Friday, September 23, 2011
I managed to beat my procastinator button this evening and went for a jog out in the last of the Autumn evening sunshine. I think it may have been one of the message boards I was reading about procrastination that actually encouraged me to get my tired post-work, TGIF, feet into my trainers and onto the road.
I have realized that my motivation to run is: if I exercise more, I can eat more! Now, seeing as I'm on a calorie controlled diet, the 'eat more' option is now no more and I think this may be why getting myself out to exercise has been hard. I need a new exercise motivator!
It has been interesting to come across different thought patterns that enter my mind relating to food. I definitely see food as a reward - last week it was with wanting to reward myself by allowing myself junk food, today it was 'well, if I go for a jog, I can order some pizza later' (!?!?!?!)
Unfortunately I now know how many calories that pizza will cost me and I don't want to risk it. I was disappointed that I had lost so little this week and know that a pizza will NOT help this healthy journey I'm working on.
So, I asked my husband to stop by the store and get some real food. My protein count always seems to be too low, so a bit of meat and veg for tonight instead.
PS - I got on the scale this morning and it was hovering between 67 and 68, so I gave myself the benefit of the doubt and weighed in at 67.5.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Jumped on the scale this morning to find myself still at 68kgs. Two emotions are running through me - relief that I haven't slipped up the scale again and disappointment that all this calorie counting hasn't made a noticeable difference for me this week.
Realistically, the two kilos last week was very dramatic and as I don't have a scale that shows if I've lost half a kilo, I have no idea if there has been some sort of smaller loss that I wasn't aware of.
But how do I stay motivated today? I had got excited about rewards for losing weight, should I give myself rewards to staying stable too?
This week has been momentously stressful. With a weekend away at the in-laws which involved a LOT of food (I did go over my calorie count there, but, believe it or not, did not eat as much as I usually do when I'm there) as well as a week with two new projects starting at work. I like to be busy at work, but the new projects have taken much more time than I was expecting. The stress has made me get home and not want to do the extra exercise I think I need to do. So, I have not been for a run yet this week.
I've moved up to the next stage in the diet - which involves measuring serving sizes! oh no!! I'm not looking forward to this one.......but, of course, it will help, I know, I know.......
I've discovered a few plateau weights in my dieting life, the kilos that need extra work to be lost because I've sat at those weights for so long: 68kg; 66kg; 64kg. I've never stayed long at a weight lower than 64, but I want to. Always being slightly overweight is getting exhausting!
So, I suppose I reward myself for the hard work I have done this week. It may not be on the scale but it is recorded here in my calorie counts. And, this weekend, I work hard to keep the calorie count stable.
I hope to be at 67kg next Thursday, and to have been to the gym, or gone for a run, twice.
Monday, September 19, 2011
I don't know what to do with my emotions if I'm not eating food.
I can say 'no' to food that I used to think was iresistable. Except for dessert. That may take time.
If I put my mind to it, I don't snack mindlessly in the evenings.
I need to learn how to make better lunches for myself.
I eat too little of the good stuff. I made up all my calories on the bad stuff. If I'm not eating junk, I struggle to meet my calorie intake.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
I got on the scale this morning and it was 2kgs lighter. Granted these are the 2kgs that I tend to jump up and down with quite a lot, but all the same, the scale was looking at me confidently, so I feel good about it.
Of course, I was struck with the next issue: Now I want to reward myself for losing weight by buying a chocolate! This is normal for me, but, of course, is probably why I tend to bounce up and down between two kilograms.
The difference this time is that I have actually worked quite hard on my diet and exercise this week and I don't want to ruin it by going and splurging on junk food.
So, I need a list - things that feel like a reward, but are not food and cost less than ten pounds.
Here it is:
Magazines - the ones I wouldn't normally buy, but I so enjoy (like 'Hello')
A DVD/ movie on itunes
Books - fictional, reading for fun books, not serious work ones
I'm sure there are more, but I'm new to rewards-that-are-not-food. It will take a bit of work to get used the idea.
Today I bough two magazines and bubble bath. It came to just over 7 pounds. I need to feel rewarded so that I don't go and eat junk food, so I'll try this method for next Thursday too - the idea of an itunes movie is VERY appealing and will hopefully be a good motivator this weekend when we celebrate Grandad's 90th birthday!
I hope to be either still at 68kg next Thursday or nearer to 67kg. Need to keep it up!
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Today, I am going to be conciously positive - because I've noticed a train of thinking that leads me down a terrible path of negativity.
So, here goes: this afternoon I went running at the gym. I felt really confident in my running trousers and also was able to keep a good strong pace going. The gym wasn't too full, so I didn't have to wait for a turn - which is always a bonus.
I watched one of my favourite TV shows - the Great British Bake Off - where a group of gentle people bake together. Today it was pies. I love watching all the different pies that are cooked. I've tried a few of my own, but still need to get better at my pastry making! I haven't mastered it yet.
I have managed to eat within my calories ranges for three days! I've kept up my exercise targets and am not doing too badly with my other goals. Tomorrow morning is my first weigh - in. I'm hoping to be down a kilo.....
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