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Tired of this! (or am I?)

Friday, May 30, 2014

I keep saying I'm tired of this yo yo thing I have going on with myself, but it seems like I keep doing it over and over again! Why can't I stop? Do I really have that bad of an obsession with food? I believe I so. I tell myself every Monday I'm starting over, to find myself saying oh it's only one day with my husband shopping, mini vacation etc. what's one eating out at a restaurant going to do to me? Well let me tell you, it really does a number on me! It causes a chain reaction that just doesn't stop. So I told myself this time will be different, I'm not going on a diet! I'm going to eat better, not exercise to a point of hating it to drop weight fast, if I eat out then I'm going to 1/2 my food with the person I'm with. I'm not going to dive in like a crazy person this time! I'm going to try a healthy lifestyle change.

I've agreed to be accountable to a person on Spark People and I'm going to try my best to stay accountable. I'm going to log my food, even if it's not the greatest at times! I'm dreading doing this! I have a weight problem because I hate to do anything and not see results asap. I'm very OCD on a few things and it's so tough being 42 and not dropping weight quickly. This is such a new challenge to me. I think this is why I have been failing. So I hope I can adapt this new way of thinking and try not to worry about the weight coming off as soon as the next day.

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KTTAYLOR21 5/30/2014 3:03PM

    Susan Susan Susan .... oh it's only 2 Susans LOL!!! You and I have A LOT in common!!! My Husband said today that June is going to be different for him. I'm hoping that if he do things differently then I will eat better as well. But like you I keep saying AND I keep on EATING!!! emoticon I keep saying over and over and over that I am tired of being this weight. But if I was TRULY tired I could make the change and STICK TO IT!!!! UGH!!! But the best part is.... we are NOT giving up!!!


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SUSANSUSAN14 5/30/2014 1:18PM

    I'm really counting on both of us succeeding this time!

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LINEKE66 5/30/2014 1:13PM

    Together we will succeed! You can do this.

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Still Trying

Thursday, September 19, 2013

I did so great last year from August till January 2013. I dropped 25 lbs. Then life happened once again and I lost my father-in-law to cancer. I have since then gained back almost all of the weight. I just started back again in August and I have lost 11 lbs. I have done so great, but the last few days I have not felt great and ate a little more than I should have and WAM there goes 4 stupid lbs. I know it's just water gain, but It's still hurtful. I look back at my old post and wonder why can't I feel this everyday and do great. Then I start to think it's "just life" learn and move on a better person.

I also want to say that my son has been accepted for an interview at UAMS college of pharmacy. He has worked so hard the last 2 1/2 years at college to be able to apply for pharmacy school. I want to be a great mom and be there for him. In order to do this I must get my health on track. He has been diagnosed with high cholesterol. So I want to show him better eating habits and exercise habits. My husband also has high cholesterol.

I just wish I could find a quick fix and not every have to worry about my eating habits every again!!!

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MARYANN2323 9/24/2013 2:06AM

    You will get back to where you were, and then some....I have no doubt. And congrats to you on your son getting accepted to UAMS!

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LIBBYG7 9/23/2013 5:06PM

Thanks for commenting on my blog.

I know your frustration......pain sucks. Stress sucks. Death sucks.. And, most of us run to food. Something as minor as an elevator breakdown in my apt building ---- sent me to the fridge today. I can't walk stairs and I'm on the 5th floor. And......I have to walk the dog. Luckily, I have a dogwalker who will climb the stairs and help me out.
But my reflex reaction to stress ---- run to food.

It's a learned behavior-------so we'll just have to UNlearn it, right???
Hugs, Libby

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A new start!

Saturday, December 15, 2012

It came to me almost three months ago. I just couldn't fit into any of my old jeans and I couldn't find any new ones that fit me right in the department stores. So of course I just sort of got mad at myself like I always do and just told my husband I'll just get a bigger size comfy pant to wear. I bought three pairs of those that day and felt great!!

I then woke up the next day and decided that I was going to start an exercise program and start my walking again. If I felt bad with my fibromyalgia then that was ok, I still had my big pants and I no longer cared. I had pants that I felt great in. The funny thing is when I no longer cared about the stupid skinny jeans fitting right I started to lose weight and exercise more.

Three months later I have lost 22 lbs. and fit in all my old jeans, but I still love my big pants. They feel great on when I walk and do Jullian's shred DVD's!

I hope this continues and I keep this up. I feel so good with the exercise and the weight I have lost. The fibromyalgia keeps me down, but I try not to let it win anymore!


Doctors Appointment

Monday, June 04, 2012

Where to start? Just had a Doctor's appointment for my fibromyalgia and I have just found out that I can't be helped with the fibroymyalgia because there are no medicines left that I can take for it. All the other ones makes my blood pressure go up or causes other side effects.

This leaves me to the question, What now? The doctor said I will just have to deal with the pain. To top all of this off I was starting to drop weight and get a handle on my exercise then the pain came back full force and I fell off the wagon and gained every pound back plus one. I was very faithful to the Spark website and then it was like so what....

I know I need to dust myself off and go at it again, but its so hard when you hurt. I was really hoping for a solution for the doctor today. Does anyone else with fibro have this same medication problem?

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    Susan, I know how you feel my pain has been so bad recently Sometimes all I do is cry from the pain. I have tried so many different meds but still have pain. My Dr. increased my gabapentin to 600 mg a day and started me on viibryd 40 mg a day but so far it is not working. I don't know if you have tried any of these. I get so tired of taking medicine I think sometimes it hurts more than it helps. My Dr. also told me if I could work through the pain to exercise every day that it is better for fibro than any pill. I hope you can find something that will give you some relief.

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1PEACEBUNNY 6/4/2012 3:37PM

    Susan stay prayerful and look for natural cures and exercises and diets geared towards your diagnosis. I don't know what this is like so I won't make light of it but you just have to mope for a little while and remember why you started this. On the painful days find some therapy like a heated shower, bath, jacuzzi or cold if you prefer. Pamper the pain and yourself. I am pulling for you and I am hoping that you can find a way to feel healthier and happier while dealing with this and still fininding a way to reach your weight loss goal. Sending you positive energy and prayers. emoticon emoticon

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CSDAYS 6/4/2012 2:45PM

    I have a friend with it and I do not get to see her as much as I'd like.

Bless you!

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My son's Mothers Day Card he made me!

Monday, May 14, 2012

Dear Momma,
Where to start...? This is your day! Be proud of your accomplishment. No seriously, I wouldn't be half the person/man I am today if it weren't for you. You have raised me to the best of your ability and I am so appreciative. You have taught me so many life lessons that I try to carry with me everyday. Before I do most anything, I think, what would mom want? You make me strive to be my best in everything. I also know that anytime I'm sad, mad, discouraged, or just unhappy, I can come to you and things are 100% better. It's because of these things and many more I am proud to be a Momma's Boy! Because there ain't no better Man that one, who loves his Mom. I'm also glad you never look down on me or think anything less than perfect of me even though I'm not. I will love you the same until the day I die and we will aways be close.... love, you son
P.S. I cried writing this

(I just want to point out that he is 19. Just finished his first year at college. He moved in an apartment 30 minutes away from me. I missed him so. He decided to move back in and go back and forth to college in the fall. He thinks he is punishing himself because he should have got all A's. He is on the Deans list and is studying to be a Doctor.)

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1PEACEBUNNY 5/14/2012 4:32PM

    You know, you are just trying to make me cry on a Monday, glad I'm not wearing mascara! He is so lovable, you must feel AWESOME to have made him. I do and he's not even mine! He is the BEST mother's day gift you will ever have! ENJOY and this blog post ROCKS! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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