That means its too hot to do anything. thats a great way to start off my week of trying to get outa a plateau. my eating is still outa whack also. why can i eat my vegies like im supposed too? i ate too much cheese cake and i ate some chips and 2 burritos. i know i need to make it a life style change. i just need to cut out the snacks and sugar. but it seems like when i do i get the shakes. i want to start drinking smoothies maybe thatll help me (and throw in veggies where i cant taste them). how can i tell well berries are good. its like the berries i got looked good but were sour. im still not feeling all that great. it might be the heat. im not sure. i dont like bugging the dr. i need advice please . this Friday Les and i are are planning on going fishing and watching the last "Harry Potter" or "Harry Powter" as my 9 year old sister says lol. id like to go camping so we can have "alone time" but we might have to wait a bit more. my ear is still hurting just to update ya'll
Les and I went to pick up my sister 2hours away. Half way there i started feeling horribly sick. i dont know if it was the energy drink i had or the heat or both mixed. i felt faint and nauseated, and i still feel like that. when i got to my sisters house i had to regain my strength, because i dont think i was going to make it. i broke into a cold sweat i thought i was going to blow chunks. i still have a horrible earache the drops havent healed it yet. iv been taking 3 pain relievers every 3-4 hours it feels like. thats how bad it hurts. it makes me seem like a pill popper but it really hurts. im a week and 4 days late for my period. it makes me wonder... am i pregnant or is my body starting to play tricks on me again. im not even having symptoms of my period coming yet. early today my mum, sister, grandma, and i went yard sale shopping. surprisingly i found size 24 pants $1 each. and guess what?... THEY ARE ALMOST TOO BIG ON ME its the first time in a long time that i found pants that i dont have to squish my stomach to zip them up. i feel accomplish now its time to make them hang around my ankles i havent worked out like i planned. i know its not an excuse really but my ear is bothering me so bad. i havent been eatting that good either. Les, Zoe, and I went to eat some chinese (all you can eat buffet). i tried to eat as much as i can so les didnt feel like hes paid so much for nothing bu i only ate 2 plates and of small portions. i couldnt eat that much like i used to. i think my stomach has shrunk. oh and i put salad on my first plate w/ other stuff. i notoce everytime we eat there it is mostly meat so i tried to switch it up. i know i know iv still got some improvements to make. im workin on it... well enought of my complaining im heading to bed im pooped
iv got a horrible earache. i cant hear and its going into my jaw . iv got a drs app today. i didnt workout yesterday so iv gotta do it today. i had no excuse not to i was just being lazy. i might night lose a lb this week but im happy at 258 right now. theres always next week to try harder. i didnt eat so well this week either. i need to finish up my fruits and veggies before they rot. i found out some exciting news..... are you ready for it.... PATRICK STUMP IS GOING TO BE IN ST. LOUIS!!!! yes my crush/idol is going to be close and i have got to see him!!! and for a coinkidink Les and i were talking about him yesterday lol. he might call off work for it since its on a thursday and its our 6monthaversery:) u sure hope i can go.
My mum called the horse back riding place today nad they said the weight limit is 285!!! I GET TO RIDE!!! So now Les and i can enjoy it together . At the moment im doing laundry. Later ill be doing my dvd. i dont know if im going to swim or walk today. im pretty sore from yesterday. But tomorrow ill do 2 things. My sister is hilarious when shes not on her medicine. she constantly sings random things and says random things. We were watching "Who Framed Rodger Rabbit" and Les said "this was out when i was little" Zoe: "did you have Hondas then?". we laughed hard. Then earlier in the pool she said "Tawny you look like a barbie" lol it was funny. i guess i can take that as a compliment. i love her to death. my other sister is still 2hrs away with my older sister. she doesnt want to come home lol.
the town i live in is filled with hypocrites. how can someone say they are a christian and go to church, then come home spoke pot then go to the bar and gossip? this is why i dont believe in "God" sorry to my sparkfriends that do believe. but most of the people that do put me down cuz i dont believe. it doesnt mean im a bad person. they even try to force it on me. i cant stand it.
One of my lil twin sisters are going to church camp for a week the 25th of this month. My Mum was planning on going horseback riding. I looked on the site for it... it says there is a 250lb weight limit . id really like to enjoy it with my family. my mum says that horses can hold alot more then that. What if they ask my weight? What if they weigh me? What should i do? i hate being the biggest person in my family. les is only 2lbs away from 250. so everyone else can ride but not me and he dont want to if i cant. id really like to go camping but we all told her she can go horse back riding. if only i can lose 10lbs by that time. that would mean constantly working out and no eating. well i swam for to hours today and i did biggest loser last chance workout. man i was sweating after that its been awhile since iv done that. i need to change the way i eat but fruits and veggies dont fill or satisfy me.