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I'm alive and I'm back and this is really difficult.

Sunday, February 09, 2014

I will start off by saying I have had some really bad experiences over the past several months and I have gained a lot of weight. My scale is broken and I don't actually know how much weight I have gained, and I'm afraid to step on a scale. I have refused to weigh in even at doctor's appointments.

I won't go into every detail of what happened, but here are some highlights:

I have mentioned before that I struggle with PTSD and bouts of depression. I will sometimes go through phases when I become almost catatonic. I felt one of these bouts coming on, and I went on a drug called Abilify to help. I had been on a similar drug before with no problems at all, and Abilify is supposed to be less likely to cause any issues, so I wasn't concerned about side effects. At first it helped, but then it started making me gain weight -- RAPIDLY. I gained ten pounds in a week. I didn't freak out about it at first. I thought, "oh, it's just water, perhaps I ate something salty" but then the weight never came off. Then a bit later it happened again -- ten pounds in a week. Then again. I got off of the medication. I stopped tracking my food because the drug made me ravenous. I was eating FAR too much but I really, truly could not help it. It was a very bizarre hunger. I could eat a large meal and two hours later I would be hungry enough to eat another large meal. I had trouble sleeping because I would lie in bed and be so HUNGRY. I had dreams about eating. It was terrible.

I know some of you may be skeptical that this would happen, but I have a friend who gained 61 pounds in about seven weeks with a similar drug. My weight gain was less than that and happened over about three months.

Now, this would be bad for ANYONE, but I have multiple endocrinological disorders, and it threw off my whole body chemistry. I am finally just now starting to get that under control.

Shortly after that, I had another traumatic incident that I don't want to get into. But something bad and stressful happened and it made me feel bad about myself, and it made it difficult to take care of myself.

THEN MORE STUFF HAPPENED. One morning in June 2013, I woke up with a sharp pain in my chest. I could barely move and it hurt to breathe. Once I figured out that I wasn't having a heart attack, I did some Google searches to find out what it was. I thought I had developed a rib inflammation, and all of the medical web sites I saw suggested rest. I didn't go to a doctor immediately. I know this will sound silly, I really know that, but I was afraid to go to the doctor because I didn't want them to see how much weight I had gained. I was so ashamed. I was devastated. I was so embarrassed and afraid that I didn't go to the doctor for chest pain, and it looked like it was costochondritis which resolves itself anyway, so no worries right? WRONG. Almost eight months later, I am still in pain every day. Any kind of exercise hurts. I have lost a lot of strength on the right side of my body. I finally got the courage to go to the doctor, but no one can figure out what it is. My X-rays showed nothing. I have good days and bad days, but I'm in pain every day and I don't know why. I hadn't lifted weights for a week when it happened, and I literally just woke up with this pain in my chest and it extends to my shoulder and back. It feels like someone shot an arrow through me. I've been scheduled for physical therapy, but again, no one knows what it is or why my muscles don't work on the upper right side of my body.

Needless to say, being in constant pain added to my poor mental state.

I moved in July. I am low income and it took me FOUR YEARS to find an apartment. I was so excited because I found a beautiful apartment in a neighborhood I like. It's a secure building and I have a washer/dryer and dishwasher, and it was recently remodeled. I never have to take the bus anymore because I'm close to everything. Then more awful things happened.

After I moved (which was a terrible experience with my chest/arm pain), I bought myself a bottle of cheap wine to relax. I had probably two glasses before bed and I went to sleep. I woke up with a rash. I had used a lot of cleaning products the day before, and I'd had the wine, and I figured I was allergic to one of those things. I became concerned after a couple of weeks when I noticed that my rash wasn't healing, and also it seems to keep replenishing itself.

After four weeks in this apartment, I discovered the problem: BED BUGS. They were here when I moved in. They took over EVERYTHING. I had to throw away a lot of things, including my bed. I sleep on the floor, which has only exacerbated my chronic pain problems. Just trying getting up from a lying-down position when your have severe muscle pain on one side of your body.

