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Destroying my negative thoughts, one karate chop at a time!!

Tuesday, April 02, 2013

Around this time last year I started buying cute little Spring dresses that were a size that I hadn't ever imagined would fit me. I was nervous about these purchases, mainly because I still wasn't feeling skinny and was so nervous I'd just end up putting all the weight back on again, and these dresses would end up staring at me in the wardrobe reminding me of the few minutes in my life when I was thin.

Well, anyway, it turns out that I was wrong. I've been at a fairly stable weight for a year now (about 117 - 120lbs) and today, with Spring shining so brightly through my window, I dared to see what those dresses looked like on me.

The answer: Better!!

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How wonderful is that? Not so much that the dresses still fit me, but that I've managed to prove that inner monster of a voice wrong.

Sometimes I feel like maintaining my weight is turning me into a Warrior Princess when it comes to dealing with inner negativity. I can almost feel this Warrior karate chop those voices down as I prove to myself that I can be and do things these voices were telling me were simply impossible. It is both liberating and terrifying at the same time. Liberating because I believe in myself more and more everyday, terrifying, because I'm starting to realise that it is so much more possible to achieve my dreams than I ever thought. It just takes a little bit of courage each day, and a willingness to prove those inner negative voices wrong - one karate chop at a time!!

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DESERTJULZ 5/7/2013 6:15PM

    How totally fun to look in the closet, see pretty dresses and then - the best part, like the way you look in those dresses! Nice going and congratulations on your hard work. :D

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MARTY728 5/7/2013 12:36PM

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CELIAMINER 5/7/2013 7:58AM

    Super blog! I'm just coming off vacay with a weight gain I accurately predicted to within a half pound, and although I have all the SP tools and techniques at my disposal to shed the pounds I absolutely do not regret gaining on my fabulous time away, what I really look forward to are upbeat, confident posts from Sparkers.

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SANDICANE 5/7/2013 5:53AM

    WAY TO GO!

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SEWKOOLMOM2 5/6/2013 5:39PM

    Two thumbs up for you!! I remember felling the exact same way. Afraid I would gain it back. But I have been on maintenance for a year now and am loving the possibilities of all the cute new clothes I can fit into. Keep up the good work! Congratulations btw emoticon

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CM_GARDNER78 5/3/2013 10:49PM

    LOVE IT!! Hiiii-yah! Karate chop those negative thoughts out of there! :-) Great blog!

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WATERMELLEN 5/3/2013 8:20PM

    What a happy spring time blog! You're doing great, good for you!!

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LOGOULD 5/3/2013 6:00PM

    While losing so much weight has been a wonderful experience, I think I will appreciate more being able to keep the weight off and even improve the way I look at this weight. Thanks for leading the way and showing that it can be done AND HOW!

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LYNCHD05 5/3/2013 3:37PM

    Fitting into dresses that actually look good on you is the best!!!!! I know being healthy is much more important but what the heck....this is the fun part!!!!

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AMARILYNH 5/3/2013 1:29PM

    Isn't it wonderful to just have ONE size of clothing in the closet? Gone are the 'dreaming of a smaller size' clothing AND the 'for just in case I gain' clothing!! True liberation!!

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MCHILSTR 5/3/2013 10:12AM

  What a great image! Thanks for the vision... emoticon

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MARCOSMASTER 5/3/2013 8:39AM

    Good for you, keep it up, its a mind set and a marathon, but you can do it!! emoticon

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CHERYL_ANNE 5/3/2013 7:30AM

    Wahay for you and for your 1 Year Maintenance!
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BROWNCOFIDDLER 5/2/2013 10:35PM

    Such a great inspirational blog!! Love it. You've done a great job at slaying the monster voice!! I think we've all heard it too many times and it's so sweet to taste such a big victory. Way to GO!!! So glad you like that cute little dress better than ever!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MY1FAN 5/2/2013 6:57PM

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-SHOREIDO- 5/2/2013 5:27PM

    You did it!!!! emoticon Good job!
Ginny At Goal & Maintaing team works well with your goals!

