Monday, January 28, 2008
Saturday, I had a beautiful blog entry all set to go. When I clicked to post it, sadly, I found out that I was no longer connected and lost it! I was upset! A minute later, I realized that I had just experienced one of the stressful moments of which I spoke in my blog entry!!!
Let me begin by sharing the previous weekend’s big stressor – the passing of our Great Dane. Daughter and I had found Niki in a litter of 8 pups that were in really bad shape. They were dusted white with flea powder, a bad indication! We wanted to rescue them all, but knew we could only give proper care to just one. Daughter chose Niki and she’s been with us for the past four and a half years, a delightfully fun-loving, knock-you-off-your-feet big girl companion. She got extremely ill in May last year and the vet diagnosed her with kidney disease, giving us no hope of recovery. After much discussion with the vet and checking the options on the market here, we changed her diet from dry food to mostly vegetables and brown rice. The food fell on me and at first it was not difficult, but I began to wonder if it was making any difference at all in her health. She did not get better and lost so much weight that she was skin-and-bones. After her burial, I realized that over the 8 months since her diagnosis, she did not seem to suffer any pain – she only complained BEFORE we changed her food and began a med. to increase her thirst so she would drink more water. That realization gave me comfort because it was finally obvious to me that I had made a difference in the quality of her brief life. And, I did not have that uncontrollable urge to eat that has so often come to me in the past!
I simply breathed deeply, cried a bucketful of tears, rested, ate good-for-me food, exercised, cried some more, and went about my responsibilities. No hitches. No glitches. Before SparkPeople (I joined in March 2006) and for most of 2007, when stressors came into my life, I usually responded by overeating, and then regretted that I could not control the urge for simple carbohydrates.
Many stressors have come and gone in recent months. Some intense, others just annoying. And each time, I am surprised and pleased that I am no longer responding by eating! Now, mind you, I lived most of my adult life responding to stress of any kind by eating, so I am afraid to imply that I won’t do THAT again! I’ll let you know down-the-road-a-bit-more in my SparkJourney.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
I have been feeling great! Absolutely, different than my norm! What a wonder I am! I´m not sure what the diff. is. I´m as busy as ever. The past couple of days have been tough cuz I was presented with an unexpected project. Usually when this happens I am overwhelmed and I worry about how I will be able to keep up AND continue my SparkPeople priority list! This time, it´s different! I am close to completing the project - put final touches on it this morning and will print it up on Monday, prepare to mail it out on Tuesday.
This afternoon, once I finish blogging, I will bake three loaves of homemade bread (gifts) and some brownies (one is a gift, the other is w/pumpkin to freeze in individual servings for me) and I won´t even taste test them! Our niece is still here (with her two entertaining, cute, yappy poodles) until her parents return on Sunday or Monday. We´ve been laughing lots together! My two Siamese have sortof adjusted, hiding out until the poodles take a break in a closed room. Our beautiful Great Dane doggy-girl is so weak now that she´s barely eating and drinking. I´m hoping she can get through till our niece goes home so she does not hafta watch us tend to our dog´s passing and burial. I prefer a voluntary solitude for a few days to grieve. DH is searching for our next beauty pup, and although it seems so quick for this, I am ready knowing we need to get her trained to be a companion to our sweet Cocker Spaniel mix. Both dogs will alert us if trespassers enter the property - a necessity in this area.
So, back to my epiphany moment at the beginning of the week. As we walked Monday morning, for the very first time in my SparkJourney, I felt an excitement that differed from anything I have felt since I began in March 2006. Our daily walks (except most Sundays) have increased to 6.6K (4.1 miles). When I began to analyze that internal excitement and happiness, I realized how easy this has become for me! I´m doing Strength Exercises most days, too, and it is actually fun!!
WOW! Light came on in head!
THIS is a place I never reached on the numerous diet plans, self-induced deprivation, and short-lived exercise programs in my adult past! I want to hang-on to moments like this one!! I have changed and I want to keep on becoming healthier on-the-way to reaching more goals that I alone have set!!! I want others, who have been in the depressing, seemingly endless, increasingly hopeless place of short-lived, quick-fix mentality, to discover this new way of living that confirms that goals can be reached by making one healthy and positive choice at a time!!!!
I can hardly keep from Sparking everyone I meet! Sparks are flying ev´rywhere!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
I wanted to post this on Monday (1/7), my birthay. However, this week has been full of challenges and I just didn´t take the time until now.
