Friday, April 26, 2013
Traveling far or near is one of my favorite things to do. To see friends, family, trees, historical sites or just to get away from the everyday life. It has become apparent that the whole going away process stresses me out more than it used to do a few years ago. I worry about the water, fires and dying plants. My most recent worry addition is someone breaking into the house and stealing my computer. So I now put some electronics away in less obvious place and have taken to putting my small box of jewelry in a hidden place. It would probably work just fine if I picked one spot and always put the items there. However, I keep thinking of better places and that would be ok except I now find that I cannot always remember the New Special place. Three trips ago I put the little jewelry box in such a good place, I couldn’t find it and I couldn’t remember where was the newest special place. I cleaned out shelves and drawers, opened every box and did a nice job of straitening up, but no little box. It is small problems like this that nag at me, increase my anxiety and make me feel like I am losing my mind. I didn’t say anything to anyone because I was also embarrassed.
Then the other day at a party, I was listening to a women describe how she hid her Kindle in her house while she was gone for a few days. Now she can’t find it and she wants to finish the book she started. She laughed!! Certain that she will find it and not being afraid to admit that sometimes the synapses just don’t spark.
Listening to her helped me to get over my embarrassment and realize that I did not have a large or unique problem. Getting older is a process and it is better to acknowledge the lapses and take steps to help minimize the problems. Laughing at my lapses will help reduce down my anxiety even if it doesn't solve the problem.
And guess what? I found the jewelry box; it was in a good hiding place. But I am writing a note of where it is. Now I just have to make sure to remember where I wrote the note.
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
The memories of christmas of my younger days are of a large number of assorted relatives getting together in loud boisterous groups. Smashed together in small houses with lots of food and cold winter weather. Now the holiday get togethers are small with polite adults eating fewer rich dishes and drinking a lot less alcohol. The connections between many of the family have either been broken by death, moves to cities far away, changes in interests that make conversations awkward, divorces or just getting older. The connections seem so fragile and each year seem to decrease so that it is memories of people that christmas brings back to me. I make some phone calls just to hear voices to help me keep the past alive with people who are special. Then the people who are very close arrive for dinner and I am happy in my present connections and grateful they are in my life. The memories slip away into the shadows of christmas and wait to be revived again next year.
Friday, December 14, 2012
Actually I feel like I am watching my health deteriorate. At the beginning of November I came down with a rally bad sinus infection which lasted for several weeks. Now of course, I was really starting to feel better and along comes really bad cold. As a generally healthy person, I have taken for granted that I can do a fair amount of exercise each day and be very active. These are minor ailments but they have stopped all my activity. This makes me a lot more sympathetic to people who have serious physical issues and have limited ability to get up and go. Although the unpleasant things in life are not something you go looking for, it seems that it is an opportunity to appreciate what you do have. This time of the year is especially stressful on people so looking for the happy, cheerful and grateful parts of my life is going to be my goal for the rest of December. Have a great holiday season.
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