It gets so much worse. My landlord was very, very slow in addressing the problem. I live in a condo building and there is no on-site manager, so I'm very concerned about how in the world they are going to deal with this problem on the scale of the building. It's a HUGE building and there are many different landlords and many different homeowners. For reasons I don't understand, we have been dealing with a lot of incompetence when it comes to exterminators, and I've been waiting for proper extermination since AUGUST. I have been suffering with this since AUGUST. I'm covered in bites, literally from my head to my toes, which really doesn't help my self-esteem that has been affected by this weight gain. I know all of the home remedies and I practice them, but there's only so much that can be done until I get proper extermination. The exterminator came once in November, but they never did a follow-up appointment (even though they were paid for one) so I got re-infested. I'm totally miserable. Between the pain and the bites and not being able to sit on furniture, I am physically uncomfortable in every way possible.

Oh, but it gets worse!

Starting in October, one of my neighbors started acting weird. His behavior became more and more erratic, and it soon became apparent that he is suffering from psychosis. Unfortunately, a lot of his delusions seem to be directed at me. I have NO idea why -- I have never talked to him or interacted with him.

He believes that I break into his apartment and spy on him. He comes to my door and yells a lot of vulgar stuff at me. He slams doors and screams at all hours. I called the police, and he acted normal and they left him with a warning. He told the police that he had just been playing the radio loud. Once the cops left, he came up to my door and called me lots of obscene things I can't type on SparkPeople. I have started recording the things he yells and I played them for my landlord (who THANK HEAVENS is also this guy's landlord) and they are thinking of evicting him, but that takes a long time because he hasn't attacked me or anything. He does, however, scream profanities and vague (and some not-vague) threats. He talks to himself and gets into arguments with people who aren't there. He screams and it's terrifying. Two other people have complained but nothing has been done for some reason.

It's getting worse and I'm afraid even to take out my garbage. I will have to move if he isn't evicted, but if he's evicted, he'll still know where I live so that's not so great, either. He frequently yells things like "B**** I WILL KILL YOU" at no one in particular.

On my 34th birthday I felt stronger than I've ever felt in my life. On my 35th birthday I just felt like a shell. I have socially isolated myself. I can't really do a lot of exercise and I let my gym membership lapse, but I am going to start it up again. I need to start tracking my food again. I really need a lot of help this time.

My elderly cat is slowly dying, as well, and that is yet another problem.

One of the more important things that SparkPeople taught me before is that you won't want to take care of yourself if you hate yourself, and right now I hate myself. I have to undo this damage if I ever want to feel right again.

So, that's my life, currently! I hope I have something better to report, soon. I should reset all of my SP counters because I can't look back on what WAS without beating myself up about what IS.

  
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RISINGBLUESTAR 5/26/2014 7:43AM

    Rib and chest wall pain hurt extremely badly. I know because it happened to me. It's mostly from stress and the pain is excruciating! I started taking a med that was suppose to be weight neutral but gained 20 lbs and it takes me forever to get weight off due to endocrine issues as well.

I am sorry about all the pother stuff that occurred. I will hoe the best to for you!

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JCARDINAL 2/10/2014 2:03PM

    Wow, you have really had a horrible time of it. I'm so sorry all this has been happening to you. I pray things will start getting better. emoticon

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TIME4CARRI 2/10/2014 1:34PM

    Oh. My. Gosh.
When it rains it pours for sure. You are not mistaken, I just had a conversation with two friends who gained weight rapidly on Abilify. One gained 35 pounds in a month and now has fatty liver and the other was told by her doctor that she is just eating too much when she tracked and monitored and still gained. It's hard though because when you're depressed you want help! My family over 20 years has had scabies once and lice twice and I understand how isolating and self-conscious it can make you. It also doesn't help with insomnia and it just feels like it will never ever end but I promise you it does eventually. You did the right thing by logging on and getting back to a community. I'm sorry for all you are going through at the moment I've also had crazy neighbor...sheesh. It sucks! One tiny little change at a time will add up and one day, he will be gone, bedbugs will be gone, pain will subside and you will be moving and full of endorphins again and the light will return. Keep logging in even on the hard days. There is much support here. emoticon

