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Running and CGG111's blog challenge Q4

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Running update:
Running for 2012:
145.75 + 5.25 = 151.0 miles
no race booked... thinking about an 8K on Thanksgiving

4. Describe your dream job.

Honestly, I do not know. I love biology. Always have, always will. I am a biologist. I, however, did not find a way to combine being the kind of biologist I wanted to be with the kind of wife and mother I wanted to be. Even now, I look at the hours and dedication it would take and know that I would hate being torn between work and home when I am passionate about both. So I've thought a lot about how to make my love of biology fit in my life and still.... nothing. Right now I am pursuing a Fitness Nutrition Specialist certification. *If* I could find a trainer who would partner with me to do nutrition consults and guidance part time, I think I would be happy while to work part time until the kids are grown and out of the house. I would be using my love of biology in combination with my love of food and my love of eating for wellness. :-) I haven't figured out how to get from here to there.... but I'm taking baby steps... taking the FNS course, serving on the local wellness committee.... thinking.

If I could magically balance it all and figure out how to get from point A to point B to point C, I would love to go back to school to get a nutrition and wellness degree and then work for a company that brings wellness programs to schools, municipalities, and businesses. I would love to sit down with people and come up with meal plans and fitness plans that fit their lives and their desired rate of 'evolution and then cheerlead them along the path to wellness.

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MOONSTORMER 10/17/2012 5:23AM

    don't let anything hold you back! i had a business idea and didn't think i had the skills/qualifications/clout to make it happen. but it has really started. i'm sure you will find the balance and make it all work for yourself!

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JJAQUES41 10/16/2012 8:22PM

    Sounds like a great plan! As you take the first steps to achieve your goals you'll be amazed how many other paths and opportunities open to help you gain momentum.

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CONFIDENTLY_FIT 10/16/2012 8:18PM

    Too bad we are not closer! I think we would make a great team:)

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Race, Off the Wagon, and CGG111's Blog Challenge Q3

Monday, October 15, 2012

I ran my third 5K race Saturday. It was REALLY cold - in the 30s. They called us to the start line only to then call a delay for 10 minutes.... only to have it turn into at least a 20' delay. Needless to say most of us started the race cold! Cold air triggers my asthma.... this is what killed my first attempt at being a running oh-so-many New Year's resolutions ago.... so I carried an inhaler and didn't push myself. I ran the whole way. Didn't need the inhaler. Felt pretty good - the best I've felt of the 3 races. However, I did finish 9 seconds behind my last 5K. Given this race was chipped and that one was not and that this race felt so much easier (flatter), I was a tad bummed by that. BUT I finished 10/50 in my age bracket AND I *ran* in the *cold*. I'm psyched about those things.

I spent Friday evening and Saturday all day totally 'off the wagon' foodwise. Pizza, champagne, cake, beer, nachos, chili, rolls, more beer, chocolate fondue with cake and fruit. And I paid the price! I was almost out of maintenance range yesterday and I felt like CRAP. I'm more than a little freaked by just how horrible I feel after I've had a big sugar meal (we did fondue and fruit/cake in place of Saturday's dinner after going out for lunch earlier in the day). I feel really, really out of it mentally and physically sluggish. Maybe it's just because I do it SO rarely that my body freaks out? But I'm at high risk of type II diabetes so I think I need to talk to the doctor in depth about it, even if just to put my mind at ease because freaking out over feeling that way makes it even worse.

So.... yesterday right back on the 'clean' wagon. 1 1/2 pounds gone by this AM. Right back at the normal routine this morning and I've been peeing like crazy so I have my hopes up that the major damage from my bad meals was just water weight. I'm 6 days 'til my one year maintenance anniversary. I can't screw it up now!

Blog challenge Q3. What is your favorite magazine and why?

