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Accepting changes

Monday, April 28, 2014

I went to the doctor last December and he put me on a new med to lower my blood sugars. I didn't want to hear about that. I didn't do anything to change things. In a couple of weeks I go back to redo the lab work. I am not confident that things are going to be any different. The only things I have done have been seeing a therapist to work on some things due to some major changes in my husbands health. I also do take the meds the doc prescribed.

A few weeks ago we go news that my husband may be included in a lay off at his employer. Something about that made me really start to think about things. I have been thinking about all time I have wasted on relationships that really are not productive, and in some cases are actually toxic. I have been thinking about what to do about that. I have been thinking about the debt I have been carrying around. All the times I said I would create a budget and not follow through with the budget. I have been thinking about my job. I work part time. I really enjoy the people I work with but I have no benefits. Due to my husbands health issue I have been thinking maybe if he does get laid off, maybe I should work full time and carry the insurance and take the load off him. That has led me to really start thinking about my health. For the first time in a real LONG time, I am thinking about what I CAN DO to stop this bad and unhealthy lifestyle I have been living.

In a nutshell, I think I am ready to step up and take control of my life. I think I am ready to accept the responsibility for the things in my life I can change. It will be scary. Darn scary but I have lived through some real scary things so I can do this. I can do this. I have said it before but I am really ready to accept the responsibility to make my life healthy.

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WASCALLYWONE 4/30/2014 6:10PM

    Tina, it's so great to hear the positive tone in your post...sometimes we have to get to the bottom of the pit, in order to start digging out. Sorry to hear about Paul's job and health...remember, everything happens for a reason. You GO, girl!

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SUNNY89 4/29/2014 5:38PM

    Thank you all for the wonderful support. It means so very much.

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DDHEART 4/29/2014 9:04AM

    These are all hard things to face and scary is probably an understatement. BUT....sometimes we need to really get sucker punched in order to push us to make changes and as scary as this is for you, remember that all change starts with smaller manageable steps and build to the bigger things so try not to focus on the big scary mountain and just start taking one step after another. The momentum will carry you forward.

Please know that you have friends here who are willing to listen and share, cheer and cry with you and help in whatever small way we can. You can do it, we know it!

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NELLJONES 4/29/2014 8:40AM

    One of the things about being nearly 65 now is that I can look back and see that everything worked out. It may not have been what I wanted at the time, but it worked out. I wasted a lot of misery and angst agonizing over things where I had no control. Just know that it will all work out eventually, and it isn't worth agonizing over. Just do the next thing you know to do, and be patient.

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JANET552 4/29/2014 7:48AM

    You are a strong person and you can do this!! I'm sorry you are facing these changes but change is a part of life and getting ahead of it, as you are doing, helps make a person feel more in control. Good luck!!

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GRACED747 4/28/2014 7:13PM

    This sounds a lot like what I am going through right now in my life. I was recently diagnosed with diabetes (March this year). My Dr put me on oral medication but I didn't have good results. Since then I have been switched to insulin shots.

In a nutshell I too am ready to take control of my life and my health. Change is hard and frightening but it's the only way to change and try to undo the damage we've brought upon ourselves.

I enjoyed reading this and my heart goes out to you for I totally empathize and sympathize with you. My prayers are with you. Reading your post here puts me at ease knowing that someone else is going through also. emoticon

In the end, when everything is said and done all we really have is our health and that's a blessing to ourselves and our loved ones.

Keep taking one day at time, one step at a time.

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CATANTIGO 4/28/2014 6:38PM

    I KNOW you can do this. And how do I know? Because you have done well through a lot of stress. Things will change, they always do. But you're being proactive about making things better. You can do it.

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    I'm so sorry to hear about all of the stress you are going through. I hope your husband is going to be okay and that he doesn't lose his job. It sounds like you have a good plan if he does. My hubby had a great job and the plant closed and I did what you are considering. I worked full time and he stayed home and took care of our son for years. We later switched back. I hope everything works out for you.

