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Sunday, September 28, 2014


I'm so happy this morning after opening my Facebook feed and seeing the news from last night's American Humane Association Hero Dog Awards. The winner is Susie, a remarkable dog with an amazing story. Susie was the winner in the therapy dog category and one of eight finalists to compete for the main title of 2014 American Hero Dog.

Both Susie and her mommy, Donna, are my personal heroes. They live in Guilford County in North Carolina (bordering the county I live in). For those not familiar with their story, in 2009 Donna suffered a vicious attack by a pit bull. For those of you who have a pit bull, I am not being critical of the breed, but rather the way so many are raised. My son and daughter-in-law have one and Heinlein, who was raised in a loving home, is one of the sweetest dogs I have ever been around. He loves all people and other animals, even cats! The dog that attacked Donna was left chained to a tree, hungry and thirsty and abandoned by his owners.

Shortly after surviving her attack, Donna and a friend found a tiny puppy in a park in Greensboro that had been badly beaten, set on fire and left for dead. Even though a vet at the Guilford County Animal Shelter recommended putting the puppy down (because of the estimated bills of $17,000.00 to save her), Donna felt that the puppy deserved a chance to live and her treatments began.

Susie is a pit bull mix and Donna and her husband ended up adopting the puppy. Donna saved this sweet dog and helped her learn to trust people again and Susie helped Donna learn to trust dogs again.

At that time an animal cruelty conviction in North Carolina was only punishable by probation, but Donna and Susie worked hard to change that. Their hard work and effort resulted in the passing of "Susie's Law" which made animal cruelty a Class H felony here in North Carolina and punishable by a prison term.

A movie called "Susie's Hope" was made about their story. For more information on them and the work they continue to do, you can visit the following website.


Congratulations to both Susie and Donna. All of the finalists are amazing dogs, and I'm so glad I wasn't responsible for choosing one. Susie and Donna, North Carolina is proud of you!

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HICKOK-HALEY 10/4/2014 4:34AM

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CHEBBA 9/29/2014 5:23PM

    It's so, so true. Pit Bulls are one of the banned breeds over here in England. If a stray's owner does not come forward, the authorities have no choice but to have them PTS, even if they have a sweet nature and have done nothing wrong. Sadly, all these 'jaw' breeds are on a hiding to nothing, because WHEN they do bite, their conformation leads to locking on and causing great damage. it's so sad, because all these dogs are victims too. Some of the sweetest dogs are Rotti's, Pits etc - I've been 'in dogs' for over 30 years and the only time I've ever thought I was going to be attacked was by the neighbour's Golden Retriever which I went to welcome when it got into our garden! I had to stand still, arms folded, staring into the founder as this dog circled me after running at me, red-eyed and determined! There is no question that that dog would have launched itself had I tried to move - fortunately his owner appeared and sorted things out. That dog was marvellous with everyone except the truest dog lover and most experienced dog person among us… me! Even Judge Judy has a downer on Pits, but I really don't know why - probably because so many ne'er-do-wells coming before her had Pits were trained to reflect their own thuggish behaviour, so it became an association of ideas. I remember a vet friend telling me how, at a joint medical/veterinary conference, the speaker said that more GSD's bite people than any other breed. ALL the vets stood up and shouted that sweeping statement down, saying that as many, if not more, small dogs bit humans, but because they did less damage the people never reported to a hospital.! So, statistics and misinformation are bad news for some breeds, and the poor old Pits remain at the top of that unfortunate list.

Lovely news for Susie - great achievement.

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PUPPYWHISPERS 9/29/2014 7:53AM

    This story brought tears to my eyes. What a happy ending to such a terrible situation for both Donna and Susie. I can't imagine how twisted people must be to hurt an animal like that.

Congratulations to Susie and Donna!

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MEWHENRYSMAMA 9/28/2014 9:49PM

    What an awesome story! Congratulations to them!
Dogs, animals, are so amazing and so underrated!
Thanks for sharing this storyM
Love & Hugs,

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ODAT1117 9/28/2014 8:02PM

    awesome!!! :-) Thanks for sharing!

