Saturday, June 12, 2010
As a kid my Dad use to tell me "You need to buckle down". As a kid that was an insult to hear that. It meant he thought I wasn't doing enough. In what he was talking about then, I still think it was an insult, in that case I was doing the best I could.
As it refers to today and my weight loss. I needed to buckle down. The last couple of weeks I have buckled down. I pulled it together and did the work I needed to get the job done. There is always room for improvement. I didn't exercise as I should. I did eat in my calories though. I was real aware of what I was eating. When I was eating. How much. I ate at KFC, McDonald's, I had a muffin one morning for breakfast. What I didn't do was overeat. On the days I ate at KFC and McDonald's I hadn't eaten much during the earlier part of the day.
It is kind of clicking in my head. I am working on it. This will never be easy for me. I am addicted to food. I think I always will be. I don't think that once I lose my weight that all of a sudden food won't matter to me because food will always matter to me. How much power I give food is the difference now. I need food as fuel. I can eat food I enjoy but I need to think about what I ate earlier in the morning or what I will eat later in the day.
I know I can do this. I know I can.