Tuesday, August 19, 2014
Nothing makes you appreciate the little things in life more than suddenly being without them. I'm determined that this is NOT going to be a whiny blog. Instead, my mood is beginning to improve a little now that I'm three weeks post-op. I'm still stuck at home with my wheelchair, but I go back to my doctor tomorrow and I'm hoping he'll release me to go back to work. At least I'd be able to get out of this house on a regular basis and that would be a good thing.
I've always heard that everything happens for a reason. I've spent the last month struggling to understand what could possibly be the reason for this injury? Maybe one day I'll figure it out for sure, or maybe I already have. Maybe I'm learning to appreciate the positive things in my life instead of dwelling on the negative.
We go through our every day lives and most of us never stop to think about how blessed we truly are. When I had my elective surgery in February I was only on crutches three weeks before I was allowed to walk on my heel. My broken leg will now keep me off of it completely for six to eight weeks. I find myself in a wheelchair rolling around my house, trying to figure out how to reach things in my kitchen (I've gotten pretty good at locking my chair and standing on one leg), rolling into my laundry room and doing laundry, bathing in an entirely different way, and knowing I can't jump in my car and go anywhere I want. Some days I get extremely frustrated, but one thing is for sure, I am learning to appreciate the little things in life more than I ever have.
When it comes to my ability to walk around with ease, I don't think I'll ever again take that for granted. I've always been thankful for the things I did have in my life, but now I wake up every morning and I thank God for those blessings. I thank Him for my family and friends who are here for me. My boys would do anything I asked to help me out, but the truth is I need to be useful. I actually found myself vacuuming yesterday from my wheelchair. It was interesting and it took a lot longer than usual, but I did it. It makes me feel better when I can accomplish something, anything, each day.
One thing I do miss right now that I can't yet do anything about is my grand-dog. My son and his wife have a pit bull. He is a big baby who truly loves everyone, but he is also 65 pounds of muscle. When he sees me (or anyone) he gets so excited, so they're afraid that in his excitement he might jump on me and my leg and possibly hurt it more. I have only seen him once since my accident, and that was when they held him on the other side of a baby gate so I could wheel up to it and pet him. It was great because I got lots of kisses from him. Sahara is also missing him terribly because she adores him and loves playing with him. I really look forward to the day when I can take the two of them back outside and play with them.
Heinlein and Sahara on my couch. No, neither of them are supposed to be on the furniture, but they had played so hard that day and were both exhausted. I couldn't bring myself to wake them up and make them get down.
Bottom line is, try not to take the little things for granted. Every day, when you open your eyes in the morning, try to appreciate what you do have and be thankful for another day. I now feel so much more blessed in my life.
Friday, August 08, 2014
First, I want to thank everyone for all the nice notes, comments and goodies you've sent my way. It's been ten days since my surgery, and I had my first post-op appointment this morning. I was really pretty pumped up hoping they would let me return to work with my wheelchair. After all, you can only watch so many hours of TV before you begin to go numb. Unfortunately, my return to work has been postponed until at least my next follow-up on August 20th. Oh no, another 12 days of Netflix!!!!!!
I spent the first few days after surgery mostly sleeping. After that I had to stop taking the pain meds because that's what was making me sleep. Once awake, there has been nothing to do except watch TV. Can you overdose on television? If so, I think I already have. By the way, if anyone has a ROKU device and wants to know what shows are on it, just let me know. I've become quite the expert!
I'm not usually a depressed type of person, but I have to admit that the last ten days have been pretty bad. I'm usually a pretty independent person, so being stuck at home, unable to drive, and completely dependent on everyone else is really driving me nuts. My boys are really doing all they can to help, but it's just me. I hate not being able to do for myself. Cliff came home from work yesterday and caught me in the kitchen (got there in my wheelchair) standing on one leg trying to unload the clean dishes from the dishwasher. He promptly took over the job which, quite frankly, made me a little angry, but I know he meant well. I'm trying really hard to keep a positive attitude, but the longer I'm stuck at home, the harder it is.
Anyway, enough whining. Had surgery on the 29th and according to my doctor (Cliff spoke to him after surgery) all went well. He did, however, find a small fourth fracture which required a longer incision than he originally planned. I am now the proud owner of a lot of very expensive hardware. One of my good friends calls it my bionic leg and foot! For your viewing pleasure, here is a picture from one of the x-rays they took this morning to make sure everything has stayed in place. As you can see in the pic, I have a long plate and 12 screws in my leg. Yep, I'll never make it through airport security again without a strip search!
Poor little Sahara doesn't understand why I won't get up and play with her, but she is a patient little girl and lays beside me most of the time. I owe her lots of walks when I am back on both feet.
For now, all I can do is try to be patient and wait. Hopefully I'll be able to return to work after my next appointment.
Hope you all have a great weekend!
Saturday, July 26, 2014
I remember now how much I started hating my bedroom, the television, sleeping . . . when I had my surgery back in February. Now I feel like I'm in an episode of the Twilight Zone as I sit here, once again, staring at a black TV screen with just the word ROKU moving randomly around the screen. Every now and then I go back and find something else to watch on Netflix or Hulu or one of the other channels on there. Heck, I've even watched a few Twilight Zone episodes! I have DIRECTV, but there sure isn't anything on there I want to watch. I really don't even like TV that much, but my entertainment options are pretty limited right now. Guess I need to have someone dig out some books that I haven't had the time to read.
I went to see my orthopedic surgeon yesterday. Of course it had to be the same surgeon that operated on me in February. He walked into the examining room, looked at me and said, "You know, you really didn't have to go break a bunch of bones to come back and see me." Yea, at least he made me laugh. That was just before he commented on what a heck of job I did at breaking these bones. He says I need a plate and screws to stabilize one of them. I already knew that was coming from talking to the ER personnel at the hospital, but I still didn't want to hear it. Surgery is now scheduled for Thursday.
After that, I suppose I will become much better at using this ROKU that my son put on my TV months ago. Besides some movies and old TV shows I've watched, I've also found one good series that I've started watching. It's not a replacement for kayaking, hiking or biking, but those are not options right now. I'll settle for what I have.
Thankfully I have a great bunch of co-workers who are being very understanding. I hate to leave them short-staffed, so hopefully he'll let me go back to work in just a few weeks with a wheelchair. I'd actually rather be there than stuck in my house unable to drive or go anywhere.
Enough whining for now. I hope you're all having a great weekend. If you get outside, enjoy some sunshine for me.
Thursday, July 24, 2014
Does this look familiar? Nope, it is not another picture from my surgery in February, even though it looks almost the same. My son and I were working on some home renovations yesterday. Without going into the long story of how I did this, I dislocated my ankle and broke it in three places. Going to see my orthopedic surgeon in the morning. I can't believe I actually did this, but nothing I can do now except make the best of a bad situation. I'm just thankful that Cliff was with me because I don't think I could have gotten up out of the floor. I think the pain is actually beginning to ease a little since I can wait longer between pain meds. Trying hard to stay awake, but the meds make me so sleepy.
Hope you all have a great weekend!
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