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GOLFGMA 9/28/2014 7:43PM

    Love this blog! What an amazing story. Susie and Donna are both heroes! emoticon

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SUSANSUSAN14 9/28/2014 5:58PM

    The movie was great. I just watched it 2 weeks ago. It made me want to help out in some way. I tender hearted when it comes to animals!

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REMEMBER2BME 9/28/2014 5:39PM

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I love, love, love this. All the pups up for this are amazing! I love the significant and very important change they were able to get though. Thanks so much for the blog!

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LINDAKAY228 9/28/2014 2:35PM

    That was such an awesome story! I'm glad they won! My daughter had a pit bull for 7 years that was so sweet. I was very leary of the breed but Capone really won my heart. And the same is true for some other breeds too. It depends on how they are raised. Capone had a habit of climbing the fence sometimes and he got out of my yard (they were staying with me at the time) and he got attacked by 3 other dogs, none of whom were pit bulls, that beat him up and he was so far gone he couldn't be saved at that point. I was so sad to see what happened to him.

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Enjoying the Day

Monday, September 22, 2014

So here I am, off work, it's my birthday, but I won't be spending it hiking or biking (like I usually do). Still, it's a good day. The weather is cool, my cast came off my leg last week and I am off work today. I plan to get outside on my porch with a glass of wine while enjoying the cooler temps and sunshine.

I was so excited about getting my cast off last week. Not sure what I was expecting to happen that day, but whatever it was it didn't go as planned. I suppose I have been overly eager to return to my normal life, but it's going to take some time. It was actually great having that hard cast removed, but after eight weeks of not using my leg at all, the muscles are weak, my leg is sore and my foot and ankle still swells a lot when I'm up and about. The cast was replaced with a HUGE walking boot, but I was told that I still need to use crutches and only put about 50% of my weight on it for a few weeks. It is almost impossible to carry anything when you're holding two crutches (at least for me) so I occasionally find myself using my wheelchair at home when I need to carry something. Still, I keep reminding myself that I'm making progress. The best part is that I can take the boot off to shower and to sleep. emoticon

I have physical therapy tomorrow morning so I'm hoping that will help increase the range of motion in my ankle and that soon I'll be able to get rid of the crutches.

My huge walking boot. It's twice as big as the cast, but it is more comfortable.

I ordered myself a stability ball for my birthday and received it last week, but I guess it'll be a few more weeks before I can actually use it. For the time being, it's in the corner of my room acting as an irritant to the dogs. Sahara stands a few feet away and barks at it. Heinlein, the "vicious" pit is terrified of it. If anyone moves it, he runs through the house and gets in his crate to hide. He's such a huge baby!!

My favorite birthday gift that I asked for and received is a silver Phoenix pendant. Although it is seldom seen today, the phoenix is a very ancient Christian symbol, and was one of the first to be used regularly as a symbol of the resurrection of Christ. Although it is used by many cultures to symbolize different things, it is also often used to symbolize a rebuilding of one's life (rising from the ashes), much like I am doing now. With all the changes that have occurred in my life in the last few years, I feel like everything fell apart around me and now I am working to rebuild a new life, something I don't think I would have the strength to do without my faith. So for me, this symbolizes my Christian faith and my determination to rebuild my life.

I hope wherever you are that you are having wonderful fall weather and that you can get outdoors and enjoy it. Keep working toward your goals, but remember to love yourself as you are and enjoy life today!


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SUSANNAH31 9/26/2014 10:35AM

    So glad that you have shed the cast and have more mobility with the boot - even if it is larger.

The phoenix is a very good symbol for you - and for all you've been through.
I wish you well.


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HICKOK-HALEY 9/25/2014 1:31AM

    Did you get another dog? Or is the Pit your Son's dog. Funny, it hides from the ball lol. It's amazing how fast our muscles get weak. I'm glad you have the cast off, and have PT. One step at a time. It won't be long before you will be taking the dogs for a short walk. Love the Pendent! emoticon

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CHEBBA 9/23/2014 7:29PM

    I'm so pleased to know that, in spite of all that you have had to deal with for, oh my goodness, so so long, you are starting to face a brighter and more positive future. One of my most favourite sayings is "Keep your face to the sunshine and you won't see the shadows." Lovely, eh?

