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A second (x) chance

Thursday, October 03, 2013

Yesterday was the start of a new chapter in my life. Most folks would have fallen apart by what happened, but for me, it was an opportunity that I have been 'talking about doing' for over two years.

I'm now making the transition from semi-professional Artist to Professional artist and the holidays are upon us, the best time to make this transition.

Yes I am scared, but am I also excited for many reasons. The biggest and most wonderful one is I am not going to be doing something I don't like which was stressing me out, which was making it almost impossible to even exercise because I was too stressed out - too exhausted by the end of the day and that end of the day ended at 11pm each day because I had two different schedules that I needed to maintain.

Stress KEEPS weight on (my eating was fine, my lack of exercise wasn't and lack of stress)

This stress - going pro is different. I have about 15 venues I work in so I am not just limited to one or two types of Art venues. My pieces when I wasn't trying to sell - I was doing 2k a month. I did something while I was in the corporate world of stocking up on supplies - and have 4 years for beading, 2 years + for paper crafting, 2 years for fabric and 1/2 year for metal/wood, the more easier one to actually get cheaply.

I've got already 400 items to take pictures of - post, samples of some very unique custom pieces I have done, and a gallery to show what I have sold in the past so folks get an idea of how unique my pieces are. Plus my daughter reminded me to make the crazy stuff that her friends all were so jealous of that she kept selling off her and I kept making more of.

I'm not going into this blind, I've done so much research, and set up, the thing I didn't really plan on was the cutover. In fact hindsight, I would not have, because I was just a bit too tied to status quo and less about the leap of faith.

I've got the network up and running. I have my first home party in two weeks just before one of the holidays I support.

This change also gave me an opportunity to regroup into the Spark system so I can actually build a routine around it. So now I am going to set aside time each day - specific time for doing the points because they are motivators, even if I didn't see that earlier.

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TAISIAKAT 10/5/2013 2:14AM

    Thank you SENTERSTOCK for the encouragement. emoticon

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TAISIAKAT 10/5/2013 2:13AM

    CELEST - I've gone through this experience before and it devastated me. I had so much 'tied' up into the career of who I was, and how I was supposed to be, that when the termination happened, I was mortified, I was horrified, I felt like I was the worse person/major failure in the world. - However, Wednesday, I have spent the last year working with a coach on becoming more authentic and to follow my passions and stop giving away my power by spending my energy worrying about what others think or say about me.

Yes I wasn't happy they let me go, but at the same time I was miserable, I wanted out. - Now for me is not to collapse, to try to not fall apart and give up but to move forward into this new chapter and embrace the experience of my life.

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SUGARSMOM2 10/4/2013 8:55AM

  everything we do is based upon a plan

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CELEST 10/4/2013 7:40AM

    I was about to say "snap" based on the start of your blog. But the snap is only for that first sentence. After that our lives change, but I too will be making some brand new changes to my life and its somewhat daunting but has to be done. The challenge for me is not to resort to eating my way to comfort again. So far, so good....but Monday will be the telling point for me.

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SENTERSTOCK 10/3/2013 9:31PM

    How wonderful! Sounds like you have made a great decision! Look forward to hearing more.
SENTERSTOCK, Grandmother's Fitness Club co-leader.

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The important things

Saturday, July 27, 2013

I spent 5 hours with the Grandson today (He's autistic) - we're making significant progress in how long before he melts down. The original plans were to go to Fairyland and have a picnic, but my knee has been bothering me the last two weeks and just when I think it's back under control, poof it flares up again and I can barely walk. (Old injury that somehow has been aggravated with the weight loss) Anyway, it was a beautiful windy day for kite flying so we went down by the water and had a lovely picnic and flew kites.

One of the other things he loves that I do is blow bubbles. For me its so relaxing and stress relieve to blow bubbles (I think I developed the habit after quitting smoking*. But it was just fun with the new wands I bought.

I just wish my knee would stop hurting. Its killing my ability to bike or walk. Need to look at the chair exercise to see what I can do for cardio.

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    Blowing bubbles with your grandson sounds delightful! Sorry about the knee. While doing therapy last year I was told that my knee may heel because I was not using it because I could put no weight on the right foot. That knee is much better even after being able to use the foot and leg when the cast came off.

Hope you find something else that you and your grandson enjoy. DO NOT USE BUBBLES MADE IN CHINA!


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CELEST 7/28/2013 2:32AM

    That is odd that your old injury is aggravated with the weight loss, usually weight loss helps old injuries. Have you spoken to your dr/pharmacist about some over the counter anti-inflammatory tablets. There are foods that are also high in anti-inflam properties, I recall that pineapple is one.

