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Thursday, January 17, 2013

I was just reading my last post "The Spark Difference" which I wrote like two and a half years much has happened since then...I am not going to beat myself up about it...I am just picking up the pieces and moving on....sometimes we get in a rut taking care of others and let ourselves fall to the wayside. That would probably be a great new goal for me...not to forget to take care of myself....when I make my needs a priority everything else that needs to get done still manages to get done. I have high hopes to keep these lifestyle changes going and maintain good health for myself and my family. I am back.

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KSW1963 2/8/2013 8:29PM

    I just got back into sparking too. It seems like we are on the same journey :). Let's do it this time :)

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4EVERADONEGIRL 1/17/2013 6:27PM

    emoticon Back!!! I think your goal is a great one to have! I always remind myself that when you fly on an airplane the flight attendant says during the safety spiel that if you are traveling with others you are to put the oxygen mask on yourself FIRST and then take care of your companions because if you aren't getting oxygen, you can't help anyone else anyways! So put your oxygen mask on. :-)

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    Welcome back!

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LTMURPHY7 1/17/2013 4:39PM

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The Spark Difference

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

I have been a member of the spark community for almost three months now...and on thyroid meds for about two months now...

Some of the things I have noticed are that I have sooo much more energy finally...I remember waking up in the morning and counting how many hours it was going to be until I could go to bed (thanks to my underactive thyroid and pancreas!) Now I try to think of things that I can do to enjoy my day my four year old. I really am able to enjoy her...instead of just sticking her in front of the TV. We've already been to the beach twice, gone to a working farm to pick veggies and see the animals, gone to the zoo, and had playdates. Thats more probably than I was able to do with her all winter.

I am way more conscious about what I eat. I look for the healthy thing on the menu or most times if I have something less than healthy I have planned for it in my day. Meals, though I make them, aren't as big a deal at my house, it could be grilled chicken salad for dinner, or burgers with salad for me and fries for them. Food though planned for, is far less a priority. Now if I think about certain foods- high sugar or carb, I think if I eat too much of this I am going to get sleepy and feel sick...and typically will skip or minimize the amount I have.

At the gym, when I went back, I was soo disgusted with frustrated at how I let my endurance and ability slip away. I would struggle to do 30 min on the ellipitcal. Now I can do 45 to an hour. Now I can do spin class withough dying. I am challenging myself with the C25K program. I can jog 5 straight minutes....5 minutes may not seem like alot to you, but to me its alot...I don't think I was really built to be a runner...I am really big busted so I think it makes it harder. But I figure if I continue to work at matter how long it takes me...I will get there.

I am so grateful for the support I have received on Sparkpeople. In the beginning, when I first found out I had hypothyroidism the support and information I received on this website was amazing. I don't know of another place on the web where I could have found so much info, and so many others like me. When I am having an really offday or feeling frustrated, there is so much support here. I know I am going to reach my goal this time. I just know it.

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4EVERADONEGIRL 6/29/2010 1:18PM

    Woohoo!! You said it all...there's nothing left to say except for "GOOD JOB!!!" You are kickin' butt and takin' names!

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One Word Answers

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Where is your cell phone?


Your hair?

Your mother?

Your father?

Your favourite thing?

Your dream last night?

Favourite drink?

What room are you in?

Your hobby?

your fear?

Where do you want to be in 6 years?

Where were you last night?

Something that you aren't?


Wish list item?

Last thing you did?
phone call

What are you wearing?

Your pets?


Your life?

Your mood?

Missing someone?


Your car?

Something you're not wearing?

Your favourite store?

Your favourite colour?

When is the last time you cried?
couple of days ago

Where do you go over and over?
grocery store

Five people who email me regularly?

Favourite place to eat?
tie...Marshland or Seafood Sams

Favourite place I'd like to be right now?


Trials and tribulations of motherhood of a teenage daughter...

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

This blog is really just for me. I find when I blog I can sort out some of my feelings....its a great way NOT to feel and be aware of what is really bothering me.