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MISSROCKABILLY 2/10/2014 1:16PM

    I'm so sorry to hear of everything that you have been going through. No one should have to deal with what you are living through with your neighbor and the infestation. I'm glad to see that you are back here though and hope that you can come here any time for support.
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BEEBEA 2/9/2014 10:40PM

    Wow, that is really scary, crappy stuff! I don't understand why it seems like life piles it all on at once sometimes! Please, do whatever you can to take care of yourself. Celebrate ANYTHING kind you do for yourself, little bit at a time! :( Hugs to you.

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MNCYCLIST 2/9/2014 10:35PM

    I'm praying for you! Hang in there and just keep taking one positive step at a time. Thanks so much for sharing a little of your heart here.

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POOKASLUAGH 2/9/2014 9:52PM

    Oh my gosh. Oh I'm so sorry to read all this! I was happy to see your blog, and then I started reading...and oh oh oh. This is dreadful.

I completely believe you on the Abilify thing. I know people that's happened to. I think that's a frequent side effect of the drug. My docs wanted me to take it at one point, but I refused because I was at my highest weight then and borderline diabetic, and they said that it interacted with blood sugar and could cause diabetes in someone who was already close. :( Were you able to find a different medicine to help?

As for the chest pain, I developed costochondritis back in 2010 and was affected by it for a very, very long time, but it never affected anywhere except my chest/rib region. Have you tried eliminating foods one at a time to see if maybe you've developed a food allergy? I'm sure you've tried a bajillion things. I only mention this in specific because I was getting really bad bone/joint pain for a long time and finally tested the right food, and it turned out that particular food (gluten) was also the reason I had skin problems (severe acne and eczema), headaches, and the insomnia that you probably remember me complaining about. I just wonder if maybe you're having a triggered reaction to some sort of new allergy.

Your neighbor and apartment issues...gah that sounds so scary. :( With your recordings, will the police help??

I'll be thinking about you. Keep us updated. I hope we can be your lifeline here on Spark. *hugs*

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144AUTUMN 2/9/2014 7:48PM

  You can do it!!

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RYDERB 2/9/2014 7:20PM

    emoticon I'm so sorry. No one should have to go through so much alone. I'm so glad that you're ready to let go of the shame or guilt that you've been feeling and take as much control back as you can. I pray your landlord and the police will do their part to help you eliminate all the stress of your living situation. Home is suppose to be a sanctuary. February is the perfect time to start working on developing your self-love. And we're all here to help you. Just remember, one day at a time.
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No Progress Is Still Kinda Like Progress

Thursday, November 22, 2012

My weight hasn't changed much since August. I've actually gained a pound or two. I'm still not weighing myself, but I did catch a glimpse of my weight at the doctor's office last week -- I was 150 while fully clothed and after eating a couple of meals. I haven't been exercising as much, and my eating hasn't been so great either, so I'm not expecting big results until I really buckle down and change my diet.

However, I am excited about one thing -- my size is stable for the first time ever. I haven't bought "nice" clothes in years and I always have multiple wardrobes in varying sizes in order to accommodate my yo-yo dieting. This is embarrassing to say, but until this past year, I had never worn the same size clothing for more than three months straight. I've almost never worn out a piece of clothing. I always get rid of my clothes after not being able to get into them for a while. From a very young age my weight fluctuated a lot -- I was ALWAYS either gaining or losing. It's actually kind of nice to be stable, and I'm close enough to my goal that if I buy certain styles of clothing I know they will still fit me even if I lose 10-15 lbs.

