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Monday, January 30, 2012


Can't figure out how to bring my intake down :(

I don't eat that much processed stuff...I don't use added salt...and yet I have only have 1 day in the past week where my sodium levels have been within range.

Any advice?

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ANGELBETH76 4/2/2012 10:22AM

    Sodium has been the biggest surprise for me. It is the one thing that I have watched more than anything since I started Spark. Like they said, you just have to check everything. Even bread. You'll get it figured out. Spark is a huge help. Do you know that when you are going to add something, that you can look at its individual nutrition. Under the amount that you choose (such as, 4 ounces, 1 serving, 2 tbsp) is a link you can click on that says "See full nutritional info". It will adjust to whatever serving you enter. It is very helpful. If you go back to other days and click on each food individually, you could figure out where most of your sodium is coming from by clicking on that link. Hope I've helped you more than confused you lol. Take care neighbor!

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WINNIE1978 1/31/2012 2:14PM

    It is in everything, literally! We look at the labels on everything and buy the low sodium or no salt added versions of everything now. Any pre-packaged food, frozen veggies, canned veggies, condiments, spices... It is in everything.

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SRBULLARD1 1/31/2012 1:22PM

    It is hidden everywhere. Do you drink soft drinks? Depending on the brand, sometimes they add a lot of exta sodium.

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LOSINGITNOW11 1/30/2012 9:46PM

    I am still trying to figure that out myself. I have sodium recorded on my tracker and most days I am over my intake. I guess it's just going to take more meal planning on my part to get those numbers down. Good luck to you.

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CHEROKEE1946 1/30/2012 9:34PM

    If you track your food on spark add the sodium the nutr.( like where the fats, carbs, etc. can be located.) That way you will see where the sodium is coming from. I did that and I don't go over 1000 to 1200 of sodium a day and some times I am even lower.

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Untitled unless I decide otherwise

Monday, January 30, 2012

So, it's been a couple of weeks since I posted a blog. Figured I should post some kind of update, and maybe even see if I can have an epiphany or two...

So for the past two weeks, I have done alright. Nothing spectacular, but I'm losing, and that's the point, right? The week of my mom's memorial, there were two days where I did not track, intentionally...but even with those days, I did ok. I am sure that I was over, and I know I did not drink enough water, but I did not lose sight of what I want.

Since those two days, I have tracked faithfully. The challenge I am having is my complete and utter lack of motivation to do anything regarding my fitness level. I think I have burned a total of 1000 calories all month. This does not fit with my plan, and I just don't seem to have it in me to go all Nike, and just do it.

On the upside...I'm still not smoking, and after a 10 month long hiatus, I got a new job!

Now, to spend the next couple of weeks trying to create a routine and get organized. I hope I can keep up the success.

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ANGELBETH76 4/2/2012 10:25AM

    Congratulations on the new job and being smoke free! That is awesome!
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GBTRACKIN 1/30/2012 9:38AM

    Making that fitness commitment to yourself is a big step, but a little goes a long way, with or without the weight loss. With the new job it's a great time to incorporate something into your day. You could walk around the block or up a flight of stairs or two every day. It doesn't mean you can't do more if you're up to it, but it's a way to put yourself first by making a small promise, and keeping it.

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SRBULLARD1 1/30/2012 7:59AM

    You have had and are having lots of change in you life You really are doing great by taking each day as it comes, putting one foot in front of the other and just generally moving forward. We are all here for you and would like for you to keep us updated on your progress.

As for motivation for fitness training, I struggle with that too and have the blogs to prove it! With so much going on in you life, just starting with a commitment of 10 minutes a day would be great. You gould march in place, walk, lift milk jugs anything! Even if you did that for a month or more, it would be a great start. Just continue to move forward and keep the commitments you make to yourself and remember, "You can't get there without going through here".

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SLIMLILA 1/30/2012 1:05AM

    emoticonon the new job... I've been out of work since last May too...

I'm sure it must have been tough to stay on program for your mom's memorial. Sorry to hear you can't motivated to exercise... not even any fun stuff, just dancing around the house... I know it will sound weird, but have you ever tried Dancing to the Oldies with Richard Simmons, it is so fun and at the end of it,he has a parade of people go through and tells how many pounds they have lost... very encouraging.

Hope the job works out well and remember there will be another stress involved in getting on a routine and used to that, so be good to yourself and do your best... emoticon

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Not this time

Monday, January 16, 2012

Almost 6 months ago, I gave up on myself. Really it didn't happen in just one day. It happened over the course of hours, day and weeks...and then all of a sudden it was 2012. I decided...not a New Year's Resolution, I was time to come back to SP. This works. Even though I am not a social person, do not reach out, am not so good and keeping in touch with the few people I have met on this site, I am a fantastic stalker, and the people who I feel I know, and I can relate to on this site, keep me going...and this time, I will succeed.

So I came back to SP, joined a BLC, and started sparking again on January 9th. I had quit smoking (again) 10 days before, and was ready for the next healthy living challenge.

Four days later, my mother died.

Despite the fact that she had Alzheimer's and had been in a home for a long long time, and we knew the day was soon, this is the kind of life shattering events that takes us all and knocks us down a flight of stairs or two.

January 13th, Friday the thirteenth, was the day my mother died. She passed shortly after 2pm, and I received the call while I was on my way home from picking my son up from school. Up to that point in the day, I was well within all of my healthy goals. Not surprisingly, I derailed...primarily with a bottle of wine. Yesterday, was also rather derailed in the healthiness department.

But this morning...I woke up with a different outlook. I think that it came upon me slowly over the course of the last couple of days...

