Saturday, December 29, 2007
I twisted my ankle, then came down with a horrid cold. Had to cut back on exercise. Over this holiday time, Iīve struggled a bit keeping calories in limits. Yesterday, I did 5K and today I was able to do a 6.6K (4.1 mile) walk. So Iīm back on my feet and will get into my regular routine.
Christmas was nice. We had a family over and enjoyed the sounds of children in our home again. I miss my kids terribly and Iīm so glad they are doing well.
SparkPeople friends are such a boost. Iīm amazed that Iīve been able to keep my focus on exercise and make healthy food choices. Being a SparkPerson since March 2006, I plan to just keep right on with it. 2008 will find me in better shape than I have ever been!
Well, I posted this previously and today inadvertantly removed it and Barbīs delightful comment! Iīm sorry, SparkFriend! I see that we can edit right here on the blog now instead of going over to the planner page. I shoulda paid closer attention!
Sunday, December 09, 2007
(I posted this on 12/6, donīt know what happened to it, so here it is again!)
Iīm not going to lie about this! I used to have Secret Cookie Parties for One whenever my emotions went awry! It was like, well, "they" can take away my fun, "they" can make my life miserable and difficult, but this one thing I will give NOONE - MY cookies!!!
I live far, very far, extremely far away from my family - on another continent, AND I miss them, especially at holiday times! Itīs been hard for me to feel Christmasey without the things that were so familiar when I was young. Yet, Iīve tried hard to make our own family traditions. THAT in itself has made it tons better! I loved doing special things with and for our kids.
Now DH was a pooh-pooer at Christmastime (and Easter!) for many years - too many years. It was a BIG relief to me the day he decided to look at things differently and actually enjoy holidays instead of being so cantankerously scrooge-like about it! He doesnīt actually "get-in-the-spirit", but he doesnīt get-in-the-way and make himself annoying any more. Phew! Super relief!
My greatest emotional upheaval came when our son (at age 15) was in an accident and taken from our family in death on Dec. 16, 1999. From that time on, every holiday is different than before. It took many Christmases to find new traditions and get to whatīs important to me. I do know whatīs important to me - itīs my kids, my home, my faith, my pets, my friends, my hopes, my connections with nature, the expressions of my spirituality, and NOW, my SparkJourney!
Friday, November 30, 2007
Our internet connection has been like between 28.8 and 56.6 KBps during business hours (when I prefer getting online!) for this entire week. It had been up and down before and now weīre having trouble with our server as well. DH did some other business with this guy and he owes us money - a lot of money! BAD idea - not up to me! Even signed promissory notes did not function - the guyīs gone bankrupt. Wonder if weīll ever see that money again. Honestly, they did some previous business and the guy was on time, no prob, until this last deal. Sure, he stopped charging us for our connection, BUT......
DH had another stern chat with him, and NOW our connection is super, ultra, sloooooooooooow!!! Weīre talkinī ībout changing. That is such a challenge in a the third world, people!!! You donīt know till youīre in it for awhile. And we have been here 30 years! Itīs not cuz weīre foreigners - in actuality, DH is more national than foreign cuz he grew up here. Twice, a national (friend-of-a-friend) went to study in the U.S. , returned here, couldnīt handle it, asked for advice - I said, "Give it at least two years, honey!" Within a month, guess what?! They moved back to the good ole U-S-A!
So, Iīm frustrated about this bad connection. I COULD stay up till all hours and get basically no sleep in order to at least do the minimum of internet stuff, couldnīt I?! Kinda is contrary to my goals. Iīve been working on getting more and better sleep. The better IS coming along, but the "more"! Well, not much progress there yet.
DH traveled and night before last, the dogs woke me at 3 a.m. I looked out and they were running back and forth in front of DHīs workshop (separate from the house and close to the carport. They were looking up at the house next door where the guy built his house right smack up to our wall. We have walls to keep out strays, free range farm animals, and, esp. thieves and rapists. Yes, thatīs right! Can you believe it?! We were "aware" of this, but didnīt realize how close we are to injury. From our roof one morning last month, as we were having breakfast and chatting, I saw a naked man reluctantly coming out of the brush onto the road behind our house. Thankfully, itīs far enough to not see details, but then, I also couldnīt see enough to identify him either. Two women were passing him and did not see him.
My first thought was that someone had robbed him of everything including clothes. But as we observed him, he noticed us and returned to the woods. After a moment, he put on dark shorts, then white t-shirt. Another couple minutes and he was riding out of the woods on a bike! Now what would you do? Itīd take us ten minutes to get down the three stories, out the front gate and around back to chase after him. He was already near the houses and would soon be lost in the crowds. Call the police! Hah! Theyīd come IF they had nothing else pressing. And, besides that, he hadnīt hurt anyone - so we knew the police would do nothing at this point. Later in the day, DH hung his arms up at the top of the stairs, so he can shoot in the direction of the guy. His rifle is a pellet gun cuz itīs illegal for anyone īcept military (police here are military) and certain guards to own and carry guns. In the general population, basically, just the bad guys have them !
So, I share that to get back to this. When the dogs woke me, I went into the bathroom and heard what sounded like a large animal falling into the bushes in our backyard. I went downstairs and looked out every window, seeing nothing. The dogs were still running back and forth, plus stopping momentarily at the gate between front and backyards. I heard nothing more than the dogs. I felt no fear at all. What I assumed it to be was a large possum cuz theyīve been after our chickens and the dogs have killed two recently. I couldnīt find the flashlight and did have the thought that it might not be safe to go out there. I was imagining giant possums falling on me fromt he tree tops!
