Friday, December 16, 2011
Graduation was last night. My feet still hurt from standing in heels for an hour, but fashion is pain right ladies??
It doesn't seem real, prob won't until I get my diploma in the mail!
I've been in school sooo long, it's been my life for years, it's ALMOST sad to see it come to an end.
Now I can return to the real world!
Thursday, December 08, 2011
These last few weeks of school are killing me. I have a final on Saturday @ 5:30pm which I know I'll ace, but it's my final project that is due next week that I'm worried about! It's a team project and I HATE group work. Especially since I'm stuck with a lazy group that never comes to class!! I had to send out a nasty email to ensure that everyone showed up yesterday and it worked, but I swear one of my group members was either drunk or high! Really?!?! And I'm not exaggerating y'all. He said he was tired and some other gibberish about his gf's grandmother being sick, but I didn't buy it! I know that sounds harsh, but it's my graduation that's on the line so sorry if you don't get any sympathy from me. I just keep reminding myself, this time next week I'll be preparing for graduation....getting ready to walk the stage!
The ceiling in the apartment has leaked for the umpteenth time! They can't seem to fix the upstairs leak for some reason. I think the problem is that it's leaking from two different places....but I'm not a contractor. Anyway, they came in and sprayed some nasty chemicals for mold and brought in an industrial dryer for the carpet, but they just painted over the sheet rock. They didn't replace it and that doesn't make any sense to me. So it looks like we'll be moving again in March when our lease is up! Ugh!! They've been coming in and out which has interrupted my workout schedule, but I should be able to get in some exercise today, tomorrow, and Saturday!! Which will be a huge improvement from last week.
My internship at the Foundation is going well. They suggested I make a proposal to the president for a permanent position. A proposal? Why can't it just be like a normal job and you just offer me a position?!?! So I've been trying to figure out what to say, what to suggest my schedule and salary should be, etc. It's just weird, I've never been in this situation before. I don't want to ask for to little and not get paid what I'm worth, but I don't want to ask for to much and they say no. I'll figure it out and everything will fall into place. Just need to focus on school before I can think about anything else because getting a job won't matter if I don't graduate.
Monday, November 28, 2011
As most of you know I've pretty much been on hiatus for about a month. With two internships and graduation on the horizon, I had to put Spark on the back burner. Thursday is my last day at FOX and I graduate on the 15th, so that leaves me interning for the Foundation 3 days/week. So that means I can finally get back to focusing on my goals!!
I signed up for the last leg of the EPIC challenge to ensure that I ended the year on the right foot, ready to keep that momentum going into 2012. My original plan was to ease myself back into exercise and start off working out 3-4 days a week (Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, and maybe Saturday), but with Reiko working late and the mantra "There's no time like the present" ringing in my head, I decided to do a quick 15-min work out. Well, those 15 minutes turned into 30 and I feel great after burning 500 calories!!
I've tracked my food for yesterday and today, so I feel really confident about how this week and the rest of the year are going to go!! I plan on working out tomorrow doing high intensity interval training since today I just did cardio. I really want to loose at least 5 lbs by the end of the year! I know that I can do it with the support of my Spark family.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
I guess there has been a bug going around or some crud and I managed to get it. I'm normally one of those people who don't get sick, but whatever I got took me down hard! I started feeling bad around Wednesday night and it just kept getting progressively worse. It started with a shore throat that became so swollen I almost couldn't swallow. My lymph nodes were also so swollen. Between those and the throat, my whole neck became immobile. It was the weirdest, most painful thing.
Luckily, I got some super strong antibiotics and am finally starting to feel normal again. Just in time for Monday! Ugh!! I did weight myself this morning and wouldn't you know I lost a pound? I know that's not the way to do it, but I'll take what I can get haha!! I wasn't not eating on purpose or anything, but when it's excruciating to swallow water, it's easier to just not eat anything.
Had enough energy to go to the grocery store, so we're all stocked up with yummy, healthy goodness for the next couple weeks! I hope to get back on track with working out this week! I really need to get back in the swing of things. Even if it's only a couple days a week. I don't wanna push it after being so sick, but I gotta do a little bit. I'm still really weak and low on energy, but making consistent progress!
I hope everyone had a great weekend and congrats to all my marathoners!!!
Tuesday, November 08, 2011
Yesterday was a very eye opening day for me. I read Katshia's blog, which you can find here: www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
It inspired me because I am very protective of my weight. Protective as in I don't tell anyone because they're always shocked that the number is so high. I guess you could say I'm lucky in the sense that I carry my weight well. I'm big all over, but still curvy so it's deceiving. She also talked about her BMI which when calculated mathematically was much higher than the more accurate body scan method. Her instructor told her that she had "heavier" bones. I had never thought about bone density having an affect on your weight, but it makes sense.
When I first started Spark I was 276. I am now 259. For the longest time that 17 lb loss never sounded like much to me. It seemed like such a small number in comparison to how much more I needed to lose. My goal weight was 160 and all I could think was WOW I still need to lose at least 99 lbs. 99 lbs?!?! That's another person, given a small person, but still. It was overwhelming and disheartening and discouraging.
Me and a couple of the other leaders were talking on Skype and here is a snippet of our conversation:
MaryJane Harrison: you are a big built girl with natural padding so it is going to account for a lot of poundage even if you are where you should be.
Lillie: T-- you and I are really similar.... I look at you and can SEE the wide bone structure... and see that you have thick bones.... they say, "there is no such thing as big bones" but seriously.. if you look at your frame.. and my frame... we are WIDER built. Huge ribcages, wipe hips, wide shoulders.
Something about that conversation, in conjunction with having read Katshia's blog, hit home with me. As I stated earlier that 17 lb loss didn't sound like a lot, but it looked like a lot. I really saw a difference in how I looked and most of my shirts are too big for me now and my pants are all super lose. So it got me thinking that maybe I have an unrealistic goal for myself. If I do have a larger body frame, larger bone structure, and/or "heavier" bones, it may be physically impossible for me to get down to 160. I am a sturdy person. I'm on the tall side for a woman and like Lillie said, I have a visibly wider bone structure. I'm just not built like a petite woman.
Lillie encouraged me to go check out mybodygallery.com. If you've never heard of it, you should go take a look. Basically you put in your height, the weight you'd like to be, and your body shape (hourglass, pear, etc) and you get images of REAL women who fit that description. You get a really good idea of what your body would look like. So I put in my height (5'7), put in a weight of 190 (I want to at least be under 200), and I have an hourglass shape. This brought up images of women ranging from size 12-16. This is exactly the range that I want to be in! Now of course this is not an exact science, but it is very helpful and gives you a more realistic opinion of what your aiming for.
This entire experience has caused me to completely rethink my weight loss goals. I need to stop focusing on the number on the scale and more on how I look and feel. I do need to have some sort of numerical goal, so I'm going to now shoot for a goal weight of 190-200. So that means I need to aim for losing another 64-74 lbs. When i reach that goal, I'll decide then if I think I want to lose more. My decision will be based on health, as well as looks. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I feel like I have an attainable goal that isn't out of my reach.
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