Yep, I´m getting older. And, yep, I´m feeling younger and doing things I never imagined I´d be doing at this point in my life. Thank you, SparkPeople! Thank you, SparkFriends! Thank you, team members! Thank You, God! And, thank you, ME! It has taken all of us to keep me on this track. I still have a long way to go to reach my goals.
Thanks to Nan (SEYSARAH), I have another goal - a GIGANTIC mini-goal that will come to fruition on March 24. I will reach 750 days with SparkPeople! I have written it in my agenda for a celebration day! Wish I could get together with all of my SparkAcquaintances for a really big celebration! We´ll hafta settle for a virtual one and that´s just fine!
This morning, I went over to read SMURFETTE0725's Blog and found helpful info about figuring BMR and Calorie Deficit. I´m thinking this will help me get a better understanding and focus on what I must do to change my Body Mass Index (BMI) some more. It´s always better when I really get it and know what I´m doing! The info I find on other blogs is indeed a great SP benefit and motivational tool. Take one ev´ry day! Take more at your own risk of Sparking all-over-the-place!
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Found a site today where I could figure my BMI. Decided to figure it out from when I started on SparkPeople, too, so I could make a comparison!
When I began SP: Wt. 201.5 lbs, Ht 5'6", Waist 42 inches
Body Mass Index (BMI): 32.6 - Anything over 30 is considered obese.
Health Risk - High: Your risk of premature death and disability is greater than normal due to your weight and other factors.
Today: Wt. 172.0 lbs, Ht 5'6", Waist 35.5 inches
Body Mass Index (BMI): 27.8 - No longer obese!
Health Risk - Moderate: Your risk for serious health problems such as cardiovascular disease and diabetes.
This is wonderful news! One of these days, if I live long enough, I will move into the low risk category! 2008 could be the year! If not, then 2009 here I come!!!
Monday, December 31, 2007
My December Exercise Goals -
(1) 3000 Exercise minutes [I did 3289!!! ]
(2) Walk 4X/week 6.6K (4.1 mi) each time, plus 1-10K (6.214 mi), and 1-15K (9.32 mi) in the month [I did all but the 15K!!!]
3) Strength Exercise 3X/week [MY average was 4 1/2 times/week!!!]
I really am delighted with what I accomplished in December because I twisted my ankle and had to recuperate from that, AND, I had a horrid cold that put me in bed for three whole days!
January 2008 Exercise Goals -
(1) 2000 Exercise minutes [I know this is low compared to December. I want to begin focusing on a few time-consuming things, not exercise related, in preparation for future events.]
(2) Walk 6.6K (4.1 mi) 4X/week, plus 2-10Ks (6.214 mi), and 1-15K (9.32 mi) in the month
3) Strength Exercise 5X/week
4) Elliptical Trainer 10 min every day
2006 was my year of discovering SparkPeople and beginning to learn to give myself permission to take better care of myself.
2007 has been my year of discovery at my capacity to steadily increase my physical activity beyond what I ever imagined I could do. Never before in my life have I ever considered myself to be athletic. Although, as an adolescent and teen, I actively walked, hiked, and biked, I had no interest whatsoever in moving forward in those things. I just did them to get places!
Thanks to the teams in which I participate, I have been encouraged to regularly challenge myself to do more and to be more. My focus this past year has been to improve what I need to do to be physically, mentally, and spiritually healthier.
As a SparkPerson, I have shared little about my struggle with depression because I have accepted it as my constant companion and have not had the resources to seek consistent help or medication. I do not plan to use meds, although I believe that with appropriate therapy, they would have been helpful in past years. The reason that I am mentioning this struggle now is that I am beginning to feel hopeful that in time, I can change.
I have been sleeping more and better, though this needs to continue to improve. Other things are improving, too, like routine, fewer interruptions, and better relaxation techniques. A BIGGIE is that I am holding my ground about when and where I eat. I keep making the choices mine rather than trying so hard to accept what others think is best for me. Many years ago, I realized that others do not necessarily have my best interest-at-heart. Most of the time, I allowed them to make decisions that affected me and my work without firmly standing for what I believe. I did that because I did not want to be accused of insubordination, which happened a few times. I have come to realize that they were out-of-line to maintain this hold on me and not allow me to make my own choices. What some have called discontent and introversion was not that at all. I had no other choice but to keep trying to make my own decisions and butt up against those who were more powerful than me. My inability to understand my situation and to cope with difficult people lead me to believe that I am inferior and weak. I will ever be grateful to my continuing education and to SparkPeople for showing me that I am capable of choosing, setting, and reaching goals.
I have already sensed a return to the girl I once was years ago and a budding of anticipation for the future. 2008 will be my year of finding treasures that have been hidden deep within me for way too long!
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