So today daughter number one comes home, with honor roll, and a special science award...I tell her thats great....all I can do is ask..did you get into the advanced algebra class for next year? I don't know she says...oyy...I start feeling it welling up inside...the anger..the ugly feelings...the worry that she won't make something of herself...we don't have a lot of money..she needs to do well in school to get a scholarship for college. She starts sobbing..its never enough I am never good enough for you no matter how I try. I feel like a piece of crap. All I want for her is to do well in life and not have to struggle ,

She tells me one of my best friends daughters was being mean to her today. Making a big drama over an incident that happened yesterday where my daughter accidentally did something.

I know I can't depend on her for my happiness...and I can't get intertwined in her teenage dramas. She has to fight her own battles - I have to be there but detach myself from her problems...not feel her does a mother do that? How do I instill confidence in her without wanting the most that she is capable of?

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LADYHAWKES 6/24/2010 9:59AM

    Boy do I understand, I have a 16 year old son, whose incredibly talented, creatively, but disciplined, ha! I too worry about his future, and do the best I can to encourage him to make something of his life, some point they have to make their own successes and failures, even though I want him to avoid my failures. I PRAY ALOT! and just love him as much as I can. Sounds like your daughter at least has some self discipline and an incredible amount of intelligence, she'll do fine. They do want to please us more than we give them credit for, I find I have to step back sometimes from my own expectations for him and give encouraging words for what he has accomplished and just encourage him to do more. Praying for you

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KSW1963 6/24/2010 2:13AM

    I too have a couple of teen daughters. I know exactly what you are talking about...sometimes have to bite my tongue to not push. My daughter has made the exact same claim about me...that I say "Good job.but then make a statment that says to her "not good enough." I think it is about timing. Your daughter made the honor roll and a special Science award! That is awesome! I think that is the time to just praise her and make her feel great about her accomplishments. She obviously worked very hard to do that well. Later on...another day, ask about the other stuff you are concerned about. Ultimately, she has to know that how she does will affect her chances of a scholarship...and that if she doesn't get one, she will have to work very hard to get through college. I worked my way I know it is possible. And you know what? I struggled with it sometimes....but I am glad for the character that it built in me. It all tends to work out the way that it is supposed to. Try not to stress too much.

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4EVERADONEGIRL 6/23/2010 6:39PM

    I completely understand what you are saying. I have two teenage daughters and they have been such a challenge! It is such a delicate line, especially with girls, of making them confident but still keeping them grounded.

I can't say how to handle it or what to do because every family is different. Spend lots of time in prayer! I just try to make sure my kids know I love them no matter what and that they can always talk to me about anything. Sometimes I don't want to hear what they are telling me though! LOL

Hang in there Spark Friend! (Oh why couldn't kids come with an easy to follow instruction manual????)


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Win or Lose???

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

I don't know....I thought I was doing such a great thing putting on paper my intentions for the next five days. It just didn't work for me. I can't tell whether I set my goals to high or it was just a fluke week for me. But ultimately the most important thing I that I am proud of is that I didn't sabotage my efforts by letting the little setbacks I had determine the entire week. Essentially I stuck to my goals as best I day I couldn't go in to the gym because of confilcts at home, another day I stayed home (after my fight with the treadmill and the sadly te treadmill won - but thats another story!).

The positive things I got out of this challenge:

I learned I can jog on the treadmill for three minutes....big for me...

I learned how to not rely on the scale to determine how I felt...which was HUGE....In fact, I have since decided that I am only getting on that scale once a week...which I think is really helpful....

I learned not to let little setbacks deter me from my excuses this is how I have to live forever if I want to be around for my hubby and kids...

I learned it is important to listen to what my body is telling me...I think I had my treadmill mishap because I was wiped...and when I am too tired I have to stop.

I am also trying really hard to remember that the weight will come off....maybe not in the timely fashion I'd like...but it doesn't matter it still has to come off...

So after the increased exercise over these last few days...what did the scale finally say....only a half a pound....and thats okay I will come...

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4EVERADONEGIRL 6/22/2010 9:10PM

    Goals are simply that...goals that we are imposing on ourselves. If you don't reach all, or even some, of them, that's okay! All that matters is that you are continually trying and are striving to better yourself. You are right - the process may be slow, but that's when it comes into play that this is a lifestyle change. Not a fad diet or fad exercise program.

All of this we do would be useless if we weren't living life in there too! So I am super glad you learned a lot of useful things during this week that you will be able to continually build on throughout your healthy journey. Way to go!!!!

Big High Five!!!

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