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Meal planning

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Every week for years I have sat down and prepared a weeks worth of dinner menus. This weeks is real hard for me. REAL hard. For the first time in a very long time, since maybe around 2007, I am really commited to losing this weight and making my lifestyle dream a reality. So when I sat down to make my weekly menus and I started plugging my numbers into my weight watcher calculator I discovered how very unhealthy we have been eating in this house lately. That makes me just want to cry, because I cook the food I have been feeding my kids and hubby horrible food (well it tastes good, it is just so unhealthy).

I am not real sure how to start cooking healthy dinners. So my goal this morning is to sit with my healthy breakfast and a TALL cup of coffee and figure this out. At least for this week. Start to venture down the healthy path of life. I know it can be done. I just need to keep putting one foot in front of the other.

So hear goes.

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    I did this a long time ago and once you have your master plan things fall into place. I eat the same thing for breakfast and lunch and have my plan for supper and my snack list. It works for me and makes it easy to shop.

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JANET552 6/14/2011 1:31PM

    I am wondering how your meal planning went since, by now, you've probably done it. I too have been trying to have more healthy meals so I added more fish into our diet. Not my favorite food but I'm getting used to it. You know lots and lots about the foods to eat so I know you can do it! Good luck!!

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WASCALLYWONE 6/12/2011 11:20PM

    This is the perfect time of year to make some changes in your menus!! Think FRESH veggies, fruits, whole grains and simply prepared meats, no sauces or gravy. My daughter has a rule that her kids have to have both a vegie and a fruit for both lunch and supper. The adults have salads as a starter for both those meals. Personally, I hate making salads, but if you don't mind that, it's a great way to get fresh vegies in. Just don't use full fat dressing! Of course, from your research you already know all this. Just thought I'd let you know that with some planning (and you already do that) it CAN be done! Good luck, hun!

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ROCKINMOM77 6/12/2011 11:08PM

    We eat lots of baked white fish, brown rice and frozen veggies for dinners if your open to suggestions! Quick and easy! Would love to share recipes and suggestions if you'd like emoticon

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CATANTIGO 6/12/2011 5:40PM

    That's great that you are planning your meals ahead of time. You are so informed of the caloric value, that this is just a little stumbling block on your trail. You can do it!

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NIKKIV2 6/12/2011 7:38AM

    Tina I am so with you! As I did the shopping yesterday Dan and I had a little disagreement about what to buy. He is usually very supportive of me but yesterday his answer to something really hurt. He said that he didn't have a weight problem so eating unhealthy wasn't bad for him. I tried to let him know that weight is not the only reason to eat healthy but it still stuck with me and until now didn't realize how hurt I was by it. I know his cholesterol level can not be good but he won't get it checked for fear that they may recommend healthier eating for him. Just keep trying to figure it all out and it will come to you!
I know you can do this!

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NEELIXNKES 6/11/2011 1:15PM

    A simple way to start to get back into healthy meal plan is to find healthier recipes for some of your favorites. emoticon I have a goal of an average of 1 new recipe per week this year. I've kind of slipped out of the habit but I have been going through my sparkrecipe cookbook to pick out a few to try this week. Chef Meg's Greek Turkey Burger makeover I think my make our plan this week emoticon

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My first Weight Watchers meeting

Thursday, June 09, 2011

So I am doing my best this week to make this all happen. I went to my first weight watchers meeting. I was doing the program online and after the news the doc gave me and some other factors I decided to go to the meeting and check it out. It was nice. The scale at the meeting was 3 pounds better than the one in the clinic. Darn those clinic scales. So the meeting is Tuesday night which works out great because that is my day off from work.

Since Tuesday I have worked out both days. I have tracked all my food in my food planner and I have stayed in my points. I have had some snacks and don't feel deprived. I feel good so far.

I need to make this happen. One day at a time. One moment at a time. Whatever it takes.

