Wednesday, January 07, 2009
OH!!! What a feeling! My family spent the holiday down south with my mom, so that is why I have been absent for a while. I am back and determined to do this thing!!
To be honest I dreaded stepping on the scale when I got home I just knew I had put on at least 3 or more pounds. I was very good for the first part of the vacation watching what I ate and not over indulging but not denying my self either. Hubby and I went to the gym once while we were there, but I did get a daily walk in every morning while walking the dog. I walked sometimes around the park in the evening as well. But I waited and then finally I said to myself okay stop putting off the weigh in..kiddo..own it and so I did..gasp...WHAT!!!! I DID WHAT... TO MY AMAZEMENT I ACTUALLY LOST .8 POUNDS. Yeah okay cool!!!
I also had a bit of an eye opener while I was on vacation see I stopped to spend a day with my best friend she had the stomach bypass surgery done on 12/23. She has battled with weight all her life and she had stomach stapling done some 20+ years ago but it didnt hold cause she ate and drank her self fat again! So she decided after years of the battle it was time for her to do this she had been doing classes for like 6 months to prepare herself. When we stopped for the weekend (on our way home) she was 1 1/2 weeks after the procedure. Let me tell you this I give her credit cause I know her battle but I would never want to do this only like her as a last resort. People think this thing is a quick easy solution..It isnt. I watched her struggle to drink protine shakes and eat soup for the first time. I watched her go "emotional" after her son didnt do something she thought she should. She gave up smoking to have this surgery done..and on top of that she doesnt have the clutch of eating when her emotions are getting the best of her...She is like "girl what am I to do?" I watched and thought wow for those of us struggling with our weight we need to look at what our triggers are..there is a root to this problem. Food is our drug of choice and just like any addict you must go to the root in order to conquer your addiction. So that is my journey as of right now to get to the root of my addiction why do I chose food as my drug of choice? What do I fear or what do I lack that makes me turn to food? I dont see myself as an emotional eater I see myself more as a person who made poor choices, but why do I make poor choices? I will be honest I not only make poor food choices I have made some pretty bad life choices as well.... so why do I do this? My thought to ponder as I continue this journey of weight loss