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Monday, November 14, 2011

I dont need to name any names.You know who you are!I could not do this without your kind words.At times the swift kick in the ass!I feel like I can lift the world,walk 100 miles and fly...the butterfly will come out soon!I love you all and appreciate you more than words can say emoticonSUSAN

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SHASSYSUE2 11/22/2011 11:37PM

    You are just so easy to love!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SNOWANGELDIVA 11/14/2011 5:25PM

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LIVINGFREE19 11/14/2011 4:19PM

    You are so right!
Funny, I just posted a blog about a half hour ago about the same thing! It is great that everybody is being inspired by their spark friends! Friendship is great! emoticon emoticon

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Sometimes i'm afraid of success

Sunday, November 13, 2011

I dont care if that sounds crazy.I think being overweight is COMFORT.There isnt any measuring or weighing food,I eat all I want to eat,drink anything,dont sweat,dont care.Whats wrong with me?I think im afraid that if im goal weight,people i've known for years will quit being my friend.I have lost 5 already because their lives revolve around food and mine does not!They are happy for me then,gradually make excuses not to come around... emoticonMaybe im at the bottom of the roller coaster ride,getting ready to step out...the fun is over...I need a drill seargent like on the cough drop commercial...Im my own best friend and worst enemy...I dont need a sabotuer,I am my sabotuer...the doc thinks its menopause DH thinks its because its dark by 6pm...seasonal depression! I get frustrated and cry alot quicker than ever.I see myself as FAILING at weight loss AGAIN.....Thanks sparkers for reading this...HELP!!! emoticonSUSAN

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FIFIFRIZZLE 11/14/2011 9:25PM

    I agree, being overweight, well, it's easy. You can do what you like.
It worked for me that's why I let myself get fat. Except... now, it isn't working for me. It's getting in the way of what I want for myself, and what I deserve.
It's hard to lose weight and it's hard to keep it off. But you and I have lived long enough to know that we can master releasing that weight for good and using different strategies to deal with life's ups and downs.
You did ask for help, so here goes...
Your friends? Well, if you want them, court them. I'm sure you can charm them back.
IF you want them. Maybe you DON'T want them around right now while you are sorting yourself out?
As for the drill sergent, I think you deserve a loving buddy to show you the way and walk along with you, not someone barking at you. Anyway, that's what I'd prefer.
Maybe, you could find new friends who will support you in your new behaviours? Might that be a new thing for you? Maybe it wouldn't be so scary? Even if it is, maybe not too scary for YOU.

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SNOWANGELDIVA 11/14/2011 5:34PM

    I'm late to your blog...I'm with you on the Seasonal Depression possibility. Just rearranged the computer area so that I'd be in a room with more light for my work today. I'm finding my resolve has fittered to ashes.
Your fear of success shouldn't go overlooked either. It's true there is lots of change when we take care of ourselves many of our friends enjoy too much of thepower of influence they had when our self confidence was in the toilet. We're usually more compliant to their demands.
It's okay to change for the better. It is not selfish. What is selfish is not be the best YOU that you can be. By holding yourself back you keep your gifts to yourself. You're holding back to pamper the weak esteems. Don't. They're just looking for an excuse to continue in their mediocrisy.
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MARTHASPARKS 11/13/2011 10:45PM

    Susan, I think that this is the reason you are here. We are your soul sisters and brothers. We are with you. We have the same doubts, fears, & there are people in our lives who want us to stay the same or worse - who want us to fail. What we are doing is hard work and that is not always fun. But what we may sacrifice in food, we gain in energy and health. You want to live a healthy, long life, enjoying your grandchildren. Also, seasonal affective disorder is quite real and can initiate bouts of depression. make sure you get as much sunlight as you can - long walks in the daylight may help. If that does not help, you may want to get a 10,000 lux light and try light therapy. If that doesn't work, go see your doctor.

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ONICAM 11/13/2011 10:04PM

    I have a number of fears and do not know how to over come them. Some of them are the fear of failing, fear of falling, fear of planning, fear of answering machines, fear of test, fear of at least others death if not mine, fear of people leaving me which happens a lot, and fear of changes. There could be others as well. It took me many years before I knew that they were fears.

