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Poke me so I don't let one day off turn into 5.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

I skipped the gym today. Partially it was because I didn't think it was right to make my parents supervise my daughter's birthday sleepover but partially it was because I just did not feel like it. I could have gone when the sleepover ended at 11:30AM. But I didn't. I took the van to get inspected. And then I made sure everyone got lunch. And I did laundry and dishes and picked up instead of cramming a trip to the gym in there before the kids' trainer showed up. Now I need to dress for dinner out with my parents on their last night here so no time for a workout now either. Which means... no workout today. One day. Fine.

BUT tomorrow.... no workout during the day because DD has her procedure in the morning and I can't leave her alone to go exercise. I need to MAKE myself go for a run after dinner when DH can stay with her.

And Friday.... she's going to feel like CRAP. I can't leave her home alone with her brother feeling like crap. It's not fair to her and it's not fair to him. Someone poke me with a stick to make me workout at home. We have great equipment. I can do it. I just don't like to do it at home.

Saturday I should run a 5K outside since my race is getting so close. Sunday I should go to Centergy because I am missing it tomorrow. Monday we should do something active as a family.

I see what I SHOULD do. Now I need to make myself do it because it is so so so so tempting to fall back into old habits when she is anxious and scared and REALLY doesn't want me to go ANYWHERE... even to the next room.

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JENN03275 8/31/2012 7:44AM

    Poke, poke. Life happens. You'll be on track!!

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CONFIDENTLY_FIT 8/31/2012 6:31AM

    Life does happen. There were a few days last week (open houses and conferences with teachers) that kept me at school for 12 hours. There was no way I had any energy left or time left in the day to go.
No biggie. Got there every day this week except Monday (at the school longer than that I thought I would be) and Thursday (another open house). Things will be back to normal next week! I am finding that I am really looking forward to my gym days again. A break was good:)

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LBLYKOWSKI 8/30/2012 1:14AM

    Life happens all the time, don't let it derail your progress. POKE, POKE! emoticon

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JENNYR0506 8/29/2012 6:09PM

    I don't know what her procedure is, but, when you go into the next room to exercise, maybe you can bundle her up and take her with you. Wrap her in a warm blanket, put her in a comfy chair with a book or music player and her favorite treat. OR... have her and brother help you make signs to flash your way when you are exercising. Things like - Go, Mom, Go, I Need Another Cookie, You're Not Sweating Enough ... You get the idea. She should enjoy the fun of being your coach and making her part of your workout will ease your anxiety, too. Good Luck!


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Run and done.

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Got 3 miles in. I am getting comfortable running faster. Torn between working on speed and distance. Today I went for speed. Even with ramping up for 10' (and maybe I could do that more quickly), I finished 3 miles in under 30'. I spent most of the time over 6MPH and a decent chunk of time at 7MPH. I then had to walk the last 0.4 miles or so. Pacing is NOT my strong suit.

Running for 2012:
74.5 miles + 3 miles = 77.5 miles
26 days until my next 5K.

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RUN_BAKE_BLOG 8/28/2012 4:33PM

    Sounds good!
Keep it up!

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IRP1114 8/28/2012 4:10PM

    Cool! Good luck at your 5k! Maybe you can try intervals? They say that helps with speed and endurance too :-)

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Call me selfish

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Someone I know through the online community berated unhealthy parents of hospitalized children as selfish yesterday. I used to be one of those parents - overweight, inactive, eating crappy food - dealing with repeated hospitalizations and a day-to-day life that was VERY stressful. It drives me batty that he called ME selfish when he's the one staying at a luxury hotel down the street from the hospital, taking time away from his hospitalized daughter to exercise almost every day, eating out (and NOT making healthy choices - oh, the irony) away from the hospital and, well, generally acting almost like he's on vacation. I think he hasn't figured out that he's at a hospital with family-centered care. Those nurses EXPECT a parent bedside 24/7, involved in the child's care, comforting and reassuring the child during recovery. They didn't put bedside accommodations in for appearance's sake. They talk about parents who are absent and, guess who, THEY think is selfish? I know because I was one of those 24/7 parents and nurses talk when they feel comfortable with parents.

