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Friday, February 14, 2014

Today I was trying on a new out fit I had gotten in the mail. As I looked at myself I was reminded of the quote above, There are so many things I have let go of to become the person I am today. I unloaded Ben & Jerry's from my suit case. I knew that they were not my best friend.........but my worst enemy as they helped make me fat. I also ended my love affair with M&M's as they served me no purpose other than to make me miserable. I gave up drinking as God tapped me on the shoulder and said "I have a better way" and I found Jesus. Through therapy I unloaded an abusive childhood and bad marriage. So now packing around my suit case is a lot lighter......60 lbs. to be exact as that is how much weight I lost. I say 60 lbs. because I ate my way and drank my way to that weight. I ate and drank due to that abusive childhood plus bad marriage. I am so thankful to God for all of his help. I am also thankful for Dennis being around for all of this. He's helped unload some of my suitcase. So now I feel pounds lighter.....

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BRENDAGAIL9 2/14/2014 11:09AM

    Have a great Valentine's Day and don't forget to love yourself. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Brenda in Chehalis, WA

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144AUTUMN 2/14/2014 2:13AM

  You can do it!!

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EMSSBEARS 2/14/2014 12:44AM

    emoticon emoticon That is an excellent way to look at it and I am so proud of you for making it to where you want to be and for having someone there with you to support you. Congratulations for all you have given up, for all you have lost and more important for all you have gained - your life back.


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Dark Thirty

Thursday, January 16, 2014

I have the start of a nasty cold. I haven't slept well due to coughing a lot so I have been awake since dark thirty....For me that means time to think. I thought about all the things I had planned today. By now I would be at the gym running on a treadmill since the belt on mine broke. I was able to sign up for 2 months then I will be running outside. I also thought about how I will be missing weight lifting class. I love that class so much and I can see how much stronger I am getting. I love that. I realized that I need to be well rested to lift weights. I use my brain more lifting weights than any other workout I do. I believe that good form is important and when I am tired that isn't possible for me. I do know that I also had a date with myself to walk to town to deposit my paycheck. Now that I believe I can do that once I get some rest. While I have been up I have had time to think about my life style change and the positive effects I have had. I remember the time I went shopping for blue jeans. I was so excited to bring home a size 9. I had been double digits in clothing all of my adult life. I even got up to a size 16/18. Now being that size did not feel good physically or emotionally. I had a hard time getting around and doing the simplest things like tying my shoes. I did not like what I saw in the mirror. I knew I had to change this. So when I came home with those size 9's I knew I was on the right track. I was grateful for those size 9's that day but to be honest I don't want to go back there. I love living in my size 1's. I do know for me it's not about the number. I have learned that in this life style change it's about good health. So being smaller is good for my arthritis. That extra weight was hard on my joints. When I was heavier I had asthma too so now that is gone. I also know that my clean eating life style has helped too as my hypoglycemia is better. I don't find it hard to stay this size. The only fight I have is other people telling me that I am too skinny. It's not about being too skinny it's all about my health. Hopefully when I build some more serious muscles people will stop calling me too skinny. But if they don't I say "go get some tissues and deal with your issues" I am doing this for me and my health so I don't care what you think. As I sit here I can tell that the thinking about things is mostly gone so now I am getting tired. I knew that would happen. So I am off for the rest I need as that is good for a healthy life style too.

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FENWAYGIRL18 1/16/2014 2:49PM

    I think sometimes people get jealous of ones success with weight loss even if they don't really have an issue. It means your stronger then them in some way and they take it as them not being good enough.
You've come a long way Terri don't let anyone make you feel bad about getting healthy, you are a very STRONG person and you'll beat this cold and soon be back doing all the things you love!
I wish you a speedy recovery my friend! emoticon

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BRENDAGAIL9 1/16/2014 9:49AM

    Great thinking!, I too, hate it when others share their opinion as to what someone else should do. This is our life and no one else can live it. We make our own choices and I prefer mine are healthy. We have so many baked goods downstairs all the time. I watch others eat them and they urge me to join and I just tell them, no thank you. That isn't something I can eat

Have a good day.