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MNOT2THICK 11/13/2011 9:08PM

    I do believe we all have those demons at times. Girl you can do this. You will do this. You are worth the work to be healthier. Take a deep breath and give yourself a hug. Maybe, you need to confront them about their non-supportive ways. emoticon

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BETTERHEALTH123 11/13/2011 8:45PM

    I thought of this saying later when I was playing some word games on book site on my computer.

Regarding your current blog: I want to say: Don't go back to your cocoon, be the beautiful butterfly you were meant to be!.

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CENTURYFLOWER 11/13/2011 7:54PM

    I had a fear of losing weight, I probably also have a fear of success. I think being "big" and the years of learning to accepting myself as big was a huge part of who I thought I was. I'm giving up that role and it's kind of a big role in my life... but as said above (and it was put so well) small changes over time give you time to figure things out. My last break from Sparkpeople probably was based in this fear coming back. But right now I'm feeling so energetic and in control and when I put sparkpeople on pause then it was feeling in control and the energy that I missed most.

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BETTERHEALTH123 11/13/2011 7:44PM

    Sometimes we are afraid of our own empowerment or whatever it's called...I don't know the reason why though.

Wouldn't it be just easier to keep eating whatever you wanted most of the's sort of like slowly dying. Wouldn't it be great just to eat all the junk food and never gain any weight. I think we all fantasize that sometimes. People are afraid of changes. Those people you mentioned - were they really your friends? If food is their only happiness, I wouldn't want them as friends.

I can't stand the daylight savings time either. November and February are the months I really really hate - maybe it's the time change or the fact the nights get really dark very early.

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TRESSWANN 11/13/2011 6:57PM

    How could you possibly be failing? You are losing weight. Friends like that are not your friends. Who wouldn't want their friends to be happier and healthier. You are on a good path. It's hard but not failing. Being here is not failing

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WORKTHEGOAL 11/13/2011 6:00PM

    Oh my lovely lady, my heart has gone out to you, but success in small doses gives you the chance to adapt slowly to the changes.

As for your friends, haven't you questioned whether they are meant to be long term friends? If your weight loss or attempted weight loss is interfering with this friendship, then I think you need to ask yourself whether they were real friends. Your efforts at changing your lifestyle for a healthy one is probably scaring them into thinking about themselves and they aren't ready.................

Your fun is most definitely not over, and your social life around food can still continue, its just the style and choice you make and the people you surround yourself with that will be different!

You can and will do this, but at your own pace. Be the tortoise, slow but sure my friend and whatever you do, don't let others dictate your idea of friendship or success.

Don't give up.

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 11/13/2011 6:00PM

    Hang in there Susan. emoticon You deserve success and are worth it. If you lose friends they truly were not friends to begin with. Love is truly unconditional. emoticon

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KEITHMISKEY 11/13/2011 4:48PM

  Hi as part of my weight loss plan I have been talking to a physiologist about my eating habits, stressing, boredom eating, etc. One of the first questions he asked me was how does being overweight serve me. This took me back I said I donít understand the question. What he said is some people use their weight as a shield.
I have not figured out how my weight serves me and I am not sure if I ever will. Him asking me the question made me think about what I stopped doing since gaining weight, such as going to movies. But more importantly started thinking about what I would like to do if I lost weight. So I started setting small weight loss goals, so far I met them, success breeds success.
So my advice is figure out how your weight serves you, donít give up I see a lot of people having great success using this site, Success

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Am I anti small-children?