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MT-MOONCHASER 7/27/2013 11:48PM

    It sounds as if you had a delightful day (aside from the knee, of course).

I hope that you find out what is going on with that knee.

I tried some of the chair exercises, and they are really quite a workout. Good luck.


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Insight into something turning into a CHORE

Saturday, July 27, 2013

This last month I stopped doing Spark. I found myself dreading having to go through the effort to capture everything for my food, do all the points projects for the day, and such where I actually after a few days of missing because I became sick, realized I had lost focus.

I was no longer doing this for me, but caught into yet another holic behavior trap. I found myself frustrated, beating myself up when I didn't get all the points I could. So I stopped. I sorted out what I wanted from Spark and decided that I need more blogging, water, exercise, walking, ideas, and easy way to track food so its not an hour adding in ingredients to calculate calories. I'm more interested in eating patterns, not calories.

Mine has never been about calories, mine has been about lack of exercise, lack of making time for ME to make these commitments to myself.

For example my body has been waking up an hour before I have to. I have an exercise bike, - who cares if I ride and I am zombie brain.... somehow I do.

Anyway, skip the points, skip the trophies - this is supposed to be a tool to help me, not stress me out.

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QUOOTIE 7/30/2013 10:19AM

    Tracking can be really really time consuming, that is true. Do what you have to and leave the rest.

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LAWANDMUSIC 7/27/2013 7:51PM

    Glad you found a path that works for you!

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GRAYGRANNY 7/27/2013 5:58PM

    To be quite honest i tried the food tracking once and found it to be a pain in the arse. It was as you said.............stressing me out...............so you gotta do what works for YOU and not someone else.

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FEMISLIM 7/27/2013 11:06AM

    Well, I do take time off whenever I feel clogged. Great that you identify that .

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MERRYMARY42 7/27/2013 10:29AM

    I agree it can be so much trouble, but I find I need Sparks to keep me honest and motivated. but whatever works, right?

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CELEST 7/27/2013 8:28AM

    We all need to do what works for us.....so if thats what will work for you...go follow that method. Bottom line is we want good health and good choices in our feeding habits, that will bear automatic weight loss if we know what a plate full of food should look like. More veggies, less simple carbs and anything else thats unhealthy for us.

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GOODLANDGAL3 7/27/2013 6:52AM

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Bread... what to do...what to do.

Sunday, June 23, 2013

I love fresh bread, hot, just from the oven. Doesn't even matter what kind, rye, wheat, sour dough, white, brown, corn, I LOVE fresh hot steaming bread, rolls, loaves, rounds. Most of the time just with some butter, on occasion for some kinds, jam or a jelly, but there are the savoring flavor, smell, texture, its just wonderful.

However, I am finding out I have some kind of bread allergy, since I started cutting bread out of my diet. All my life I have had this heavy bloated feeling, never really thought anything of it, until I went on this cleansing aspect of cutting out specific processed items from my diet.

Sugar was the first to go, and we're doing to 10% of the sugar intake I used to have and even that at times doesn't sit right.

Most processed box foods are gone from my diet (Rice a roni is one of the few remaining ones).

It is harder with soups (campbells is still a very large part of my cooking)

But when we came to bread, I was pretty okay with it, except recently. I had cut out 90% so I would have bread maybe once or twice a week for something (breakfast sandwich, dinner roll, pita for hummus) but I found I really miss the homemade bread I was doing for myself before I started this.

I'm worried if I add it back in, that horrible heavy bloated feeling will come back, but I sooooo miss that smell, taste, texture, sitting with a nice cup of coffee for breakfast.

And no, I don't have a gluten allergy because I can eat other foods with gluten in it and I don't feel the same heavy. Most think it is a wheat allergy, but then that would not explain rice bread, rye bread or corn bread having the same sensation after eating them.


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CHERYL_ANNE 7/27/2013 8:28AM

    I have an allergy to wheat (and some other grains, basically it's easier for me to say what I'm not allergic to than what I am) and it got the best of me in the Fall of 2011. I made the decision for my health to no longer ingest wheat-containing products and adapted to gluten-free living. Within a couple days of being GF my "IBS-like" symptoms and inflammation had all but disappeared.

What was interesting in my learning curve in learning to adapt and replace previously "wheat-containing" items was just how much of it is in things we don't even realize; it can even be in powdered sugar...!

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GRAYGRANNY 6/25/2013 1:42PM

    WOW!!!! Hope you find out what the culprit is...........homemade bread.......the aroma of it.....oh dang!!! hope it is not that for you. I am not much on bread itself but homemade is a weakness of mine

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CELEST 6/24/2013 12:45PM

    Couldn't you google a recipe that will work for you?