That's a tough one! I get a pile of magazines but they are mostly fluff that I read while waiting for the kids various places. The two I save are Clean Eating and Eating Well. I think right now Eating Well is my favorite of the two. I flip flop back and forth between the two. Both have lots of good recipes. Eating Well tends to be more 'mainstream'. There website is actually one of the first places I go when looking for something new to try. Clean Eating can verge on 'weird', mostly because there is so much focus cleaned up versions of things. A lot of the time I would just avoid unclean foods/dishes than go to extreme (expensive) lengths to make (often-inferior) clean versions of them. BUT the recipes that are just recipes (not trying to clean up something else) are really good and we have a few family favorites from Clean Eating.


Running update:
Running for 2012:
142.75 miles + 3.0 miles = 145.75
no race booked... thinking about an 8K on Thanksgiving

Like I said after my last treadmill run, I expected to finish in under 28:18 and I did. I did 26:42 which is 9 seconds slower than my last 5K. Different course, different weather, trying not to be too bummed about being slower. I wish I knew how to make myself faster. Something to research, I suppose.

We're going to my sister's for Thanksgiving. They are doing an 8K Turkey Trot (sort of - they'll do as much as they want and then quit - my sister is walking with her daughters, not racing). I'm thinking that I'll register in hopes of running it. I can run 8K on a treadmill no problem. I'm just not sure what 8-10 hours of travel in a hot van will do to my lungs. I tend to feel pretty icky at their house even without adding a run into the mix (due to the 8-10 hour hot trip and the wood burning stove). All I can do is the best I can do and even if I walk it that's a pile of calories burnt that I wouldn't have burned otherwise!

Other than that.... not sure what my next race might be.

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CONFIDENTLY_FIT 10/16/2012 6:13AM

    Glad you had a great weekend:) Trust your body. You are working so hard at finding your balance.

Awesome job with the run. The last time my hubby ran a race in the cold it triggered his asthma. I was terrified as I past him and saw him struggling to breathe. He motioned for me to keep running, so I did . He eventually calmed himself out of it. That is the second time I have seen him that bad.
Now he always carries his inhaler with him.
Glad you did not needs yours and you finished strong!

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FIFIFRIZZLE 10/15/2012 12:52PM

    Uh I think anyone going from healthy eating to a few days of carbs and other white stuff would feel bloated and yucky, forget the diabetes thing!
Back on track for your year of maintenance, good for you!

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CODEMAULER 10/15/2012 12:19PM

    I hate extended event starts - just let me go!!


It sounds like you did very well, considering the different factors in the mix.

Thanks for the magazine ideas, I'm going to check them out.

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Kettlebells & CGG111's blog challenge (Q2)

Friday, October 12, 2012

Friday is my kettlebell day. I do three cycles through a routine I got out of a magazine, adjusting the weight to fit my body. Right now I am using 10, 25, and 35 pound kettlebells. It's intense! But I have a hard time believing I'm burning the 800 calories Sparkpeople gives me credit for ;-) I wish KBs weren't so darned expensive. I like the way they work my muscles (it seems so much more functional and whole-body than other ST). In terms of what it feels like to ST with them, I like them much more than barbells and a tad more than dumbells. I've been buying 1 a month as my 'prize' for maintaining :-)

Now for today's question:
Q2: Who is your favorite author and why?

I'm really in search of a new favorite author. Years ago it was Stephen King but I got to a point where I was buying the books and not reading them. Then I went on to Jodi Picoult and I read EVERYTHING she wrote in a pretty short amount of time but I was disappointed in the last book I read by her (that she wrote with her daughter) and didn't even buy her last novel. I love it when she writes on 'hot' topics. I was not thrilled with the fairytale book and had no interest in a book about wolves. I hope her next one is better.

So... in looking for a new author to read.... I've enjoyed a few Anita Shreve novels but I wouldn't call her a favorite. I've also liked both of Daniel Palmer's books. He's not a favorite but he is, for now, -the- author that I wait on for a new book.

Of the 4 - Stephen King, Jodi Picoult, Anita Shreve, Daniel Palmer.... I think Stephen King is the best writer. When I read a book by him, I do enjoy it very much. I don't look forward to his next book like I did when I was younger but I do think he's my 'favorite' overall.