Thursday, November 10, 2011

My granddaughter Aaliyah woke up this morning with a sore throat and an awful sounding cough.I am her Mama's back-up plan when she cant get off.I picked her up for the Doc's office.She was lying on the sofa in her pink fuzzy pj's and slippers.With her hair looking like a lion's mane and wrapped in a blanket.She held a box of tissue and sounded like a seal when she coughed.She was in no mood to get clothes on,so I carried her out and put her in the car seat.She was cold so I put the heat on and gave her a cup of warm cocoa in a sippy cup and she was apalled.Grammy I cant use a sippy cup i'm not a baby!It's okay today honey just drink it....she started crying...loudly!Finally I poured out my coffee and gave her my travel mug.We managed to arrive on time to a room full ofcrying,feverish,snotty,coughing,yelling,
screeching,vomiting,running small children.DG proceeded to take a seat on my lap and boss the other children around!BE QUIET!STOP RUNNING!SIT DOWN,WATCH THE VIDEO!She soon snuggled up to me and went to sleep...whew!Just in time for them to call her for weigh in and height's been a while!She fussed and cried all the while and finally gave the nurse the stank eye and said YOU ARE GETTIN ON MY NERVES!!I let out a laugh that shook the windows!!...I cant help it she is a hoot!!We recieved a phone in perscription to Wal Mart and had a happy meal with apples and milk and headed home to sleep.She usually has me worn out but being sick she is different.I'd rather have her climbing the walls than sick any day.Hopefully i'm not next!! emoticonSUSAN

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DIANNEMT 11/11/2011 3:12PM

    Hoping you are handling it okay--I saw the title and HAD to come see what it was about. I hated sick kids....

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DUSTYGIRL25 11/11/2011 4:38AM

    Kids are just so adorable when they are related to us, right?
All the others, not so cute.
It's fun to share all the the good times and create great memories with our grandkids. Not so fun when they share their colds and flu. emoticon

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MARTHASPARKS 11/10/2011 11:14PM

    You are anti - sick, ill tempered little people. Every mother and grandmother alive is. They fray your last nerve and by the time they are well, you are sick. We love them anyway...

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MARVEEME 11/10/2011 10:00PM

    My prayers are with you.....BOTH!

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MNOT2THICK 11/10/2011 8:04PM

    Hope the little mama gets over it soon.

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ARLENE_MOVES 11/10/2011 5:26PM

    I watched my grandsons today for a couple hours. Pink eye. Hope you don't get her illness - you didn't drink after her from your coffee mug, did you!

Vit C to you lady!!!!!

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HAILEYSMEMAW 11/10/2011 4:53PM

    Granddaughters!! You gotta love them .HOPE she gets to feeling better soon.
Hoping you dont get sick. emoticon

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SNOWANGELDIVA 11/10/2011 4:08PM

    Your GD and I sound a lot alike when we're sick...we're both snakey.
I hope you don't get her ickies, but, I'm so glad you family has you!!!


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NSTARSMITH 11/10/2011 3:59PM

    Oh, yeah. One fussy sick child is a handful. An entire waiting room of them is a bizarre nightmare (unless you work there ... in which case you probably get used to it). Tries the patience - and the ear drums. She will recover and I hope you are NOT going to get it (although if you were gonna, you probably already DID - sigh).

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 11/10/2011 3:48PM

    Praying she feels better soon. emoticon

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I'm having one of THOSE days

Wednesday, November 09, 2011

My normally good dog ran out the yard,chasing a rabbit,the newspaper was blown under our old van,my ride to the gym never showed up,my daughter missed the bus,lunch boiled over,the car wont start,my dog jumped on me with muddy paws as I was going to leave(I had to go change)and the wind blew the umbrella over the neighbors fence...whew!Im still standing better than I ever did and just like a little kid...I laughed it all off.I have a nice aromatic chili in the crockpot,crusty wheat bread and a crispy salad ready for dinner.Now,Im going to have a nap and dream of the good days!!... emoticon emoticonSUSAN

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TRESSWANN 11/10/2011 7:45PM

    It's only a day, not a week and you have the right way to cope

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MARVEEME 11/10/2011 8:45AM

    If not for the trials in our life, we would have nothing to compare and measure our blessings.

Many blessings!

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MARTHASPARKS 11/9/2011 9:30PM

    Tomorrow, tomorrow, I love ya, tomorrow. It's only a day away! Things will be better then.

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DUSTYGIRL25 11/9/2011 9:04PM

    I think you have had a really busy day!
I would definitely take a nap and I would just stay there until the next day.
Good positive attitude!

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    emoticonLike BarbaraEllen said, this would make a great CW song! At least you haven't lost your sense of humor (just the umbrella) emoticon

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TRISSA3 11/9/2011 8:26PM

    I had one of those days, too. (You should read my blog...)

And I'd have chili in the crock pot, too. But my DH blew it up. (Another blog...)


