Wednesday, February 02, 2011
I'm sitting here wondering to myself when am I going to buckle down and just do this whole weight loss healthy lifestyle thing. If there is one thing that I am good at, it would be excuses. And procrastination comes in 2nd. How long have I been on this journey now you may ask? Well, 3 years and about a week to be exact. If you followed my progress, then you know that the first year I was on the ball. The past 2 years though have been nothing but a giant struggle. I lose weight, gain weight, eat healthy, eat terrible, go to the gym faithfully, or don't go at all for months at a time. And all of these things is the exact reason why I am still stuck in the 180s, still not eating like I should, and still not going to the gym as much as I should.
I know that you want honesty, so here it is. To be honest, right now I am sitting here thinking about how I would love to stop at Wendy's when I leave work and get a cheeseburger and possibly some fries. I went to the gym today and the past 2 days before this, but my eating habits are still pretty much the same. Do I know that I do NOT need to get a cheeseburger? Absolutely. Does it stop me from wanting one? Absolutely NOT! I am terrible with self control. I'm not sure what to do to change this crappy way of thinking that I have going on, but I am fed up with myself at this point. I really need to find my balance and my discipline that I had during the first year of this journey. I really need that back!