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EVWINGS 10/20/2012 8:29PM

    I have a very difficult time reading Anita Shreve. As a matter of fact, I refuse to read anything else by her. Her style and convolted endings are what have turned me against her. I have read some King, but I'm not a fanatic. I really, really like Clive Cussler. Have you tried his books?

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CONFIDENTLY_FIT 10/13/2012 7:25AM

    I agree..used to be Stephen King as well.

I also enjoy kettlebell training:) They are fun and work many muscles at once!

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CODEMAULER 10/12/2012 1:11PM

    I was an avid Stephen King reader and sort of "fell out of love" after a while.

I'm big on John Sandford (http://www.johnsandford.org/) these days and try to read everything that he's published.

I'm glad there's an awesome library in walking distance!!

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CGG111's blog challenge (Q1), life, and running

Thursday, October 11, 2012

I'm going to join in on this blogging challenge:

Question 1. Review a book you recently read.

This would require me to have actually finished a book recently, right? Sadly, I have not finished a book since August. The last book I finished was 'Between the Lines' by Jodi Picoult & Samantha Van Leer. It was just too fluffy. I never really got into it. The book before that was 'Coming Apart' by Charles Murray. I ate that up. I *loved* it. I wish that more people would read it and discuss it and think about what he says.

I am currently reading Wonder by R. J. Palacio aloud to my daughter (who has a craniofacial syndrome). My son who doesn't want to admit (1) that he likes to be read to and (2) that he cares about the subject matter finds a way to listen when I am reading. Because I try only to read it when both kids have the time to be listening and my son is 'around' (not hiding in his room), we're making slow progress. It's an interesting read. I don't find her take on craniokids very close to our own experience (my daughter SEEMS much less negative about the whole situation than Auggie does) but I think that my son sees a lot of similarity to his own situation. They haven't gotten much into the mother's POV yet so I can't really talk about that except that I relate well to feeling both badly that I spend so much more energy meeting my daughter's needs than my son AND that the time I spend with my daughter is so much less fun than the time I spend with my son.

You can read more about Wonder here: www.slate.com/articles/double_x/doub


Life goes on.

Thanks to those who took time to comment, commiserate, offer advice on my last entry. DH did ask yesterday what I was mad about. I was glad by then that I had processed enough to be able to, honestly, tell him that I'm not mad. Just sad and tired. I'm really, really worn down by the ongoing stress related to his job. I'm sure it's worse for him as it is HIS job. But that doesn't take away from the fact that it's hard for me. He's looking to me to 'fix things', to put our relationship back on track, and right now I am just too worn down by the whole situation to have any energy for that. I've been carrying too much of our family all by myself for too long while he remains focused like a laser beam on work. I don't really know how to fix that when there is no end in sight to his preoccupation. If he can't share in the raising of our children (forget share in the task of nurturing our relationship) then I just keep running closer and closer to empty. I try to 'fill myself back up' but I feel like I do more and more to try to take care of myself and it's having less and less of an effect. I feel it emotionally and I feel it physically. I am exhausted.

We decided to do a simple dinner tomorrow (probably takeout pizza or subs) and a nice dessert (chocolate fondue with cake, strawberries, bananas) with sweet sparkling wine. That meal can be done even if he works late (and he's taking our son out to a scout camp out after work so even if he left at normal time, dinner would be late). We might go out for a fancier meal on Saturday but it feels sort of silly. We can't go out alone so we might as well just say we are going out, not we are going out for our anniversary. I'm OK with all of that. I think at 16 years we are past the need to do anything elaborate. Giftwise we decided to get separate rooms on our Mediterranean cruise next summer and I think we're going to look at the possible excursions and pick one of those to be our anniversary gift. We rarely do anniversary gifts and when we do they tend to be something for the house or something related to travel.


Running update:
Running for 2012:
139.5 miles + 3.25 miles = 142.75 miles
next 5K in 2 days

Treadmill run. Did the 5K program. Finished in 28:18. I have no idea if that's a best or not. Close but maybe not my best. I expect to finish under that time on Saturday.

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FIFIFRIZZLE 10/12/2012 2:10AM

    My DH is a workaholic too and it, simply put, erodes our relationship. I had a holiday without DH recently, he joined me for some of it, I found it replenished me.