I love your phoenix pendant and I sense that it's going to be such a great talisman for you. Wear it and it's meaning will guide and support you in the life ahead of you.


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LINDAKAY228 9/23/2014 6:07PM

    I feel bad because I missed your birthday! So Happy Birthday late! I love that Phoenix! I never knew it had been a Christian symbol and the meaning! I absolutely love that. We've both been rebuilding our lives out of the ashes. Or rather I should say I'm letting God rebuild my life from the ashes! I don't know where I would be without my faith either. I could not have made it through. I'm so glad you got that pendant! That sounds like the best gift of all and so symbolic!

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GOLFGMA 9/22/2014 10:48PM

    It was a beautiful day here and I hope you enjoyed your birthday! Your faith has certainly been evident this last year and I haven't heard you complain and question "Why me, Lord?" even once. I think the phoenix is a good symbol and the pendant
will be a good reminder to always be strong and rise above all trials.
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ODAT1117 9/22/2014 3:19PM

    What a beautiful pendant!!

Hey, I've got an extra boot cast if you wear that one out........lol ;-) They are definitely huge and bulky but WAY better than a plaster cast. Your skin gets to breathe a little. You'll adjust to it more quickly than you think. :-)

So, yes, you have had a wild few years, Cindy. This birthday is definitely a true celebration. Enjoy the beautiful weather for your birthday since it WAS custom ordered just for YOU!! ;-)

Today is a GREAT day for a new start and a new season. Phoenix rising, for sure!!

(Oh, and I know of at least three other birthdays today - my sister-in-law, my friend's dad, and another friend of mine. Must be a good day to be born!)

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REMEMBER2BME 9/22/2014 3:05PM

    Yes, every "step" is progress. I recall a million years ago when I fractured my foot in a car accident. It was very very sore after I got my cast off, no boot though. Best of lucky. I can't imagine carrying anything but you are right, showers are the best, right?!?

I love the phoenix and am just so very impressed by you. It is hard for me to understand how you do it but I think you have explained quite a bit here, faith. More power to you my dear friend!

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SUSANSUSAN14 9/22/2014 1:43PM

    That is a neat gift. I was thinking about getting a silver bracelet for my 25th wedding anniversary but what you got seems to be a better choice for me. I may have to look into that. It represents everything I need it too. Christ, my marriage getting stronger and a new beginning.

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WORLDSERIES11 9/22/2014 1:39PM

    Hi Cindy,
So glad your cast is off and you're a bit more comfortable!
Remember, slow and steady wins the race!!
I love the phoenix reference and your pendant is beautiful!!
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ALICIA214 9/22/2014 12:52PM


I remember when I wore a heavy cast on my arm,my best friend was a long knitting needle [oh the itching]....Take it easy ,don't rush your recovery..

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Finding Light in the Darkness

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Nothing makes you appreciate the little things in life more than suddenly being without them. I'm determined that this is NOT going to be a whiny blog. Instead, my mood is beginning to improve a little now that I'm three weeks post-op. I'm still stuck at home with my wheelchair, but I go back to my doctor tomorrow and I'm hoping he'll release me to go back to work. At least I'd be able to get out of this house on a regular basis and that would be a good thing.

I've always heard that everything happens for a reason. I've spent the last month struggling to understand what could possibly be the reason for this injury? Maybe one day I'll figure it out for sure, or maybe I already have. Maybe I'm learning to appreciate the positive things in my life instead of dwelling on the negative.

We go through our every day lives and most of us never stop to think about how blessed we truly are. When I had my elective surgery in February I was only on crutches three weeks before I was allowed to walk on my heel. My broken leg will now keep me off of it completely for six to eight weeks. I find myself in a wheelchair rolling around my house, trying to figure out how to reach things in my kitchen (I've gotten pretty good at locking my chair and standing on one leg), rolling into my laundry room and doing laundry, bathing in an entirely different way, and knowing I can't jump in my car and go anywhere I want. Some days I get extremely frustrated, but one thing is for sure, I am learning to appreciate the little things in life more than I ever have.

