Saturday, December 05, 2009
(This was originally a letter to a friend.)
When I started this journey I weighed 198 lbs. I gained a lot of weight after being sick and underweight for most of the 90's.
Because I had been a dancer and an athelete, my goal had always been to dance and run again. I still can't run because of knee problems, so I am now an enthusiastic day hiker.
I started my get back-into-shape project with my physical therapist. Then I was on my own once I was able to walk again. I simply tried to go back to the way I use to live. It was more difficult than I expected. On my own I was able to get down to 165 lbs.
Then I started collecting dance and dance aerobic DVDs. I found stores where I could get them for $5.00 or less. So, I have quite a collection. That got me down to 155.
Around this time, I found SparkPeople. I was looking for a flexible meal planner/tracker and an exercise log. I needed something simple and easy to customize because cookie-cutter meal plans didn't work for me. I found that and more here. I found things that I didn't know I needed.
I didn't know I needed friends like all of you. I didn't know I needed the ideas and suggestions that are always popping up here. I didn't know I needed all the feedback and encouragement that I have found here. I didn't know I had a need to share all the knowledge I have acquired from my experiences as a dancer, a runner, and simple being an optimistic survivor.
These last 10 lbs. have been the hardest. I can dance again. I still can't run. I use to do cross country and half-marathons. But, it doesn't look like I'll ever be able to do that again. So, I am trying to find some activity to replace that. I am sure I will find it.
Right now, I am going back and forth between 150 and 145. I must be on the right track. I just have to figure out what it is that I am doing right and turn it into a fun hobby.
When I read everyone else's blogs, I sometimes wonder if maybe my journey was made easier because I am so fidgety. I have always gotten bored just sitting around. I have been like that since I was 7. That was another period in my life when I had an extended hospital stay.
It's been a long hard journey. But, my journey has been to a place that I use to call home, a familiar place, a place I want to return to.
At this moment I have a hiking trail guidebook next to me. I bought it yesterday. I discovered some trails that are open year round. Next Saturday, I am going on an adventure!