Thursday, August 28, 2014
Well it's just over a year since I last wrote anything, not surprising really as nothing changed after that, well not until recently! My son is getting married in just under a year and I know I can't go and be in photos the way I am, it would be just too disgusting for words. I get that that is my thinking and not necessarily what others would say about me but as I'm always telling people it's not about what anyone says it's about what the individual person believes. So it's now my time to do something about the extra weight that I carry around and that's the mental as well as the physical weight. I started seriously a few weeks back cutting out the chocolate, cakes and crisps and whilst I didn't do soda I have increased my water intake too. Exercise is not so easy for me, like many others I have health issues which whilst not life threatening are still worrying and it's the primeval part of our brain that plays a big part in that worry, not something that is easily controlled. I also can't afford to go to the gym not just financially but as I work full time and have two dogs that get left in the day I don't really want to be leaving them again in the evening. So on the 30 July this year I weighed myself 224lbs and here I am 4 wks later and I have lost 10lb which for me is a great achievement. I'm not going to deny I am a little obsessed about everything I eat and hopefully will become obsessed about exercise too, lol. This will become a way of life, I will lose the weight so that my family can be proud of me and so that I am happy being photographed at the wedding.
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
After 41 yrs of numerous ecgs, echos, doctors, hospitals, blood tests, xrays and finally an mri the specialist has finally told me what is wrong with my heart. There is a flap of skin over the aortic valve which is affecting the flow of blood, making a very original sucky noise! One that many medical staff have been called in to listen to as it is so rare. This apparently means that my heart is having to work harder and finally this needs to be treated. I've been put on a mild dose of beta blockers for 6 months to see if my symptoms improve. They are only 1.25mgs once a day and I have only taken three but I feel so ill since taking them, much worse than before, do I really need them I ask myself!
Whinge whinge, moan moan! lol
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Hi Guys n Gals,
I don't know if anyone can help me but I recently had an email with a muffin recipe on it that included, amongst the ingredients, zucchini and carrot. I was quite intrigued with the idfea of baking them and finally on the way home today I stopped and bought the zucchini and carrot, knowing I had the other ingredients in the cupboard, however now I can't find the email nor the recipe. They also had icing of some kind on the top. If anyone can help with this I'd be very greatful.
Saturday, May 28, 2011
At the age of five I was diagnosed with an aortic stenosis, a narrowing of the aortic artery. I attended hospital on a regular basis for different tests and as it was always dealt with in such a matter of fact manner it has never worried me. Growing up with it was no different to having a knee or an elbow. It didn't affect my life at all.
Although I started my Spark journey some time ago it wasn't until fairly recently that it finally dawned on me that I needed too make a real commitment to myself in order to achieve my goals, one of which was fitness. This past winter has been long and dark, with a new boss at work, lots to do I found that even getting out for a walk became almost impossible. I was often out of the house for twelve hour days and found myself coming home, eating and going to bed. Consequently it wasn't until the lighter days and evenings arrived that I finally managed to get into more of a routine of walking with my dogs.
I started fairly sensibly walking at a steady rate for an hour covering approximately three miles. It wasn't long before I began to feel some chest pains, nothing too serious and nor did it stop me walking but I soon realised that it started at about three quarters of a mile and lasted for anything from a few minutes to about fifteen minutes. I kept ignoring it especially as I couldn't decide if it was real or if I was imagining it (yes my mind does work in mysterious ways, lol) and then I went to the surgery nurse for an injection and my blood pressure was high, definitely not normal for me. She asked how I had been and I told her about the pains I had been getting, she then suggested she carry out an ECG and for me to see my doctor. As a consequence of this I had to see my specialist this week on thursday and that is what leads me to my dilemma.
He is not worried but has ordered a blood test, an echogram and a CT scan, which makes me think he is concerned. He says there is a possibility that I have furring of the arteries but he's not worried. I am not allowed to go the gym nor exert myself...............but he's not worried! I have had my blood test and this morning the appointment arrived for my echogram but he's not worried. I've never had an appointment come through that quickly.
So I am worried, there are heart problems within the family, angina, high blood pressure, heart attacks and I have a cousin who had a quadruple bypass at fortyish. I've been eating the most horrendous crap which isn't going to help the situation at all and isn't making me feel any better either but I can't seem to help myself. I'm trying not to cry at the drop of a hat but it's not easy.
The voice inside my head is having an argument as to whether or not I should be scared and neither side is winning. Normally I'd get my boots on and go for a long walk to clear my head but now I'm scared even to do that! To top it all off it's half term at school this week and I have the week off........plenty of time to sit and think............to be or not to be...........that certainly is the question.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
It's been a difficult few days and at the moment there is no end in sight. My youngest dog Keeva, 15 mths, has had severe gastroenteritis since early wednesday morning. She's been at the vets on a drip for two days except for the nights when she has come home to be watched carefully for any signs of her condition worsening. Neither my son nor I have had much sleep and even our days have been taken up with the worry and trying to keep each others spirits high. She seemed much better this morning but now this afternoon she is looking awful again and appears to have no energy so it's back to the vets again. My other dog, Indy, can't fathom out what is going on at all, he's very concerned for Keeva and is being very good considering how much he is being ignored.
Healthy eating and exercise have completely gone out of the window, in fact I have found myself eating just to stop myself thinking about what may happen.
I know not everyone will understand the depth of my worry and for those who think there are more important things to worry about, you're probably right, but she is as much a part of my family as my children and I can't help myself. Anyway it's off to the vets for us to see if there is any more we can do. Hope everyone's day is going better than mine.
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