Thursday, July 29, 2010
Yes, I'm human. After such a successful weight loss with SP I fell off the wagon and after approx. a year and a half I am back. I had lost a whopping 130 lbs. going from 370 lbs. down to 240 lbs. YAY for me!!! Don't be too quick to cheer. Over the past year and a half I have managed to *groaning here* gain back 70 of the 130 I had lost. I'm not sure why I lost control or what triggered the continual demise but I THINK I am ready to continue on this journey. So today I start once again at 310 lbs. UGH, UGH, and DOUBLE UGH!!!
I was so emabarassed by this out of control..ness that I even removed the ticker from my Spark page. I certainly didn't want to discourage anyone but more importantly I didn't want anyone to see how out of control I was. It's embarassing to say the least. To think that food has such control over me.
To my Lord, I ask forgiveness.
To those I inspired in the past, my apologies.
To those who continue to support me, my heartfelt thanks.
Even though I've been lost for the past year and a half I want you all to know that I did log into SP every single day. I did the SP points, the polls, the trivia, read articles and blogs... I found a little joy in receiving a couple of SP awards every month for doing those things. It all helped me to feel like I was still connected.
It helps to write this all down; to be accountable to you all. I am going to repost my ticker today. I may even have to have a new pic taken. Not sure what I would call it. Man this takes so much courage but I think it is essential to my getting a healthy mind set once again.
If you are a believer, please pray for me. The Lord is my strenth in all things, including this thorn in my side. He is bigger then any bag of chips or any craving. Please Lord, have mercy.
Love you all.
And so my journey continues....
And now I sit here with tears in my eyes trying to muster the courage to hit the "Post Blog Entry" button... Confession is good for the soul. OK...here goes...
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
The Maker of all human beings (GOD) is recalling all units manufactured, regardless of make or year, due to a serious defect in the primary and central component of the unit, specifically the heart and soul of each unit.
This is due to a malfunction in the original prototype units code named Adam and Eve, resulting in the reproduction of the same defect in all subsequent units. This defect has been technically termed "Sub-sequential Internal Non-Morality," or as it is more commonly known, as S.I.N., a malfunction that is programmed in to all of these units from the moment their Earthly existence begins.
Some of the symptoms include:
1. Loss of direction
2. Foul vocal emissions
3. Amnesia of origin
4. Lack of peace and joy
5. Selfish or violent behavior
6. Depression or confusion in the mental component
However, on a good note, the Manufacturer, who is neither liable nor at fault for this defect, is willing to provide factory-authorized repair and service free of charge to correct this defect.
The Repair Technician, JESUS, has most generously offered to bear the entire burden of the staggering cost of these repairs, so there is no additional fee required.
The number to call for repair in all areas is: P-R-A-Y-E-R.
Once connected, please upload your burden of SIN through the FORGIVENESS and REPENTANCE procedures. Next, download ATONEMENT from the Repair Technician, Jesus, into the heart and soul component.
No matter how big or small the SIN defect is, once it is removed, Jesus will then graciously replace it at no additional cost with:
9. Self control
If you have any questions, please see the operating manual, the B.I.B.L.E. (Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth), for further details on the use (and applicability) of these repairs.
WARNING: Continuing to operate the human being unit without correction voids any manufacturer warranties, exposing the unit to dangers and problems too numerous to list and will result in the human unit being permanently impounded upon expiration of the unit. For free emergency service, call on Jesus.
DANGER: Those human being units not responding to this recall action will have to be scrapped in the furnace upon expiration, because the SIN defect will not for any reason be permitted to enter Heaven so as to prevent contamination of that facility. Thank you for your attention!
P.S. Please assist wherever possible by notifying others of this important recall notice, and of course, please keep in mind that anyone may contact the Heavenly Father directly at any time, day or night, via 'Knee mail'!
Because He Lives!
