Monday, April 28, 2014
I went to the doctor last December and he put me on a new med to lower my blood sugars. I didn't want to hear about that. I didn't do anything to change things. In a couple of weeks I go back to redo the lab work. I am not confident that things are going to be any different. The only things I have done have been seeing a therapist to work on some things due to some major changes in my husbands health. I also do take the meds the doc prescribed.
A few weeks ago we go news that my husband may be included in a lay off at his employer. Something about that made me really start to think about things. I have been thinking about all time I have wasted on relationships that really are not productive, and in some cases are actually toxic. I have been thinking about what to do about that. I have been thinking about the debt I have been carrying around. All the times I said I would create a budget and not follow through with the budget. I have been thinking about my job. I work part time. I really enjoy the people I work with but I have no benefits. Due to my husbands health issue I have been thinking maybe if he does get laid off, maybe I should work full time and carry the insurance and take the load off him. That has led me to really start thinking about my health. For the first time in a real LONG time, I am thinking about what I CAN DO to stop this bad and unhealthy lifestyle I have been living.
In a nutshell, I think I am ready to step up and take control of my life. I think I am ready to accept the responsibility for the things in my life I can change. It will be scary. Darn scary but I have lived through some real scary things so I can do this. I can do this. I have said it before but I am really ready to accept the responsibility to make my life healthy.