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I Fell Down-Isn't it GLORIOUS!!!!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

First let me say what I seem to say constantly, but just plain can't help it: my fellow Sparkers are a wonderful, amazing blessing, and it has been such an honor to know so many real, honest, inspiring and beautiful ladies. I believe I could do this if Spark ceased to exist, but I am so glad I don't have to do this without you all!

About 3 weeks ago, I hit a wall of physical and mental fatigue that knocked me on my, well, backside shall we say. I tried to push through it for a few days, when my DH suggested I take a week off fitness to give my body a rest. It worked in terms of the scale, but suddenly I found all the stinkin' thinkin' literally flooding back. My vision for what I could accomplish and what I could do seemingly vanished. I've felt scared, alone, defeated. I felt like giving up on myself. It has felt like the 42 pounds of weight loss that I have accomplished never happened.

So now what? I have fallen on my face and had more failings in the last three weeks than I have had in the last four months. Which road will I take?

Let me just say that I am taking the hard road. I am grateful for this fall. I need help. I am flawed and sinful and weak. It is a wonderful place to admit that I am not there yet, that I am becoming. So I freely and humbly admit!

I would have loved to have never hit a snag, never to have stumbled as I have seen some amazing ladies and gentlemen on this site do. But this is my journey, not any one else's. We do not need to compare ourselves to each other. I let some really destructive habits become entrenched over a really long period of time. I don't know how many times I will fall face down in the muck, but each time I do, it will make me stronger if I choose not to quit. And I choose not to quit. I am worth fighting for and I am willing to dig deep, and do this, no matter what it takes.

No one gave me a promise that this would be easy when I started. I embrace the fact that I will be challenged and find strengths I didn't know I had. I accept my failings as well as my victories. The successful person is the one who gets up, and I am determined to get up again and again.

So it is back to basics for me. One day at a time, one meal at time, one healthy choice at a time. Grace and honesty; forgiveness and accountability. Track everything. Move and sweat. Challenge myself while accepting my limitations. No excuses and no perfection.

This is a marathon, not a sprint. I rounded a bend and fell into a thorn bush. I'm a little scratched up, but I'm standing again. I never left the race, just had some rough going. I know I can do this and believe this is worth doing because I have value. To my Saviour, Jesus, to my husband,my children, my family, my friends and to MYSELF.

So I feel like I am just entering Phase 2 of my journey. How many phases will I go through. I'll let you know when I am done!!! emoticon

Blessings and emoticonSue

  
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COLEOPTERRA 6/9/2011 7:36PM

    I am so happy to have stumbled upon your blog today...your words had so much meaning and truth to them. Thank you for speaking from that place inside that we mostly like to hide from.
Beautiful read!!
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INSHAPE2011 6/9/2011 4:59PM

    This is such a lovely blog. You are putting into words what I feel (and I guess many others here). I've stumbled a few times since I started but I am grateful for one thing.. in the past I used to be afraid of the time when I would "fall" because it always meant curtains for yet another diet effort. Now I know things are different because I am not afraid anymore. The only way is forward. Keep going!

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FITFABJENN 5/29/2011 8:26PM

    Woo hoo to you! This journey (YOUR journey) is about progress, not perfection. As I tell my students, our errors are simply learning opportunities. I applaud you for getting back up and moving forward. I completely agree that you ARE worth the considerable effort it will take to change your life for the better (forever).

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MWESTICH 5/27/2011 1:11PM

    As some of the others have already expressed--you said what I have been feeling and struggling with. Thank you.

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AMYELIZABETH8 5/26/2011 7:50PM

    Oh Sue what a beautiful blog! I am so happy I stopped by to see how you were. I loved reading it! You got this! Life does throw us curve balls, being on this journey with terrific women like you has giving me the strength to roll with the punches! You're awesome! Thank you!
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BELLASMOMMY2008 5/26/2011 12:16PM

    Dear sister....My tears are flowing....I can relate to your choice of works from your heart!! And in some strange way...I can relate to it on more levels then just losing weight. I pray for you, my dear sister... emoticon

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NANA717 5/26/2011 5:43AM

    Oh my goodness, Sue!!! I can relate to every single word you write!! And written so well. I couldn't express my feelings any better than you just did! Thank you for writing this! I'm going to refer to it often, to know that you and I are so much alike. Think alike!! And have the same determination!!!! Thank you, dear friend!! for writing this! It has touched me so much. Love you, dear friend, dear sister in Christ. Blessings on you today.