I've started to stop filling in the gaps for DH. I used to do for him because I had more time then I realized it was enabling him to stay divorced from his real needs. Somehow he seems to have started assuming I am responsible for his care and feeding. So now he has to take his turn cooking and doing a little bit more cleaning than before, I figure it puts him in touch with human realities and it also puts him at home more than before. Seems to be kind of working, he is slowing down and getting more down time, who knows what the end will be?

Well done you for running and taking care of yourself rather than eating for energy and comfort.

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MOONSTORMER 10/12/2012 1:23AM

    emoticon hope you find a way to refill yourself.

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MJZHERE 10/11/2012 6:35PM

    Thank you for this challenge-am joining in. It is important sometimes to focus on life outside of where the stress exists (when family members have medical conditions, this is a valuable lesson to learn) and I definitely need an outside focus.I could go on and on about when one is "empty." I think woman are the ones who will say we are empty but then not believe it ourselves (therefore we continue to nurture all our relationships so is it any surprise that others believe we have an endless supply?) I am sorry you are experiencing this but glad that you are at a young age learning this valuable lesson - you have to take care of you!And sometimes that is sitting down, saying I can't do this (whatever it is) anymore, and not doing it. I have learned sometimes others will pick it up (and sometimes not) -yet my world has not crashed down yet. emoticon emoticon

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Tuesday, October 09, 2012

DH got stuck at work last night and missed Thanksgiving dinner. Bummer for everyone involved. The kids had even each cooked one of the dishes.

I can't get excited about our anniversary at this point. He's totally consumed with work. No time or energy for me. *If* we celebrated, I'd have to plan it myself. And it could end up like last night. That just makes me sad so I'd rather not think about it at all.

So... la la la la... I just do my own thing.

Today I went for a run and built a web page for the middle school PTA.

Running update:
Running for 2012:
134.0 miles + 5.25 miles = 139.5 miles
next 5K in 4 days

Treadmill run. Rolling hills. Kept the pace slow (10:40 per mile overall). I think that kept my heartrate at a nice manageable spot.

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FIFIFRIZZLE 10/10/2012 5:16AM


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MOONSTORMER 10/10/2012 2:43AM

    that sucks! silly husbands. i hope that he makes up for it soon! emoticon

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BROOKLYN_BORN 10/9/2012 8:26PM

    I know it's hard when work seems to be the #1 priority especially when it disrupts a family celebration. I hope it's only temporary. As for the anniversary, it's natural to want to mark this special occasion, but really it's only one day in the marriage and men never seem to attach the same importance to it that we do.

DH and I have been together for 49 years, married for 45 and have had many periods that you describe. At this stage we can actually laugh about anniversaries gone wrong. #20 - He forgot the date and scheduled hemorrhoid surgery for that day. Can anybody beat that for clueless? 25 years later, it's just plain funny.

I like MJZ's advice. Make yourself the priority and I hope things improve for you.

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FEMISLIM 10/9/2012 5:43PM

    Wishing you all the best, especially a fun anniversary. Miracles do happen you know.

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CATMAGNET 10/9/2012 4:39PM

    I'm so sorry...I know exactly how it feels to not be a priority in a relationship, which is why I'm single at this point in time. I hope this is a temporary thing for the two of you!

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MJZHERE 10/9/2012 2:39PM

    I'm sorry you are going through this - it hurts to not feel like a priority. From someone a little older, please make yourself a priority. It is easy to internalize the messages we think others are sending us and then begin believing them. Send yourself a message by how you treat yourself - you are very important - treat yourself that way. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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REBECCAMA 10/9/2012 12:57PM

  It can really suck being married to a workaholic sometimes, can't it? My husband is on call 1/3 of the time and it can really get in the way of plans. I'm sorry your big meal was spoiled.

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CODEMAULER 10/9/2012 12:23PM

    At least you know now, rather than having your anniversary spoiled as well. Do something good for yourself, even plan something fun with the kids. YOU do not have to miss the anniversary celebration.


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