I am SO hungry right now!! According to MyFitnessPal I have about 60 calories left to eat. I didn't make great food choices today because I have no yet changed what I am eating. I am taking this week to eat as I normally do and see JUST how many calories I am eating.
So here I sit with two options: eat or sit here and think about the bad choices I made today that led me to sitting here hungry. If I had made better calorie choices I would have been able to spread my calories out more throughout the day. I am probably going to eat because even though I am at my 1650 limit for the day I realize that this is one of my reasons I go over on calories and have owned it. I believe that is part of the lesson. So I am going to have my favorite snack...steamed Tiliapia with Cajun seasoning. It shouldn't be to many extra calories.
I know this will all be a learning experience. I need to realize what I was doing in the past and own up to all those decisions and what I was doing.
A lot has changed since I last logged in here. Some good and some bad, I have spent far to long focusing on the bad. It is out of my control and there is no longer anything I can do about it, it was very damaging to me though. I know this but I will get through it.
The good that happened though is that my husband and I had a baby. He was born August 2012. He is just the best thing to ever happen to me and I love him dearly. So it is time for me to really become serious about losing weight. I am so sick of being sick and tired that the time has come. I was going to delete this Sparks and start over again. But I have been here since 2006 and thought I should keep this page and just continue the journey.
I have a crazy idea of a fitness goal I want to reach but I am to nervous to say it right now. But for now I would like to compete in several 5k's and actually run them.
Yesterday was my first day of doing the C25K program. I tried to do it a few weeks ago but became to worried about what people would think if they saw me running and stopped after 2 60 second runs. But yesterday I didn't care what anyone thought. The weather had finally decided to work with me, and I went out and did it.
Looking back I probably should have picked a road that had less hills but we live and learn right. So I did good (I think). At the end I felt like I was torturing myself and was having a mental conversation about why I was never doing this again, and it was completely insane. Mind you the workout ended about .5 mile from my house, so I walked the extra part, uphill. lol. After my showers and a hour of recovery. I felt great. So great in fact that I want to do it again. Which let me tell you this, yesterday that conversation with myself while doing it said otherwise. .
I am not super sore today, and feel good and I feel smaller....I know it isn't possible but whatever I doo and you can't tell me otherwise