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BARBAELLEN 11/9/2011 7:40PM

    I thought I was reading the lyrics to a country song before I realized it was your blog!

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IILAAD65 11/9/2011 7:34PM

    I had my crockpot going too!! Loved it!!

You have such a GREAT attitude!!

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ARLENE_MOVES 11/9/2011 6:48PM

    Chili hit me too!!! My dh makes the best chili -- oh, get better dh, I need your chili!!!

Hope the rest of your day was better after your nap!

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LHLADY517 11/9/2011 6:30PM

    Makes my day almost seem sane. (I was a substitute in the Middle School in-school-suspension room).

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SNOWANGELDIVA 11/9/2011 2:47PM

    Like maddieadkins...I heard chili and the rest of your mess of a day melted away. Mmmmmmm chiili!!! emoticon
I hope it's an upswing from here on out!

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MADDIEMADKINS 11/9/2011 2:43PM

    Your dinner description just made my mouth water! Yum!!! Sorry your day was crummy, hopefully your evening will be fabulous!

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A stranger at my door

Tuesday, November 08, 2011

I looked out the window and did not recognize the person standing there.I cracked the window and asked could I help him.You really dont remember me do you?he laughed.No,i'm sorry but No.I studied his face and a realization came over me.We were in the same diet/exercise clinic at the hospital on base 6 years ago!He was 17 at the time.Oh my gosh it was Joshua my long lost partner in that class.We were weight loss buddies.He weighed in at 433.I weighed in at 256.He was the most difficult,hornery,pig headed fool on the planet!He sat in class and played on his phone.All the while I nudged his arm to get involved.Josh,I said oneday,what are you here for?His sarcastic comment was...What do you think?rolling his eyes.By now I was ready to smack them eyes until they rolled around like a cartoon character!I grabbed his phone and said lets go!pointing at the door.The head nurse running the clinic looked at me knowingly and nodded her head.Once outside I gave Josh the phone back.What's up with you and why are you so mean?We sat for the next hour talking and he let out his demons....his mom it turned out had terminal cancer and his dad had left his family because of "the other woman"His brother died in Iraq and nobody could tell him anything!!!He was caught eating in HEB(our grocery store)without paying and the judge sentenced him to community service and a health class.His eyes were haunted with the saddest look could not be missed.The spark was not there...He was difficult to say the least but I became Josh's mentor.We walked the parks together,ate together,I tried basketball..NOT a Good thing!I got him to give up that sweet fruit punch and drink water.He cheered me up hills and soon we both noticed a change,not only in his weight but,his attitude.His mama passed away 10 months later and he moved to Michigan.Standing there before me was SGT Joshua Williams!!!He looked wonderful and I was so happy to see his sparkle was back in his eyes.He has a wife named Caroline,2 kids Oscar and JoJo and a husky named!I have always wondered where he was and he helped to put my mind at ease.He is 248 lbs lighter and a hunk emoticonIm glad I had something to do with his change of spirit! emoticonSusan

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SNOWANGELDIVA 11/9/2011 2:43PM

    You made me cry. Oh my gosh, this is beautiful. Praise God.

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SUECHRIS50 11/9/2011 2:34PM

    the funny thing is,that if he hadnt eaten in the grocery store and gotten caught .He might be in jail.He says thats why we were meant to be partners!!

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DUSTYGIRL25 11/9/2011 3:37AM

    Susie, you are a Wonder Woman!

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MARTHASPARKS 11/8/2011 8:58PM

    Susan, you affect everyone in significant ways. What an amazing tribute to the value of a real friend.

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BARBAELLEN 11/8/2011 7:19PM

    Susan, admit it. You carry a wand, don't you?

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TXGRANDMA 11/8/2011 4:45PM

    emoticonWhat a wonderful story! My goodness, who would have thought? He knew you really cared, and you probably helped him to turn his life around!
emoticonfor you! Just Fantastic! Thanks so much for sharing this with us.......

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DEBLYNN323 11/8/2011 4:15PM

    emoticon...very cool blog!

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NUMEXI17 11/8/2011 3:16PM

    What a blessing to see the fruit of your friendship come to fruition!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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