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Arguing with the voices in my head

Saturday, February 13, 2010

So I have realized that when it comes to changing my eating habits and living a healthier lifestyle I am my own worst enemy. All day long I am contending with conflicting voices in my head. I hear, "I can do this" "This isn't so bad" "Wow, I can eat healthy and still keep calories down" but then out of no where I hear "Why am I bothering" "Not like I have to answer to anyway, just eat what you want" "Do I really want to be a slave to a calorie counter?

I just have to make up my mind to be stronger than myself to avoid such self defeating thoughts. I have to remember to daily, or several times a day, to look at my goals and the reasons why I am doing this in the first place. As I move along this journey I know the negative voices will become quieter and hopefully disappear for good.

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LADY_GR8CE2U2 2/15/2010 8:06AM

    WOW!!! I'm just reading your blog and I would have to say that you are defintely on the right course. The true battle is always in the mind. Once we conquer the crazy thoughts that have held us captive for so long....we then see the results we have been praying for.

Keep up the good are doing great!


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DANSAPPHI 2/13/2010 10:12PM

    Good for you! I can empathize, I am so much more aware of what I can't have right now, and the voices in my head sound a lot like yours. Keep going, you're off to a great start.

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New Goal Set

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

So some of my goals is to have a healthier diet, drink more water and lose my first 10 pounds....ok no big deal, these common goals for weight loss. But today I thought of a goal that would seem like a no-brainer but did not occur to me until this afternoon.

Today I went to the grocery store since I realized I need to stock up on some healthier food options in my house. Who was there but my ex-EVIL mother-in-law (she was my husbands step mother, now his father is deceased so she no longer she's us). She didn't see me and I avoided her, not because I didn't want to talk to her but because I didn't feel good about how I looked. I have gained weight since we last saw her, not to mention I was dressed pretty frumpy with no makeup.

It then occurred to me that this was not the first time I had felt embarrassed running into someone. So right there I set a goal for myself that I want to have confidence in my appearance. I don't want to feel self conscience about myself.

I know that this is a goal that will come as I move a long this journey and meet my other goals....but it's a goal all the same.

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    Yes, it's important to feel good about how we look. I've always struggles with body image problems even tho I haven't really been much overweight since I was 11. I live in a small town and never go into town shopping or anything without some make-up and at least my" going to town" jeans.. pam

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Where did the motivation go?

Tuesday, February 09, 2010

I signed up on SP Saturday and was super motivated to get started. Yesterday was my official day one and the day went great. Ate right, had 5 cups of water, bought The Spark and started reading it and even went to the gym and worked out.

Today I feels like all motivation is gone, I did make sure to eat right and work towards my 8 cups of water.....but any physical activity, no way.

Tomorrow is another day and hoping the motivation is back after my day of lazy rest.

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JOYSNEWDAY 2/9/2010 10:47PM

  WOW you must think your superwomen if you think you can repeat that day 1 every day! ! Be kind to yourself and praise yourself for every positive thing you do each day-even if you can't do all the healthy things everyday.
Wishing you the best!

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    Yes, feelings will come and go, but try to keep to your commitments. This site has really helped me become more consistent in my exercise and water drinking. If I'm feeling less than 100% I cut back on the exercise but at least do some. Keep on keeping on and good luck.. Pam

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LADY_GR8CE2U2 2/9/2010 8:44PM

    Okay...there must be something up with today...I felt the same way...The day is not over though. I'm about to work out with a video ON DEMAND...will you join me??


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Starting Out

Sunday, February 07, 2010

I'm not usually one for blogging but I'm gonna give this a try. I think if I have a forum to communicate what I'm feeling and going through it may help me to stay motivated.

Right now I'm gearing myself up to get started on my new journey. I know it won't be easy and I'm not looking at this as a easy way out. I have to commit myself to hard work and determination. Hopefully I can find some Sparkbuddies that I can regularly communicate with...I think talking with other people who are on the same journey as myself will help keep the motivation to keep going.

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KO1215 2/7/2010 2:20PM

    Welcome to SP! You are going to love it hear. Try and soak up as much knowledge as you's very helpful!


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SUGARBABY60 2/7/2010 3:56AM

    You are absolutely on track. the expression of your feelings on this journey is very important the more you talk the more you will get answers back. congratulations on your decision to start this journey. You will do just fine and there are loads of spark friends out there who are just waiting to encourage you along . and suddenly you will find yourself encouraging others too it is a win win situation. It is how we keep the Spark going! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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VIVACARO 2/7/2010 3:11AM

    I am the same way. I am not much of a blogger either but i think this space gives us an opportunity to express and open up. I just joined a few days ago and I really want to become an active member and having friends is definetly going to give me that boost =). Good luck!!!! emoticon

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