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MIRACLELOVE77 5/25/2011 11:07PM

    That's right, you NEVER LEFT THE RACE!

Hebrews 12:1-3 Since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with endurance the race set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

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BLESSEDMAZARS 5/25/2011 10:24PM

    I love the song GetBackUp by Toby Mac. It's what life is about. But it's so important to get back up, and Praise God for that!

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SINGAGAIN 5/25/2011 9:31PM

    I love your blog. I'm so happy you are sharing this, and reaching out. I think that so many of us think we have to be perfect like the SP you talk about, and never stumble. But then when we hit a rough patch we give up! That all or nothing way of thinking is very destructive. Now I have you to cheer on, and learn from. If you pick yourself up, dust yourself off and get back in it I will be able to do that when my turn comes to fall. The most inspiring stories for me are the ones where people have human failings and somehow succeed anyway!! You're living one of those stories, and I can't wait to read the happy ending!!

I'm out here cheering you on!! You inspire me so much!! Love & hugs, Jodee

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KADULAC 5/25/2011 8:35PM

    It is nice to know that I am not the only one who struggles with this. I love that when I feel discouraged and frustrated I can come on Sparkpeople and read inspiring blogs like this one and get the strength to move on. God has given me some great Sparkfriends and I count you as one. I'm glad you are able to start over and move on. God bless your journey.

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LAURELHEALTHIER 5/25/2011 4:02PM

    Oh Sue, I love you so! My eyes are all teary...
Thank you for your honesty and example of getting back up again and continuing on the hard (but worth it!) path. You are a treasure.

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BEATRIZ269 5/25/2011 12:19PM

    Susan,

Thank you so much for your courage and this inspirational blog. Yes, we do stumble but we are still in it and you have already proven to yourself you can do this with your successes thus far. This is a temporary wall you will work through with your plan and support of your fellow sparkers one day at a time. I know I am done with the old me and one day at time, even if it takes longer than my head tells me it should, I am changing to the person I want to be.

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SUSIEGKORN 5/25/2011 12:14PM

    Wow, are you in my head or what! This is me right now too. I keep plugging away, looking for a way to get back at it. You've written what I've been feeling and have written it so clearly ~ thanks for that! Sometimes it's just so hard to understand what's going on within us ~ and that can become an obstacle. Once we overcome the obstacle, we can be on our merry way again!

I've not quit either, just got off the right path! So here's to us, and the others on this journey with us! Let's do this.........together!
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MACKIEFISMOM 5/25/2011 11:36AM

    You may have old entrenched habits, but you also have blossoming new ones!! We all struggle, we all fall, it's what we do next that defines our path. Getting up speaks louder than falling down!!!! God bless!!!

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OVERHAULING-ME 5/25/2011 11:10AM

    LOVE this! I think there are many people on SP who seem to be on the perfect journey, no falling down, but I don't think that is the case. Some have HUGE falls others maybe little stumbles and trips. The key to everyone's success is not staying down but getting back up!

I love what you wrote, love your game plan and LOVE the fact that you've climbed out of the thorn bushes and aren't letting the scratches keep you down. I need you on this journey with me! You've been there for my stumbles and I'll be here for you!

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SARAHJ19 5/25/2011 11:05AM

    I love your attitude Sue! You are amazing! Way to go on recognizing everything! You are on the right track! One step at a time! you got this!

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ABETTERSOUL 5/25/2011 8:36AM

    We all fall down, we just need to get back up, brush ourselves off and go forward. With our Lord's grace, strength and power, You Can Do This!!!!

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TINKSMOM1 5/25/2011 8:09AM

    Living and Learning, thats what its about....and sometimes you need that sense of defeat, to fight that much harder! Sounds backwards...I know. Take care, I know you are strong and can do this! Welcome back! emoticon emoticon

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FUNNINFIT 5/25/2011 7:38AM

    I liked it when the one of the gals on Biggest Loser said that it's all about believing in yourself-that's the best thing I add-the power is within each of us-grasp it, believe it, and act on it

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SUZHOLLE 5/25/2011 5:32AM

    Thanks for posting such an honest and heartfelt blog. You are such an inspiration. You can do this, we all can fall but we have the choice to stay down or get back up. So happy you chose to get back up. Take care of yourself.