When it comes to my ability to walk around with ease, I don't think I'll ever again take that for granted. I've always been thankful for the things I did have in my life, but now I wake up every morning and I thank God for those blessings. I thank Him for my family and friends who are here for me. My boys would do anything I asked to help me out, but the truth is I need to be useful. I actually found myself vacuuming yesterday from my wheelchair. It was interesting and it took a lot longer than usual, but I did it. It makes me feel better when I can accomplish something, anything, each day.

One thing I do miss right now that I can't yet do anything about is my grand-dog. My son and his wife have a pit bull. He is a big baby who truly loves everyone, but he is also 65 pounds of muscle. When he sees me (or anyone) he gets so excited, so they're afraid that in his excitement he might jump on me and my leg and possibly hurt it more. I have only seen him once since my accident, and that was when they held him on the other side of a baby gate so I could wheel up to it and pet him. It was great because I got lots of kisses from him. Sahara is also missing him terribly because she adores him and loves playing with him. I really look forward to the day when I can take the two of them back outside and play with them.

Heinlein and Sahara on my couch. No, neither of them are supposed to be on the furniture, but they had played so hard that day and were both exhausted. I couldn't bring myself to wake them up and make them get down.

Bottom line is, try not to take the little things for granted. Every day, when you open your eyes in the morning, try to appreciate what you do have and be thankful for another day. I now feel so much more blessed in my life.

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SKIPPYDOG 9/15/2014 9:51PM

    Keep pushing, my summer has been crazy busy. We finally finished renovating our house..yes yes.. we went to the oregon Coast for a week. Then little skip got attacked by a damn tick. Ugh. The little guy had to have ear surgery
an aureal ear hematoma. But little skippy just keeps going.

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CYBERCITYSHELL 8/25/2014 12:39AM

    I love your positive attitude Cindy. Be careful though not to do any more injuries to yourself. The sooner you are back on your feet the sooner you can get out and about emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Sahara is a little sweetie, she must give you lots of love. And Heinlein sure looks a big bundle of energy.

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ILOVEMALI 8/24/2014 1:28PM

  Have a full (and speedy!) recovery!

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CELLA_P 8/23/2014 7:26PM

    I'm so sorry you've had to go through this orthopedic surgery (perhaps some of the most difficult from which to heal, and involving the most pain at times, too emoticon ) but hopefully, you'll soon be close to feeling like your former self. All the best as you continue to improve...which I'm sure you will. Those doggies surely miss you, too! emoticon emoticon

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_JODI404 8/20/2014 5:45PM

    I'm glad you are looking for, and finding the positives in this situation.

I appreciate your bottom line conclusion:

" try not to take the little things for granted. Every day, when you open your eyes in the morning, try to appreciate what you do have and be thankful for another day. I now feel so much more blessed in my life."

I always take away a much deeper sense of gratitude for my health after I've been sick. For my health/fitness after I've been injured. It's very easy to take things for granted -- especially little things. Sometimes it's those little things that mean the most.

I do hope you it went well at the Dr. and you are able to get out of the house, and back to work. I know it's hard to slow down when it's against your nature.
Way to go for seeing all the blessings!!

Love & light to you!
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SHESMITH1 8/20/2014 3:00PM

    What a wonderful outlook you've developed. It appears that a major lesson gleaned is knowing that we don't have to have all the answers and understand all the reasons - we just have to accept it as part of a greater plan and roll with it. Quite an accomplishment, Miss Cindy!
Speaking of rolling..., I think my house will accommodate a wheelchair and vacuum cleaner - come on over!


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GOLFGMA 8/20/2014 7:02AM

    Cindy, Have to say how happy I am that you have faith. We will never know the reasons for things that have been dealt to us in life, however, we do know God is in control and knows us better than we know ourselves. We are reminded of Romans 8:28 and trust in God's word. Praying that your days improve and that soon you will be back at work and PLAY! Thank you for this blog filled with inspiration for all of us. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SLIMMERJESSE 8/20/2014 12:03AM

    Wishing you better days.

