Tuesday, February 25, 2014
Part of me is hesitant to post a second blog entry in one day, because I don't want the first one to be lost to any readers or commentors since I am rather excited about the Good News and Goals. But the following entry about "head hunger" and grinding feels important to me also.
In the 100 Days of Weight Loss challenge on the Emotional Eaters team, I am simultaneously working "my" day's challenge (Day 22) and joining the rest of the group (Day 56). Often the later challenge seems out-of-sync to me.
Here is some background info on Day 56, much of it coming from the book by Linda Spangle:
The emotional eating type called "head hunger" usually starts with a specific food thought or craving, typically something chewy or crunchy, that has a "smash in your mouth" sensation. Head hunger tends to be connected to pressure-type emotions such as anger, frustration, resentment or when trying to avoid feelings, such a grief or other painful emotions.
When I want to chew or crunch, ask myself what do I really want to "chew" on? What is bothering me or stressing me out?
Then ask myself if eating will change that issue. ***"Eating simply postpones what I really need to do to cope with issues."***
This line really spoke to me: ***"Eating simply postpones what I really need to do to cope with issues."***
My favorite chewy or crunchy foods - popcorn (work only), gum, shredded wheat cereal
Three places or situations where I am tempted to reach for head hunger food - work, home esp. in evening
What do I really want to "chew" on? Home - overwhelmed with $ stress, messy house, noise, taking care of others... Work - competing demands, esp by managers, not getting to finish tasks, talk of getting credit apps. I just want to get stuff done without interruption, both at home and at work.
In the group I posted the following that leaves me feeling I'm on the verge of something key for me:
I do think different days' challenges speak differently to each of us sometimes. These challenges are really out of sequence for me as I am really at Day 22. Often these later challenges don't speak to me - yet. But this one really does. I am clinically a 'grinder', have done major damage to my teeth from night-time and daytime grinding of my teeth. And I sometimes have awareness of the day grinding - and it always has to do with stress. At least in part, the eating of "smash in your mouth" foods really does satisfy me for a time. I've made some progress by substituting gum for food, but have a ways to go to lessen or head off the stress reaction that leads to the grinding.
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
Hopefully, hopefully, hopefully, today is a big step further towards better times for my family and me.
DH started a contract job today. It is much further away than we'd like, but it sure pays better than unemployment. And he will still be looking for a permanent job near home.
And I have some quiet time at home by myself. Deep breath.
We've gone back to the deep freeze. Sigh. Running outside is not in my near future - not 'til it warms up to about 25*.
I had a gotten a bit off track with my training to run a faster half marathon, so yesterday I looked at where my long run should be to finish a half in early-April. 11 miles - that sounded daunting - but I did it and I feel fine today. Happy.
My mind keeps coming back to the idea of doing a bunch of half marathons this coming running season. I researched current listings to my heart's content this morning. How half crazy do I want to go? Even with the criteria of day trips and lower cost, it looks like there are enough races to go for all of my good-better-best goals:
Good Goal: 3 half marathons in 90 days, to earn membership in Half Fanatics.
Better Goal: 12 half marathons in 2014, the equivalent of one a month.
Best Goal: 13 half marathons in 2014 - AKA to me as the Half Marathons Squared Goal
Yes, we have major money issues, but these goals feel good - they avoid the bigger expenses of hotels stays and the expensive races, allow me to do something just for me, something that has grabbed my imagination, something that helps me feel like I am doing something for myself with all the working I'll be doing. Training for and completing the marathon last year was a gift to me, doing something for myself amidst all the major stress. This feels like a gift to me for right now, for this year.
I'm going to review the race plan with DH, then hopefully jump in and register for the earlier races.
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Overate and overwatched TV yesterday. Gave permission to cats to 'hold me hostage' so I stayed on the couch - especially our 20YO oldster cat. Rose.
Day 17 - Stop Wasting food
Did I ever waste food into myself yesterday.
I did leave a bit of food on my plate - offered it to N. How did it feel? At that point I had overeaten so much that I was feeling maybe ashamed, out of control or not much at all. I wish I had journalled before reaching for food.
Day 18 - Retrain Your Eating habits
I do not remember getting the message about cleaning my plate - no Clean Your Plate Club or "There are starving children in ..." sayings. Yet, I think I have always cleaned my plate. I expect it was modelled for me, especially by my mother who has major eating issues.
For the rest of today, I will leave some food uneaten at each snack or meal.
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