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EATCLEANREPEAT 5/25/2011 1:05AM

  I am so happy to see you back! I know you will do well now that you are back. It is all part of the journey, you are right, one meal at a time for a while until it becomes automatic again. You CAN do this!!!! Looking forward to more blog posts!

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BETHEUNICORN 5/25/2011 12:38AM

    Thanks for posting this! It's just what I needed to hear. I've been feeling a little defeated myself recently and I know it's my old perfectionist attitude coming back and saying that since I fell I can't get back up and I should just stay down. But I refuse to do it this time. And I am glad that you refuse to also!

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SILENTE8 5/25/2011 12:35AM

  You have a plan:
"...So it is back to basics for me. One day at a time, one meal at time, one healthy choice at a time. Grace and honesty; forgiveness and accountability. Track everything. Move and sweat. Challenge myself while accepting my limitations. No excuses and no perfection..."

You can push through this. You can do anything! You're in my prayers. Take care of yourself. ~Erin
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ELISOS 5/24/2011 11:33PM

    Everybody fall down, but it's a great opportunity to learn. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LVMAMAW 5/24/2011 11:14PM

    You ARE worth it!! What a Champ you are!! We all fall down, and look at you...you got up!! Here you go again and I am there with you every step of the way!!!

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SOONASKINNYGIRL 5/24/2011 10:48PM

    You are such an inspiration! I love this blog. I just "fell down" a few weeks ago too, it's hard to get back up, but I'm so proud of you for doing so! You're so strong and I know you can do it all and reach your goal, no matter how hard, you just proved that. Remember it if you trip up again and I will remember it too! Thanks for the reminder, the honesty and the great attitude. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SHASSYSUE2 5/24/2011 10:45PM

    You are simply awesome!!! One sign of growth, is when we can look at "ME" and be completely honest with ourselves. We do fall down, but you are absolutely right we just need to get back up and just keep going. Dust ourselves off, and keep marching!!! No one can do it but us, but thank goodness for our Heavenly Father, and our friends. This is the first time in my life that I have turned to God to get me through the journey, and what a difference it has made...Take care my dear friend!!! Shannon

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BRDGT262 5/24/2011 10:41PM

    So proud of you to fight for yourself, you deserve this, you deserve to do this for yourself!!! And when you feel like you can't go any more you just repeat phillipeans 4:13 over and over!!! I know you can do this!!! Thanks for being the wonderful loving, honest spark friend you are!!! You are such an important part of my journey! You inspire me day after day, so just get back up, and keep going!! Hope to see you Thursday, let's say a prayer that the weather will be nice for us!! :)

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JENNSWIMS 5/24/2011 10:33PM

    Back to basics is not a bad thing... in fact, it may be a really great thing!

I understand about not appreciating what you've accomplished so far, I feel that way myself pretty frequently.

I hope you get your groove back soon!

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FEEL l've been M.I.A., but I am still here!

Friday, May 13, 2011

Hello dear fellow sparkers,

I hope this finds you all well! It's 1O:53 PM and I just got finished an hour and a half of math with my 12 year old. I am wiped, but really wanted to blog something. I feel really out of touch with Spark this week, and I don't like it one little bit. emoticon A wall of fatigue hit me Monday and I just feel like I'm finding my feet again. I want to blog what I've experienced this week, because I think it is really important in my whole journey. I will try to do it tomorrow.

I just wanted to say I'm still here, still walking this path{this week felt like limping}, and I am so glad for all of you who are wanting this,too, fighting for it, sailing on an updraft or pushing into a headwind, but just not ever quitting.

Good night dear friends-you are a precious gift, to me and to the world!

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FITFABJENN 5/21/2011 5:31PM

    I'm glad you posted this blog, Sue. (Sorry, I'm a little late to the party.) Yes, I was wondering about you, hoping you're doing well.

Keep on keeping on, Spark friend.

