I'm in such a 'blah' mood today. The good thing: I'm learning to deal with negative things, feel these emotions -as opposed to bury them (by eating food, or doing other things that are a detriment). However, I can't seem to pull myself out of it. Sort of difficult to go do something positive when I'm at work... my job is not very mentally stimulating or difficult so I have lots of time to think while I work. I try not to let my mind wander.
Writing this blog is 'getting it out' when there are few other options at this moment. One step at a time, one hour at a time, one day at a time...
I'm heading in the right direction. I'm proud of that. It's simple but not easy.
I've started 2014 with many changes. Even on a road to positive changes are potholes in the road. (Anyone living in Northeastern Ohio will get that joke regarding this past winter.)
The potholes make me realize how much 'the new' means, how much it makes me happy.
I will gladly trip, fall down and get back up. One step at a time, one day at a time.
I chose a picture of Tweak from South Park for this blog entry -as Tweak wants/ loves coffee (caffeine) too much. I have an addictive personality. Too much food has been a problem... or too much fat... or too much carbs and like Tweak, too much caffeine.
I've been drinking more H2O . I do not get jacked up on water. As a busy person, I was drinking coffee and 5 Hour Energy shots. I definitely do not need to use the latter, even if it is only 4 calories or so.
My trainer encourages me to use a 6" plate for meals instead of a 9" or 10.25" size. That's my goal for this week. 6" plates
I just read my first SP blog from 6/28/2008. That is really another lifetime ago, in a good way. I now do not care as much about comparing myself to other people. And... I've learned not to compare myself to Mary from 2008 or 2002. There is only Mary of 2013 in front of me. And I am happy to be here. Meaning alive and somewhat healthy. With the help of a dog and my GOD , I've had as close to an enlightenment as I can, at this time.
What I found and learned to accept:
I am me. And I like me.
It will not be easy for me to lose weight but I am willing to try.
Not everyone will support me. I need the will to not care what others say.
Other people's opininons about me do not matter. (They used to... but not now! Funny how getting rid of toxic people and environments made me see that.)
I get stronger all the time and I'm beginning to recognized that.
Being rich is enjoying the intangibles in life: love and happiness.
The BLC22 (Biggest Loser Challenge: Round 22) starts 6/6. I want this more now than I did in 2008. This older and wiser Mary wants to do this for me, no one else, for my pleasure and my health.
Still striving to implement this to others in my life right now, but one step at a time. I can do baby steps, so long as I'm going forward and keep trying.