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The joy of food!

Monday, December 02, 2013

Today, as an evening treat, I ordered a hot chocolate with marshmallows. I knew it was decadent, but I also knew I had that I would still be within my calorie range, even with this little indulgence. I hadn't had real hot chocolate for ages, and I really wanted one.

The hot chocolate arrived and I popped the two marshmallows on top, leaving them to melt a little bit before taking my first sip. As I was putting the cup down after savouring my first sip, I noticed that there were two more marshmallows that I hadn't seen before and I was filled with such joy!! Two extra marshmallows - what a delight!!

Now, the reason I'm writing this is because I was so surprised at the absolute delight I was feeling from this little sugar indulgence and I realised it needed a bit of analysis. Why the surprise?

Then I realised that for so many years when I ate sugary treats, instead of joy, I felt guilt. Sometimes I'd feel guilty because I knew it would make me fat, and it reminded me of my unhappiness at being overweight; sometimes because I'd already been bingeing on too much chocolate, and this was just more of the same.

I'm not entirely sure I ever fully enjoyed the sweet treats. There were too many other negative emotions to contend with.

So, what I think I experienced today was a healthy reaction to a sweet treat.

It's a good feeling. It makes me want to have more reactions like that and keep the sweet things I eat as occasional treats - just to have that feeling again! Perhaps my emotions are starting to catch up with my weight loss. It's taken them two years, but hey, this gives me a new reason to keep up with maintaining.

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RENATA144 1/19/2014 11:57AM

  Your emotions are coming into alignment with your new self image.
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JUST_TRI_IT 1/17/2014 6:22PM

    Being able to really enjoy the food .. the taste.. for its realness... rather than eating for other reasons... is quite wonderful!

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LIZ324_NYC 12/4/2013 10:38AM

    That is definitely a great feeling!
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ANATASHIKI 12/3/2013 3:10PM

    now you made me crave hot chocolate lol! kidding , I will have it if I really want it. good for you and I agree we should enjoy our food more. I'm trying to cook exotic things or try new recipes once /month , to get out of my "diet" routine

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MERRYMARY42 12/2/2013 10:24PM

    good blog, and lots of things to think about

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WORKNPROGRESS49 12/2/2013 4:51PM

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JOANNA202 12/2/2013 4:19PM

    Congratulations! What a lovely, wonderful thing to discover. I could really taste the chocolate and feel the joy reading that :-)

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TLB1630 12/2/2013 4:10PM

    WOW & so powerful in thought too... emoticon emoticon blog!

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LAURIETAIT 12/2/2013 3:53PM

    How nice to have a guilt free treat! You definitely earned it. Congratulations on conquering those negative emotions.
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3 months since moving and still in goal range - Phew!

Friday, November 08, 2013

In fact, I came third in the last maintenance challenge, so go me!! emoticon

This week has not been a good week. I came down with a cold that also managed to affect my ear. This meant that when I got out of bed in the morning, or made any sudden movements I got a sudden case of vertigo! Fortunately, I'm feeling much better today, so I think the worst of it has passed.

The thing about colds is that it is harder for me to get out the door and exercise and much easier to say 'yes' to the cookies and cakes. I am sick after all!!

Those two things don't balance out, however, and the scale does a good job of reminding me of that.

Two things have helped me cope this week:

1: Just say "no".

The "at goal and maintaining" team have a thread where they ask, "what did you say no to today" or something similar, which affirms the strength it can take to say "no" to junk food. I've been stopping and asking myself if I really need to pop the chocolate into my shopping basket, and then, if the answer is "no", leaving it alone. It helps me. It's a little thing, but is one step closer to keeping my body healthy.

2: Tell myself I'm going for a half hour jog.

I realise this may be a bit of bribery and corruption going on, but today, as I was feeling just a little better, I said to myself, "go on, just half an hour". It was enough to get me into my running gear and out the door. Then, amazingly, when I hit the 30 minute mark, I found myself thinking, "go on, just five minutes more" and on it went until I managed an hour of jogging.