I am slowly getting over my anxiety over shopping at stores that don't have a plus-size line. Even though I am well aware of my size, I imagine that if I buy clothes from (or even enter) a "regular" store, that somehow I'll magically gain 50 pounds in five minutes and nothing will fit. I'm probably five pounds too heavy to get into a size 8, so this anxiety is getting a bit ridiculous. I bought some size M tops from Victoria's Secret and they fit nicely! I can't weight to get more clothes without feeling compelled to shop at thrift stores or Ross because I'm worried I won't be able to wear my clothes for more than three months.

I'm still 15 lbs above a healthy BMI, and my body fat, while lower than one would expect for someone my height and weight, is still higher than I would like. I may not be able to get all the way down to 130, but I should be at a healthy body fat percentage in the mid-130s.

I'm getting there slowly, but I'm okay where I am.

  
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CATS_MEOW_0911 12/6/2012 7:28PM

    Yay for maintaining a stable size and getting to shop at "regular" stores!

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RYDERB 11/28/2012 1:16PM

    You're amazing! You've come so far and you WILL get this DONE. Enjoy the journey! Hope you had a nice Thanksgiving.
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DESYACV2 11/28/2012 5:54AM

    that's awesome that you are maintaining for a couple of months now as oppose to before, that is a big improvement. emoticon

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BILL60 11/23/2012 9:24AM

    Hang tough and "Do It".

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BEECHNUT13 11/22/2012 3:52PM

    I have a great wardrobe right now because I've been around the same weight for over two years... but I would like it to get too big! ;)

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JCARDINAL 11/22/2012 12:14PM

    Happy Thanksgiving Juliana!! You can do this!

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EUEK098 11/22/2012 11:36AM

    emoticon, you can shop without the fear, you worked so hard to get to the point you're at, try your best and you'll be used to your new body in no time.

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POOKASLUAGH 11/22/2012 8:07AM

    I think maintaining like that *is* a really good progress step. Especially if you've been dealing with injuries like you have!

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SARASMILING 11/22/2012 6:59AM

    You will get there!! WE will get there!!! Happy Thanksgiving! emoticon emoticon emoticon We can't give up! We HAVE to emoticon !
(Yes, I needed to pep-talk myself too) :)

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CORTNEY-LEE 11/22/2012 1:47AM

    I know I am having a lot of the same issues right now. I walk into stores and I don't feel like I belong there. My first time in American Eagle, I thought I was going to have an anxiety attack! I swore the sales people were looking at me questioning if I belonged there.

I still haven't had the courage to buy anything from a "skinny" only store. Most of what I am wearing now has come from places with mixed sizes, but that is also because I don't want to spend a lot of money since I still have about 25 pounds more to go.

I think you are doing a wonderful job!

The change in the weather (At least in Pennsylvania) has made my daily bike rides few and further between and I now find myself going to the gym a lot more. Don't worry, you will find an awesome groove that works for you!

Keep up the awesome work!!!!!

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ZRIE014 11/22/2012 12:38AM

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A 100 lb difference -- I can't believe this was me.

Monday, November 05, 2012

I don't have a lot of pictures of myself at my heaviest weight. I avoided the camera a lot back then. I didn't get out much so there weren't many occasions to take pictures of me, anyway.

I was looking for a specific picture today, and I found quite a few pictures of me taken in 2002-2003, which is when I was at my heaviest.

This picture was definitely taken in 2002. I'm not sure I what I weighed, but probably around 250 lbs:




Now, I realize that in addition to my size, I'm wearing a bulky sweater and this picture was taken at an unflattering angle, but I still can't believe that's what I looked like ten years ago when I was about 23 or 24 years old. I don't look much better in other pictures taken from better angles.

That sweater was a size 24W sweater from Lane Bryant.

Here's a recent picture of me at size 10 (age 33):



  
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MSILVER94 2/11/2013 7:51PM

    WOW! Great motivation! You look amazing!!! Very motivating!

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CORTNEY-LEE 11/22/2012 1:40AM

    i had that same sweater in purple I am pretty sure!