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ADRIENALINE 5/2/2013 3:50PM

    One year at goal! We can never get enough credit for this milestone. You are so awesome!

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MADEIT3 5/2/2013 3:35PM

    You go girl! Warriror princess indeed!

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_JODI404 5/2/2013 2:31PM

    Hi-YA!! CHOP those voices down!!

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MOONCHILD8 5/2/2013 2:23PM

    I am so happy for you. You can do it! My dad told me as a sixteen year old that I could not drive a car. I proved him wrong and took driving lessons with my own money. A lot of people have told me in the past that I could not do things and I have proven them wrong. I have negative thoughts also from the previous experiences and have to remember that I proved them wrong. I drove, I was married, I had children, I have worked, and now I am caring for my Mom. We can do it! Linda from bean town emoticon emoticon emoticon

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THOMS1 5/2/2013 2:18PM

    Great Blog. Thank You. emoticon

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MKELLY72 5/2/2013 1:34PM

    Wonderful! Sometimes it is terrifying when we are successful, because then we have to admit to ourselves that we can keep "karate chopping" more and more and become successful in areas that might scare the crap out of us. It kind of forces us to recognize potential we never realized we had (and responsibility to keep being successful :)
Michelle

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ELIZABETH5268 5/2/2013 1:09PM

    WooHoo that is awesome!! What a good feeling. I hope I can follow in your footsteps!

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SUSIEMT 5/2/2013 12:03PM

    Great Blog! I remember being thin for a few minutes in my life. In fact that is how I would phrase it when I would be talking about weight. LOL You look so good in the after picture. That dress looks so much better on you! Keep up the good work!

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WENDYDANCER 5/2/2013 10:18AM

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AALLEY2 5/2/2013 10:16AM

    emoticon emoticon It is amazing what we can do! emoticon

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SLENDERELLA61 5/2/2013 10:13AM

    Great blog! So positive!! Chop, chop, chop!!!

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MANDELOVICH 5/2/2013 9:46AM

    How fun! I think one of the best parts of this journey is fitting into clothing with confidence and excitement!!

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TANYA602 5/2/2013 9:16AM

    Congratulations on your time in the spotlight and for looking good in your spring dresses!

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FELINA 5/2/2013 9:14AM

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KANOE10 5/2/2013 8:42AM

    Excellent! Keep those karate chops going. You are doing a wonderful job of maintaining and staying positive. I also bought a bunch of clothes last spring and am happy that I fit them.

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MOMMY445 5/2/2013 8:17AM

    way to go! woo hoo!

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MARTHAWILL 5/2/2013 7:39AM

    Way to go!
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LRSILVER 5/2/2013 7:22AM

    Wow. That is so great. Congratulations on one year at GOAL!!!
Woo Hoo.

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TORTISE110 5/2/2013 7:20AM

    Wonderful maintenance success! Enjoy your spring!

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NELLJONES 5/2/2013 7:07AM

    I've often wondered if the inner negativity of being able to maintain isn't just an extension of all those people who keep harping on that 95% or whatever who regain. What those statistics really mean is that 95% go back to eating the way they used to. Wouldn't "95% of all people who continue to live the new life they learned while losing manage to maintain that loss and go on to a fabulously thin life" sound better? THAT is the statistic that would make me smile!

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BESSHAILE 5/2/2013 7:04AM

    woo woo - so true. You've had that attitude adjustment! congratulations - on the new conversation in your head and the cute spring dresses.

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SANDICANE 5/2/2013 6:44AM

    That's fabulous! Way to go and onward we trod.

Cheers,
Sandi

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MANILUS 5/2/2013 6:30AM

    Great work, the mind is a difficult thing to conquer but doable! Keep it up and enjoy the dresses/size!

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KELLIEBEAN 5/2/2013 5:57AM

    Congratulations!

Go warrior princess!

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MONGO2TEN 5/2/2013 5:31AM

    emoticon I have to fight those negative voices too! Just when I think they are gone, they make a comeback...

Great blog.

