Iíve been trying to remember back to the time three years ago when I was truly ready to start losing weight. What made it finally click after decades of being 100 lbs overweight? Something in my mind said ďYouíre ready, Erin.Ē And I was.
In a year, I lost 110 lbs and reached my weight goal. I hadnít been 140 lbs since I was 18 years old. My body felt foreign and I couldnít stop looking at my reflection as I passed by store windows. It was as though I had to keep checking to make sure I wasnít imagining the fact that I was now thin.
For over a year I did a pretty good job at keeping the weight off and I relished in the fact that I no longer needed to shop in a special section for clothing. I was able to stop obsessing about how embarrassed and uncomfortable I was because of my weight. I was finally happy with my body.
Well, life took a turn and I allowed depression to get the best of me. I was unemployed, my romantic relationships werenít working out and I eventually even became homeless. It was the hardest year of my life and the weight managed to creep back on.
Iím now 205 lbs and know that something has to give. I canít let this be how my weight loss journey ends. I know what Iím capable of. I know what works for me.
For months I have had all sorts of false starts. My life is still in limbo and I can no longer use that as an excuse.
Like Iíve said beforeÖ It doesnít have to start on a Monday. It doesnít need to be the first of the year or month. I donít have to gorge myself before starting. I just need to start.
For the last six months I have been starting back up on SP and then falling off the wagon over and over. I had come so far in my weight loss journey and had managed to keep it off for more than a year. WHY did I let it creep back on and WHY wasn't I doing something about it?
I know what it takes to lose a significant amount of weight and keep it off. WHY was I choosing to get fatter instead? The fact is... It doesn't matter.
What matters is the fact that I'm doing something about it now. Before ALL of the weight I had worked so hard to lose comes back on.
I'm not beating myself up. I'm not waiting for a Monday or the first of the month to start. All of my ducks don't need to be in a row...
I'm starting now. And I'm going to get back down to my goal weight. End of story.
Go, me! :)
Exactly one year later... I've lost 100 lbs., gained a crap load of self-esteem, was inspired by many and have hopefully inspired others, became a much happier person, changed many things in my personal life that have made me feel more comfortable in my own skin, and have learned things about myself that I wish I had known earlier in life.
I'm grateful for SP and the people who have helped me along my journey.
It's not over of course. Many people gain the weight back. Am I worried? No.
I did things the right way this time. The mental part of weight loss is SOO important. I'd say that it's 90% of it.
So, here I am at the finish line. Waiting for my real life to begin. The view ROCKS!
I'll be here, cheering all of you along. Thanks again!
This is FUN! If I wasn't so gosh darned amazed at the difference, I wouldn't be boring you with more pictures. Plus, the Before pic was taken on 10/26. More than a month AFTER I started here on SparkPeople. So, these are only 11.5 weeks apart. Cool, hu?