I chose a picture of Tweak from South Park for this blog entry -as Tweak wants/ loves coffee (caffeine) too much. I have an addictive personality. Too much food has been a problem... or too much fat... or too much carbs and like Tweak, too much caffeine.
I've been drinking more H2O . I do not get jacked up on water. As a busy person, I was drinking coffee and 5 Hour Energy shots. I definitely do not need to use the latter, even if it is only 4 calories or so.
My trainer encourages me to use a 6" plate for meals instead of a 9" or 10.25" size. That's my goal for this week. 6" plates
I just read my first SP blog from 6/28/2008. That is really another lifetime ago, in a good way. I now do not care as much about comparing myself to other people. And... I've learned not to compare myself to Mary from 2008 or 2002. There is only Mary of 2013 in front of me. And I am happy to be here. Meaning alive and somewhat healthy. With the help of a dog and my GOD , I've had as close to an enlightenment as I can, at this time.
What I found and learned to accept:
I am me. And I like me.
It will not be easy for me to lose weight but I am willing to try.
Not everyone will support me. I need the will to not care what others say.
Other people's opininons about me do not matter. (They used to... but not now! Funny how getting rid of toxic people and environments made me see that.)
I get stronger all the time and I'm beginning to recognized that.
Being rich is enjoying the intangibles in life: love and happiness.
The BLC22 (Biggest Loser Challenge: Round 22) starts 6/6. I want this more now than I did in 2008. This older and wiser Mary wants to do this for me, no one else, for my pleasure and my health.
Still striving to implement this to others in my life right now, but one step at a time. I can do baby steps, so long as I'm going forward and keep trying.
I haven't seen my Personal Trainer in about a month. A string of reasons, but today: here I go again, try again, renew my commitment to physical activity.
It's funny: I know I need to work out but I feel lazy, pure and simple. I usually do not admit that (when it applies). I'm blogging so I remember I have a road of health to travel, that ultimately will not be as difficult as it is now.
I have requested that my trainer be hard on me... so I can do what I need to do.
My discipline ebbs and flows. I need to be told to do it and to be held to my goals.
It's been AGES since I've posted here on Spark. 2013 has been a huge step in a healthy direction for me. I've left my toxic job... finally. My blood pressure went from so high I was hospitalized... to very good: slightly below 120/80! I'm drinking less. I'm doing more, not just shutting down when I get home from work.
Changes are good. Very good.
I've hired a personal trainer... another smart change.
I'm selling my house... a smart financial change, as I'm no longer making what I was at the toxic job. And that's fine with me. I'm so much happier.
I'm going to choose to be positive. And if I falter, I'll start over. No more beating myself up over falling off the food or exercise wagon. One meal nor one day of no exercise will not stop my progress- this time.
My new company has a work challenge to lose weight/ exercise more/ eat better. I'm on board!