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    Good job!! No letting up. I'm watching you. emoticon

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NO_SNOW_BODY 6/13/2011 8:42AM

    I have been doing WW for just over a year, I enjoy going to the meetings as it is fun to talk to the friends you make and I get to hear about some great recipes to try also.

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SANSANDY1 6/10/2011 8:39AM

    emoticon this is something you do emoticon

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CATANTIGO 6/10/2011 8:09AM

    You can do this, Tina! I'm glad you like the meetings.It sure is great to have more support. emoticon

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MALKEWKE 6/10/2011 6:11AM

    That's it! Every little step moves us forward. This time we're moving toward staying and being as healthy as we can be.

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NIKKIV2 6/9/2011 11:22PM

    Way to go!

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SLIMLILA 6/9/2011 9:57PM

    emoticon emoticon
Is there a site here on SP to track your WW points too? I did it 30 years ago until I got pregnant with my dd, and have never been able to get back into it, though I know it's the best I ever eat.. I have my sister and another friend doing it right now too. Good luck!

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The visit to the doc

Monday, June 06, 2011

I had a med check visit with my doc this morning. She said that my blood pressure was elevated. She said that my A1C test indicated borderline diabetes.

We talked about my weight and what I was doing in regards to my health.

I talked to her about some of the things that I have learned this last year. I talked to her about some of my fears.

She told me that some of my fears would really not be an issue for me. She told me that I need to get my weight under control. She told me her goals. They are for me to lose about 70 pounds (to start). To exercise and get to a place where I am comfortable working out 45 minutes daily for 6 days a week.

She told me that she know I can do this.

Now the big question is do I believe her? Can I do this?

I think I can. I think I am finally at the place that I need to be to make this happen once and for all.

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    Gf, I have known you for a while and KNOW you can do this. I'm not letting you not do it either. LOL. This is no longer and option. You do not want diabetes.

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MALKEWKE 6/7/2011 10:27AM

    For your health......every step counts!

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GRAMMAKARMIN 6/6/2011 9:20PM

    You must believe your doctor Tina! She is on your side. She knows you! She believes in you. We believe in you! No more negative tapes playing in your head! I struggle with letting things go too but I'm learning not to let the past dictate my future. You need positive self talk and given time you will believe the good things and drown out the bad! And that Culver's revelation was awesome!! Just one small example of the progress you've made already!! emoticon

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SUNNY89 6/6/2011 7:25PM

    Cat it isn't that anyone physically looks at what I am eating anymore but the tapes still play in my head. I just can't seem to shake some of those negative things that replay in my mind over and over again. It seems that I had a lot of those negative tapes playing over and over again. Some of them I have been able to shut down but others seem real hard for me to get under control but I am still here at SP and still trying.

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CATANTIGO 6/6/2011 7:07PM

    Tina, so glad to hear you going into this with a positive attitude. Writing down your foods really makes you accountable, but it only has to be for you to see. It's nobody else's business. Sometimes it helps to write down your stress level too. That way you can see your triggers. Hope you get that internet issue resolved quickly. Cuz were gonna do this!

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HOCKIMAMA 6/6/2011 4:38PM

    Tina, you have done well with the WW and it seems to work for you! I know you can do this! We are all here, ready to listen and support you! Once you get your internet issues worked out, try to get on the Daily Chatter thread and "talk" to us! We're here to help guide you and cheer you on! You can do it! :)

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NIKKIV2 6/6/2011 2:23PM

    I know it won't be an easy road for you Tina but know it is one that you will get to! Your doctor sounds great and lean on us whenever you need that little extra support. We are all here for you!

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JANET552 6/6/2011 1:52PM

    I agree with Raelene that your doctor sounds easy to talk to. I too struggle to stay below the borderline level for diabetes. Exercise has made a difference for me. Now that I started, I can't stop. Better food choices helps too although I still struggle with that somedays. I live with a Type 1 diabetic who, of course, is insulin dependent. That helps motivate me. You'll have lots of support on your NC WI Team.

