Wednesday, May 08, 2013
As this was too long to put in a status, I alas have made a small blog.
Sparkfriends it will be awhile until we chat again - I have just finished with school and in preparation for the Peace Corps, I am cutting my electronics for the last bit of time. This is more of a thank you, though! I love spark, and I am going to miss all of you! When I return, I will be back! Promise. And who knows, I hear Peace Corps is one of the best weight loss plans out there I guess you will have to wait and see!
See you all later!
Wednesday, May 01, 2013
I took a spark quiz to assess my body image, how I view myself. Well before I even started the quiz I knew it wasn't looking good. And in the end, it didn't look good.
I didn't need spark to tell me I had poor body image, but it was a nice reminder because I often think that it is "normal" for girls to, that "everyone" does, so it is "okay" if I do. I think, you don't have "that" bad of a body image. Well, wrong. WRONG WRONG WRONG.
As I answered each question, knowing it was the wrong answer but how I truly felt, I felt more sad than angry. How limiting is this poor image? It denies me life, it denies me fun. I think I cannot enjoy things, I am self conscious of outfits. Why?
How do you improve your body image?
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Yes. That is me.
I go completely against what almost everyone hears about dieting. Rule 1: Do NOT go all or nothing. Everything in moderation. 3 steps forward, one step back. 80/20. You get my point?
I am an All-or-Nothing girl. I always wanted to be able to eat one chocolate chip cookie at a party and feel happy and satisfied and move on. But no. Here is my situation at that party. Option A. No cookie, drink water. Option B. Eat a cookie, but while eating it think, this is not worth it. I'd rather have stopped after my salmon salad. But I don't want people to judge me for "being on a diet" or option C. Eat the cookie, then another, maybe grab one walking out the door..then go home and have some ice cream, and hell let's just take tonight off and start tomorrow.
Do you see my point? I am so all or nothing. So when I am all good, I. feel. awesome. Because I dramatically see results, the bloating is gone, I basically stick to my protein shakes, eggs, and salad. All water weight drops in a couple days, I kill my workouts. I feel tight and healthy so I want to wear form fitting clothes and go out and do things and have people see me! That is why low carb works for me. It keeps me away from sugar, and I do NOT do well with sugar. And low carb keeps me satisfied. I am full. I need fat, it makes my hair shine, my nails strong - eat fat to lose fat. Also low carb keeps me eating clean. Veggies, fruits, meats - one ingredient foods. Once you start hitting the carbs, the breads, the cereals, the snack bars, you are eating more processed and less natural.
When I am all bad, its the exact opposite of all good. My body has been so used to protein shakes then i hit it with pancakes and butter, pizza, granola, ice cream, and it goes whack. My head hurts, I am bloated and cranky and sweating. I wear yoga pants and giant sweatshirts, even if its warm, because instead of feeling confident and tight I feel self conscious and bloated. I skip my workouts cause my body feels too icky. It's a bad feeling.
Anywho, I've just come off about 3 days of that "all bad" carb binging overload. And each night I did the "start back with induction tomorrow." Yet we all know the more we let it go, the harder it is to break a bad eating cycle. SO I really got a battle set up for myself tomorrow when I try to go for my protein green smoothie over the honey bunches of oats.
I have been stressed lately because I graduate in 1 month. I am done with my college life in 1 month. Then in 2 months, I leave for the Peace Corps for 27 months. So I am trying to balance enjoying life with being healthy. Because after all the "yea..go on..eat the pizza.. and have some frozen yogurt too...you won't be getting any of that in 2 months" comes the "i feel nasty, i don't feel confident in this sundress... i feel bloated..im not going to the pool party..." Trust me, Id much rather leave the country looking pretty and healthy..even if I wont get oreos in Peace Corps...then bloated, cranky, and breaking out..
So here I sit, cleansing my brain (thanks to this blog and you all) and planning my cleanse of the body tomorrow. It may seem harsh, too all or nothing, but I need to get back to feeling good and confident. So atkins induction tomorrow. And I need a way to motivate myself to make it through the first 14 days. If anyone has an idea, please share. I am currently planning my breakfast lunch and dinner, to be the same each day.
Friday, April 05, 2013
An early morning blog. Yes. I will be leaving this afternoon for a weekend retreat, and I think it came at the perfect time. I am looking forward to the break from my computer, cell phone, and looking forward to my walks, my me-time, group reflections, and coming back to what is important.
Started off the day with another green smoothie, I swear my skin looks better already - maybe its placebo. Then currently have a TON of asparagus cooking in the oven because I forgot I had them and needed to make them before I left for the retreat. So yup, 9:30 am and the hosue smells like asparagus - my roommates must love me. Anywho, making a HUGE salad with them, carrots, lettuce, cucumbers, sugar snap peas, and celery - and looking forward to bringing it with me for lunch. Will hit the gym after class, shower on campus, then head to the retreat!
Wish me luck, see you all Sunday evening. Enjoy your weekends
Thursday, April 04, 2013
Feeling better today. I had had a rough week of sugar, sugar, sugar...then some sugar. I hadn't been to the gym, I was tired, cranky, and bloated.
Well just one night and I am feeling better. I had a good workout yesterday, followed by a green smoothie (that's my new diet trick) and some nuts. Had another green smoothie for breakfast, and already feeling a little better. I have been going through a liter of my homeade ginger/peppermint tea each day, some internal spring cleaning. I just finished a solid workout followed by and impromptu yoga class (awesome). I am now sitting, looking up some clean recipes and browsing motivational pages and pictures - I love doing that, very inspiring.
This nice weather has me thinking of all the cute spring clothes I want to wear soon - dresses, tank tops...bikinis. Lot more skin showing, so I want mine to GLOW (cue in green smoothie). Revamped my page, my diet, my mind, my workout. Here we gooooo!
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