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LIVINGFREE19 8/19/2014 11:56PM

    This is another well written blog of yours, Cindy! You have such a knack for writing.

I love the pic of the 2 dogs! It is wonderful that they get along so well.

I hope and pray that you can get out of the house, and get healed up so you can go to work!

Big (((HUGS))), Cindy!


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SUSANNAH31 8/19/2014 11:12PM

    You are able to find the silver lining to your longer convalescence with your foot this time -- and it says a lot about you as a person.

It's true there is nothing like losing something to make us appreciate it even more.
And you are right - we do take for granted so many good things in life.

Thanks for reminding us. We are all guilty of forgetting it.

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WORLDSERIES11 8/19/2014 3:42PM

    Way to make lemonade out of lemons Cindy!! Great attitude, thanks for sharing your thoughts, they are beautiful. Hang in there, praying for your continued good recovery:-)
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LINDAKAY228 8/19/2014 3:31PM

    Very well written! As you know I've learned some of these things too over the past 9 months. Because of the stroke, I still have a lot of balance problems and my right hand shakes. I have to do so many things different than I did before and watch how I do them. At least I'm not on a walker anymore like I was for a while LOL. When my mom was alive and in a wheelchair and I took her out places, I learned how many talked to me and ignored her (nothing wrong with her mind, it was osteoporosis that put her in the wheelchair) and other things about how "handicapped" are treated. I'm like you, I learn to do things differently but I still do them. At least to the best of my ability ha ha. I know what you're going through now is so hard since you are so active but I also know you are learning so much from it. My mom broke her femur (the long bone in the thigh) and because of the osteoporosis it didn't heal well and after she broke it she ended up in a wheelchair all the time for the last 9 or so months of her life. We learn to be thankful in all kinds of things. Thank goodness you will heal and not have her kinds of problems for the rest of your life. But you are doing awesome and you will be back to doing things you love, but with a whole new awareness!

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NOLAHORSERIDER 8/19/2014 11:52AM

    You all got crutches? and a Wheel Chair? Jeez all I had was a walker. I was laid up for several weeks due to knee injuries. I love your blog! It is just so enlightening! I too have learned to appreciate the small things! I have always been an active person and the last few years....well, lets just say I only went to work and came home to sleep! I didn't exercise, ate what I wanted and didn't really care about my appearance... Then one morning, I awoke and found out that wow my knee is popping! So I held the knee cap and kept bending and straightening it and all of a sudden it popped super loud and Bam!! I was in excruciating pain! Yup! Tore my meniscus.. I hobbled around for nearly a year before I actually did anything about it! I was too busy with work and crying in my beer (so to speak, I don't drink). After a long bout of pain I finally went and got it taken care of, then eventually had to have a total knee.. Had pain for over 3 years all total.. I became closer to God, thanked him for another day and got on with my life! However, that didn't' stop me from eating all that junk and not exercising! It should have been a wake-up call, but it wasn't. Now my other knee is going! I will not have surgery, I am eating well, exercising and losing the terrible weight that I gained over the years.. Slowly but surely. I appreciate the days I have no pain and can walk to the mailbox, or sit here at the computer more and more each day! As the weight comes off, so does some of the pain. I will always have the bone on bone pain, but at least the other parts aren't hurting! Thank God!!
Keep pushing toward your goals and NEVER GIVE UP!

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ODAT1117 8/19/2014 11:25AM

ou have found one of the reasons for the injury. And maybe part of it, too, is for your sons to appreciate YOU more and spend more time with you. What a blessing THAT is!!! Maybe the lesson isn't for you. Maybe it's for others. :-)

I do totally understand what you mean, though, about needing to be useful. I've been on crutches for extended periods of time in my life due to injuries and surgeries. SO frustrating to be incapacitated and not able to do anything. The worst time was when I was a single mom but it worked out perfectly because my then 9 year old had just gotten out of the hospital and being laid up allowed me to stay home (for a MONTH!!!) and help her. It also allowed the family to take the focus off of her and gave her lots of things to do to keep busy and to not focus on her illness at the time. Yes, it all happens for a reason.

