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may 13 2012

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Today is mothers and i spent the day with my family. I went over to my moms house and had a bbq for her. It was alot of fun. I exspecially enjoyed spending time with my niece and nephew. they are so cute. I weighed myself today and i gaind a pound. I am hopeing to do better this week.


may 12 2012

Saturday, May 12, 2012

This has been a rough week for me. I skip some workouts and i did very poorly with my nutritional goals. I am feel discouraged and disappointed in myself. I feel like i have lost my motivation. Emotionaly i have been really depressed this week. I found that i am having alot of negative thoughts about my self. I need alot of support tright now. This is so hard. emoticon

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CHARLIEGIRL59 5/12/2012 9:33PM

    Please don't give up Tanya...there is a light at the end of this tunnel. Try to pinpoint what depresses you most and turn it in something positive. Do something that makes you feel good...a new hair style, that book you always wanted to read and never got around to it, go see a movie, etc...
Personally, I remove the negativity in my life and sometimes that involves things that can take weeks and even months to do but I make it my mission to do it! I don't need nor do I want that stress in my life. I try to keep happiness in my circle and surround myself with those whom are happy for me. Change is never easy, but sometimes necessary for us to be our best. Hoping this finds you well and praying for you to get your SPARK back! are beautiful!!!

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March 9th 2012

Wednesday, May 09, 2012

Today wasn;t a good day for me. I have been feeling depressed all day long. I didn't do any excerise today.I also didn't do well with my nutrition goals. This journey that i am on is so hard. I am feeling very dicouraged and wondering if i will succeed. Negative thoughts keep running through my mind. I want to lose weight and be the person i imagine myself to be once i am thiner so badly. I am tired of being overweight and being laughed at or having my parents say somethng mean to me like your fat. I just want to be accepted. I feel so alone right now.

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SAZZLERAZZLE 5/12/2012 4:36PM

    Hey Tanya, my name is Sarah and I just visited the dealing with depression site and saw your blog asking for help.

I'm trying to deal with being down too, and I wanted to reach out to you as I recognise a lot of what you are saying.

I just wanted to tell you that you are beautiful, and although i don't know you personally, i know that everyone is more than just what they look like on the outside so please try to think of something you like about yourself and focus on that, focus on the positive. Tell your parents you are down and are trying to lose weight but would benefit from their SUPPORT!

I have spent much of my life thinking "when i'm skinny everything will come together and my life will be perfect!" ... but that is absolute B.S! I've been slim before, i long for the days of when i weighed 140lbs. But i wasn't happy. I deprived myself and wasn't healthy. Now, i am 240lbs and losing weight because i want to be healthy again, not just because i want to look better.

Being slim is not the be all and end all, being happy is, and you can be happy at any size! Life is too short to put it on hold so please don't delay things until you lose weight, if you start enjoying life now im sure you will find you lose weight along the way, i always lose more when i forget counting calories and start enjoying life!!

My biggest problem is eating when i am bored so i try to keep busy and out of the house (where the food is!). I need to focus more on my health at the moment as i have neglected Spark, which is the best tool ive ever found for motivating and supporting me on my journey! I find im a little 'all or nothing' in life and was very much into Spark when i found it, and have since neglected it! But i am trying not to be too hard on myself and celebrating the small things!

You, however, need to celebrate massively as you lost 4lbs which is great! Do you have a reward system? I love jewellery so buy myself a little treat when i reach a goal - lose a few pounds, buy new earrings, feel even better about myself, more positive to lose more weight!!

I hope you are not too down hun, and remember to count your blessings and think of the positives. Someone responded to you before with the idea of keeping a journal which i think is a great idea, its so much easier to make sense of your feelings when they're there in black and white. I like to add images that motivate me, give me an idea to strive for. I also have a picture of me from a time when i was the happiest i have ever felt, and keep it on show so that i can look at it when im down and it always makes me smile and feel more upbeat!

I hope i haven't gone on too long here and bored you! I just hate to see someone so down.

Remember, you lost 4lbs already, thats amazing!!


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today May 7 2012

Monday, May 07, 2012

Today was a good day i did my strength traiining workout. Nutrition wise i did very well too. Emotional i have been feeling depressed. I'm not sure why i feel so sad but i do. "Yesterday i was happy for a bit cause i lost four pounds but as the day went by the happiness went away. I have felt like crying all day. I wish i new what was wrong with me. When i feel like this i want to eat junk food so bad but i know i can't. I'm tired of being depressed all the time. i just want to be happy. It seems like no matter what i try or do it doesn't happen.

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    The day you posted this blog was the 47th birthday of my oldest son, Tim. Well, it would have been, but he died nearly 20 years ago. He suffered many years with depression. Though I've never had it myself, I understand how debilitating it can be and how hopeless you can sometimes feel. If you are not under a doctor's care, please consider it. There are a lot of good treatments. In the meantime, please know that I am praying for you. I want you to succeed in your healthy new lifestyle. Please keep us posted how you are doing. I care. We all do!

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MOM_TO_AKI 5/8/2012 5:38PM

    (((( hug )))) I hope your mood is better to day.

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my frist weigh in

Sunday, May 06, 2012

Well today was the big day i woke up in the morning and weighed myself. Good news i lost 4 pounds. I am so proud of myself. I took the day off for excersie although i am still recording how many steps i did for the day. I meet all of my nutition goals today. I was on the higer end of the scale. I want to work on that i try to get myself in the middle. Emotinally i am feel good today. i hope this will be a good we and i will lose more weight.

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MOM_TO_AKI 5/8/2012 5:16PM

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Keep up the good work

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SUNSHINEGIRL311 5/7/2012 9:17PM

  thanks clessfat and racketmom emoticon

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CLESSFAT 5/7/2012 3:17PM

    This is GREAT Tanya!!!! This is just the motivation you need to keep on going!!! You ROCK emoticon

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