Thursday, October 03, 2013
Yesterday was the start of a new chapter in my life. Most folks would have fallen apart by what happened, but for me, it was an opportunity that I have been 'talking about doing' for over two years.
I'm now making the transition from semi-professional Artist to Professional artist and the holidays are upon us, the best time to make this transition.
Yes I am scared, but am I also excited for many reasons. The biggest and most wonderful one is I am not going to be doing something I don't like which was stressing me out, which was making it almost impossible to even exercise because I was too stressed out - too exhausted by the end of the day and that end of the day ended at 11pm each day because I had two different schedules that I needed to maintain.
Stress KEEPS weight on (my eating was fine, my lack of exercise wasn't and lack of stress)
This stress - going pro is different. I have about 15 venues I work in so I am not just limited to one or two types of Art venues. My pieces when I wasn't trying to sell - I was doing 2k a month. I did something while I was in the corporate world of stocking up on supplies - and have 4 years for beading, 2 years + for paper crafting, 2 years for fabric and 1/2 year for metal/wood, the more easier one to actually get cheaply.
I've got already 400 items to take pictures of - post, samples of some very unique custom pieces I have done, and a gallery to show what I have sold in the past so folks get an idea of how unique my pieces are. Plus my daughter reminded me to make the crazy stuff that her friends all were so jealous of that she kept selling off her and I kept making more of.
I'm not going into this blind, I've done so much research, and set up, the thing I didn't really plan on was the cutover. In fact hindsight, I would not have, because I was just a bit too tied to status quo and less about the leap of faith.
I've got the network up and running. I have my first home party in two weeks just before one of the holidays I support.
This change also gave me an opportunity to regroup into the Spark system so I can actually build a routine around it. So now I am going to set aside time each day - specific time for doing the points because they are motivators, even if I didn't see that earlier.
Saturday, July 27, 2013
I spent 5 hours with the Grandson today (He's autistic) - we're making significant progress in how long before he melts down. The original plans were to go to Fairyland and have a picnic, but my knee has been bothering me the last two weeks and just when I think it's back under control, poof it flares up again and I can barely walk. (Old injury that somehow has been aggravated with the weight loss) Anyway, it was a beautiful windy day for kite flying so we went down by the water and had a lovely picnic and flew kites.
One of the other things he loves that I do is blow bubbles. For me its so relaxing and stress relieve to blow bubbles (I think I developed the habit after quitting smoking*. But it was just fun with the new wands I bought.
I just wish my knee would stop hurting. Its killing my ability to bike or walk. Need to look at the chair exercise to see what I can do for cardio.
Saturday, July 27, 2013
This last month I stopped doing Spark. I found myself dreading having to go through the effort to capture everything for my food, do all the points projects for the day, and such where I actually after a few days of missing because I became sick, realized I had lost focus.
I was no longer doing this for me, but caught into yet another holic behavior trap. I found myself frustrated, beating myself up when I didn't get all the points I could. So I stopped. I sorted out what I wanted from Spark and decided that I need more blogging, water, exercise, walking, ideas, and easy way to track food so its not an hour adding in ingredients to calculate calories. I'm more interested in eating patterns, not calories.
Mine has never been about calories, mine has been about lack of exercise, lack of making time for ME to make these commitments to myself.
For example my body has been waking up an hour before I have to. I have an exercise bike, - who cares if I ride and I am zombie brain.... somehow I do.
Anyway, skip the points, skip the trophies - this is supposed to be a tool to help me, not stress me out.
Sunday, June 23, 2013
I love fresh bread, hot, just from the oven. Doesn't even matter what kind, rye, wheat, sour dough, white, brown, corn, I LOVE fresh hot steaming bread, rolls, loaves, rounds. Most of the time just with some butter, on occasion for some kinds, jam or a jelly, but there are the savoring flavor, smell, texture, its just wonderful.
However, I am finding out I have some kind of bread allergy, since I started cutting bread out of my diet. All my life I have had this heavy bloated feeling, never really thought anything of it, until I went on this cleansing aspect of cutting out specific processed items from my diet.
Sugar was the first to go, and we're doing to 10% of the sugar intake I used to have and even that at times doesn't sit right.
Most processed box foods are gone from my diet (Rice a roni is one of the few remaining ones).
It is harder with soups (campbells is still a very large part of my cooking)
But when we came to bread, I was pretty okay with it, except recently. I had cut out 90% so I would have bread maybe once or twice a week for something (breakfast sandwich, dinner roll, pita for hummus) but I found I really miss the homemade bread I was doing for myself before I started this.
I'm worried if I add it back in, that horrible heavy bloated feeling will come back, but I sooooo miss that smell, taste, texture, sitting with a nice cup of coffee for breakfast.
And no, I don't have a gluten allergy because I can eat other foods with gluten in it and I don't feel the same heavy. Most think it is a wheat allergy, but then that would not explain rice bread, rye bread or corn bread having the same sensation after eating them.
Monday, May 27, 2013
Last week I was going to write a blog on 'bad week' and how difficult it is to bounce back. My week started out with two of my dear friends having heart attacks, however only one survived. (Both were/are my husband's age).
In turn I got really bored with my normal lunch and bought lunch from the company (we have a subsidized lunch program) and went well over my calorie count. Then I got sick, and a few other things went wrong, including a meltdown at work. Add to that two days last week couldn't get on the Sparks pages to write, so my login streaks went belly up.
Then my boss posted something to the team 'Winners have a plan, Losers have explanations.'
I almost stormed into his office and told him who insulted I was by his post - but he was home sick.
So I have been thinking about it. Bad week? Is that an explanation. Yes. No plan to recover, no reminder its okay to experience the feelings and pain, but the plan to go forward just wasn't there.
Yes, I lost a dear friend. Not going to lessen the pain, but it isn't going to change the fact he's gone. Plan - move forward, live, since I am alive. Live life as best as I can.
SO last week happened. Last week I ate what I felt like, though I did record it, I just ate what I felt like. - Done. Back on the plan. Back taking the walks, doing my yoga, and stretching.
Back eating better, smaller portions, feeling less bloated because I cut out the bread, the sweets, the sugars.
Back to the Plan.
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