You have a great positive attitude and that serves you very well. You'll get through this just like everything else. I'm sending you patience and strength and faith. :-)

Hang in there!!!

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Friday, August 08, 2014

First, I want to thank everyone for all the nice notes, comments and goodies you've sent my way. It's been ten days since my surgery, and I had my first post-op appointment this morning. I was really pretty pumped up hoping they would let me return to work with my wheelchair. After all, you can only watch so many hours of TV before you begin to go numb. Unfortunately, my return to work has been postponed until at least my next follow-up on August 20th. Oh no, another 12 days of Netflix!!!!!! emoticon

I spent the first few days after surgery mostly sleeping. After that I had to stop taking the pain meds because that's what was making me sleep. Once awake, there has been nothing to do except watch TV. Can you overdose on television? If so, I think I already have. By the way, if anyone has a ROKU device and wants to know what shows are on it, just let me know. I've become quite the expert!

I'm not usually a depressed type of person, but I have to admit that the last ten days have been pretty bad. I'm usually a pretty independent person, so being stuck at home, unable to drive, and completely dependent on everyone else is really driving me nuts. My boys are really doing all they can to help, but it's just me. I hate not being able to do for myself. Cliff came home from work yesterday and caught me in the kitchen (got there in my wheelchair) standing on one leg trying to unload the clean dishes from the dishwasher. He promptly took over the job which, quite frankly, made me a little angry, but I know he meant well. I'm trying really hard to keep a positive attitude, but the longer I'm stuck at home, the harder it is.

Anyway, enough whining. Had surgery on the 29th and according to my doctor (Cliff spoke to him after surgery) all went well. He did, however, find a small fourth fracture which required a longer incision than he originally planned. I am now the proud owner of a lot of very expensive hardware. One of my good friends calls it my bionic leg and foot! For your viewing pleasure, here is a picture from one of the x-rays they took this morning to make sure everything has stayed in place. As you can see in the pic, I have a long plate and 12 screws in my leg. Yep, I'll never make it through airport security again without a strip search!

Poor little Sahara doesn't understand why I won't get up and play with her, but she is a patient little girl and lays beside me most of the time. I owe her lots of walks when I am back on both feet.

For now, all I can do is try to be patient and wait. Hopefully I'll be able to return to work after my next appointment.

Hope you all have a great weekend!

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SUSANNAH31 8/14/2014 6:38AM

    I am glad your surgery went well. I totally understand about not being able to get around and DO things!

My husband and I just got a ROKU recently - and we have been busy watching some TV series that we hadn't seen earlier: House of Cards, Breaking Bad, and The Wire. The Wire is an excellent series -- almost like a sociological study of inner city life among the drug culture, the police force, and politicians.

I hope you will be more mobile soon.

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_JODI404 8/9/2014 11:09PM

    Wow....that X-ray!!! OMG, you *really* did a number on that leg & foot.

I'm sorry it's taking longer to heal than you had hoped. I'm sure it's uncomfortable to be dependent on others.... but thank goodness you have loved ones there to help you!

This too shall pass ~~ quickly -- I hope!!

Continue to take good care!!

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LINDAKAY228 8/9/2014 11:03AM

