Thursday, November 13, 2014
For years and years and years, I didn't go to my doctor because I was fat and I didn't want to have the talk about how I was fat (my doctor at the time would and did talk about how I needed to lose weight for like 30 min straight, even if I was at the doctor to have, say, a cyst in my ankle checked out). And instead of finding a new doctor that wouldn't harp on my needing to lose weight, I just didn't go.
The only person that hurt was me. My employers didn't care - they actually probably liked that I never went because it meant they didn't have to shell out the $$ for the coverage. My doctor didn't care - she had plenty of other patients to see. The person it hurt was me. Because I could have learned a lot about my body and didn't.
But as I was losing the weight, I realized I needed to make going to my doctor a priority as part of my healthy journey. I was still nervous about the weight thing, but I needed to think of ME and MY BODY and how I can get the best for ME.
I mention this because yesterday I went to the doctor and was diagnosed with shingles. Two years ago, that diagnosis may never have happened because I was too nervous to go to my real doctor. (I may have gone to urgent care, but who's to say?) But today, I have a doctor I can go to, tell what's wrong, and she will treat me. I am still considered obese, but my doctor never spent 30 min talking about how being obese could affect my health. Instead, she focused on my problem, gave me some remedies and drugs and let me on my way.
I'm not saying a doctor shouldn't have the "fat talk" with you. But there's a difference between a doctor who blames all your problems on your weight and won't treat you RIGHT NOW as you are and a doctor who is aware of your weight and will give you the meds and treatment you need.
I am so glad I found my doctor. I look back at early blog posts about how nervous I was going to see her and can compare to how relaxed I was to see her yesterday (minus being nervous about the shingles diagnosis - funny enough, just knowing that it was definitely shingles made me SO MUCH MORE RELAXED). My doctor is my right-hand man to keep good health. We are teammates, on my health journey. She isn't someone to dread, she isn't someone to fear.
I wish every single person could have a doctor like mine, and I just want to say to everyone: If your doctor doesn't listen to you or you are afraid of seeing him or her, stop going to him/her! (And I hope you can - I know there may be extenuating circumstances.) PLEASE go find a good doctor who listens to you, who is your shieldman, who can help you get good health.
Because YOU ARE WORTH IT!
Tuesday, November 04, 2014
It's belated, I know, but I wasn't feeling so good last week, and now, I am.
Whatever caused me to feel blue has washed over me, and I feel SO RELIEVED it is gone. DO NOT MISS AT ALL. I don't like being blue and down and negative; there is enough in this world to try to make us miserable, I want to live and enjoy my life as best as possible.
And THANK YOU everyone for your comments! I have no doubt that the combination of weather/food choices was probably making me feel the way I was.
Halloween was rough on me; I'll admit I indulged more than I should have. But you know, that's why we dust ourselves off and try again. I'm not letting that spill ruin my health. It's just a learning experience.
Thursday, October 30, 2014
I'm not exactly sure why, either. Is it the gloomy weather? Is it my eating habits? Exercise habits? Did something happen in my life that I'm not processing correctly.
I just wanted to explain why I haven't logged on. I haven't forgotten you guys, just trying to keep up the motivation and not get too bogged down in my blue feelings.
Tuesday, October 14, 2014
Life has been good, though last weekend was BUSY preparing for my aunt's boyfriend's birthday party!
Probably the best part, or at least one of the memorable ones for me, was when I decided to play chase with my cousin's son, a very energetic 6/7 year old. He chased me around the park shelter, and it took him several circuits before he caught up to me. And once he did, he had to sit down and take a bit of a breather - telling me that I should make another go at running.
This was an AWESOME moment for me! Two years ago, I didn't stand a CHANCE of running 1/2 a circuit of that shelter, much less the 2+ I did! And to outrun a 6/7 year-old?!
I've always said it's the small things that make it worth it, and that was most certainly true on Sunday. Losing weight isn't just about getting to this number on the scale or in my pants; it's been about opening a whole new world, one that I welcome with open arms.
Wednesday, October 08, 2014
Things got all wonky what with my vacation a while back, so pardon my departure! I have been trying to stay on plan, and while my weight loss has not been as much as I would have liked, I *AM* happy to report being down to 191.2 as of this morning! Which means I've lost nearly 9 pounds from 9/7 - not a remarkable or extraordinary amount, but given I went on vacation and splurged, I am just glad I didn't regain it all!!
Also, I saw a bunch of lovely, lovely Happy 1 Year Anniversary goodies and comments, which just warmed my heart! Thank you, everyone!
On one hand, I feel somewhat bad about celebrating my 1 Year Anniversary of Maintaining, given that I regained nearly 50 pounds. Almost as if I don't "deserve" to celebrate. However, I counter that negative thought by thinking, "Well, you didn't regain the other 60!"
Life has its ups and its downs. What's important is not to focus SO MUCH on the downs that it rules your life and keeps you from moving forward. I could have seen that I gained back 50 pounds and then did like I had done before - thrown up my hands in defeat. But I didn't. I remembered that I STILL kept off those other 60+ pounds. Those are GONE, evaporated into thin air, far, far away, never to return.
So on my 1 Year anniversary, I'm about 38 pounds heavier than I was this time last year. But I'm really not gonna sweat too much about it.
1) I am healthier and more active now than I have been in many years.
2) My doctor is fully aware of my program and pushing for me.
3) My cholesterol, glucose, and blood pressure are doing great.
4) I am enjoying life immensely, doing things I would never have done before and just living life.
5) I *AM* seeing results, in my pants, in the way my knees feel, in the energy that I have.
And really, when it's HEALTH you are focused on anyway, that number that Mr. Scale puts up isn't really so much of a big deal.
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