Tuesday, March 11, 2014
Let me begin by listing what I am grateful for:
The hymns of life that I often hear in my mind - The Old Rugged Cross, What a Friend We have In Jesus, Holy, Holy, Precious Lord - these and many more are songs that have save my mind and opened my heart!
My family members.
My church and the Pastors who lead it - we are a church of love and unity through Christ.
My lessons that I have been have learning and the disappointments that I now see were blessings.
Able to move my body - God thank you!
That I have learned to listen more, still working but there is progress.
I did not sleep well last night, but I got up, went to yoga and had a wonderful experience. I had bit of a sugar issues - it went up, but adding a peanut butter sandwich, it balanced out and I am feeling better. I have been using the nutritional tracker and without a doubt I am not getting enough protein because I am not eating flesh, however, it is not time for supplementation and more green juices.
You may have noticed that I am writing frequently that God will prefect all that concerns me and that is so true. I use that has an affirmation daily. My prayer life is changing and that is wonderful and I am noticing new and tender mercies. It is amazing what happens with surrender and moving the "ME" out of the equation. I know that I am important, but I am not the glue that binds it all together. My duty which I am gladly accepting is to be a willing vessel. Believe me that is more freedom in that one thought, than all the tea in the world.
Be a willing vessel allow opportunities to present themselves, because we remove judgments, and are available for what is presented; it helps develop compassion and most importantly it allows us to be teachable. This place Spark is all about being teachable. I have failed, backtracked because I listened to my own voice and that is called isolation. Now, I am living this life lesson with joy!
I am reading the articles, I am using the tools and I am excited about change. I am willing now to be the change I want to see and it goes beyond the physical - it is a mind-body- spirit connection. They are intertwined and connected and it makes me whole.
I am looking at me and seeing the things that are not pleasant and working on the change and most importantly, I now want to change. Many situations in my life are the result of the Me in my and I am now practicing forgiveness of my soul and opening my heart for release. I have a need for unity with my spirit and reaching out to the creator for this restoration. I am not apologetic for my beliefs and my relationship with God through Jesus, nor do I negate or dismiss someone else's belief. I honestly believe that we can live in harmony once we are homogenous and integrated within ourselves.
Today, my eyes are open to go through the different caves and tunnels, the darkness, the baggage, and reach for my eternity of spirit. I feel great and I am grateful that I can acknowledge it all and smile. Please take time to fall in love with you, you are created by the master and the master knows His work even when the work is not familiar with itself. I know, I have been lost for a long time and I am know familiar with me and I love me some me today - now liking myself ( ) I am working on that and I am a willing vessel!
Monday, March 10, 2014
We all enjoy a good party, a fun filled event, especially if it is about and for ourselves. Imagine, all the wonderful things you enjoy and the people known and unknown ( you know people that you would love to know). Wouldn't that be wonderful! However, sometimes that just does not happen, so don't be upset
Today: AND WHY
I don't care if this was the first time or 1 million billion trillion time, when it is time, all will line up and you will reach that goal and nothing, no one, no how can stop it when all is aligned for you. We all develop different, we all have gift and talents, some discovered and some yet to be seen and implemented; Remember that :
Today, I have eaten well, exercised and meditated and now this is my special gifts of gratefulness:
My gifts and talents
Special people in my life
The lessons of life
I am employed
My parents are still active and loving life and believe in God
Prayer time with my 3 sisters - the other J's Joy, Jeanne and Jill
( My daughter is included as well, she is in the back with the sneakers as she was ready to travel back to NY, and I am grateful for her too.
Sunday, March 09, 2014
I have just enjoyed the best salad - strawberries, apple, pear, celery, grapes, tomato, cucumbers, honey tangerines, all chopped up with a drizzle of olive oil, rice vinegar shake and a pinch of Celtic salt. Totally divine and also filling - and that was my snack, and I have still have dinner to go.
My non-scale victories for the past week:
My blood sugar has dropped 201 points;
My cravings and hunger have stopped after having no sugar for 6 days;
My body is being used more in movement;
Someone at church made a special point to tell me I have lost weight; and
My skin has improved - I looked a bit brighter!
Now, the reason why I am reporting NSV is because I am not weighing in my home until Easter Sunday. I will be attending the doctor next week, so I will weigh then and unless, I go to the doctor anytime before Easter, I will weigh. The one vanity thing I gave up for the Lenten season. I am working on those idols.