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KGWINDER 5/19/2011 6:42PM

    Yea Sue. Baby steps will keep you out of the gutting and the more you try the more likely there will be a blissfull day ahead - I can't wait until we both get to a much better place. emoticon

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EATCLEANREPEAT 5/16/2011 5:47PM

  I look forward to your next blog post! Hang in there, I hope you got your feet under you again and are ready to bust through some of that fatigue.

You only have 2 weeks of school left, right? What do you plan to do with your extra time then? We don't finish until June 30th so I have a ways to go yet!

Hope things are looking up now that is is Monday!

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SARAHJ19 5/15/2011 9:46PM

    Hang in there! Hope this week is a good one for you!!!!
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OVERHAULING-ME 5/14/2011 8:10PM

    I'm glad you checked in. A limp is definitely slower but it's still heading in the right direction...just DON'T sit down and stop!

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SHASSYSUE2 5/14/2011 12:39AM

    It must be catching because I have had a rough week too!!1 No gym, and needed lots of rest, but I just look at it as a speedbump in my journey!!! I am learning that sometimes my body is going to need to rest... I have missed you this week, but I am glad to hear that you are doing better!!! Take care, sweet friend!! Shannon

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SINGAGAIN 5/13/2011 2:56PM

    It's amazing and inspiring to me that you are here, with all that you are responsible for. I'm so glad that you are able to steal a moment here & there (a very important, well deserved "you" moment)! It's like putting the oxygen mask on yourself first.. You can't help your family if you can't breathe!!

As for us... we miss you and love you and cheer for you. We know you're here in spirit every day!! I'm sending love & hugs your way. Love, Jodee
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JUDITHWITHROW 5/13/2011 2:02PM

    I remember the math marathons...they can really wipe you out! Three years ago 2 of my sons came home with 8 algebra assignments they were missing and grades were due the next day! Hang in there.

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MN4VOLS 5/13/2011 1:34PM

    I can completely relate! This week has not been the best for me. I will be blogging about it soon.

I am glad you are feeling better and that you are not giving up. Keep fighting the good fight! emoticon

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BATTISTOLI 5/13/2011 11:35AM

    hang in there! sometimes you need to take a break and rest for a bit. we'll be here when you come back! emoticon

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JENNSWIMS 5/13/2011 10:01AM

    It sounds like you are plain old tired! Get a nap, get a good meal, take a nice walk and see if you bounce back a bit!

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FUNNINFIT 5/13/2011 8:01AM

    Limp, crawl, or be carried-stay on the course & you'll get there!
(that much math???)
Will wait to read you blog!
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FUNNINFIT 5/13/2011 8:01AM

    Limp, crawl, or be carried-stay on the course & you'll get there!
(that much math???)
Will wait to read you blog!
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BRDGT262 5/13/2011 1:08AM

    Night Sue! You will be fine! You have got to be exhausted with all that exercising, between that and the kids, and the teaching, etc. You are a strong Mommy, and a wonderful wife and friend! You deserve a couple days of rest! Just don't stay away too long, we miss you!!! :)

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ELISOS 5/13/2011 12:13AM

    thank you for those sweet words. get better soon. emoticon emoticon

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SWEETMAGNOLIA2 5/13/2011 12:12AM

    I'm just like you right now. Busy out of my mind, but still here and still pushing forward.
Thanks for the encouragement. Blessings to you, too.
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I am so NOT a runner...YET!!!!!

Friday, May 06, 2011

Happy Friday evening, all and Happy Early Mother's Day to all you wonderful Spark Moms!

I joined the C25K challenge and I started today. YIKES!!!! For those who don't know I have the oh-too-typical, 1OO pounds too many on your knees pain, but I also have one particularly bad knee{I fell and wrenched it twice on the same day about 2 years ago}. I'm thinking of naming this bum knee and am open to any suggestions. emoticon

I did the walk/run thing at the track at our local college for about the first mile and a half. Then I did about 2 and 1/2 miles for a total of 4. My knee was screaming when I was done and I spent the afternoon walking around the Botanical Garden, which was lovely save the screaming knee. I really want to run. I never had any interest in running, but I have caught a bug since joining SP. So mentally I am there, but am wondering if I need to accept the fact that I may just not physically be there yet. I want to do it if I can, and I don't want to make excuses. But I am limping around tonight in a lot of pain.

