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Goal weight is in sight.....

Thursday, December 01, 2011

It seems that my panic over those cupcakes was a bit unnecessary. Jumped on my scale yesterday and it did one of those weird 'skip a number' tricks on me and said 59kg! This was a bit of shock, so I decided I wasn't ready to make it official yet (my weight takes time to settle, so I give it a few days before recording it) and, this morning (my official weigh-in day) I was closer to 60kg than 59kg (at least with my pajamas still on).
For some reason I'm not quite ready to face 59kg - I was expecting it in two weeks time!! I haven't began planning for maintenance yet and I guess I need to start quickly. My best friend is in town this weekend, so I have another intense eating session ahead. She has known me for twenty years, so this will be a hard one as she also has never seen me this skinny! (We've known each other for twenty years, but seldom been in the same country for long! This is the first time we seem to have settled within two hours of each other since college). But, after last weekend, I'm pretty sure I can handle it with moderate eating of all the goodies and a bit of extra exercise.
I think I will be at my goal weight by this time next week. (Wow, what a thought!!).
But, what I need to figure out is why instead of feeling joy and tribulation I am feeling quite scared.

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THETURTLEBEAR 12/4/2011 9:39AM

    I hit my goal yesterday and in the weeks leading up, I was feeling scared a lot. But I started reading up on the maintenance articles and so by the time yesterday arrived, I was feeling prepared instead of scared. Good luck!!

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JOANNA202 12/3/2011 6:43AM

    Woohoo!! Great to see you still going strong! I'm sure you'll come to terms with your new weight eventually and remember there's really no hurry. I'm looking forward to seeing your discovery of maintenance (so I can follow in your footsteps soon! :-p)

Don't forget to let us know how your friend reacts. So nice that she'll be living nearer to you again now.

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    AWESOME! It's really scary reaching a goal because you've spent so much time getting there and then - WHAT? What do you do? You have to change your routine again. You have to figure out what to do for maintenance. Check out articles for maintenance here on Spark - is there a team for people who have met their goal? Ask for support and CELEBRATE!

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ANATASHIKI 12/1/2011 7:20AM

    emoticonreaching goals is scary sometimes , changes our image about the world or about who we are. congrats on reaching your goal and yay for maintenance! emoticon

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NANT406 12/1/2011 3:03AM

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MIDDLTEACH 12/1/2011 2:39AM

    Bravo! Bravo! How proud you must feel. As far as the trepidation you're feeling about being in "maintenance"- any time we move out of our comfort zone (you're used to whatever you've done to get your weight down), there's anxiety for most of us. But, you've proved you have strong will power, focus, and determination. I would love to hear your friend's reaction.
Have a great time.

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One birthday, four celebrations, two cupcakes and a creme brulee

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Two cupcakes is better than three cakes, right?

My inner softie says: Absolutely, you aced this birthday bonanza

My inner nazi says: Not at all, you should have been stronger, you deserve to be punished!! TWO cupcakes!! and you went over your calorie limit twice in four days! (The creme brulee is an don't even know how many calories were in it!!)

My inner softie says: Yes, but she was only over by about two or three hundred calories and STILL below 2000 calories on both days - and she kept on tracking!! And she ate the skinny burger at Byrons, not to mention the vegetarian option at the French Bistro. Give her a break!!

My inner nazi says: But, this is only the beginning. If she can't cut it now she will totally FAIL at Christmas time.

(At this point I ran to the gym both yesterday and today and worked out for one solid hour on each day, which I never do, in the hope of burning off those *!*!*! cupakes......)

After the exercise:

My inner softie: Ok, you've made up for it. Relax, re-focus. Think of all the good choices you made these last four days

But the blasted inner nazi thinks I need more punishment.......ARGH!!

So, I'm trying to listen to my softie because what's done is done. I've done my best to recover from it with the extra exercise and a week that is healthier than this last one.....I have to keep believing in myself.... less than two kilos to go before I reach my goal.......


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THETURTLEBEAR 11/27/2011 8:38PM

    Sounds to me like you made reasonable choices all around. Yay for you!

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JOANNA202 11/27/2011 2:15PM


Sounds like you did really well for your birthday, and if you never had any treats you'd be sure to give up entirely anyway. Sounds like the outer you can handle those tough decisions without any help from the nazi anyway!