    I know it's so hard! I'm also one that likes to do everything for myself. After I had a stroke, and had to stay with my oldest son for several months since I was in a different state, it was so hard on me. I was used to being the one who had the place and others came and stayed with me (sometimes I didn't want them there! Like my two daughters. Allowed it because of grandkids) Then I went for 6 weeks to visit a friend in California and we had a great time, but again I was at someone else's house and neither would let me give them money for staying with them. It was extremely hard. And at first, in the hospitals, I couldn't do anything. In the hospitals (first in Phoenix then in Dallas) for 5 weeks I couldn't even go to the bathroom by myself. In the first hospital I could get by with it sometimes but in the second they had an alarm system on the bed that would go off if I tried to get out unless one of the therapies came to get me and turned the alarm off for that period, then turned it back on. They had yellow socks we had to wear if we were not allowed to get up on our own. They were so afraid of falls and damage to my head or something again. Blue socks meant I could get out of bed in my room but couldn't leave the room alone. I finally got the blue socks about 3 days before leaving the hospital and was so happy to have them! I felt like I was on a rock and sharks were circling around my rock (bed) waiting to get me if I tried to get out! Now I'm in my own apartment and can do more of what I want. I can also drive although I had to take a driving test in Texas since I'd had a stroke even though I had a valid New Mexico license. Part of this says many of really do understand how hard this is and what you are going through. The other part is to remind you it will come to an end, even though is seems so far away, and you'll be back doing the things you love. It seems like forever when you are going through it, but it's really not. So hang in there! I also know how sleepy those pain pills make you! In the first hospital they gave me a lot and I'm not sure how much I slept because at first I had difficulty with my vision because of the brain bleed, how much was because my glasses broke in the stroke and getting new glasses in the hospital is impossible, and how much was due to meds. Thankfully I got my eyes checked in the few hours we had between leaving one hospital, getting on a plane (I couldn't walk through the scanner then and had to go through the whole search thing in my wheelchair) and getting off the plane and a deadline to check into the Dallas hospital. And now things are much more what I want them to be! Just be patient, hang in there and soon you'll be getting around! Good thing you got this taken care of. Best wishes as you get bored out of your skull right now!

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GOLFGMA 8/9/2014 7:23AM

    Cindy, glad the surgery is over and all went well. I totally understand how hard it is not being able to do the things you want to. Went through some months in 2007 waiting for surgery and then the time of relying on others to drive me to rehab for the physical therapy afterward. Glad you have Netflix and hopefully computer games to help with the boredom. The photo of your new bionic leg does look like a strong one now. Praying the time will fly by until the 20th and that the good news will come then. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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REMEMBER2BME 8/9/2014 6:36AM

    Wonderful to hear from you. I am so glad surgery went well, Quite a bit of recovery to go through. Yikes. I wish I had some advise.

Is there anything you can study up on. Like building a shed (LOL). I am researching the roof now. LOL OR maybe you want your Project management certification. Again, not too funny but you get my point. These are things that take time and effort but have a real outcome.

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WORLDSERIES11 8/9/2014 1:27AM

    Wow, that's quite a new ankle!! Hang in there Cindy! Glad you're healing ok.
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LIVINGFREE19 8/8/2014 10:21PM

    You poor thing, having to stay home for so long and can't go anywhere on your own. I can so feel your pain and sadness.

I hope and pray that you feel better soon, Cindy!


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KNEEMAKER 8/8/2014 9:23PM

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ODAT1117 8/8/2014 8:04PM

    WOW!!! That is some serious hardware!!

I hope you can find some good distractions that won't kill too many brain cells until you can go back to work. :-) Maybe you could work on memorizing all the Spark People articles in their library. ;-)

Hang in there!

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ALIHIKES 8/8/2014 6:32PM

    Best wishes for a full recovery!

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Deja Vu

Saturday, July 26, 2014

I remember now how much I started hating my bedroom, the television, sleeping . . . when I had my surgery back in February. Now I feel like I'm in an episode of the Twilight Zone as I sit here, once again, staring at a black TV screen with just the word ROKU moving randomly around the screen. Every now and then I go back and find something else to watch on Netflix or Hulu or one of the other channels on there. Heck, I've even watched a few Twilight Zone episodes! I have DIRECTV, but there sure isn't anything on there I want to watch. I really don't even like TV that much, but my entertainment options are pretty limited right now. Guess I need to have someone dig out some books that I haven't had the time to read.

I went to see my orthopedic surgeon yesterday. Of course it had to be the same surgeon that operated on me in February. He walked into the examining room, looked at me and said, "You know, you really didn't have to go break a bunch of bones to come back and see me." emoticon Yea, at least he made me laugh. That was just before he commented on what a heck of job I did at breaking these bones. He says I need a plate and screws to stabilize one of them. I already knew that was coming from talking to the ER personnel at the hospital, but I still didn't want to hear it. Surgery is now scheduled for Thursday.