Good luck!!

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SUNNY89 6/6/2011 12:46PM

    Good to see you Raelene.

She said to continue with the WW. To work on writing my food down. If writing the actual foods brings up issues I have had with people critisizing my food choices just write the point values. To work on getting the exercise in. She wants 6 days a week 45 minutes a day. That is the goal.

So that is how I am to get there. Focus on fruit and veg. Stop when I am full.

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WASCALLYWONE 6/6/2011 12:40PM

    Tina, glad to hear you are getting ready to kick the weight off!!

Sounds like your doc is easy to talk to. Did she give you any other plan besides what you are doing? I know you can do this, too! You have made many changes in your lifestyle; you can do one more. We're with ya, hun!

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The next step

Saturday, November 20, 2010

I am in a November challenge. The overall goal was to lose five pounds by Thanksgiving. I won't make that goal. The underlying aspects of the challenge were to eat within calorie range, drink 8 or more glasses of water, get in activity and encourage a team member. On most of these things individually I failed. Though the challenge wasn't a total waste of my time.

In the course of the last month I have set up a system to have balanced meals in place daily. I have joined a gym until May 19, 2011 (when in WI it should not be snowing). Since joining the gym I have exercised both days (I know that is small but I did it and am proud of it!!) I have been drinking more water. I have gotten my BP and IBS in check. I have changed my attitude to I want to be a healthy weight for ME!! I signed up to walk a 2K on Thanksgiving morning (paid the money so can't back out now).

I am not sure what my next weight goal will be after Thanksgiving. I do know that I am going to lose weight and continue to get healthy. This has been a long year. I have learned so much about myself. I have learned the value of healthy boundaries. I have learned to like and accept myself a little more. I have learned to NEVER, EVER settle for anything but my goals ever again.

I know this is not the end. Might just be another beginning.

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DDHEART 11/21/2010 10:03AM

    Tina, If we look at the challenge strictly on the basis of wt loss or all the other parameters, I failed too in most areas but I think you (and I) have managed to win the challenge in the regard that we made some strides in meeting our own unique improvements...and that is really where it's at. BTW..wish I was going to be home for T-day as I would join you at the turkey's going to be fun!

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JANET552 11/21/2010 8:16AM

    I think you've done an amazing amount this month. It's all a journey and as long as you keep learning and trying, as you seem to be, you are headed in the right direction. Good luck in the Turkey Trot!

Thank you for setting the challenge up. I won't make the 5 lb. goal either but I am tracking my food daily, even when I don't eat very healthy. I have certainly profitted from encouraging someone every day.


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MORTICIAADDAMS 11/20/2010 11:17PM

    It looks like you have had a lot of success to me. You have accomplished a lot. It takes time to make permanent healthy changes and you are one your way. emoticon

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SUNNY89 11/20/2010 5:12PM

    The Turkey trot starts at 8:30 a.m. Thanksgiving morning. Rain, snow or shine. I am hoping for the shine. I can cope with the cold but the rain or snow will be a challenge.

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CATANTIGO 11/20/2010 3:41PM

    What a long list of wonderful accomplishments. It seems like the small goals are adding up to big steps. What time is the Turkey Trot? I'd love to be walking with you. We may be miles apart, but I'd love to walk in my living room with you.

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ANITA012 11/20/2010 12:24PM

    You're on track...more so than you realize. Sometimes we attempt to bring those numbers down on the scale and when it doesn't happen as quickly as we want, we can feel as though we have failed. But that is not so. If you had not set those goals you would not have done all the other things that you eating healthier, joining a gym and signing up for a 2K walk.
You should be very proud of yourself! The weight loss will all fall into place later. Keep working towards your goals, and before you know it, the scale will have no choice but to co-operate!
Keep up the great job! emoticon emoticon

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