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CHRISKENANDKIDS 11/27/2011 12:28PM

    My inner nazi is YELLING at me today! In spite of the fact that I burned somewhere around 4700 calories this week - 1400 of which was yesterday, we went out to eat three times in two days. My mom is disabled and we rented a lift van for the entire weekend (starting Thursday) so she wanted to go shopping. So I spent the last two days shopping with her. We went to Applebee's and I had a 550 calorie meal and only ate half. No dessert and only 3 mozzarella sticks. Dinner was at a mall food court and I had a 6 inch Subway sub with mustard and veggies. Not bad. Yesterday we went to Red Lobster for dinner. Had the maple glazed chicken with shrimp. 680 calories for dinner. Not bad since I didn't eat much earlier in the day. But then I had dessert. A small dessert - didn't look like much. It was 770 CALORIES!!!!!!!!! Grrrrr.....Now I'm up today and also for the week and really irritated.

So I hear you - but listen to your inner softie. The nazi was SORT of right and yay for you for going to the gym. But it was really only ONE extra cupcake so the two extra hours at the gym was ENOUGH! Yay! :)

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UK_NICOLA 11/27/2011 11:51AM

    I think you've found the right balance between your inner softie and inner Nazi. The softie lets you have it - the nazi makes you pay! Nothing wrong with exercising for cake, its an hour well spent in my opinion!
I love your blogs and I think it's because I can't resist cake either...but don't tell anyone!

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If it's not about the food, then what is it all about?

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Last year I got three cakes for my birthday - a breakfast cake, a dinner time cake and then a family cake later on in the week. And all were gone within three days! This year?
This year I realise that it cannot just be about the cake. it needs to be about something else too! Funnily enough even writing that sounds a bit shallow - when it comes to celebrations is it only the food I care about?
When I think of Christmas I think Christmas cake, roast potatoes and mince pies. Birthdays are all about the cake (I will even bake cakes for people if need be. A birthday is not a birthday without the cake in my mind!) When I lived in America, Thanksgiving was all about the pies - what amazing pies - and Halloween = candy. I hate to admit it, but, it really has been all about the food for me, and so going into a holiday season wanting to reach my goal weight has left me wondering what on earth it's all about!

I have been reading all about holiday eating the last few days, gathering tips and thinking about what other people have been writing about managing to eat more healthily and still enjoy the holiday season. There is some great advice out there and here are my musings:

This year I need to radically change focus. If my focus is purely on what the stuffing tastes like and what to have with my turkey slice then Christmas will not have it's usual allure if I'm limiting the very thing I was most looking forward to. For the past few days all I've been thinking about is: Should I have the Christmas cake or the Christmas pudding - which is more important? And Christmas is a month away.

So I need to shift the focus away from food onto something else. I'll be spending Christmas with my in-laws, so maybe I need to focus on improving those relationships this year (This may not be a radical thought for other people. I am deeply humbled that food has been more of a focus for me than family relationships at Christmas) and spending more time talking and playing with them. Even helping with the washing up would be more productive than sitting in front of the fire eating another mince pie.

Be more interested in the people around the table than the food on the table - that's my goal this Christmas season!

And my birthday? I'm a Thanksgiving baby and the last time my birthday fell on Thanksgiving was my first year of studying in the States and the beginning of one of the most wonderful years of my life. The last three years have been a struggle, so, maybe I need to see this birthday as being a way to let go of the hard years and think of the new year as being one full of beautiful potential. I don't need three cakes for that!!

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SHELLYBABE2 11/28/2011 6:16AM

    Great food for thought lol ;) Your post has really made me think about my attitude around occassions too & sadly they all revolve around food or rather treats! We too are sharing Christmas this year with the inlaws & I now plan to make this a family christmas not an excuse to overbuy and overeat the goodies!

TFS, great blog!

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    Cake, cake, cake

Maybe you could try


: )

I try to think of FELLOWSHIP rather than just the food.

Hope you had a Happy Thanksgiving AND a Happy Birthday!

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UK_NICOLA 11/25/2011 5:49AM

    This is my 'Friday Favourite' blog post!