~Nancy

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MJREIMERS 5/1/2013 10:51PM

    emoticon Keep working on the negative voices in your head! Your body is proving the voices wrong!!!! Keep at it! You've had a great year in the way of maintaining your weight! You deserve those dresses and many more! emoticon

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CAROLISCIOUS 5/1/2013 9:20PM

    Awesome!
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NKING1982 4/2/2013 12:57PM

    Keep up the good work, emoticon
I just bought a bikini (knowing that it doesn't fit right now) it's kind of my motivation for getting into shape. I usually wear a bikini in the summer (but with a tshirt and shorts over it). I try it on once every two weeks to see how it looks. Hopefully by summer i will be able to wear the bikini, and just the bikini, no shirt, no shorts. Congrats! Sounds like you are doing great!

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JENSTRESS 4/2/2013 12:53PM

    Way to go! I can't wait to get there! Heck, I can't wait to get to where you were a year ago!

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My biggest weapon against emotional eating

Friday, March 08, 2013

Tracking.

Yes, tracking my food intake.

When my head is so full of if's and but's and, as a quote I recently read, my greatest judge is living right inside me, the best weapon is to track.

Tracking makes eating objective rather than subjective. It takes food away from the emotional monster and turns it into a simple game of numbers.

The monsters says 'you're too fat', but the numbers show me I've eating within my range.

The monsters say, 'go on, have another piece of cake, you'll feel better', but the numbers show that I've eaten all I need to eat today and it's time to stop.

The monsters say, 'you have no control', the numbers show me that I do.

Then, the monsters try their most powerful attack 'tracking is way too difficult. Don't bother with it today'.......

When I hear that in my head, then I know I'm winning the battle. So, I sit down and I track my food. And, when I do that, those monsters start to lose their power, and I become just a little bit stronger than I was before.

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PAM_COOPER 5/2/2013 10:25PM

    Agree about the tracking, I think this is the best tool for staying accountable.

Congrats on one year of maintenance!!! And I am SURE those little dresses are cute, cute, cute on you!!!!

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ADRIENALINE 5/2/2013 3:52PM

    Great blog!

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KRISZTA11 3/9/2013 5:59AM

    Thanks for sharing, you are absolutely right!
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CHICVINTAGE 3/8/2013 10:05AM

    Yes, I totally agree! Seeing the numbers helps me resist too.

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NEWRUNNER2 3/8/2013 9:37AM

    Thanks so much for this blog! I agree with you wholeheartedly. emoticon

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What a difference a week makes!

Friday, March 01, 2013

After my last blog, I went and bought a lot of fruit and veggies and then spent most of the weekend cooking (Somehow a lemon meringue pie ended up as part of the cooking plan, and all I can say in my defence is that I got excited about using fresh lemons!!)
It's really hard to tell if it has made any difference after only a week. I certainly felt a little bit more energetic, but still have this niggling cough. I did try making smoothies, but it wasn't as exciting as I thought it would be and I have ended up just eating the fruit on it's own. I still haven't been out for a jog this week. I'll head out today for a walk/ run session and see how it goes.

  
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ANATASHIKI 3/1/2013 10:13AM

    I'm glad you feel a little better. are you sure it's not a virus?maybe smoothies in the cold season aren't that appealing. emoticon

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Winter blues!!

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Well, I'm still listening to my body and it is telling me that it is cold!! Colder than it has ever been!!
I have been trying to get myself out jogging again to get back into shape for a 10km race in May and then for a half marathon in October. But, something is not working. I get out, jog, and then the next day have the sniffles. Then, the next day it gets worse and then I'm sick. So, my training pattern is: jog for thirty minutes, spend five days recovering, repeat!!
It's not working!!
And I'm in despair. I love jogging, I want to be out there running, but this Winter it's not working. I seem to be less healthy than I was a year ago - or it has just got colder. I have better winter training gear than last year, so it's not the way I'm dressing.
Next week I'm going to add smoothies to my lunch. See if the fruit and pro-biotic yoghurt will help my immune system - because it clearly needs help!
(Weird. Who would ever have thought I would be thinking about my food choices in terms of what is best for my immune system as opposed to what will make me feel better?)
Of course it all leads to a deeper kind of sadness. Feeling healthy has become so very important to me, and this feeling of sluggishness is starting to get me down. DH has reached a total point of desperation that he is suggesting we move to a sunnier country!! I'm hoping for a simpler solution.

