This has been a difficult summer for my family. Two hospitalizations, my daughter returning home from her summer apartment, and my boyfriend out of work due to a severe leg infection has made me lose focus of what I should be doing. The one positive is that I am forced to walk the dog and get at least an hour of walking in everyday. My daughter just returned to college (her junior year) but my boyfriend will be out of work, on IV antibiotics and enduring physical therapy (he is still unable to walk without crutches). I have been the main caregiver and I am exhausted.
I know that this is a short term situation, that soon things will be back to normal... he will be off of these stupid antibiotics (that are saving his life) he will walk again and go back to work and my life will continue as usual. I thank God that things worked out for us because he could have died from this infection and a lot of people have things that are much worse to deal with in their lives.
I still cannot focus on myself... as I feel guilty and even though I know I should take time for myself I rarely do. I am just counting the days until this situation comes to a close and life goes on...
Exercise makes me really excited about life!!! Today I met with one of the Trainers at the gym for an orientation. ( I have belonged to the gym for forever, have paid for it every month and have only gone sporadically). He kicked my butt. Today was part I, cardio. I actually loved it... He pushed me so hard on the elliptical machine (it wasn't actually the elliptical but something like one) and I had fun... Then we went to the treadmill which was boring and onto the recumbent bike which I thought would be easy but was really difficult. I did 15 minutes on each machine and there were times I thought I couldn't do it anymore but I did it!!! I finished with some stretching!!!
I made an appointment for Part II, weights for June 1st... Since Monday is a holiday it crowded his schedule for Tuesday. So I need to wait for Wednesday. He is having me warm up on the elliptical before heading downstairs to the weight room for some more fun!!! I am really looking forward to this!!!
My meal plan is coming along pretty well... I have become addicted to whey protein shakes... I read an article that you can add cooked oatmeal to them with almond milk ( i don't drink milk) and fruit ( I use blackberries) and I also add colon cleanse... I am going to try the oatmeal tonight, but if anyone has tried it with the oatmeal please let me know... don't forget the ice cubes to really make it a smoothie... other ideas are peanut butter, frozen bananas, low fat yogurt and any flavor whey protein mix. (i buy it at Wal Mart for less than 15 dollars for a month's worth)
I believe that since I am doing all of the right things... I have begun to believe in myself and have been "Loving Life" and really feel that I can reach the goal that my doctor has set for me... Exercise four days in a row really has helped my attitude and getting rid of the toxins in my body by eating healthy really makes me believe that I am on the right road to my goal!!!
So now I will continue to exercise, eat right and keep a positive attitude as I work toward my goal!!!
I am so excited about my exercise this Monday and Tuesday. First off Monday... I went for a walk around a park called "Lincoln Woods". It is 2 1/2 miles long, very hilly and you are surrounded by nature. I did this same walk last week in one hour but yesterday I completed the walk in 50 minutes. I was so excited that I wanted to do the round again... but common sense prevailed. I wouldn't have wanted to overdo it!!!
Tuesday (today) I had planned a 15 minute walk with my friend. At the last minute she wasn't feeling well... so instead of using that as an excuse to go enjoy the sunny day and read outside... I decided to walk what is known in Providence as the "BLVD". It is 3.2 miles long (an actual 5K) I got out of my car, put on my headphones and began walking. Once again I got into the walk. Before you knew it I was finished. In 1hour 10 minutes. I am not sure what kind of time that it... other than slow... but I managed to walk that length of time without stopping.
Tomorrow is my yoga day... Beginners Class but it is 90 minutes long... I am on my way to a terrific week.
I have been drinking my smoothies every morning... I have cut out sweets and don't eat after dinner. I need to learn to eat 6 meals though which I find very difficult.
But being so high on life today is a motivating factor that I know will help me move on!!!
Okay I started in August in the 160's and began doing well... It is now May, 2011 and I should be at my goal weight!!! Instead I gained enough weight to put me into my high 180's... I never posted when I was in my 190's because I was too embarrassed. I had blood work done which included cholesterol and triglycerides and they were extremely high. I go to my doctor tomorrow and she is going to be extremely upset with my weight (i was 140 last May) and even more upset about my blood work. In the past 3 weeks I have been walking and exercising on an almost daily basis. I have been going to yoga since the end of March. Today I went to the gym (which I pay for and don't go to) and set up an appointment for Thursday at 1pm to learn how to use the machines and free weights. I did use the treadmill while I was there. I make sure that I accompany my BF when he walks the dog every night. I drink my water which has not been a problem. I posted the before pictures on my page so that I can look at them and use them as motivation. I have decided to use my spirituality as a tool in my weight loss system. I need to use every tool that I can find... without getting overwhelmed!!! What I really need is a training partner.... someone who I can email and we can compare our notes for the day. I have a friend who is following Spark People but we haven't had the time for exercising together yet and I need to start yesterday!!! This excess weight is affecting my entire life. I could do 100 sit ups one year ago and now I cannot do one. I can still do crunches but no sit ups. I can't do a push up and i don't even know how to get to the point of doing a "female" one. I am not strong enough to take my dog for a walk alone. I have been making smoothies for breakfast with fruit, colon cleanse, and vanilla whey protein mix and almond milk. I love the taste, it fills me up and keeps me going. I am just looking for some help!!!
I am motivated and want to begin to add exercise to my program... I left my workout clothes at home and don't know if I am motivated enough to go home and leave again to go to the gym. I think that even though I have my boots on I may take a walk for 10 or 15 minutes just to say that I have done something. If that doesn't come to fruition I can always put in a video (I have many that I have never used) and do something for 30 minutes or so!!!
I wish I had an exercise buddy to motivate me... One that would come to the gym with me... I guess if I went to the gym once in a while ( I belong to the YMCA and Planet Fitness) I could meet someone!!!
I need to make a promise to myself to put my gym bag in my car and use it!!! I know that I can do it!!!
Monday is November 1st which is a good day to begin!!!