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Thursday, March 08, 2012

I used to be a Hells Angel in a former life!I was a force to be reckoned with.My parents divorce,being left to care for Dad at age 12,shortly after that being LEFT ALONE to fend for myself was not a picnic.I had to get mean,angry,and puff myself up to let people know I was a fighter.I walked around with a meanie face 95% of the time...Time and LOVE mellowed me out but not alot.My children knew to tiptoe around me when the MOOD was in me!I met and came to know my phillipino friend Faustina at a gas station.I think God was leading her to me but,I overheard her asking about our Thrift Shop.I turned to her and said come and follow me and she did.She loved it so much that she volunteered to help us.She really did pull me out of my shell and laughter became a daily thing with us.She truly gave me love and acceptance.My kids laughed at me when I said she had magical powers.I said you will love her right away!They did and for 9 whole and satisfying years she loved us like family and never let us forget the depth of her love.We returned it 100%!One scary day she came to help and was not laughing or talking and I knew she was ill.She went to the doctor at lunch and came back with the ugliest words I'd ever heard...COLON CANCER....CHEMO....TERMINAL....TESTS!I cried and held her tight....We'll fight it,we'll get another opinion,we wont give up!She took my face in her hands and kissed my forehead and said...Promise me that you will always find a way to LOVE back and you will think of me when it gets too much!!For days after I walked around in a fog and didnt visit her.I wanted to be there for her with a smile and support her and it was so hard.She had eaten so healthy and was always chasing me with an orange or wheat grass shake.Now she was dying and what could I do?She asked for some donuts!So,her DH said yeah,bring her some!I did and she ate them..all 6 of them!!Thats all she wanted was sweets for a while.Her attitude remained strong and determined and one day hospice called us to her side and with a room full of loved ones beside her she left us.One year to the day after being diagnosed.I was so angry at first,then I looked at her peaceful face and love exploded in me like a firework display.I walked over and kissed her forehead and whispered I PROMISE.
Today is her birthday and she would have been 81.
ATTITUDE is our choice in this world...we can choose how we react to a negative or a positive.Anytime you feel yourself losing control,
Think...Is this how I choose to feel?
Would I rather be smiling and happy?
Or angry,upset,yelling,screaming,cursing and crying?
More energy goes into being upset
and besides happy feels so good!
Tina will always dwell in my heart
because of her I am positive
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CANNIE50 3/8/2012 11:54PM

    What a beautiful tribute to your friend. Thank you for sharing this story. I have often noticed how much difference my attitude makes when I can have the exact same circumstances yet one day I handle it gracefully, and the next I can be a stressed-out whiner. There are so many reminders to help us adjust our attitudes, if we are willing to look. Thank you again, for posting this blog.

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ITS_MY_TURN_NOW 3/8/2012 11:32PM

    Thank you for sharing this blog.
"ATTITUDE is our choice ..."
I need to be reminded sometimes.

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SERAPHGYRL 3/8/2012 1:38PM

    Wow... You certainly said a lot today. Thank you...

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CIRANDELLA 3/8/2012 12:16PM

    Boy, oh, boy, Susan... much food for thought.

I've often heard it said "Attitude is altitude..." emoticon

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Loving and losing a friend

Wednesday, March 07, 2012

My favorite pasttime when Im not with my family is my nursing home family.It never gets any easier to see them pass away.Many of them become extremely close to me.I cry alot but for my sanity have gotten better at remembering their kindness,caring,humor and loving ways.Berniece was only 50 when she started showing signs of alzheimers.A striking Irish lass with red hair,bright green eyes,freckles and a bonnie attitude.She kept losing her car and forgot to get off the bus numerous times.She kept calling her dead dog to come eat and didnt recognize her husband.She never forgot me or Allen(an aide)or Janet her daughter.She called me CHICKIE and kissed me daily.Today she lost her battle and left some very sad friends behind.Her DH came and brought us some food and desserts since we stayed with her through the day.My Daddy died of alzheimers too.I can relate when yall talk about the disease...Have a great night and be sure to hug someone you love in bernies honor emoticonSUSAN

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SERAPHGYRL 3/8/2012 1:46PM

    I'm sorry you've lost a dear friend. My daughter does home care and has lost many of the people she has cared for and come to love. I don't know how you do it. It is gift and I'm in awe of people who have it.

You're an amazing woman and very beautiful. I feel so blessed to have you as a friend even though we've never met. Your blogs are thought provoking and often make me smile. You help me remember to be grateful for everything I have in my life. Thank you.

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REBECCAMA 3/8/2012 12:22PM

  Sorry for your loss. My grandmother's both died in nursing homes. The staff at both places are/were complete angels. Thank you for the work you do!

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SUECHRIS50 3/8/2012 11:13AM

    Funny was not the word,she was hilarious.Even in death she had me laughing and crying....Thanks for your sweet comment LindseyJ!

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LINDSEYJ 3/8/2012 10:36AM

    I'm so sorry you are saying goodbye today. I have a friend who was diagnosed with Early Onset Alzheimer's last year. I'll love on his family in remembrance of Bernie today.

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ARCHIMEDESII 3/8/2012 10:23AM


Sue, I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your friend. She sounds like a very sweet lady. I'll bet she was funny too.


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Today I changed my first tire!