I am also posting over the next 5 -6 weeks gratefulness and today I am grateful for
For having life and the opportunities that allow do overs
That my husband was not injured when he blacked-out for 2.7 miles, nor was he in any accidents either!
My son and I are in-like with one another
The changes, nuances that God is working on and still loving me and encouraging me and guiding my footsteps even when my head is hard and my heart is cold.
My wonderful support system here at Spark - Thank all of you!
Thank you for reading my blog and please have a wonderful day of Awesome!
Saturday, March 08, 2014
Yes, that is my plan for today. I pray that you do too. Why not! We have all tried and sometimes succeed in the doom and gloom, some way doomed and gloomed. That is not something to joke about because depression is a serious illness that needs to be examined and handled by a professional if you are unable to resolve it. Please seek help if it is needed
I have done so in the past and learned the triggers - mine are perfection and control which fueled insecurities. My thinking was flawed and still can be, but I am not flawed. I am redeemable, worth saving and remarkable and so are you.
Today, I am walking on sunshine - . Yes, I believe that each day is worth living as best as I can. Did I always - oh HELL NO!! I got to a point that I no longer wanted to end my life, I just did not want to live it - so I stopped. Yes, how did I do that - I did the motions! I got up, brushed teeth, washed body, put on clothes, ate an inordinate amount of useless food, complained, got angry, stayed angry, talked in platitudes, took off my clothes, went to bed, mind never shut down, did not rest, had not exercised with intention, overspent, under nourished and just existed. Does this sound familiar to anyone? If so,
That is right, you matter, start there - Don't try explain it, just accept it and for the next 21 days, repeat this to yourself - .
When you start to say it, it will probably be in a small voice and that is okay, say it. As the days progress, and the sun stays in the sky longer, that voice will get loud and soon, you will look in the mirror and be able to say ' I MATTER'! I mentioned the mirror, because depression can keep you from looking at yourself in the mirror - and that is the second part of this exercise - embrace you and look in the mirror directly, not for evaluation - God knows that we can do, but look to see your breath - that's right because you are alive. I spent years avoiding mirrors and sometimes even today, I won't look at me - cause I did not eat right, or I am feeling fatter, or my skin isn't smooth ( Hey, I have not really had smooth skin since I was 13 and that was over 40 years ago, so I should be over it - huh ), I could find some reason and you could as well, but face you - YOU MATTER.
Today is a day for some good stuff and that is you because ultimately - make sense, cause how is doom and gloom working?
Try This - ease on down the road
Thanks for reading my blog and try! Much love
Wednesday, March 05, 2014
is how I left home this morning on the way to noon day bible study at church. Lynn is one of the few who knows what makes me want to do what that cartoon portrays. When I entered the sanctuary, I went to the altar to pray, still tight, not trying to hide it, but quiet. First Rev Cary, our senior on the ministerial staff, has pastored and retired to our church, comes over and ask about my son and Floyd and I kinda smile - smirk would be the better word and say ok. I then ask him about his grandson of the same age and he says with a smirk, he is doing - kids!! This takes another paragraph;
The bible study begins and the minister begins to talk about forgiveness and is all on my street and her story is about her granddaughter, who is the same age as my ds and dil. My heart could only be overturned and BUT GOD!! God used her to reach me and the peace that exceeds all understanding helped me. Now, let me tell, I still had some residual anger, so God decided to work on that too - can we say CELL PHONE.
We have three cell phones on our plan and we shared minutes and the cost was prohibitive, and we got no contributions to help Well, today, our bill was reduced by almost $200 and that was God, it also included a reduction in our land line!! BUT GOD .
Now for a little backtracking - I woke up this morning with my mind and intent on accomplishing a task. I cannot reveal at this time what because several people, good friends, have told me that I shouldn't attempt it, BUT GOD spoke and said, try. So with intent purposed, I got up and did part 1. Everyday of lent I will be following through on this intention and I will try with everything that I have got within me and that is the spirit within to do. What I ask of you, is to send me encouragement, love and pray diligently for me. I know that I this is a major challenge, but GOD!!
My study for these next weeks will be the Lord's Prayer and the 23rd Psalm. I plan to live it, sleep it and eat it. I am excited because I am going to try the Spirit by the Spirit and know that God delivers on all promises.
Today, I am grateful for the witness of believers. Thank you so much for being my blessing and reading my blog.
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