I have a plan in place for healthy food when we face inevitable future hospitalizations but I still haven't figured out how I'll be there as a care partner for my daughter AND get the exercise I need. One thing is for certain though, the needs of my hospitalized child will ALWAYS come before my needs. Call me selfish.

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MOONSTORMER 8/29/2012 1:59AM

    wow! some people are so blind. yes, it's important to keep yourself healthy, but the priority will always be your loved ones needing care!

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CONFIDENTLY_FIT 8/28/2012 11:35PM

    Family comes first...thought that was a no brainer:)

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MJZHERE 8/28/2012 7:21PM

    Having gone thru serious hospitalizations with my children (now grown but last time he was 20), I did nothing but stay by their side 24/7 (no exercise, almost no eating - I weighed the least I ever have after 3 months one time). My heart goes out to you - I know we wish it were us and not them - that would be so much easier. I did have people get after me for staying all the time, not taking care of me, etc. but only a parent going thru this knows how it is. I think it is great you have a plan for healthy food next time - it does take a long time for us to get back afterwards and that will help you.

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PHEBESS 8/28/2012 3:00PM

    Wow, what a jerk he is!

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JENNYR0506 8/28/2012 12:39PM

    I'm stumped just like everyone else concerning this man's attitude. However, just like he has no idea what you are going through on a day to day basis, we have no idea what he is going through. We all have bad days, especially if we are dealing with a chronically ill child.

All we can do is know, inside, that WE are doing what WE feel is right in each moment. Don't listen to the outside voices that do not know all of the turmoil we are dealing with inside. Adding credence to their uninformed opinions only adds to your already stressful situation. So, although it can be hard, just let it fall away from you.


emoticon and prayers, Jenny

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NELLJONES 8/28/2012 10:06AM

    I think the word "selfish" isn't what they really meant. Maybe oblivious. My son is a Registered Dietician in a hospital and he sees this all the time. Parents don't realize how their lifestyle choices affect their kids, really don't see it. It isn't as if they know they are setting bad examples and don't care, they just don't know, and there are no words to tell them until they are ready to hear it. When their kids are sick, though, it isn't a good time to try to talk to them. We each deal with family illness in our own way, just doing the best we can with the situation at the moment.

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ANNESYLVIA 8/28/2012 8:16AM

    I am not sure why anyone would call a parent who is by their hospitalized child's side selfish!?!?! Were they saying the child was hospitalized due to the parents unhealthy choices and overweight issue?

I must say healthy/unhealthy, overweight/underweight/healthy weight if you are there for your children they know it and if you are leaving them for whatever reason (workout, eat out, pig out) when they need you most than that is the selfish parent.

I believe you needed to vent and that is another reason blogging is wonderful. I am a click away if you need to talk. Sparkmail me if you want privacy.

I hope your hospitalized child is in better health today. You seem very sensitive and caring.

hugs, Anne emoticon

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AZMOMXTWO 8/28/2012 8:08AM

  I will be on your side the child will always come first no matter what

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Craving routine

Monday, August 27, 2012

As much as I love downtime and travel and visiting with family, I am ready for the routine imposed by school. I wish the kids had little enough homework to REALLY be done before dinner but homework aside I love how our days 'roll' during the school year. 9 days to go.

This week my parents are visiting, my daughter is turning 12, and she is having 3 teeth extracted with just Novocaine (no sedation). My son is wrapping up his summer work (and my daughter needs to do the same). I'm still waiting on official 'back to school' info letters from the school but the start of school is starting to feel real. I'm looking forward to it but I'm also a little stressed by it. Neither kids seems happy to be going back to school :-(

Food is r-e-a-l-l-y splurgy/relaxed this week because my mom brought 2 pies, my daughter wants a delicious but really high calorie/unhealthy birthday dessert (and dinner for that matter!). I'm calling it a 'staycation' week and realizing that I'll gain and need to lose some weight at the end.