You look awesome!

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RISINGBLUESTAR 11/21/2012 4:25AM

    Amazing difference. I hope with time, I can have the same level of success. :)
Way to go! :)

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SGTSUNNY 11/15/2012 5:13PM

    Wow, amazing!

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AMBER281 11/15/2012 4:30PM

    What a difference. You look great

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ADZY86 11/15/2012 9:01AM

    Amaaaaaaaazing!

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GEMINIGEM6 11/15/2012 4:47AM

    OMG you look awesome!! Congrats!!

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BRTRAINS 11/11/2012 6:50PM

    Wow an amazing transformation!! Keep up the good w emoticon ork

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DESYACV2 11/11/2012 2:26AM

    wow way to go. what an inspiration. emoticon

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C8TSON 11/7/2012 9:58AM

    Thank you for sharing this!! emoticon You look awesome!!! It is stories just like yours that helps us out here to stay motivated! emoticon

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DATMAMA4 11/6/2012 6:51PM

    What an incredible change! You look ten years younger, not ten years older.

Congratulations on the payoff for all that hard work and diligence!

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MILLIE5522 11/6/2012 4:39PM

    You look amazing! Well done! Fantastic achievement!

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MNNICE 11/6/2012 4:13PM

    Congratulations on taking control of your weight, your health and your life! Wish I'd've done it at your age instead of waiting till I was 50!

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CAKEMAKERMOM 11/6/2012 2:49PM

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ABRANDNEWME09 11/6/2012 1:32PM

    AMAZING!!! Congrats :)

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JITZUROE 11/6/2012 12:34PM

    GORGEOUS!!!!
Amazing. Your determination truly paid off.

We all applaud you!!
Bren

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NURSEPIRT 11/6/2012 10:42AM

    WOW You look great. That's inspiring. Congrats on your success.

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EUEK098 11/6/2012 10:32AM

    Wow, amazing!!! Have I said you inspire me!!! Cos you do!!!

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CHERYLANDERICA 11/6/2012 9:52AM

    Wow!! What a difference! You look amazing!! Congrats on the 100lb loss!!

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RYDERB 11/6/2012 8:32AM

    emoticon You're so beautiful and you look so much younger now at 33 then you did then. emoticon
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CARAFAE37 11/6/2012 8:27AM

    You know, you look younger in the bottom pic! emoticon

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SUSIQZER 11/6/2012 7:16AM

    Look at you! Beautiful!!!

Congratulations on all of your hard work paying off!!

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BILL60 11/6/2012 7:14AM

    Super well done!! You should be very proud of your incredible accomplishment.

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BEECHNUT13 11/6/2012 6:45AM

    You look 10 years younger!

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REMEMBER2BME 11/6/2012 6:40AM

    AND look at that smile. You look amazing! Way to go!
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LIFEISPURRFECT 11/6/2012 6:34AM

    What an awesome accomplishment. Continue your positive, healthy lifestyle!

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SARASMILING 11/6/2012 6:12AM

    Gorgeous!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon So proud of you!!!

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AMSPARKER 11/6/2012 4:14AM

    beautiful!

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MAMADWARF 11/6/2012 12:05AM

    Amazing transformation...great job!

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GMO_JEN 11/5/2012 11:38PM

    Way to go!

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MAKINGITCOUNT91 11/5/2012 11:21PM

    Girl, you are looking FABULOUS in your 30s! Truly, truly beautiful, confident, and happy! You are looking so gorgeous! My starting weight was 320 lbs in March of this year and I have already lost 89 lbs, so I'm now only 11 lbs from the big 100 lb mark! Then I'm going to keep on going until I hit 145 lbs (at least)! Thanks for the blog post, you are looking so gorgeous woman!!! :)

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PURPLE180 11/5/2012 10:59PM

    emoticon You look FAB!