My relationship with my mother was not a particularly healthy relationship in so many ways. But where it comes to health and weight...that was a really big one. My mom struggled with her weight, probably her entire adult life. She taught me to look at food as though it was a dangerous thing, but she also taught me that it was very comforting. I first attended Weight Watchers meetings at 6 years old, and was taken to an obesity clinic at 10. Oddly enough, it was at 10 that my weight began to spiral out of control...

At any rate...I know that my mom would never have wanted me to live this horribly unhealthy existence that I have had for so many years. I know that she wanted the best for me, even if she did not know how to make that happen. I am done blaming her. I am going to change. And in part, I will do it for her.

As of today, I am taking control. I am in charge of my life. I control what I put in my mouth, I control how much I move, I control my thoughts and emotions. It is clear to me, that if I can eat well, not smoke, and exercise through a period in my life like this one...I can succeed. I will not fail. Not this time.

I know that it will be hard. But I can do it.

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HOLLY1977 1/20/2012 12:56PM

    Sorry to hear about your mom.

You've got a motivation in you right now that you need to hold on to! Making the healthier choices can be hard, but you can do it! We can do it together! Glad that you are still holding on and still here with us!

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JENNIMC613 1/17/2012 2:19PM

    I admire your strength and commitment to taking this important positive step after the passing of your mom. Hold on to that commitment, and best of luck!

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AKRONEWITTER1 1/16/2012 3:31PM

    Sorry about your mom. I think she would be happy with the decisions you have made.

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DISACK 1/16/2012 12:13PM

    I'm glad to see you back here. I missed seeing your updates.

I'm sorry about the loss of your mom.

And, I'm cheering for you to take and stay in control. You can do it. You are SOOOO worth it!

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MOM2FAT1 1/16/2012 9:44AM

    emoticonsorry for your loss

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HEATHERHUNTER 1/16/2012 1:41AM

    Sorry especially about your mom. May she rest in peace.

Don't lose the motivation you're feeling right now. Take care of yourself and take it one step at a time :)

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Feeling totally derailed.

Friday, July 22, 2011

Yesterday I binged. First binge I have had in over three months. I am still amazed that I was able to go that long, but I am so disappointed in myself because I was totally conscious of what I was doing while I ate and ate and ate. :( I was actually able to stop myself twice...but both times, something set me off again and I just ate again...This went off and on for nearly 24 hours.

Now that I have that out of the way, it's time to figure out why I did it, so that I can learn from it, and hopefully stop it from happening again anytime soon, since I am already struggling with myself today...

1) The other half has been working graveyard shifts...this has not been good for me. My own sleeping hours have been affected, and I am feeling really really lonely. I have not had any time for my relationship and have not spent much time with anyone else either, except my son (and he is totally summer vacation bored).

2) Cheese. Cheese is my enemy. I was doing really really well with it until a few weeks ago, I found some low fat pre-shredded cheese at my grocery store. Bad idea. Now, instead of being in my freezer and away from my craving eyes, it is right there, ready and waiting, every time I want cheese. Which is always! I HATE that I love cheese.

3) Chocolate. Similarly to cheese, somewhat of an issue. Chocolate in in no form should be in my house. Not that I shouldn't treat myself to it from time to time. But only in the single serving, once in a while sense, not in the buy a big bar of dark chocolate and make it last a while, or buy a box of chocolate pudding for this weeks snacks sense. C'mon...I know I know better than that!

4) Planning. I have stopped planning meals in the last couple of weeks. This is a really bad thing for me. I know that I have to plan. I have to do that for my health and I have to do it to survive financially. So why have I stopped? Hmm...laziness probably.

I know there is more to it...but I just can't face anymore today.

Here's hoping I stay on track.

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    How are you doing since this incident? Everyone has good and bad choices and every so often we may slip, but you trying to work it out as to why and how this happened shows that you really are moving ahead and making new roads for new habits to form. So yes, you had a bad day, but it won't turn into bad weeks or months because you know that one bad day is just that and you can look forward to a healthy lifestyle.

Wishing you tons of success!

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LISACLEMEN 7/22/2011 10:23PM

    You were having success when you were planning and tracking. It felt good to loose the weight. I bet you had times when you were very proud of yourself for changing your eating habits and for the exercise.
So why did you binge? We all do it. Sabotage. Mad that you have to work that hard at weight lose.? Mad that someone is not supportive? Scared of what your thin healthy future holds? Being thin and fit and knowledgeable about healthy living is not the inner person you identify with? Sabotage? Only you can know what's at the heart of that binge eating!

I bet if you can take the time to think about what great accomplishments and progress you have made and remember why you want to do this- you can control the urge to binge eat.

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STORMYZCAT 7/22/2011 8:36PM

    Don't beat yourself up. You recognized and acknowledged a lot of what made you binge. Today is a new day. Wipe the slate clean and start over. 1 day of binging does not undo all the good you have done so far!! emoticon Maybe research some different exercise classes in your area... a great way to get in an exercise session AND meet new people! emoticon

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Friday, July 08, 2011

I went into my setting this afternoon and changed my fitness settings to more accurately reflect the amount of calories I am burning in a week. This, of course changed my calorie intake needs in my nutrition tracker. It now says that my minimum is 2260 calories a day! WTF!?! I was having a difficult time reaching 1600 calories. How am I going to take in that many???Can that even be right?

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SUPERDORK76 7/9/2011 12:17AM

    Thank you for asking about how much i have told it I want to lose in a week. I had it set at my original goal, since I had not yet met it. However I was within less that 5 pounds of it, and a month ahead of schedule.

I was resistant to set a new goal, but now that I have done that, my calorie range is back to where it was.

Phew. I don't ever want to eat that much again!!!!

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ROAD_RHYTHM 7/8/2011 11:49PM

    Umm... How the heck much are you exercising, and how much do you tell it you want to lose in a week?

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