Wednesday, May 08, 2013
I can't wait until next week. Come Monday I will start walking again. Walking, oh how much I miss you. I also miss my little friend called nature. I will be so happy to get back out walking. It is something I have enjoyed since I was a child.
I remember when I was younger my sister and I would go on walks, or I would just walk my dog. And I won't ever forget when we went camping. My sister and I would go exploring to see what we could see.
I hope once I get back into walking I will start seeing some of the results I want to see. Of course walking won't be my only workout for the day but it is back when I was walking that I really started to see a transformation in my body. And I want that again. I know my journey is just about losing weight. I know it is about becoming a stronger, healthier person. But with my depression the shredded weight and the body changes are a huge part of my journey right now.
Right now a lot of the changes I have gotten haven't been with my weight. Since I have started back up I have lost 10lbs. and the scale keeps jumping back in forth between two numbers, with a 5lbs. difference. But the biggest changes I have seen so far is that I am not tired all the time and well my back seems to be a lot stronger. As I don't go everyday with a sore back all day anymore. And that inside itself is a big change and a great accomplishment for me. I didn't think I would ever be able to go a day were my back wouldn't be in pain again, and I am so happy that has changed for me.
Also another great change I have noticed is that I am really starting to love myself more. I know my first time around that was a huge struggle for me. But I know that that person I see in the mirror does not have to define who I am. Also I know that I am working to change that person I see in the mirror. And I know now that even if I fall down I can get back up and keep pushing forward.
I am still learning so much about me and how to love myself but I am so proud of myself for how far I have come and realizing how far I have come. I am very thankful that I found sparkpeople and I am thankful for the people I have met on here because truthfully without the support I have found here I don't know where I would be.
Well that is all for now. I hope everyone is doing well.