After that, I suppose I will become much better at using this ROKU that my son put on my TV months ago. Besides some movies and old TV shows I've watched, I've also found one good series that I've started watching. It's not a replacement for kayaking, hiking or biking, but those are not options right now. I'll settle for what I have.

Thankfully I have a great bunch of co-workers who are being very understanding. I hate to leave them short-staffed, so hopefully he'll let me go back to work in just a few weeks with a wheelchair. I'd actually rather be there than stuck in my house unable to drive or go anywhere.

Enough whining for now. I hope you're all having a great weekend. If you get outside, enjoy some sunshine for me.

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LIVINGFREE19 7/27/2014 11:00PM

    So sorry you have such pain, Cindy. I am also sorry to hear how bored you are.
I hope the doctor lets you go back to work sooner, like you want.

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CHEBBA 7/27/2014 7:28PM

    Foot pain is horrid. I really do wish you luck and a good recovery when the surgery happens. I have such painful feet - have seen a consultant who said it was arthritis and prescribed me custom-moulded hard rubber orthotics but it means I have to live in trainers. Well, that's not always possible and in any case, I feel like Forrest Gump when I wear them. I've soldiered on with the excruciating pain, even though every step on the 'dreadmill' hurts. Now, my cousin, who is a pharmacist assistant and know a bit about a lot of medical conditions, says she doesn't think I've got arthritis at all! My joints don't hurt, it's these two huge painful bumps on the bone on the tops of my feet , over the arch/instep. They look horrid and the pain can be ghastly. I researched 'images' on my computer, saw pix of what I've got, saw a podiatrist and now I'm going to a specialist in 3 days time, to see if it's what I think it is, 'saddle bone deformity', which means that an op may be feasible and it would remove the pain!! Oh how wonderful it would be to be pain-free! Yes, I really do sympathise with you. Hurty feet make everything else much worse. Good Luck! xx

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SHESMITH1 7/27/2014 7:13PM

    I think we all need to pitch in and buy you some high top brogans!


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LINDAKAY228 7/27/2014 4:29PM

    It really does stink being stuck there and I know what you mean about tv. Now that I'm living in Arlington, TX, I just have an indoor antenna and get the major channels, ION, and some others. I get more that are Spanish, religious, or paid ads all the time but took those off. I've seen some old shows I haven't seen in ages, like the FLying Nun, Mr Ed, etc. But I had gotten burned out on tv and have it only mainly for background noise when I'm on the computer. I didn't see that much on that I couldn't get this way to pay for cable or satellite tv. I do have Netflix, and if I fall asleep in the evening (early riser) I was it on my computer. When I had the stroke, and was in the hospital for almost 5 weeks much of that time my eyes were really messed up and also my glasses got broke when I had the stroke. Try getting new glasses in the hospital ha ha!!! But even with my computer glasses I had a lot of problems till my eyes stabilized. So when I was stuck in bed I couldn't watch tv, I could only listen to it. I know how bored you must be and why being at work would be easier! Good luck with the surgery. I'm so sorry you have to go through all this. Hopefully all will heal well and before you really know it you'll be back to the things you love! And thanks so much for the goodie!!

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REMEMBER2BME 7/27/2014 4:10PM

    My goodness. Best of luck to you. I'll have to send you some shows. HUGS!

Just thought of something else, maybe when you are up to it, you can find work out video's for upper body so you can still get in some "activity". Just a thought.
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GOLFGMA 7/27/2014 8:07AM

    Praying for your comfort as you heal and my offer is good for any way I can help. Please continue to keep us up to date on progress and keep this great attitude you always have . emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NELLIEC 7/27/2014 12:10AM

    Oh, my, I am not someone who enjoys TV very much either. I watch the news and that is about it.

I am praying for your quick healing!

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HICKOK-HALEY 7/26/2014 10:24PM

    I will be thinking of you. Hope it heals quickly! emoticon

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