I am trying to analyze the pain-is it just soreness or injury type pain? I'm leaning toward injury and trying not to be bummed. Should I give it a day or two and try again? Or should I just stick to what I have been doing? I really don't expect any definitive answer , I'm just trying to figure it out.

The truth is that not everyone can be a runner. If I can't do it today, it doesn't mean that I can't next month or in six months or in a year. I will take it one day at a time and trust that I will do just what God has for me. I will do what I can when I can.

Running will hopefully be in my future, but if it isn't, that's okay too. I will be strong and fit and healthy and awesome, whether walker or runner!!!!

Be blessed and Spark on, dear friends!!!!

  
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KADULAC 5/8/2011 11:42PM

    I would like to run also. I run a couple minutes here and there when I am out for my walks. I would let your knee rest as far as running goes. Walking would accomplish your goals, and let your knee heal. You'll get there, just take it slowly.

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JOMAMA516 5/8/2011 7:11PM

    I hope your knee feels better! I used to run (when I was 12 years younger and 100+ lbs lighter) and hope to get back to it someday. I know that I'm not ready for it now but I know I'll get there. Maybe your knee is telling you it doesn't wanna run right now! I would try to rest the knee a bit until it's back up to par and then maybe when you feel ready just try a short distance. Maybe even start with a spurt of jogging...then walking....and just keep alternating to get in the swing of things. That's what was recommended to me by a close friend of our family that runs daily. So when I do feel good enough to do it I'll be easing in.....VERY slowly! Lol

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LENKA763 5/8/2011 6:56PM

    You go girl...but I'm not sure I can follow.
I got better at running but for me running is for emergency purpose only:)

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FITFABJENN 5/8/2011 10:34AM

    You really inspire me. I've been flirting with running recently. I'm not sure I'm quite ready yet, but I'm inching in that direction.

Take care of yourself, Sue!

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HEALTHQUESTER 5/7/2011 9:55PM

    Ok, i have a lot to say on this particular subject. i am a medical massage therapist, I am also a runner at heart, although I don't have the greatest consistency. I ran a half-marathon in 2009 weighing 243lbs. Soooo here goes, why did you run/walk 4 miles on your first time out? (If i am reading that correctly) that is too much, too soon. Your body needs time to acclimate to new demands. As for your knee pain, did it get worse as the run went on? Or did it get better? if it got worse as the run went on the 'rule of thumb' is that is an injury. If it got better, that is typically a normal soreness issue. if it is an injury and you have access to a pool (given the swim suit, I thought you might) you can do pool running to improve your cardiovascular endurance and muscle without putting stress on the joint. You use a belt in the water, I can give you more info on this if you'd like...i used pool running quite a bit during my half-marathon training. Also if it is an injury, ice ice ice. And rest, rest, rest. If you want more info just message me, i'd be glad to go onj and on and on about this as I loooooove this topic! emoticon

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KRISTINKP 5/7/2011 11:00AM

    Listening to your body is a hard thing to do when you have a goal. I am training for a 1/2 marathon and I have had a nagging pain in my left quad/knee for awhile now. After a 4 mile run on Thursday I knew that I needed a break. Today is a gorgeous day here after weeks and weeks of rain and it is killing me to not go for a run! But in the long run, I want to stay healthy and be able to continue my weight loss. The 1/2 will have to wait. Give yourself a break, do some strength training for your legs, and try again when you think you're ready. Walking lunges are a great way to strengthen your knees and quads without much impact...just make sure to keep your knee at a 90 degree angle when lunging, because any farther can hurt you more! Now, can I listen to my own advice and stay off my knee today? :-) good luck to you!!

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SINGAGAIN 5/7/2011 4:04AM

    How about "Screaming Knee-mi". emoticon You're too cute. I like to name things too. My car is "Moses". But maybe you should give it a positive name so it can live up to it's name.... how about "Miracle".

I'm so proud of you for everything! You constantly surprise and delight me. Keep up your amazing progress! Love & hugs, Jodee

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MN4VOLS 5/7/2011 12:45AM

    I think you are doing the right thing by listening to your body. Hurting knees are no fun and will only get worse if not taken care of. Maybe some rest and ice on it will help?

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TEMPEST272002 5/6/2011 11:37PM

    When I first started the C25K, I did 2 pre-C25K weeks. Wk 1 run 30 sec/walk 90. Wk 2 run 45 sec/walk 90. Then started the regular C25K program. You might want to try that.