Tuesday, March 06, 2012

I stepped outside into the sunny morning,full of piss and grits(my grammy always said that)Ready to start my day..I was meeting a friend for coffee,shopping and lunch afterward..That WAS the plan until I looked down to see my tire as flat as a pancake...The woman in me wanted to call my DH and have him run to my rescue but,I DID IT MYSELF!!!After some quick thinking and cheering from my DD the donut was safely in place!I took it to have new tires put on...My DH is still recovering from the fact I did it...LOL...I then looked at the sticker for inspection and it expired in January!!So two hours later I was rolling down the road...YAY ME...No more may-pops or police stopping me FEARS!!It's mY DH'S car that I rarely drive but it's gotten older so he took my car until he buys a new car!I havent gotten a chance to do any exercise and Im tired but ready to push myself some more.... emoticon emoticonSUSAN

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ARCHIMEDESII 3/7/2012 9:38AM

    GURL POWER !!! Great job ! Changing a tire isn't easy.

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SUECHRIS50 3/6/2012 9:53PM

    Trust me ya'll! If you dont have one of the lug nut removers shaped like an X, get one,it was so much easier than the one that came with the car!!

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    Way to go!

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CIRANDELLA 3/6/2012 6:02PM

    Atta girl, Susan! That's a real milestone - a real accomplishment - for us! And it's one I haven't managed yet :) So you've got my complete admiration!

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SUE5007 3/6/2012 5:40PM

    Changing a tire is a workout! Nice job!

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MAYBER 3/6/2012 5:19PM

    Thanks for sharing you accomplishments
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Grateful for all I have!

Monday, March 05, 2012

Growing up we could,as a family of 7,fit all we had in 3 boxes!Me my dh&dd live about 8 minutes from FT,HOOD.On any given day you can drive into neighborhoods and see perfectly good furniture and boxes of clothes for the trash truck!!They are moving out and didnt make arrangements for Salvation Army,Goodwill or the Shelter.They often throw away pets too!My DH and I were driving around one day and found a mint condition washer and dryer on the street along with a beautiful carpet,8 person dining set&buffet,patio set and bar,Curtains of all sizes,dishes,pans and a pool table.We found a lazy boy recliner yesterday and a new mattress set for our grandson/The plastic was still on it!!!Trees still in the containers from Lowes and a weight set that was new!Of course alot of people are too shy to ask but we always make sure before we take anything!If only they wanted to throw out a car!!LOL mine is about to be in the junk yard.The car lots want as much for some used cars as the new ones!!!Anyway I see a practically new dresser down the street and I've got my handy dolly ready to go and get it....JUNKING is what the Germans call it! emoticonSUSAN

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FRANCESCANAZ 3/6/2012 8:10PM

    I am the queen of recycling and have been into saving good stuff for many years. I believe growing up like you did, with so little makes us appreciate the usefulness of things others maight consider trash. Keep up the good work!

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CIRANDELLA 3/6/2012 7:58AM

    Well done, Susan! Lots of work there, but you did it - bravo!

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SUECHRIS50 3/5/2012 5:10PM

    I havent met one person that wasnt happy to see us haul away the items!

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BARBAELLEN 3/5/2012 4:43PM

    SCORE!! I guess in your area you would have alot of people moving without much notice. Around here, I have NEVER seen one thing like that out with anybody's trash. The trick around here is to put out furniture at the end of the driveway with a big sign that says "Free". In a college community, it's gone in the blink of an eye.

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FUNKYG1 3/5/2012 11:50AM


Wow what a great way to furnish a house. Are the people throwing it away always gracious to you and say you can have it?
This is also a great way to keep these items out of the land fill. Good going.


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Pregnant at 50 update

Sunday, March 04, 2012

I recently blogged about my friend Jenna. Pregnant and being unable to decide the fate of her unborn child due to her age.Well,they decided to keep the baby and sadly lost it the very next day.She thinks that God is punishing her for not knowing what to do!I told her that she wasnt being punished.She is ok but very sad...Good news though...She is about to be a Grammy in September and she already began a neutral baby quilt...he taketh,he giveth!We are walking together tomorrow to get her in shape for chasing a baby around... emoticonSUSAN

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SUECHRIS50 3/4/2012 9:21PM

    All of you gave me some wonderful answers and I had her to read them.She was crying and hugging me and for the first time laughing and smiling in a long time.I love my sparkies!!!You all ROCK!!!

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RETIREDMAMA3 3/4/2012 7:59PM

    Just tell your friend that:
When God takes something from our grasp, he is not punishing us, but merely opening our hands to receive something better.

Tell her to enjoy that little bundle of joy which is to soon call her "Grammy".

And you are a super friend to worry so much about her. She is lucky to have a friend like you.

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TXGRANDMA 3/4/2012 6:47PM

    She should not worry about that. God has nothing to punish her FOR! She didn't end the pregnancy, God ended it. It is nature's way of getting rid of something that maybe wasn't quite right. Tell her not to worry.....
I lost a baby once, too, at 3 months along, which is the normal time to lose it......
So glad that she is going to be a Granny! She will be thrilled with that baby! emoticon

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FOXFIRENDTS 3/4/2012 6:07PM

    God does not punish, and he never gives us more then we can handle. It is always sad to loose a child, I lost 5 myself, perhaps God has other plans for you friend. God Bless.

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MARTHASPARKS 3/4/2012 5:56PM

    God doesn't punish us for making hard decisions or having difficulty doing that. Please help her understand that a miscarriage is God's way of making sure that not viable children aren't carried to term and then lost.

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SERAPHGYRL 3/4/2012 5:50PM

    I sure don't know if I would tell her this but, what if God gave them a decision to make, knowing how difficult it would be? They, unselfishly, made the decision to take on whatever the Lord planned. Perhaps He knew she and her husband weren't really able to handle a new baby of their own, at this time in their lives, but wanted them to learn what they would do? I'm certainly not God and I haven't got the answers. I would remind her that their little baby is back with God and is happy and perfect in every way up there. Congratulations on them getting be grandparents soon. I'm certain she will be an excellent Grammy!

She is so fortunate to have you as a friend. Enjoy your walk together.

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