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Skinny friends...

Saturday, February 09, 2013

Sometimes, I hate to say it but I really hate my skinny friends. When they go on about how society treats obesity and how there is a cycle that overweight and obese people go through where they self sabotage and then give up over and over again really upsets me. What do they know about it? None of them have ever been overweight before so really what do they know? Especially the ones who can eat whatever they like and stay the same perfect size 5. They know nothing about how it feels to have people treat you differently because you are fat. They know nothing about what its like to only eat 1300 calories in attempts to lose weight and how frustrating it is when you haven't lost any in a month. They know nothing of the struggles overweight people go through everyday and how many of us already feel as terrible as others try to make us feel. They know nothing of the pressure to be thin and how its not easy for everyone to lose weight, our bodies just hold on to it. They may think a certain top makes them look fat or those pants aren't flattering but they don't know what its like not to be able to fit into size 16 pants and how ashamed it makes you feel. They dont realize how it can be embarassing to try to go out for a jog and how insensitive it is when they tell me, "just do it, nobody cares." Well, I care. I care a lot. I care alot about how being obese makes me look and how it makes me feel about myself and how all this extra weight hurts my body. My skinny friend will just never get it. No matter how many times I try to explain and how many times they try to emphasize. They just dont, no matter how many times I wish that they could.

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SWEETDREAMS3211 2/10/2013 9:16PM

    I totally hear you Stonecot, when people tell me they imagine overweight people only eat junk and candy it makes me want to scream. My family does the same thing Gayle63, they've told me I need to "put down the fork" if I want to lose weight yet get chastised if I dont take a second helping.

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GAYLE-G-63 2/10/2013 9:41AM

    I agree with you totally, Sweetdreams. The other part of that are the friends and family that preach at you about being fat, but then encourage you to eat! My extended family is extremely guilty of that. It's the holidays...a special occasion...etc. One piece won't hurt...YES, IT WILL DAMN IT. How do you think I became fat to being with???

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STONECOT 2/10/2013 7:03AM

    What I hate most is the medias portrayal of the stereotypical fat person living on fizzy drinks, junk food and chocolate bars. In my experience we don't. We just eat too much of everything. I'm tired of being preached to about exercise and healthy diet, and how 'small changes can make a big difference'! I've done all that! I exercise more and eat more healthily than people a fraction of my weight! Now I'm on a different path. I'm eating exactly as a thin person does, whatever and whenever I need to. Just making sure to eat slowly and mindfully, and stopping as soon as I am full. It's working too, and no calorie counting, bliss!

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PATTYKLAVER 2/10/2013 6:41AM

    Many people in today's society have no idea what it's like to be different. Hopefully they never will be in that position. If only we could have them in our shoes for just one day...

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40PUDDLEJUMPER 2/10/2013 5:56AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon its the same here, but as they say just keep doing what you do - your doing great!

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THE_SHAKESHAFT 2/10/2013 4:32AM

    Been there.

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SWEETDREAMS3211 2/10/2013 1:02AM

    Thank you for the comments Mareannie and Desertmoth. I just needed to vent because I felt my friends were being insensitive about my weight struggle. Thanks for the positivity and understanding.

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MAREANNIE 2/10/2013 12:37AM

    If they don't get it, it is THEIR problem; don't make it yours. Keep your focus and don't let the comments and negativity get to you! emoticon

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DESERTMOTH 2/9/2013 11:52PM

    I am sure many people feel the same way you do. I used to be one of the skinny girls and even now I am not that big and I try to be sensitive of the issue you bring up. It does remind me though how Richard Gere said he was married to two of the most beautiful women and they did not see themselves that way. I think society is so screwed up in how women's bodies are portrayed. Look at how many women starve themselves and they think they are fat. It drives me nuts! I try to empathize but sometimes it is hard because how is it they can not see they are not just thin, they are too thin. Anyway, I read another great article this week by an obese woman and how she loves her body in spite of society telling her otherwise. She did say she has a hard time though watching tv etc because of the messages of how she is supposed to look. A healthy body should be what we strive for. The size should be irrelevant. Unfortunately our culture makes too much money selling us diet pills and fads. I am sure you are beautiful regardless of what the scale may say. I can see your Beauty in your writing alone.

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And here we go again...

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

My immune system has declined since I was around 17 because of depression and ive gotten sick soooo many times since then. Not just colds but major illnesses over and over like strep throat, staph infections and the worse.... pilonidal cysts.

If you dont know what a pilonidal cyst is then ill inform you. Its a cyst that forms on your tail bone. And it hurts. Bad. No matter if you sit, stand, lay it hurts. You just feel it there. I've had it three times, one time where it became badly infected and I had to be rushed to the ER where they inserted a needle to numb it right near the infected area (soooooo painful) and then lanced it. Needless to say it was probably the worse experience of my life. I was traumatized for awhile where if I tried to talk about it I would start crying. And now I feel it coming back.

There is a surgery available for people who have repetitive cysts like me but the problem with that is that it's not a guarantee the cyst will never come back, and the recovery time varies from a few weeks to a few months.

Idk what im going to do. All I know is that this sucks.

To end on a positive note though, I found out I lost 2lbs!! Woooo!

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GRLYGRL85 6/21/2011 12:21AM

    That absolutely sucks. Nothing worse than knowing what's wrong and not being able to do anything about it. But you found something positive to focus on and that's good! Congrats on the 2 lbs!!

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Wednesday, June 15, 2011

I took my measurments for the first time in a couple months and all I have to say is... wow.

waist- 36.5
hips- 44.5
thighs- 26
arms- 13.5

I feel like I just got punched in the stomach. I feel so ashamed at my measurements. I cant beleive i've let myself go this much.
Even though I feel so discouraged, seeing this is a reality check. I need to lose weight as well as inches. Its so frustrating though because i've been exercising and working on eating right for three weeks and my weight hasnt budged. I feel differently, energy wise, but my weight has stayed the same. Im going to stick with my lifestyle changes though because giving up now is not an option.


Body inspiration

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

I'd love to have the body of either Scarlett Johannson or Rihanna. They're both thin but womanly. I dont want to get too muscular or skinny. I love their womanly softness to their bodies but they both still look healthy.

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STACIBUK 6/15/2011 1:43PM

  I love their bodies too.

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Just some thoughts....

Sunday, June 12, 2011

I wanted to write down some motivations for myself, things that will make me want to exercise and eat right even if it's not always the easiest thing.

1. I want have a flat stomach so i can wear a bikini and be confident

2. I want more energy and to be healthier all around

3. I want to stop being embarassed about how I look

4. I want to boost my confidence

5. I dont want to develop illnesses due to weight like diabetes or heart disease.

Keeping these goals in mind will make exercising and eating healthy all the more bearable. :]


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