Sometimes we just need to imagine doing the first few steps. Once we've done those, the next few steps seem possible.

I read through my last blog before writing this and, amazingly, I've managed to meet most of the goals. Making sandwiches for lunch is still not as regular as it could be, but I do feel life is settling in to a groove here, and I'm becoming more and more comfortable with the idea that this is a new groove, not at all my old routine, but it's a groove that is working and slowly taking shape.

  
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_RAEVEN_ 11/9/2013 9:31AM

    You're doing emoticon .. I hope you feel better soon

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JOANNA202 11/9/2013 8:57AM

    Impressive! Sounds like you're settling in new routines nicely, taking the tools with you that you know work for you. emoticon emoticon

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ANATASHIKI 11/8/2013 2:26PM

    you're doing great! emoticon

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COFFEELS 11/8/2013 11:55AM

    You are doing great at maintaining! emoticon

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NELLJONES 11/8/2013 8:07AM

    I have for years told myself "NO" to a lot of foods. I know that the modern aspect is that you can say yes to anything in proper portions, but for me it's easier to Just Say No. It's hard in that one moment, but out of my mind the next, if I don't eat it.

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BUSYGRANNY5 11/8/2013 7:41AM

    I enjoyed your blog!!! Happy you're feeling better! Keep on keeping on!!!

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ROXYZMOM 11/8/2013 7:11AM

    You are doing a wonderful job at maintaining! I an glad you are feeling better!

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Adapting to change

Saturday, October 12, 2013

This last week has been a tough one for me. This was the week when the University set down their expectations for Phd students and I spent a lot of time getting to know my (much younger) fellow students and getting to grips with what achieving a Phd will actually mean!

More than the workload, I began to realise that my usual training schedule was going to need to change, too. I have always gone jogging in the evening, and, although I didn't realise it, seen it as something to look forward to at the end of the day. My college timetable is not going to allow for that. As most of my scheduled lectures are at the end of the day, it is going to make more sense to jog in the mornings. For some reason, this has really upset me.

Added to that, I have not been able to set aside time for lunch. I find myself travelling at what was my 'old' lunchtime and have just been fitting in some food wherever I can find the time. Argh!

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Things need to change.

There is no point trying to do things the way that I used to, because I can already see that it will lead to failure, disappointment and a return to bad habits. I can see that if I want to keep up with my running and healthier lifestyle, I'm going to need to adapt, and, like I needed to when I first started Sparkpeople, this is going to need a little bit of planning.

So, here goes:

emoticon Jogging needs to be done first thing in the morning. Instead of it being something I look forward to at the end of the day, I need to see it as a way to start off my day well.

emoticon I can still pack myself a sandwich everyday. That way I know that I've prepared for lunch, and, over time, I'll find a regular time to enjoy my lunch.

emoticon Start waking up and going to bed at the same time everyday. This may help in feeling like I have some sort of routine.

emoticon Plan my studying the way I started exercising - with just ten minutes everyday. Set myself smaller, realistic tasks. It may seem too small at the moment, but it will grow and in time I'll be able to keep up with the academic conversations in class.

emoticon Keep monitoring my exercise and my calories, just to make sure I'm keeping stable in that area (Being part of the 5% challenge always helps with this). I'm not trying to lose weight, I'm just making sure no bad habits are creeping in without me noticing.

emoticon Work on my attitude and perspective. Just for now, try to see not only the frustrating, negative side of change, but look for the potential in living differently.

This is a start. It is interesting to see how I like to try and fit my old routines into new environments. I think this is the first time that I've realised I can't do that. It is a tough realisation, but I think it may be the key to not gaining an extra ten pounds of frustration. It is also interesting to notice how my main frustration is over when to eat a sandwich and having to change the time I go jogging!! Those things are easily resolved.