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QUOOTIE 6/24/2013 9:41AM

    perhaps the issue is yeast, or leavening agents.

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MERRYMARY42 6/23/2013 9:18PM

    it could just be that bread is heavy, and you are deleting this from your diet, me, I love bread, home made, store bought, corn bread, any kind, and I limit it to 1 or 2 servings a day, but this I can not give up, I would be the better for it, butttt

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MILLYMOUSE1 6/23/2013 9:17PM

    I know white bread which isn't good for you, will also bloat you. That can't just be the case with you. I agree with KASCAR51 try each separately to see if you can define which bread causes you the most discomfort

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MCFITZ2 6/23/2013 6:28PM

    Have you tried some of the more unusual flours like Amaranth flour? Best of luck.

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KACAR51 6/23/2013 5:55PM

    Everything in moderation! Try it and see what happens! I won't give up bread! I just use good wholegrain bread and I don't eat it all the time! Maybe that will work for you! emoticon

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LOOKINGUP2012 6/23/2013 5:51PM

    Could be the yeast but you say cornbread is not ok, so I don't know. I really feel for you because I totally agree, a good cup of coffee and hot bread can't be beat. I have cut coffee out and only do S Rosen Dark Jewish Rye (2 slices = 90 cal). A lot of my bloating is gone. I bet a bread maker could make their own soup and save a lot of sodium. emoticon

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What really is a -bad week-?

Monday, May 27, 2013

Last week I was going to write a blog on 'bad week' and how difficult it is to bounce back. My week started out with two of my dear friends having heart attacks, however only one survived. (Both were/are my husband's age).
In turn I got really bored with my normal lunch and bought lunch from the company (we have a subsidized lunch program) and went well over my calorie count. Then I got sick, and a few other things went wrong, including a meltdown at work. Add to that two days last week couldn't get on the Sparks pages to write, so my login streaks went belly up.

Then my boss posted something to the team 'Winners have a plan, Losers have explanations.'

I almost stormed into his office and told him who insulted I was by his post - but he was home sick.

So I have been thinking about it. Bad week? Is that an explanation. Yes. No plan to recover, no reminder its okay to experience the feelings and pain, but the plan to go forward just wasn't there.

Yes, I lost a dear friend. Not going to lessen the pain, but it isn't going to change the fact he's gone. Plan - move forward, live, since I am alive. Live life as best as I can.

SO last week happened. Last week I ate what I felt like, though I did record it, I just ate what I felt like. - Done. Back on the plan. Back taking the walks, doing my yoga, and stretching.

Back eating better, smaller portions, feeling less bloated because I cut out the bread, the sweets, the sugars.

Back to the Plan.

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IKACEY 5/30/2013 6:21AM

    I am so sorry for your loss and I ferverently hope the other friend recovers completely! You are so right. So last week happened, but its over, let it go and go back to what you were doing before life took you on a small detour emoticon
IKacey co-leader of the Grandmothers Fitness Club

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GRAYGRANNY 5/28/2013 12:55PM

    Sorry for your loss and getting off track. What matters is that you realized life does go on and getting back on track. Hang in there girl.............you are so worth it!!

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QUOOTIE 5/27/2013 1:23PM

    Excellent blog, excellent lesson. I learn it over and over again. One day it will stick

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PATJOONWW 5/27/2013 9:02AM

    Sorry for you loss.

Good luck on reaching your goals, and have a great day. emoticonMuch success on your journey! emoticon

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CELEST 5/27/2013 7:19AM

    Im sorry also for your loss. I had a similar start to my day today and then through some research found a scripture which helped make me change my mind about how I was feeling. Good you have found a plan rather than an explanation. Sometimes how things are said are hurtful even if what is said is perfectly true....it takes a big person to see beyond the hurt. Keep going.

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LOSIN_IT4GOOD 5/27/2013 5:28AM

    I'm sorry for your loss...and your struggles. I am glan you got yourself back on track, moving forward.

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SPARKCHANTAL 5/27/2013 3:34AM

    you make me think of the film I watched last night.

an 80-year old swiss woman loses her husband. feels like she wants to join him.
but what does she do instead?
fulfills her old dream of opening a lingerie shop.
she goes online with it, can't keep up with orders, and gets the members of the old folks' home to do the embroidery.
some old-fashioned 'square' people in town do their best to sabotage her efforts, but enough are right behind her (of course, they win out in the end).
yes, indeed... life goes on.

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