Saturday, April 21, 2012
Saturday afternoon, DH is out of town and I am making the most of a flat to myself by dancing up a storm!
This is the exercise I do when I'm tired and home alone. For me, there is nothing quite like it because it seems to feed my soul, my body and my mind more than any other exercise. My main sport is jogging, which I work hard at, but it is different in that it is a discipline: something I have had to follow a training plan with, and something that I need to do on a regular basis to keep at the current training level that I am at. I do love it now, and find I miss it when I don't do it, but, I still have to make myself do it. Dancing is different.
On my own, in my little flat I can dance any way I want to - nobody is watching, nobody is judging, there is no such thing as a training plan for me, I just move my body in whatever way the music is inspiring it to do. And, before I know it, I've been moving around for an hour and I'm feeling a million times better.
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
DH and I shared a delicious bag of chunky fries today from our local chippy, and, as I was busy adding it to my nutrition tracker, I realized that I still eat fries quite a bit - not every day - but they must make their way onto my nutrition tracker every two or three weeks.
ice cream is not very common at all for me now. This is one junk food that I've had quite a bit of in the last week, but can't actually remember the last time I ate it! That seems to have been one of the junk foods that has made its way out of my new lifestyle without me even realizing.
I used to bake cookies quite a lot. It has become apparent that I cannot just eat one cookie and stop. So, although I love baking, for the sake of my waistline we no longer keep cookies in the house. This has stopped.
DH and I have a chocolate each every night after dinner from a chocolate box (Hotel Chocolat, for those of you in England) that is so expensive and so rich in flavour that one piece seems to be enough.
So, chocolate has stayed, and, up until last week, I've managed to eat in very good moderation.
I never eat muffins any more. I once bought a muffin from starbucks, read the calories in it, and decided, never again. It's just far too high in calories to justify.
I eat cake once in while - but only if it's a type of cake I truly love. A few days ago I ordered a coffee cake that was just terrible and I stopped eating it. When the waiter asked if it was ok, I acutally said, no!! Gone are the days when I will finish my plate just because it's there.
every Sunday DH and I share a custard tart (Pasteis De Nata) at our local Italian cafe. This is our Sunday routine, and we balance this with a lighter meal in the evenings. I learned early on in my dieting phase that there were some 'traditions' that I did not want to give up so I needed to work around them.
My new lifestyle is certainly not without junk food. I've just realized that I've become extremely selective about what I will eat, and, I seem to eat most of it in cahoots with my husband (who has lost twenty pounds since January and is still working his way down the scale). I think this is why I struggle to say I'm living a healthy lifestyle.
It feels more like a normal lifestyle. One where I'm not eating 7 cookies in one sitting, or eating an entire box of chocolates on my own BEFORE my husband gets home and then rounding it off with a box of pringles before dinner.
So, I'm making peace with the junk food that has stayed. It seems to have found a way into my calorie tracking that is working, and, at least for the moment, I'm okay with that.
Friday, April 06, 2012
This last week has been eye opening for me. It has been my first proper break in a long time, and, it seems that when my mind realizes it is on holiday, it feels like it needs to be on holiday from calorie counting too!
How strange to observe my hand as it reaches for the popcorn/ chocolate/ dessert just the way it used to six months ago. Mentally I knew this was not the thing to do, but at the same time, I needed to relax. And, 'this is what I do when I relax' was what my mind was telling me.
The spa break was wonderful and I have come home very relaxed, and, thankfully, only one pound heavier. But, I'm also back to struggling to eat things in moderation again. I let myself relax and now I'm finding it hard to reign myself back in again. I've now learned that I equate relaxing with eating whatever I want to. I've even said to myself 'I can start dieting again tomorrow' - another throw away comment from a few months ago that I haven't said to myself for ages!
I need to spend a bit of time reflecting on this new discovery. Awareness is the first step, right? Now to figure out how to feel relaxed without needing to over-indulge in food.
Monday, April 02, 2012
I have given myself a treat - a few days away at a spa for time to relaz, and treat my body to some well earned massage treatments. What I didn't anticipate was the food I would encounter on this trip.
I've just returned from dinner at their restaurant. Nothing on the meal was low calorie, so i ended up getting a burger and chips, which is something I haven't eaten in a long time. I was so hungry that I ate it all pretty fast, and then gulped down a hot chocolate with cookies. (By the time the hot chocolate came, I wasn't thinking in healthy terms anymore, I was in pre-sparkpeople mode).
Now, however, I am suffering. My stomach is aching from this over-indulgence (a new experience, 6 months ago, I would still be able to eat ice cream after that!)
It seems that pampering cannot equal huge quantities of calorie loaded food for me - it now makes me feel ill (which is a good thing, right?)
But, I do need to somehow persuade the part of me that associates pampering with junk food, that this is ok.
Argh, and, sorry shooting stars, I'm not doing a good job of keeping within my calorie range so fat this week!
Tomorrow will be better.
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
I have missed being accountable to a group when it comes to exercising. I hadn't realized how much it helps me to do a bit of exercise each day when I know it's leading towards a greater goal. Even if it is an imaginary destination, this group effort is really helpful for me and I think will get me doing all the extra exercise I had intended on doing, but just not got round to doing!
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