with me this morning. I know why I have this sinus headache, and I know it will pass. I just must be mindful of my eating at all hours and stop before I do that again! It's been ages since I've eaten without thinking. I don't want to return to bad habits!!! It's amazing that after more than two years of working these things out and improving my health, I can still return to those old habits so easily!!!
Well, it was just a slip, NOT a mindset and I will get on with the business of making conscientious mindful healthy and positive choices!!!
I continue to keep track of my walking progress with walkertracker.com - Here's yesterday's entry -
Walked - 19,369 steps.
Diligently done. I walked 10,208 more steps than my score of two days ago of 9,161.
Nice work. I walked 10,502 more steps than this month's average of 8,867. Good job. I walked 10,769 more steps than my average of 8,600.
Yes! I walked 11,044 more steps than last month's average of 8,325.
Great! I walked 12,430 more steps than last week's average of 6,939.
I'm thrilled that I continue to improve in the amount of exercise of which I'm capable! Using my new Swiss Ball and exercise bands is great and I am enjoying adding some of the exercises I had set aside back into my "routine". It's not really a routine cuz I keep changing them and doing different ones each time. We only have 10 lb weights at the moment, so I've had to decrease some of my reps so I don't cause injury. Also I've been able to increase a few of my lifts to 20 lbs and that's just amazing to me!
I continue to be ultra busy and not getting consistent 8 hours' sleep. I'd like to see that change, but DH's snoring is a BIG challenge to me. Earplugs do not do the trick. As we travel, I have begun to just be grateful that I don't hafta go to an 8-hour job the next morning. Many times though, I do hafta put in some long hours of work. Gratefully, I'm at home where I am not dealing directly with people and can go at my own speed, taking lots of breaks or a much-needed nap. Going to an 8-hour shift-job would be the ultimate challenge for me and I don't think I would handle it well without consistent sleep. So, in the meantime, I am doing what I can and controlling my emotions. So glad I was introduced to breathing exercises cuz they really have made a diff. for me in that respect.
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