Thursday, May 06, 2010
Just had to repost this one my friends. I think we can all use a good laugh from time to time. Please read the qualifier at the end of this blog. Enjoy! :)
While sitting in the car, in a parking lot, waiting for my darling daughter while she perused the shelves at Blockbuster, I watched people come and go from the various stores. One particular woman caught my eye as she left the grocery store and started in my direction, her grocery cart piled HIGH with all sorts of wonderful goodies for the weekend. I watched as she came closer and closer…stopping almost in front of me where her car was parked. As she unlocked her car and started to unload her groceries I began to make my plan. I would get out of my car, hobble over to her, taking full advantage of my walking disability, with a smile on my face, hopefully making her think that I only wanted to ask her a question. When I got next to her, I would wrestle her to the ground, grab that bag of chips (the one that was calling my name), make a mad dash back to my car, jumping in and locking the doors. Ripping the chips open, I would gorge myself on those wonderful crispy, crunchy, greasy, salty little bits of gold. And then…and how proud Spark People would be of me…I decided to examine my “feelings”. One, I was tired. Two, I was hungry and needed my afternoon snack. Three, I was beginning to think that I would be sitting here until Christmas before my daughter would return to the car. And four, my daughter was having a crowd of teenagers in that night and there were still a few chores that needed to be done. OK…the woman was now in her car and slowly driving away…none the wiser. Little did she know how very close she came to being a victim of this mad chipaholic. (Personally, I hope she gains five pounds this weekend!!)
I got home, sat here eating my fat free yogurt, wearing my self-righteousness like a badge of honor won in a major war. And…. since it was my daughter having guests in the evening, I let her do the vacuuming while I had a 15 minute nap.
I wonder if I’ll be able to hold my “Mr. Hyde” persona at bay or will another unsuspecting person fall victim to my madness? Time…. will…. tell….
(Qualifier - I wrote this little tidbit a few years ago. I enjoy injecting a bit of humor into each day and thought some of you may also enjoy this. It's always good to laugh at yourself and I want this journey to better health to be fun and not full of "Oh woe is me." In actuality, I've not had chips for months. I don't even crave them anymore. I've lost a fair bit of weight, for which I am thankful. I wish each of you a really good laugh today. Hugs to all.)
Saturday, April 24, 2010
I am a people watcher by nature so it isn't anything new that when I'm sitting in a parking lot, waiting, that is what I do.
The other day I had to pick my daughter up from work. I always like to go a little early so that I can simply enjoy some peace and quiet, as well as some alone time. My dd works for a fairly large financial company who employ a large number of people filling a four storey building. They work in shifts starting at 8:00am and going until 8:00 pm, staggering every half hour. In other words some will work 8-4, the next shift 8:30-4:30, the next 9-5 and so forth. This particular day dd was getting off at 4:30 and I was there early enough to see those leaving after getting off at 4:00. The majority of employees are women although there are a number of men as well.
As I watched these woman come out from their jobs I noticed something very visibly evident. Many of these women are overweight and some are very overweight. I noticed that the overweight women looked extremely tired, were dragging their feet, some were limping, they were all moving very slow and I wondered if some would make it to their cars. Not one had a smile on her face. Then I noticed the slender women. They were all smiling, one was singing, they had a bounce to their step and all looked like they had energy to spare and were moving very quickly.
I feel like the tired, overweight women all the time. It really brought it home to me that this extra weight really is "weighing" me down. It is hard to feel excited about life when you have a hard time moving. I get it. I understand how these women were feeling. I understand how hard it is to drag this weight around day after day. However, I want to feel like those slender women and I know that with each pound lost I am one step closer to that goal.
Oh, how I would love to tell all these women what I have found in SP and that SP is there for them, too. Maybe one of these days, I'll get the nerve. :) Maybe I can start with a couple that dd knows.
Next time you are out and about, take notice. You'll be motivated to stick to your "get healthy" program. I'm certain of it.
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