At least on a staycation I can stick to most of my fitness routine. I'm having to make some changes because of the surgery and the possibility that she'll feel really cruddy Friday but I've got a plan and that feels good.
Monday - centergy - LOVED IT :-)
Tuesday - 5K (although I'm going to try for 4 miles)
Wednesday - female body breakthrough base A
Thursday - planned rest day because of DD's surgery, although if I feel really stressed I may go to the gym for a run after DH is home from work
Friday - female body breakthrough base B.... unless DD is feeling unwell and I I need to workout at home (no cable machine here)

So.... what are you up to this week? Are you facing a 'new year' of sorts with the start of school... for yourself or for your children?

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MOONSTORMER 8/28/2012 3:55AM

    i miss that time of year - miss going back to school/university and getting stationery and books and all that good stuff. hope that the routine helps when it arrives! enjoy the last of the freedom and 'staycation'!

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CONFIDENTLY_FIT 8/27/2012 6:11PM

    New year=new job! Today was day one and I love it!
The teachers were awesome to work with and very happy that I would be with them in their classrooms. The kids were fun to work with:)
Hoping the rest of the week goes just as smoothly!

Hope all goes well with your daughter's surgery! Enjoy the last few days of summer!

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TORAMPAUL 8/27/2012 3:40PM

    The first of the year brings a whole new stress for us this year. Last week we received some upsetting news that may cause us to to remove our children from their private school and cause me to homeschool. DH has a meeting this evening with the school's board and teachers and we will then determine what our course of action will be.
Enjoy your last week of summer! I'm trying to! :)

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Woah..... Base Phase Kicked My Butt... Literally!

Saturday, August 25, 2012

I'm taking another run through The Female Body Breakthrough workouts (unless I manage to find a small group strength training situation). This is the same set of workouts I did from September through January last fall/winter so I didn't expect the base phase to be challenging the second time through.


I am pushing myself with the weights and I was nice and sore after each workout (each phase comes with a pair of workouts). Workout B has overhead squats in it. Last fall I didn't do the 'overhead' part of it. I think I probably just did BW squats. The lightest DB is 20 pounds and the weight is permanently attached to it and I could not handle that overhead AT ALL last fall. Yesterday.... I did it! The squats were pretty shallow but I held that 20 pound dumbell overhead with shoulders and elbows locked out and squatted 3x12. And, oh boy, do I feel it today. My butt HURTS! I hurt all the way up the chain but it is so unusual and, well, weird to have a sore butt!

I also had a big splurge meal last night. My parents are here to visit. The meal itself was nice and healthy (the buffalo balls and crudite meal I posted about a few weeks back) but we drank a bottle of German white with dinner and then had a desert of raspberry pie with lowfat ice cream and port. It was VERY yummy but I think I need to watch it for the next few days because my daughter's 12th birthday is Tuesday and we've got another luscious dessert planned for that night. I enjoy these splurges (so much better than binges!) but I do know they add up.

We're going to relax around home today and then go out and do something tomorrow. It's nice to have visitors! I hope you all are having a wonderful weekend too.

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MOONSTORMER 8/27/2012 2:02AM

    wow! that's fantastic. love pushing with the weights and feeling it the next day - makes me know that i worked hard!

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CONFIDENTLY_FIT 8/26/2012 12:28PM

    I upped my weights also:) It is nice being sore again!
Hope you enjoyed your weekend!

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DAWNFIRE72 8/25/2012 5:29PM

    I hope that you aren't too sore after your workouts. They sound pretty intense.

Enjoy your family and time together. Hope your daughter has a great birthday next week as well.

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KAYOTIC 8/25/2012 12:13PM

    Hope you find a small group class if that's what you're looking for, I LOVE mine...but I did supplement it last week with a home workout from the big book of exercises for women, which I'm going to try to continue, so I can get 3 days of RT in a week.

Nice job on the squats!

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