The dogs continued their vigilance so I finally ventured out to calm them down, looked around the front and back yards and saw nothing. The dogs settled down so I went to bed. The next day, my helpers came and together we discovered signs of malicious entry - in the backyard, a barrel turned over for jumping over the wall, plants broken where someone climbed over the other side (thatīs what I had heard!); in the front, in the carport, handprints on the bed of our sonīs pickup, and........my bike is gone! It is evident that at least two were involved - while one stole my bike, the newer of three, another diverted the dogs by going to the backyard (closed in to keep the dogs from the chickens). Itīs obvious to me that whoever did this, knew something about our yard.
Well, the fear that I did not feel the night before, took hold of me yesterday with all the what-ifs! DH phoned a policeman friend who attends our church. He came with three others all decked out in their black bulletproof uniforms - like a SWAT team! So, I thought that, if the thieves noticed, theyīd be good and intimidated. Our gardener and this policemen friend slept in DHīs shop overnight. I slept well, just not enough (my usual lately). And DH decided to cut his trip short and will arrive home about noon. Iīm glad. For some reason, I had felt uneasy about him making this trip at all. Usually do. Wonder what those guys woulda done had noone been here at all!
And now, we know how vulnerable our home is. I hope DH is up to securing the yard better. Hasnīt ever set well with him when Iīve suggested doing more and being more careful.
Now, since this morningīs connection (before 8! gotta be quick) is still good, Iīm gonna take care of my GBFU challenge in regard to Thanksgiving. I was so glad that I was prepared for the day and had thought-it-out-well beforehand. I did not overeat and am still amazed at that. This is the first time I can ever remember not overdoing on holiday!! I also got in ALL of my planned exercises (cardio AND strength training). The only thing that was tough was, just like Iīve read of others, the leftovers!!!!
Tada!! There they were staring me down every time I opened the fridge door! I portioned out all of it for each meal so my plate was just right. However, I was having trouble with the internet connection, so couldnīt get on SparkPeople to count the calories, and ended up going way over, not once, but twice!!!
Oh, the horror of it all!! Really, it wasnīt unlike one of those chintzy, black-and-white horror films that I so enjoy. I had worked hard and did well. Until, in an instant, the toasty-brown blob of stuffing jumped out of the fridge, onto my plate and right into my mouth! Really, it was just like that!
Phew!! The terrifying leftovers are finally gone and I am okay! Iīm glad itīs finally over and I made it through, somewhat unscathed!! Now, Iīm trying not to hold my breath at the thought of gigantic Gingerbread Boy Gangstas lining up just outside my kitchen door!!!!! Whatīre their names? Lemmy Atter, Sugardrop Daddy, and Scar-Face Gingie!
You better whatchout!!!
Saturday, November 17, 2007
After reading the SparkArticle in regard to holidays, I am determined to use the following in order to remained focused on my SparkJourney Goals:
1. Take a long, early morning walk. I refuse to set aside my exercise! No-guilt vegetation only AFTER my cardio is done!
2. Plan ahead, including my snacks AND supper. THAT means knowing the menu in advance.
3. Drink more than enough water. Itīs harder to overeat if my tumīs already sloshinī the water!
4. Knead the dough BY HAND for our whole grain dinner rolls. Great for the biceps and triceps!
5. Play with the kids who are visiting. Even board games burn calories, especially if I include lots of laughter and getting up for drinks of water!
6. Stand while I socialize. Standing burns more calories than sitting!
7. Freeze ALL of the leftovers in serving sizes OR send them home with someone else!
8. Be honest and accountable to my teams AND my Nutrition Tracker. No matter what!!
Oh, I do remember lots of holidays past when I was completely out-of-control!!! Sure, the desserts and snacks were fab!! Sure, those who made the food, usually including ME, felt fulfilled that everyone ate so much. It was obvious proof that we love them and they love us/ME!!!
But, really now!! After stuffing a bird and stuffing our faces, whatīs so pretty about all the groaning, moaning, unzipped, unbelted, over-stuffed bodies laying around the house anyway?!! Itīs much too difficult to jump up and cheer when your team makes a touchdown! If youīre the visitor, itīs terribly embarassing when you try to tie your shoes so you can go home! And, OH! the pain in getting up out of that laid-back couch position you were in while the food settled to your bottom!
The ghosts of holidays-past came aīhaunting every holiday season. First, they whispered that just one day or two of gluttony and vegetating out of a whole year of behaving-yerself wouldnīt make a bita difference atall; absolutely none! Following that advice, usually meant throwing my brains out the window and indulging from Thankgiving Day through to the first day of implementing my New Yearīs resolutions, baby! By the time the ghosts returned the next Fall, I was weighing just a little-bit more. All those little bits evīry single year had a huge part in my ex-obesity, and hey, girl! Iīm NOT going back there!
Are ya with me?!
Let me hear ya!
As unloving as it may seem, I WILL lose the whispers of the ghosts of holidays-past! Itīs no longer a want-to-do-it, but a I WILL DO IT!!
For me at least, those days are gone for good! Hallelujah!!!
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