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JAZZEJR 11/23/2011 5:45AM

    You have the right mind set now, but what will be the polite thing to do if someone still shows up with a cake. If it's for the family gathering, make sure they eat it all--you can make a big show of taking one or two bites for that person's benefit (just keep quoting Kate Moss to yourself: Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.

If the cake does not have a group to polish it off, do what I have been doing this year since my loving son gave me a fabulous dessert-of-the-month gift: As soon as they arrive, into the freezer they go still in the box. Keeping temptation out of sight helps us to stay strong! emoticon

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    Keep focused and wonderful things begin magically appearing in your life... Thanks for sharing and wishing you well. Mark

It's about enjoying my life in a fit, healthy strong body...

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SPEEDY143 11/23/2011 2:57AM

    If it's not about the food, then what is it all about?" emoticon

Great question... one answer may be to love yourself more than food. emoticon

I agree, there's so much more to the holidays than just the food although that sometimes seems to be the main focus. I like your idea of being more interested in the people around the table... if you are interacting you can't be eating because it's not polite to talk with your mouth full emoticon emoticon

Happy Birthday emoticon... my first child, a son, was born on Thanksgiving too.... 41 years ago this Saturday. BTW, you can stick a candle in just about any thing other than a cake and still make a birthday wish!!!! And wishes do come true you know emoticon

Have a lovely holiday emoticon


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All my hard work

Thursday, November 17, 2011

This is inspired by a comment on my last blog!! emoticon

It is hard work, this dieting/ healthy lifestyle/ weight loss thing. I do have to say 'no' to a lot of things I would probably enjoy doing (or eating - especially with all these Wintery double cream chocolate caramel coffees on sale......) and I do have to say 'yes' - or more frequently set my mind on 'go to the gym/ go and run/ put in an exercise DVD/ do some push ups - without listening to the part of me that is tired and cold, and wants to snuggle up with a book and a blanket.

I do have to count my calories everyday. Sometimes it is not all that enjoyable, but I need to learn how I eat, where my emotional triggers are (boredom and stress it seems) and that calorie limit is a great motivator to stop me from eating more than I should be. I do eat a lot less chocolate than I want to. I have only eaten half of things and then thrown them away - because I knew the whole of it would be too much. I have tweaked my calorie counter, increased my exercise every week it seems, blogged, joined challenges, written on message boards, read copious articles, etc, etc.......

So, yes, my scale may be mysterious in how it behaves (see previous blog), but, I am working at this. Thanks, fellow sparkers, for reminding me of that.


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    Awesome! Hugs!

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JOANNA202 11/17/2011 5:19PM

    Very glad you've remembered all those rather major things you should be proud of! Many people think that diets are hard and lifestyle changes are easy, but you're re-training yourself in all your habits - not an easy thing to do at all!

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THETURTLEBEAR 11/17/2011 2:33PM

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The mysterious scale

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

I get on the scale every morning, but only write down my weight once a week - usually on a Thursday unless I've noticed a definite jump from one kilogram to another. Our scale is not an electric one, so my weight is never very specific. I'm either a new kg, or somewhere in between one or the other.
For the last two weeks I've been 'somewhere in between 62 and 63 kg and I was beginning to think that as I'm nearing my weight loss goal, this would become a normal pattern. Previously my weight loss had been quite regular - about 0.5kg a week. This sudden stalling was hard to get used to, but as so many people say, as long as the general trend is downward, keep going.
So, imagine my surprise when I jump on the scale and it has very definitely landed at 61! No 'somewhere in between', just plain 61. I decided to wait a few days before recording it, in case it was a bit of a once off, but two days later and the scale has not budged.
So, my hypothesis is now that the scale has a mind of its' own, and that some kilos may be a little bit more sticky than others!

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THETURTLEBEAR 11/17/2011 2:37PM

    Oh yes - agree!

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JOANNA202 11/16/2011 5:53PM

    You're so right - it's a bit like when your computer monitor freezes for no reason but when you give it a bash it works again! (Clearly nothing to do with all your hard work of course!)

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JONICACALDWELL 11/16/2011 1:47PM

    Great job!

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MILLERGIRL719 11/16/2011 6:51AM

    Congrats! Keep up the good work! Your body has figured out that you are serious!!!!

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    Good luck with staying focused and reaching your goals...

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