  
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SPARKLED146 10/13/2013 12:59PM

    Having a plan is a good way to start adapting to a new routine. It's like a syllabus for your day! Best wishes on your studies!
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ANATASHIKI 10/12/2013 3:26PM

    you just need a good plan . i hate waking up in the morning but i love running that time , it makes me feel more energized all day. I never have time for lunch , that is my regular routine. unless you call 5 pm or later lunch. I pack my food and take it with me. studying will go faster when you will practice and get used to it. and don't be so frustrated , you didn't imagine you won't sacrifice anything , did you? :P

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CYCLINGSANDY 10/12/2013 2:58PM

    I hate running in the am too, so I have not adjusted to that change. You don't seem to have a choice now that you are back in school. You have the will, so will find the way too. emoticon

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KRISZTA11 10/12/2013 2:52PM

    I understand how upset you feel about moving your evening runs to morning - I feel the same when I -very rarely - have to move my morning runs to evening.
But all my evening runs in the dark were quite enjoyable.
I hope you will like morning runs too.
Winter mornings are beautiful, because the sky is always dark blue before the sun comes up, even if it turns into grey later.
Good luck to the adjustments, your plan sounds very good.

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YIWEN39 10/12/2013 1:09PM

    Great plan! Attitude is half the battle emoticon

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MLH148 10/12/2013 8:12AM

    Good plan! Look for some healthy savory muffin recipes for lunch if you have to eat on the run. Browse sparkrecipes for other good lunches. Good luck! What is your area of study?

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KELLIEBEAN 10/12/2013 7:00AM

    I can't say enough good things about your attitude. You are making changes in your routine to make your new life work. That is so huge!

I especially like point number 4 about studying 10 minutes a day to start out. I am a HUGE believer in baby steps to develop life-long habits!

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MOBYCARP 10/12/2013 6:48AM

    "Start waking up and going to bed at the same time everyday. This may help in feeling like I have some sort of routine. "

Particularly for us natural evening people, enforcing a consistent bedtime discipline is key to being able to get up early. And getting up early while also getting enough sleep is key to being able to run in the morning, before other activities start.

You've got your head on straight, and you've got a good plan. Now all you need to do is implement it!

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JOANNA202 10/12/2013 6:35AM

    Sounds like you've got a great plan there. I always find it surprising what needs to be overhauled when one thing in life changes. And of course you know you have the tools and resources ready right here for doing that, because you've done it all before.

Can I suggest finding something new to put in your evenings to look forward to? It sounds like you won't have a lot of time but I'm sure you'll miss that from jogging in the morning (and if it were I'd end up substituting sugar-rich foods instead!) Even if it's just 10 minutes of meditation or reading time for yourself, it'll be great to bookend your day with 'you' things.

Best of luck starting the PhD!

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My First Half Marathon!

Sunday, September 22, 2013



There we are. My ever supportive DH and me. He has seen me progress from my first 5km in 2009 (at 148 pounds) to my first half marathon (at 120 pounds). At the end of the race he said, "your body has certainly changed since your first race!!"

In spite of my IT band giving me a bit of trouble this last week, I managed quite well. I've learned that if I concentrate on relaxing my shoulder it somehow helps release the tension I feel in my knee. I knew to start at a slow pace as that would enable to keep going the entire distance without pain at the end. It worked!!

When I hit the 10 mile mark I knew that I could just go for it, and I did. It was amazing what a mental boost it was to think: "this is the same as a 5km race. I can do that!!" and just let my body take over.

The weather was overcast and cool, just perfect for running, and the course was fairly flat. There was a steep incline just before entering the race track, which was not ideal at the end of a race, but I managed. I ran the whole distance averaging about 9.30 mins per mile, with a final burst of energy at the end. My last three miles were all under 9 mins per mile. I passed the finish line just at just over 2 hours, which was what I was hoping for. I'll get the official time later today, but I think it will be 2:01 or 2:02.

IT band is sore now, so sitting on the couch resting it. The rest of me feels great!! Give me a few weeks and I'll be ready for the next one!! The training for this has been long (nearly 7 months) so I'm extra relieved that it went well, and very happy.

Thanks for all the support!

