Wednesday, April 18, 2012
who knew they did zumba? my daughter and I danced our butts off tonight and loved it...again I am pleasantly surprised
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Yesterday was so stressful at work that I snapped a bit at my boss and I had a constant feeling of being overwhelmed. I decided that I was going to skip my workout and just stay home. I'm glad I did!
My schedule lately has been such that, I wake up, check email do SP & fb, get ready, go to work about 7, work through lunch, get off about 515, come home, clean a little, pick up my daughter, go to gym, come home, eat, put her to bed (at this point it's usually 9 - 930), then try to relax with hubby, go to bed at 10. I spend maybe an hour or two with my family. While I miss them all the time, I do it because the gym is important for me to be healthy.
Yesterday was one of those days where I just wanted to be with my family. So I did. I didn't even feel guilty, quite frankly all the hugs and kisses I got wouldn't let me feel guilty. And it did a lot to stabilize my mood. I decided that I'm skipping tonight too, I just need to recharge my batteries a bit. I'm getting pulled in so many directions that some time just being focused on them and me is what is needed now.
I'll get back to the gym on Thursday and Saturday is the yoga class with the family. So I'm not off track. And every once in a while it's good to look your priorities in the eye and receive love.
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
so I keep catching myself saying "oh I can eat that my contest doesn't start for a week" but it occured to me that, no that is not the way to think.
Yes! I want to win this biggest loser! Yes! I want to go to the Dominican Republic and lie on a beach drinking fruity drinks with umbrellas but my main goal has never changed. I want to be healthy and change my life.
It's so easy to get in the mindset of sabotage then try to justify it. And justification comes very easily if you want to believe it. Well I'm calling BS on it! Binging now will NOT help me. I'm doing what will succeed and I'm doing it right. So screw you little sabotage voice! I ain't done yet!
Monday, April 16, 2012
The weekend was amazing fun! Saturday the kids went to a bday party and had a BLAST! Driving 140 miles round trip wasn't a huge amount of fun on mommy's back, but it was worth it to see our kids playing and catch up with our friends. I miss them!
Sunday we had a wonderful 2 mile hike around Green River, little one was so curious about all the plants growing around the river and "why is the river green mommy" was a favorite question.
Food wise I didn't do so hot, Saturday before we left I barely had anything to eat. Then no snacks along the way so by the time we got to the party I was starving. And it was at one of my favorite pizza places so I had a lot of pizza.
Hubby and I talked about it over the weekend, we decided we would pitch the idea of having my step son stay with us for a year so she could take the time to find a job, new place and generally get her life together. When my hubby approached her with the idea she got all defensive. I understand to a point, but on the other hand I don't think she is thinking about what is best for him. I don't think it clicks in her mind that his anxiety issues (he's 8, sleep walks, wets the bed, bites his nails, etc) are a direct result of his environment.
My hubby is so frustrated right now because he feels like he cannot talk to her about anything having to do with their son without her blowing up. I'm pissed because she is so concerned about what she wants and what she thinks that her son appears to be only periphial. I'm hoping though that once he stays with us during the summer 1 of 2 things happen.
1) she gets a job and gets out of the environment she is in, and gets SS into some counseling
2) realizes that the boy needs some stability and she cannot offer that in the situation she is in and gives us more time
I do get it on one level. She does love her son, and she feels like everyone is trying to tell her what to do with him. On the other, she's 29 years old...the age of "you can't tell me what to do" is over. It's time for her to grow up and think about what is right for her son, not just what she wants.
Friday, April 13, 2012
I am so happy it's almost here. Just get through another day at work and then shopping tonight. We get my step son tonight, which I admit has me excited and nervous. With everything he's been through this last week I worry about him acting out a bit more than usual for 7 yr old. But we're prepared for it. His mom is not talking to us for some reason so my hubby is going to make sure she is ok when he picks up the boy tonight.
We have a busy weekend in store, tomorrow is a bday party. Unfortunately it's 60 miles away but it's for the entire family's best friends' so there's no way we're missing it (our best friend's 2 daughters were born 4 years and 4 days apart so they combine the bday). Then Sunday we're hiking around Green River and having a picnic...if it's nice that is.
I'm super tired today because once again my body temp wouldn't regulate. Does anyone else have this problem? I'm hot, I'm cold, I'm hot, I'm cold. JUST MAKE UP YOUR FREAKING MIND ALREADY!
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