  
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ANATASHIKI 2/21/2013 1:47PM

    sorry to hear that. can't you run inside? or maybe you need a little break. try to sleep more too , maybe it helps.

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GINNABOOTS 2/21/2013 1:38PM

    Yes your immune system might be a little low. I have been jogging all winter and I get the sniffles, but they go away as soon as I cool down. Exercise should be boosting your immunity. I have been reading a lot about vitamin D deficiencies for individuals in winter climates. It might be worth checking in to. I live in Michigan and winter is usually my favorite season, but this year I have the winter blues. Can't wait for spring. Hope you and your DH feel better. The sun will be shining soon. Hang in there! emoticon



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Paying attention to my body

Sunday, January 06, 2013

It has been a very relaxing and easy holiday this year. DH and I have been working on being more accepting with each other and with events in our lives and the result has been a holiday where we have found ourselves doing very little, but loving every minute of it. We slept a lot. At first this was unnerving, but, seeing as our mantra was acceptance, we just went with it. We found ourselves thinking more carefully about what we actually wanted to do, so when we did go out it was always a pleasure - be it an easy walk, a visit to the cinema, or a trip to a restaurant. It has been an exercise in paying attention.

This got me thinking about exercise.

So often I want to push ahead with exercise because I have goals to meet, but sometimes our body starts getting sore - sore foot, IT band, aching back. I'm learning that rather than look at these things as something stopping me reaching my goals, that they are waking me up to consider something about my training plan. It seems to me that exercise is a constant learning process. I may think I understand my body and I'm doing everything right only to go an injure myself when I move to a new level of intensity. I think injuries are the only way our body can get us to pay attention to it. I'm also beginning to wonder if learning to pay attention is another part of maintaining my goal weight.

I got overweight because I didn't listen to my body telling me it was full. I enjoyed the feeling of eating too much to want to listen to what my body was telling me. Now I find myself sometimes enjoying my run too much to listen to that muscle that's beginning to twinge just a little bit too much and slow down and start walking. There's a similarity there. It's me thinking more about the feelings and the goals as opposed to thinking about what I really need.

So, paying attention. That's going to be my focus this year.

  
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PUDLECRAZY 1/7/2013 5:48AM

    Well said! It is so easy to get focused in our goals, we forget to listen to what our bodies are telling us. Rest is important too. What can be difficult, is getting back into the habit of exercise after resting, but it is better than injuring yourself and compounding the injury by pushing through.

Great blog.

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ANATASHIKI 1/6/2013 4:25PM

    lol, I slept a lot too and I'm glad I did that ,I was really tired. and you're right, sometimes we forget we do all this for being healthy

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COXBETH 1/6/2013 12:49PM

    I love I love I love this! I am also finally learning that it's about the journey not the destination. The most important tool to my happiness (and to my weight control) is curiosity - by listening to my body and figuring out what it's saying, not by pushing everything away to get to some specific goal no matter the consequences. I just wrote a blog post about this on Jan 4...it's amazing what a revelation it is.


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NANNYKAT 1/6/2013 12:00PM

    I like this idea of focusing on "paying attention"!!
I am not just learning to listen to my body telling me I'm getting full, I'm also having to listen when it's telling me it's hungry. I have a habit of not taking the time to eat properly when I am hungry so when I do finally stop to eat i'm starving. I wolf food down too fast, eating way too much before the "I'm full" signal is received. When I let that happen I'm uncomfortable afterwards... leading to being upset that I ate too much...which leads to feelings of failure and depression...which leads to comfort food eating. By learning to listen to my body telling me that it's time to eat and eating properly is helping to break this horrible cycle I have grown accustomed to.

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