  
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COFFEELS 11/8/2013 11:57AM

    Congratulations on finishing your first half marathon!!! That is a great time!!! emoticon

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IMSMILEY88 11/7/2013 4:49PM

    Congrats!!!
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MWWENSIN 9/23/2013 4:23PM

    Great job. Really great tine.

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IFDEEVARUNS2 9/23/2013 4:04PM

    Great time!

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MIRAGE727 9/23/2013 3:58PM

    You never forget your first Half! Outstanding time!
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JOANNA202 9/23/2013 10:26AM

    Congratulations!! That's an amazing achievement! You should be so proud of yourself and all your careful hard work. I hope your IT band recovers soon (though it definitely deserves a rest now).

Do you have another race booked in a few weeks, or is that just a comment on when you could practically do one?

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MOBYCARP 9/22/2013 9:03PM

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I need to hear stuff like this as I work on foot rehab with an eventual goal of running a half marathon. Run slower, they all say. I need to work on that, and it helps to read a testimonial of how it benefits others.

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GWINNER1 9/22/2013 5:40PM

    emoticon on doing such an outstanding job on your first half marathon! You rock! I am just getting used to doing 5ks and a half marathon seems rather daunting at this point. But I'm sure I can work up to it. Keep on doing a great job. You have accomplished much!!!

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OWL_20 9/22/2013 4:54PM

    emoticon on your first 1/2 marathon! It's something I'm planning on doing next year. How did your training go?

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COOP9002 9/22/2013 2:53PM

    Awesome job & excellent time. You should be sor proud of your accomplishment.

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GEMLADYONE 9/22/2013 2:52PM

    Congrats on your first HM! I'm totally impressed. emoticon

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OPTIMIST1948 9/22/2013 2:08PM

    Congratulations on first HM! What a wonderful achievement and its great that you have somebody to help & support you. Stretch that IT band! Figure 4 stretches and pigeon pose work well for me.

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AFERARI 9/22/2013 1:53PM

    Great job on the HM and on the fast time! Super impressed!

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KRISZTA11 9/22/2013 12:38PM

    Congrats to your first Half Marathon!
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One week until race day!!

Friday, September 13, 2013

And all I keep thinking is: 'don't get an injury now!!'

I'm ready. My past two long runs have both been 21km in about 2 hours. I know I can do it, now I just need to taper for this week, get enough sleep and eat well.

We've been away on holiday in Scotland and have not eaten as well as we usually do. I haven't jumped on the scale yet, so hopefully I haven't gained too much, but I do look forward to a week of balanced, healthy eating before race day.

I'll be running the half marathon next Sunday. I've been training for months now, so it feels like it's been quite an epic journey.

My last long run is this Sunday. I'm only planning on running for 90 minutes. My plan after that is two runs of thirty minutes each, and plenty of yoga.

I need to keep healthy and injury free now. I feel like the training part is done.

Phew. I'm excited!!

Any last minute tips??

  
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LAURIETAIT 9/16/2013 12:26AM

    You're going t do great. Can't wait to read about the race details.
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ANATASHIKI 9/14/2013 4:09AM

    good luck with the race! I don't know about tips but sometimes when I have muscle cramps while running I take magnesium supplements. but if you don't have this issue and are not used to them I don't know if they would help. I agree , the body doesn't make water reserves, we're not a cactus emoticon

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PASTAFARIAN 9/13/2013 10:53PM

    Ignore Bluenose's advice. You can't give your body "reserve hydration". You'll just pee it out. In the worst case, you'll have to pee mid-race.

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WORKNPROGRESS49 9/13/2013 6:25PM

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BLUENOSE63 9/13/2013 6:02PM

  Tip: Make sure you are properly hydrated during your taper week. In fact drink extra so that your body has a reserve. Don't forget the sunscreen and bug spray just in case.

Good luck, sounds like you got this all cased! Make sure you show a pic of the bling you win!

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RAPUNZEL53 9/13/2013 5:57PM

  Good Luck!

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