For the first 2 weeks, I had a LOT of knee pain. Like you, I wondered if I was injuring myself. I used lightweight knee support for about 3 weeks. They helped support the knee while I was building muscle.

Also, for pain reduction: Stretch after your run, not before. Do not skip the stretch! Elevate and Ice your calves/knees for 15 minutes after a run. Take an IBprofin before heading out.

Having said all that... I do not feel your pain & you are the only one who can judge how it feels.

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ELISOS 5/6/2011 11:07PM

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OVERHAULING-ME 5/6/2011 10:51PM

    I'm not a runner...YET...either! I think I want to be. I know there are a lot of people on SP who run/jog before they've lost their weight. I don't have any advice for you. I too have knee pain so am waiting a bit until I get some of my weight off. Hopefully a runner will have some suggestions for you. I know ITSHOWYOULIVE is a runner. BEST WISHES on your new interest!

Krista

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VISUALLYRICS 5/6/2011 10:44PM

    emoticonSusan!!! emoticon
You DID do it! ....I'd leave the future in His hands....and keep trying. I know He will show you the way to go. emoticon

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JIBBIE49 5/6/2011 10:38PM

    DONE GIRL, keep on going.

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Swimsuit panic under control(mostly) w/pictures

Thursday, May 05, 2011

First of all, let me thank all you wonderful ladies who spoke truth and calm to me in the midst of my freak out and little adult tantrum yesterday. I really heard you, and to put my money where my mouth is, so to speak, I went out and bought a swimsuit and wrap today. In fact, as I sit here typing I am wearing said suit and wrap. I am going to get used to being in it, come what may.

I showed the kids and nobody gasped with horror; they just basically said, "cool" and got on with their day. I have decided that I need to, in so many words:

GET OVER MYSELF!!!

I really do want to live life and enjoy all that is has to offer. I am so grateful for the weight I've lost and the weight I am going to lose. I am determined to like myself as I am WHILE I am looking forward to the shape of me shrinking and changing. I decided to be thankful for my big ol' legs and all that they can and have done. Thank God they work at all. I know my attitude will probably tank again, but I will deal with it and move forward again.

I am so grateful for the dose of reality you gave me. Experiences are so much more important than appearances, and I am going to embrace those experiences instead of hiding from them. Just another miraculous gift I have received on Spark from you guys.
I am going to let my body as it is motivate me to change what I can and pray that God give me the grace to accept what just is.

So, in another effort to practice bravery and transparency, here are the pictures(I cannot believe I'm doing this-I am so counting on you guys to still love me!) emoticon




Bring on the pool and bring on life!!!!
Spark on!

  
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KGWINDER 5/19/2011 6:38PM

    Absolutely great choice. Honestly you have a very nicely shaped wave of curves. I'm SO "right on girl" because you have taken the step of embracing yourself - I've yet to have the strenght to post a full body picture...it took me forever just to put up a face shot.

I hope you have many great pool days ahead.

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SUSIEGKORN 5/18/2011 1:47AM

    Look at you! I have a water aerobics routine already typed up on my computer if you'd like me to email it to you! I took a class then wanted to have the flexibility to workout on my time rather than the scheduled time. Plus, I could do more and stay longer if I wished. So, I took some of the exercises I learned in class, paired with some from the internet and from books from the library and made up my own routine. I actually do the water workout at an outdoor pool in the summer. Just let me know if you want it.

So proud you overcame your negative feelings about the swim suit! Good for you! Love the suit and wrap! You look great!
Susie

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FOXIELADIE1188 5/15/2011 11:22PM

    This suit looks awesome! I love the colors on you!

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ARTTHERAPY4LIFE 5/15/2011 3:14PM

    I think you look great in it. Pretty color!

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SHARE_MY_WORLD_ 5/13/2011 7:52AM

    great suit Sue you look fab! way to show your bravery! Now I must talk myself into the same gesture of putting on the dreaded swimsuit! Keep up the great work!

