Friday, May 30, 2014
I keep saying I'm tired of this yo yo thing I have going on with myself, but it seems like I keep doing it over and over again! Why can't I stop? Do I really have that bad of an obsession with food? I believe I so. I tell myself every Monday I'm starting over, to find myself saying oh it's only one day with my husband shopping, mini vacation etc. what's one eating out at a restaurant going to do to me? Well let me tell you, it really does a number on me! It causes a chain reaction that just doesn't stop. So I told myself this time will be different, I'm not going on a diet! I'm going to eat better, not exercise to a point of hating it to drop weight fast, if I eat out then I'm going to 1/2 my food with the person I'm with. I'm not going to dive in like a crazy person this time! I'm going to try a healthy lifestyle change.
I've agreed to be accountable to a person on Spark People and I'm going to try my best to stay accountable. I'm going to log my food, even if it's not the greatest at times! I'm dreading doing this! I have a weight problem because I hate to do anything and not see results asap. I'm very OCD on a few things and it's so tough being 42 and not dropping weight quickly. This is such a new challenge to me. I think this is why I have been failing. So I hope I can adapt this new way of thinking and try not to worry about the weight coming off as soon as the next day.