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TUBLADY 11/5/2012 10:30PM

    Amazing, youthful , radiant. Happy for you.
The before picture looks older ,. But I'm sure people notice how beautiful and young you look now.
Be strong, stay positive.
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NELLBELLA26 11/5/2012 9:56PM

    You look fabulous. So stylish and chic and radiant! You just look lighter in every sense. Great job! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BEACHBUM4LIFE 11/5/2012 9:55PM

    Congratulations on your results!!!

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DAWNESS0404 11/5/2012 9:43PM

    You look amazing! Great before and after pics!

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CATS_MEOW_0911 11/5/2012 9:16PM

    You have made amazing healthy changes!

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JENCANTA 11/5/2012 8:53PM

    Congratulations! You look so great. Thanks for the inspiration. =D

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JMC155 11/5/2012 8:50PM

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CAGMUAHFO2 11/5/2012 8:36PM

    Look at you!! Hot momma!! You look absolutely amazing!!!!

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MJ7DM33 11/5/2012 8:36PM

  You go girl!!! You look amazing!!! Your hard work has definitely paid off!!!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 11/5/2012 8:29PM

    You look amazing!!!!!

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IMSMILEY88 11/5/2012 8:10PM

    WOW!!! What a transformation ! Great job! And, you do look younger now!

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JCARDINAL 11/5/2012 7:53PM

    Congratulations!! You look fantastic!! emoticon

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NEWRUNNINGSHOES 11/5/2012 7:50PM

    What an amazing accomplishment! You look beautiful and healthy!!

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SOFT_VAL67 11/5/2012 7:03PM

    amazing, i have lost close to 50lbs, but my sizes arent dropping as quickly as i would like, i need to amp up my toning workouts and try to lose more inches.
but you look amazing!!! emoticon

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LILLEAN 11/5/2012 6:50PM

    emoticon you've done well emoticon

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 11/5/2012 6:42PM

    Wow, the difference is amazing... doesn't even look like you!! I hope you're very proud of yourself for working so hard!!

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OHCHOCOLATE 11/5/2012 6:06PM

    Congratulations!! WOW!

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No-Weigh November

Saturday, November 03, 2012

In addition to my regular weekly goals, I'm not going to weigh myself for the month of November. I'm getting a little obsessive about the scale and it's depressing me. Also, if I see a "bad" number I get depressed, but if I see a "good" number I feel better about letting myself slack a bit.

So, I'm just going to avoid it for a month. I put my scale at the back of my closet. So far so good. I weighed myself on Halloween and I was 149. I was retaining a ton of water so I didn't update my ticker.

I'm also going to go through the whole month without any alcohol at all. I like to have wine on the weekends when I watch TV (and sometimes during the week) but I'm abstaining for now. Wish me luck!

  
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RISINGBLUESTAR 11/21/2012 4:27AM

    It's a good idea not to weigh yourself sometimes. I also put the scale away this month. I wanted to give the Metformin more of a chance & I also wanted to try & stay away from the frustration.

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EUEK098 11/6/2012 10:34AM

    Good Luck, am also trying to leave alcohol out of the equation.

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AMBER281 11/5/2012 4:05PM

    Good luck!

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-POLEDANCEGIRL- 11/5/2012 3:27PM

    Good luck!! You can do it!!

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SARASMILING 11/5/2012 6:20AM

    I don't update my ticker unless it's a loss to be honest. I look at it as more of a goal tracker. I'm way up right now and need to fight to get back. Cursid Halloween candy. :)

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JCARDINAL 11/4/2012 5:06PM

    No scale and no wine, you are courageous!! Good Luck! emoticon

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BILL60 11/4/2012 8:08AM

    Sounds like a plan. Hang tough!!

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POOKASLUAGH 11/3/2012 10:16PM

    Good luck! I once tried to put the scale away for three weeks, and failed after like three days. Here's to you having far more will power than me!!

