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Stressmonster

Thursday, July 21, 2011

The stressmonster is on the prowl again.

Many times over the last 4 months - while weight loss has been relatively pain-free and gym habits easy to maintain - I have wondered how in the WORLD I got where I was at my starting point. If it is THIS easy to lose weight and THIS easy to go to the gym regularly, why did I spent the last 10 years of my life 25-35 pounds overweight with just a few short spells even approaching a normal weight? Why, why, why? On a basic level I understood that it was because I had been so busy taking care of the people I love that I hadn't made time to take care of myself. That says a lot about where I put myself on my own priority list over the years. Not much sense of self worth for me over the years. BUT, but, but.... I've been changing that, I really have. I understand that I need to - have every right to - and have a family that supports my efforts to take care of myself. I have thrived and, amazingly enough, so have all those people that I put so much higher on the priority list over the years.

And yet this week, the stressmonster is lurking around my house. Prowling the yard. Peering in the windows. 'I'm coming for you on Friday. I'm going to BRING YOU DOWN. There's nothing you can do about it.' Lumber, glare, prowl. And I remember that some of what has gone on in the last 10 years is way bigger than not loving myself enough. Way bigger than the normal stresses any woman or mother faces. Big and isolating and scary and rare. My daughter was born with a large number of complex congenital anomalies and I have not coped well with the roller coaster ride that we've been taken on trying to meet her needs - medical, emotional, and educational - in the last 10 (almost 11) years. Friday we have the big annual confab where we sit in a room in front of over a dozen doctors and get told what's next. And we don't really have much say in what that will be. And we sure can't pick when it will happen. And we most definitely can not, not ever, not ever ever, expect that things will go as we expect them to.

That's the stressmonster. And as much as intellectually I know that I'm in better shape physically and emotionally than I've been in well over a decade, I just can't help being scared.

Update 7/22: The stressmonster has been sent packing. Barring unexpected complications, no action need be taken until we return for a follow-up in one year. Woo! My healthy lifestyle will be that much more cemented in a year! On the way out one of my daughter's surgeons said to me that the whole family looked really good. He's observant. I'm sure that's his way of acknowledging that we are all much healthier and less stressed looking than we've been the last few stressful years. :-)

  
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5KIDS4MEJESS 7/30/2011 12:35PM

    Yay!! Another healthy year!! I'm so happy for you! You've done so well and are such an inspiration!! emoticon

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Protein 'soft serve' and other cold protein shakes

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

At the urging of several of my online 'cheerleaders', I picked up some whey powder (EAS vanilla at BJs for the curious) and have been making various shakes since the weekend. They are SO much better than the shakes I've endured in the past trying to lose weight (slimfast and then some horrid low-carb stuff that I threw out). Maybe the difference is that this is not a meal replacement full of vitamins and other stuff, just a protein supplement. No icky taste and a fairly decent texture.

Mixed berry shake:
This came out nice and thick... almost like soft serve... and I'm eating it with a spoon:
2 cups frozen mixed berries (no sugar added)
2 scoops of vanilla whey powder
1 cup of cold water
Zipped it up in the ninja and split it with my daughter

Peanut butter cup. This one is much thinner, between milk and a shake:
2 scoops of vanilla whey powder
1 cup of cold water
1 cup of crushed ice
2 Tbsp peanut butter
2 tsp cocoa powder
Again, zipped up in the ninja and split with my daughter

Banana-blueberry: This one is a tad thicker but still not quite like a fast food shake:
2 scoops vanilla whey powder
1 cup cold water
1/2 frozen banana (in chunks)
1 cup frozen blueberries (no sugar)
Again, zipped up in the ninja and split in 2

I'll edit this post as I try other things. I've got peaches and raspberries in the freezer and would love to come up with a coconut orange variation.

Such a refreshing treat in this heat!

  


Tuna on white with lettuce or this.....

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

There is this perception that healthy food is boring. I think my lunch is a whole lot less boring than a tuna sandwich with lettuce on white bread and a whole lot healthier!

I am having -
Kale chips fresh from the oven & Thin sliced raw kohlrabi topped with tuna mixed with light balsamic dressing

I get to eat the whole can of tuna, a whole cup of sliced kohlrabi, and a big cereal bowl full of kale chips.... all for 300 calories.

Yum!

  
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CONFIDENTLY_FIT 7/20/2011 5:02AM

    :) Sounds delish!

By the way any advice you can send my way about staying within calories while doing all this heavy lifting would greatly be appreciated:) I am just so hungry all the time.
Thanks in advance!

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TANYAP71 7/19/2011 3:17PM

    Kale chips are awesome! I use curly kale, spray oil, and sea salt.

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RISSISBORED 7/19/2011 1:39PM

    Man, it makes my light tuna salad sandwich on a whole wheat wrap sound indulgent! I'll have to give kale chips a try, heard a lot of good buzz on them.

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Yummy cottage cheese veggie dip

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Out of lettuce, I needed to jazz up a bunch of raw veggies for dinner so I zipped up this dip in my ninja blender:

1 cup 1% fat cottage cheese
2 Tbsp crumbled blue cheese
4 cloves garlic - less if you are not a garlic lover!
1/4 tsp ground black pepper
A small handful of fresh minced chives (probably about 2 Tbsp)

So yummy!

Eating it with grape tomatoes, cucumber, baby carrots, and zucchini rounds. Chowing with hubby.

  
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RISSISBORED 7/18/2011 8:48PM

    looks satisfying!

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GARDENQE2 7/16/2011 7:24PM

    Sounds delicious! emoticon

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CJYOUCANDOIT 7/16/2011 6:05PM

    Sounds great! Thanks for sharing. It will be refreshing in this horrible heat.
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PEARL8264 7/16/2011 6:02PM

    will try it

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41 weeks to put it on. 44 weeks to take it off.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

You know how 'they' always tell us that we didn't put all this weight on overnight, so we can't expect to take it off overnight? Yes, well, fine. I get that. But today I was struck by this irony. I started this journey when I weighed what I weighed when I went into deliver my daughter (who was 10). I hit my goal 44 weeks later. I gained the weight over 41 weeks and lost it over 44 weeks. (And kept it on yo-yoing year after year for 10 years in between.)

Maybe I'm just weird but it makes me chuckle to think that I gained it in 10 months and lost it in 10 months. If I keep turning the clock back I should manage to get 25 more pounds off in 10 years or so ;-)

  
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TANYAP71 7/14/2011 5:44PM

    The only depressing part is that I yo-yo'd for so long. I really MUST not ever start thinking of the last 10 months as a 'diet' because I think that is when things fall apart. This is just how I eat and how active I am, period.

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REBECCAMA 7/14/2011 3:39PM

  UGH! Depressing though, isn't it? Good for you for doing the math.

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SKYFROG 7/14/2011 3:25PM

    I just love it when the math makes us laugh at ourselves! Good for you - taking it all and keeping it off! emoticon

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BLACKROSE_222 7/14/2011 3:22PM

    LOL - that is a pretty funny little calculation! Thanks for sharing, Mrs. Exception to the rule. emoticon

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