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BRDGT262 5/11/2011 5:15PM

    very pretty sue!!! great job on showing a lil bravery, lol! Hopefully we will see ya at the pool this summer! :)

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BETHEUNICORN 5/6/2011 11:56PM

    Looking hot mama! :)
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LAURELHEALTHIER 5/6/2011 10:59PM

    Love the suit and wrap! Where did you find them?? You look terrific, my dear. So proud of you! And just think, before long you'll be able to sell that beautiful suit to someone else and buy another that will also coordinate with your gorgeous new wrap. Way to go!

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FORTITUDE101 5/6/2011 9:26PM

    Just think about all the weight you will swim off and all the fun you will have with your kids just because you put on that swimsuit. Congrats on not 'putting off' living because of your weight!!!

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KADULAC 5/6/2011 12:47PM

    That looks so beautiful. I love the color. Enjoy your pool time in that, soon you'll need a smaller one. emoticon

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SILENTE8 5/6/2011 11:40AM

  You are so pretty in your new suit. I'm curious where you got it, I love it so much. Blue's my favorite color. Way to step out of your comfort zone and live life.
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OVERHAULING-ME 5/6/2011 11:01AM

    You look beautiful! What a wonderful color on you! There's nothing to be embarrassed about, you can go to the pool with your head held high and ENJOY that time with your kids! My kids could careless what I look like in my swimming suit, they're just always glad when I get in the water with them (which, unfortunately, is not enough. That will change this year!)

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TINKSMOM1 5/6/2011 10:44AM

    You dun good! Funny how kids tend to put things in perspective without even trying too! I wanted to let you know your blog inspired me to head to the pool again and I ended up doing 30 minutes of swimming! I so hate putting on the suit, but getting in the pool reminded me of how much I love the feeling of weightlessness. I felt light and lean, even if it was for a short while. But it helped inspire me. It helped remind me of a time when I didnt worry about what I looked like in a suit (or jeans...) and reminded me that I am working to accept myself as I am now, but also to get healthier. Your suit looks great, and the wrap is a wonderful touch. Enjoy the time with your kiddos! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GODDESSELLIE07 5/6/2011 10:19AM

    You look great! And you are going to have a blast at the pool this summer :)

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MN4VOLS 5/6/2011 9:19AM

    You look great! I am proud of you. That is a beautiful suit and looks wonderful on you! Way to face your fears! emoticon

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SUZHOLLE 5/6/2011 5:05AM

    You look so beautiful emoticonand I love your outlook! you are so inspiring. You helped me want to go look for a suit. Have an awesome time at the pool and enjoy this time with your kids. emoticon

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SINGAGAIN 5/5/2011 11:04PM

    What a beautiful suit and wrap! I'm so proud of you for facing your fear and making a loving commitment to yourself and your children. I think you look lovely, the colors are so gorgeous!

Have a wonderful time!! Woo Hoo! Love & hugs, Jodee

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AFTERMYKIDS 5/5/2011 10:36PM

    So CUTE!! emoticon and with that wrap your waist looks so TINY. Go ROCK that POOL! emoticon
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SOONASKINNYGIRL 5/5/2011 10:28PM

    Amen, sister! I feel everything you said and agree 100%. I really admire that you put up swimsuit pictures, so brave and truly inspiring! You look great and your swimsuit is really pretty, wish I could find one like that. :) We will ALWAYS love you!!! I'm so proud of your journey so far and your self-realizations, you can do whatever you put your mind to and I'll be right here supporting you the whole way!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BRIGHTONBOUND 5/5/2011 10:20PM

    You look BEAUTIFUL! And you are going to have so much fun! (Your suit is gorgeous, too, such a great color on you!)
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blessings, Julie

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YELLOWBIRD01 5/5/2011 8:46PM

    You look great!!!! I love the suit and wrap!!! Great color on you!!!! Enjoy the time in the pool and play with the kids!!! Life is worth living!!!!!

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SOXYINMO 5/5/2011 8:42PM

    You look beautiful!



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GUNDERMAN27 5/5/2011 8:38PM

    I think your suit is really cute!! Where did you get it?

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ELISOS 5/5/2011 8:37PM

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KIYOSHI04 5/5/2011 8:37PM

    you're beautiful.

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FITMAY 5/5/2011 8:21PM

    I'm so proud of you!!! emoticon
That's right! this is your miracle to live... This is your body and your life! Embrace it! I think you look awesome!...
Go to that pool and have a party!!!!!
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Love,
May

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