I just cant seem to be consistant

Friday, June 15, 2012

I dont know why I keep doing this to myself. I just keep causing myself to fail. Since the last time I weighed in I have gained 4 pounds. Not a huge amount but I can sure feel it. Plus I have been eating so badly that my body feels bad.. bloated, heavy... just bad.

Today I have decided to put on my HRM for the entire day to see just how many calories I am burning a day. My idea was to wear it everyday to see if I can work on burn more calories each day.

I just cannot stand the way I feel, Then my next thought goes to my stomach. I have had two children, both cesarean and I just dont see myself losing this flap of a pouch without having it cut off. But dont want to even think about doing that until i get and can stay at my goal weight.

So here I am, yet again taking baby steps to get myself back into taking better care of myself. I just HAVE TO DO THIS!

  

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KSCARLE71 6/19/2012 7:07PM

I think your very smart to avoid surgery and yes any gain can fel like alot when you work hard to lose. Please keep up the work and know it will happen. I have had four children and my daughter (one of them) has been pregnant six times. Two are living, two has had to be surgically removed because they died in the womb. One caused part of her tube on one side to be removed and one is buried over in Carollina near her mother in laws house. You can do it. I also think you should get more active on the treadmill site. I really like the treadmill but noticed it wasn't very active. Report Inappropriate Comment

SBLACKWELL93 6/15/2012 7:32PM

Alot of time when we do this we need to take a step back and evaluate our feelings and what processes go on that make us fall. Mine is family stress. I have been heavy for 18 years and it is hell to lose it. I can get to the 270's and then i go back up. something always happens. But we just got to keep fighting. If we have to keep re evaluating and starting over than we need to. I have had baby with a c section too. Needless to say when i lose weight it looks like i got a but on the front of my body. That is what is hurting you there is your negativity towards your stomach and what the c sections have done to your body. Don't think about what it has done but what you can do for yourself and when the time comes then worry about the surgery to remove it. In the mean time just re build your muscles the best you can. Report Inappropriate Comment

WILSON1926 6/15/2012 5:09AM

JUST KEEP TRYING UNTIL IT BECOMES A HABIT, USUALLY ABOUT 21 DAYS IN A ROW GOOD LUCK MICHAEL Report Inappropriate Comment

Pound a week Challenge ( day 1 week 1 )

Monday, April 30, 2012

I am having a big problem being consistant! In January I had decided to dedicate a year to myself and I FEEL as though I have flupped it all up. But in reality I havent and dont need to look at it that way. I know I just need to pick myself back up and get going again.

I am going to work on losing 1 pound a week, My current weight is 188.4, if I can get myself to be consistant then I should be able to get to my goal a year from now. To sit here and thing that a year should surely be easy to do, I know that it wont! I know that is where I have to work on being consistant.

188 - 52 = 136.... that would make me so happy!
April 30, 2012


So this is Day 1 of Week 1 and I will blog weekly but keep a daily Journal, Unless something comes up that I feel I need to blog about.

I can use all the encouragement I can get!!! Please feel free to follow my journey and comment,,, all comments welcome, believe me!

  

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RHILL4455 4/30/2012 9:12AM

Good Luck!! I know you can do it!! I will be here cheering you on. Report Inappropriate Comment

KENTUCKYGIRL01 4/30/2012 7:48AM

!!!! Good luck on your journey !!! Report Inappropriate Comment

Have to Recommit Myself

Saturday, April 07, 2012

I have not blogged in a while because I have not been consistant in things lately,,, I even keep a count down journal that I have not been consistant in. Even my gym days have not been consistant... I need to get myself back to that habit!

i am not exactly sure what has caused this, I think I got myself to a point where I was craving carbs and I gave in. I also have not been getting my water in.

I have been drinking water more today, I think over the last few days i was lucky to get 2-3 cups of water in,, thats bad,, i know!

I dont feel like quitting or giving up, I just got to recommit myself. I want to live life and enjoy it, not denying myself things but learn to stop when I have to.

  

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RHILL4455 4/8/2012 8:23PM

Me too!! Me Too!! Lets both recommit. I plan on getting back on the TM tomorrow even if its just 30 minutes of walking. I NEED to do it!! We can do this!!! We gotta take it at a time!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

LAURA40S 4/7/2012 10:15AM

HI SUEKKY, Life is all about handling ups and downs. I loose my spark sometimes for an hour, sometimes for half a year, but I know I want to do more than just sit and WISH to be healthier, leaner, and more fit so the spark rekindles and I take off again :) It's what we do. My hope is that by sharing these down times we can get the encouragement we need to make them not last too long and by sharing our up times we can help someone's spark stay bright!! It's why I LOVE this site!! Thank you for sharing about your journey. I know I have to remember its progress, not perfection :) Report Inappropriate Comment

Making Some Progress

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

It was not my weigh in day but got on the scale anyway because I had not had a good week, wanted to remind myself what I was doing. To my surprise my weight was down from 187.4 to 186.0 this morning. Also I am able to wear a pair of my favorite jeans that I have not been able to get into. Granted they are a little snug but they are closed and I am able to sit down.


Me March 28, 2012 186 pounds

  

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WTLW154 3/28/2012 4:37PM

i got ur message thats really good! hey i got a ? idk if u know the answer i started that intermediate walk /run 5k an for the days im suppose to do crosstraining i was wondering if at what speed i should go i decided to walk for crosstraining. Comment edited on: 3/28/2012 4:38:43 PM Report Inappropriate Comment

TASNIM81 3/28/2012 3:50PM

Congrats! Great progress. Report Inappropriate Comment

RHILL4455 3/28/2012 7:58AM

Yay!!! Great job Susan!! Keep it up!! Keep trusting the process!! Report Inappropriate Comment

RIDLEYRIDER 3/28/2012 7:06AM

Great job!! Sounds like you are doing all the right things! Report Inappropriate Comment

Drive is back but held back by TOM

Thursday, March 22, 2012

As expected TOM arrived FINALLY! The week before is always so hard for me. The week during is not so bad just the idea of over flow bothers me. I am actually happy that it came today because dont have to worry about it so much at the gym (because i wont be there). I dont go on Friday Saturday and Sunday, so there are 3 days no worries... I did not go today because, well to be honest I wanted to use the morning to try to find some running shoes for outside, I know what I want its just finding them at the right price. I went to the Nike store ( I love Nikes) and found a pair but just not ready to pay 111.oo euro for them.

I also did not go because I really do have alot of house cleaning that I need to do! So much dusting to do and laundry,,,also need to get ready to put winter clothes away and get out summer.

Yesturday I did go to the gym and had a good workout, my drive was back, I felt so much better! I still have the drive now but THE FLOW for now is keeping me at attention. ( sounds funny but I think you all understand!)