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JAMBABY0 11/3/2012 8:41PM

    your doing fine good luck on your journey

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NANCYPAT1 11/3/2012 8:39PM

    It sounds like you are doing great. November and December are both great times to quit weighing and obsessing over the scale. If you make healthy choices, you will stay on track and YOU can do it.

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ANELAKANOA 11/3/2012 8:35PM

  You can do it!!! We both will keep each other on track! No scale no scale!!!

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New plan -- AGAIN

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

I really slacked off this month. I slacked off last month, too. I'm fortunate that the scale hasn't been too unkind. My weight fluctuates around the upper 140s.

I haven't been able to ride my bike because my pedals get really slippery in rain and I LIVE IN SEATTLE so that's a problem. I had good intentions -- I really was going to ride in the rain but I'm not comfortable with standing up on my pedals to go up hills, and again -- SEATTLE -- no matter where I go, I'm going to find hills. Also, my bike saddle is wobbly so I have to have someone look at it and I haven't gotten around to taking it to the shop.

No worries, though, I have a gym and I have fitness videos, so I need to revamp my plan and really take responsibility for my eating habits.

First of all, I am going to hit the gym three times a week: Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. I will do strength training for 30 minutes and then at least 60 of cardio.

On my days away from the gym, I will stick to bike rides (weather and bike saddle permitting) and Turbo Fire/Jillian Michaels DVDs. All in all I want to do five hours a week of cardio. I just have to keep on myself about food and stay away from alcohol!

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I was on a pretty good regimen of only having only about four drinks a month, but at some point that went by the wayside. Oops!

I still want to lose close to 20 lbs but given my size, hunger levels, thyroid disease, etc, it will probably take a while. Losing weight at 148 lbs is a bit more difficult than losing weight at 220 lbs. My eating habits haven't even changed all that much, but I get so hungry and I don't want to go through the whole deprivation thing again.

I need to cook more and eat more vegetables, so I'm going to try to make a trip to my local produce stand once a week. I was doing that for a while and it helped a lot.

So that's me, looking forward to the end of 2012 and beyond. I have no idea how long it will take to get these 15-20 lbs off!

  
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AMBER281 10/31/2012 11:28AM

    You've got a great plan.
I need to get my butt back in gear too!

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JANEMARIE77 10/30/2012 9:56PM

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JCARDINAL 10/30/2012 2:44PM

    You've got a good plan!! emoticon

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 10/30/2012 11:46AM

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DESERTJULZ 10/30/2012 10:10AM

    One day at a time... rebuild your healthy streak

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BILL60 10/30/2012 9:40AM

    Good plan. Now you have to execute that plan. Good luck!!

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SKINNIESOMEDAY 10/30/2012 9:30AM

    great blog and I reallyenjoyed reading it. You can do this,,, just keep onkeeping on and it will come off !

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POOKASLUAGH 10/30/2012 9:08AM

    Deprivation isn't good, so if you can do this without it, that's great. You already look very healthy, so you can take your time with those last 20. :)

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RYDERB 10/30/2012 8:50AM

    I completely understand your reluctance to ride in the rain. Safety first! Even if you had the fancy shoe clips for your pedals, you'd still have to worry about all the people that can't drive in the rain. emoticon
Fabulous new plan! I'm so proud of you! Just remember, you are NOT fighting this battle alone. We're all here with you, and we WILL get this DONE!
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SARASMILING 10/30/2012 7:02AM

    It is harder isn't it?! But we CAN do this!!! One day at a time! We can do it! emoticon

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SH9719 10/30/2012 2:01AM

    Your are on the right track. Adjustments in your plan are to be expected and should recharge your effort. Good luck.

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CORTNEY-LEE 10/30/2012 12:32AM

    sounds like you have a solid plan in place.

ps: I love your cat's costume! How adorable!

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CORNERKICK 10/30/2012 12:31AM

  Sounds like a good plan

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ZRIE014 10/30/2012 12:29AM

  since you can not do anything about the past, you should think positive and move on and get back on track. emoticon

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