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I need

Sunday, December 29, 2013

I have had an emotionally bad day so I need to remember this. I also need to remember that I can't change my past I can only change how I deal with it every day. I need to turn the negative into a positive. Sometimes for me that's easier said than done. I have tried today to do that..........It hasn't helped much. But I keep on trying. As I am off to bed I do have to remember that I have a God who's bigger than any of my problems. A God who loves me and that through this all I will be ok. I also have to remember to look for personal joy in my life. I get to use my new workout toy in the morning. I bought myself a workout bar with resistance bands attached to it. Love the thought of trying it out. I also know that when I have one of these days rest is important so now I am off to bed.

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FENWAYGIRL18 12/30/2013 12:05AM

    Always remember you have spark friends here that will listen if you need to vent, your cared for here Terri. I hope you have a better day tomorrow and enjoy the new bar! emoticon

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SUNSHINE99999 12/29/2013 11:52PM

  I hope you sleep well. emoticon

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Happy Birthday..........Blues

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

I love this time of year as I do know that it is Jesus's birthday coming up on the 25th. I love all the pretty colors that come with it. I love seeing beautiful decorated Christmas trees. I love looking at all the lights on peoples houses. I love seeing nativity scenes out in yards. I love making peanut brittle and fudge to give away as gifts. For those reasons I love Christmas. But there is one BIG reason I HATE this time of year. I battle the winter blues so bad. I hate the fact I feel so closed in my own home. I feel like the walls are closing in on me. I feel so all alone......I do know that I am not alone as other people battle this too. I am doing my best to deal with this. I keep going to weight lifting class. I keep running on my treadmill. I am still working my 2 part time jobs. I also make sure to not eat from the blues........filling my diet with good healthy clean foods. I do know that every year I face this. Some years it's worse than others and this year is a little worse. It doesn't help that I live where we have cold weather and snow. One morning at 6 a.m. I looked out the window and my thermometer said it was -2 degrees. It doesn't help that the cold weather effects my arthritis and my joints hurt. I do know that being stuck in my home due to the weather doesn't help either. I do know that having a plan helps some. So I have a 1000 piece jig saw puzzle that I will be putting together soon. Each year around October I go puzzle shopping as I do know that the winter blues are coming. I do the puzzle once, then give it a new home.........and the next October go shopping for a new one. For me it's money well spent. So during this month when people are doing the count down to Christmas me........Well I am doing the count down to spring..........

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DARLENEK04 12/23/2013 1:23AM

  We have gloomy days here in Alabama also, and I agree with Dede.....on
the lights...some people are really helped by them, and if they help with your
blues then it would be a worthwhile experience.


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DEDE824 12/11/2013 11:21PM

    Have you tried using the full-spectrum lights? Many people do better when they use them. We live in TX and see the sun a lot during the winter, but when we go for a week or so without sun, I really have cabin fever. South TX or Florida sound great!!

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FENWAYGIRL18 12/11/2013 11:11PM

    I'm with you I hate this time of the year because of all the pain it causes and because you can't really go out that much because it's freezing!!!!!!!!! I love being in the garden at least and seeing all the colors.
Maybe we should be living in Florida hahahahaha God bless you Terri! emoticon

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One Hell OF A Ride............

Saturday, November 30, 2013

As I was running on my treadmill I was thinking about my life. This message above explains where I am at today. My life has been one hell of a ride. I do know that sometimes it comes up to bite me hard. I feel that today is one of those days. But I do also know I don't let it stop me from doing what I need to do. So that is why I was on my treadmill as I do know it's good for me. I am big believer in taking care of myself. I have said that this is my body God gave me so I should take care of it. I get to design it........with God's help of course. For me I am smart enough to know that not only my physical body I need to take care of but my mental health as well. I do know that today my mental health could use some attention. So I am going to take care of it as well. One way I do that is surround my self with positive people. I also make positive choices and try hard to be kind to myself. I do know that I like celebrating Christmas....Jesus's birthday so today I am going shopping for some new decorations for my home. Some little nice things will help with that. When my home looks nice I feel better too. So I have a shopping date with myself after weight lifting class this morning which I am off to soon. This life I have been allowed to have is all about how I handle it.........think about it in a positive way.............and how I react to it. I can't change the life I've been given I can only change how I deal with it. So I am off to go deal with it in a positive way at weight lifting class............

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LOWCARBRENEE 11/30/2013 11:25AM

    Love these!

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