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My fashion show

Sunday, July 17, 2011

So,I'm going through some boxes marked "70's clothes" My bell bottoms would have fit a pencil!! emoticonI put some of the clothes on and had a good laugh before boxing up the whole thing for the shelter.I'm 5'2 and wore platform sandals.All my daughters have size 10 feet so they cant fit them.OUT they go.All my old costume jewelry went to my daughters jewelry making kit!She likes to canibalize them for new pieces.I made so much room for skinny woman clothes emoticonI had to laugh when I put my goal jeans on from january and they were too big.I picked another pair.I threw away makeup,perfume,underwear,bra's,garden clothes,socks,Worn out shoes.It feels good and liberating to purge the dressers.The funny thing is,I found some work out clothes that got too small,and they were baggy and loose.I had to take out all my dresses and suits and yup,they went away too!The back of my car is filled up!!Tomorrow I go to "church Families" and homeless shelter.Happy Sunday all my spark peeps!! emoticonSUSAN

  
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NEENSTER1 7/24/2011 10:17AM

    That's funny emoticon You are doing amazing. emoticon

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DIZZYDOC 7/20/2011 8:48AM

    Way to go! It is such a liberating feeling to leave it all behind you (or toss it out) and just get new. What a great reward! emoticon

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TRESSWANN 7/18/2011 6:32PM

    Excellent

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OUTDOORSDC 7/18/2011 5:46PM

    Doesn't it feel so good to just clear it all out? But you should have taken a few pics of those 70s clothes! Would have loved to seen some of those. Oh, and congratulations on the goal pants that have now become too big. Does that feel fantastic or what?

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MARTHASPARKS 7/18/2011 1:45PM

    Way to go my beauty!

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RATFINKROB 7/18/2011 8:48AM

    Sounds like Spring cleaning has gone into over drive for the Summer!

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 7/17/2011 7:14PM

    That is wonderful Sue. What a blessing to clear out your things and still be able to bless others.

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MARVEEME 7/17/2011 7:02PM

    Nice work! Well done!

And the butterfly emerges from her cocoon!

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I've been cleaning the dust off the dust bunnies!!

Saturday, July 16, 2011

I came across some things today and I asked myself why am I keeping these?Well,they could be used for-------(fill in the blank)That's a habit that was learned from my frugal granny.I can have 30 bowls and it takes one to be broken before I have 29!just saying!My friend says when something new comes,something goes.I had bought remnants from a fabric store to repair a quilt,the girls all used them for crafts,scrapbooking,barbie playing and I had kept pieces in a scrap bin.My neighbor said she teaches quilting at the senior center and she would take them to make lap blankets for seniors.I gave a bunch of pots and pans to the food pantry and towels to the homeless shelter.We have been starting our blanket collecting for the cold months and I dug out 5 for the drive.I only have 4 purses now,15 pair of shoes,2 jackets and 2 coats.6 boxes of chachkis are gone,curtains,utensils,lamps etc. The clutter has to go!!!Im ready for it to go along with my weight!! emoticonSUSAN

  
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GIRLFRIDAY7 7/18/2011 2:17PM

    It will really make you feel better. I pitched a lot of stuff this week myself - 2 FULL garbage bags of clothes, 1 full bag of shoes and purses, and now I am working on filling a box with things I do not need and do not want to find a place for. I also called the city to pick up a mattress, two chairs, and some wood from my house. Things are looking up!

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KOFFEENUT 7/16/2011 11:37PM

    Want to come over to my place and reform MY dust bunnies?!? This is on my "gotta do sometime" list!

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NIAGCHRIS246 7/16/2011 8:23PM

  Im speechless with admiration! emoticon

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 7/16/2011 7:27PM

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MOTTAMAMALOU 7/16/2011 6:24PM

    Just think...you not only cleaned up but helped others along the way. Isn't that a wonderful feeling?
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I decided against the hypnotherapy

Friday, July 15, 2011

My mama was a no nonsense type of woman!She taught me that we all have to fight some type of battle in our life.Mine just happens to be weight and anxiety.I was doing my usual mom talk at our spirit tree(yes I said spirit tree)When one of our friends or loved ones pass away,we hang a pretty ornament/wind chime/picture on the tree!Well,I asked mom if she thought I should go ahead and do the hypnotherapy show me a sign.A red bird for yes and a rusty Quarter for no.Well,when we were small there was a coke machine with a sign that read "NO RUSTY QUARTERS!!!"Mom said I feel like a rusty quarter today,unwanted!(she was being silly)So when I was getting some fruit at the store the cashier handed me $5 and 25Cents....yup you guessed it.The quarter was rusty!! emoticonI could almost hear her voice saying what you dont know wont hurt you!Thanks for all the LOVE emoticonSUSAN

  
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MARTHASPARKS 7/16/2011 12:14PM

    I don't agree with MaryHolman. I think that many of our best decisions are made with intuition and by listening to that soft whisper from God - however you know him to be- in our hearts. Your connection with your Mom is part of God. I don't want to offend one of your other friends and i believe that the advice she offered was sensible from the realm of her experience. I think that intuition is simply your brain processing stored information so quickly that you gets answers without seeing all of the steps that led from the question to the answer. Also, no matter how you got the answer about hypnotherapy, you got an answer that you believe is right for you right now.

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MARYHOLMAN 7/16/2011 11:35AM

    Think that rusty coin business is for the birds! emoticon

It's a very charming notion-a bond with your mother is sweet-but if you are going to make important decisions based on a coin, you might as well skip the therapy and go to a fortune teller for your therapy.

When your mental health is at risk I think you should take your therapist's advice on the matter. What's the point of giving your time and spending the money if you are not going to do what the medical professional suggests?

Wasn't the whole point to uncover experiences from your past? I don't understand your choice at all. If you don't want the hypnotherapy, that has to be a rational decision based on fact, not superstition.

emoticon if I'm raing on your parade.

Take care,
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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 7/16/2011 8:13AM

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MARVEEME 7/15/2011 8:25PM

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What a wonderful confirmation of the right path from Mama! I'm tearing up, for sure. I chat with my late family, and get these kinds of answers sometimes in similar ways. The signs I've been sent have been equally as awesome over the years, but sometimes people get completely creeped out. Oooohhh...I'll bet that the stories we could share would have most people measuring us for white and comfortable straight-jackets! I'm so happy for you, I can hardly contain myself.
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I went to see my therapist today!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Dr.Trent is an awesome dude and I just love him!He starts off by getting me loosened up by talking about the news,my family,a joke he heard!He looks me straight in the eye and says be honest,do these pants make my butt look big?After the belly laugh.we settle down to talk.He seems to think I carry alot of demons from my past,true.I havent exposed them all.Weight is just a wall and I keep it up to hide behind,maybe.I'm being honest when I say that alot has happened to me since I was 5.Dreams that reocurr are a product of some horror I experienced and he wants to hynotize me with a nurse present.My husband and brother say dont do it but,I want to know what it is that I cant let go of.I mean,the worst it could be is to find out I tortured ants with a magnifying glass!Or that I should have left the past alone!What do ya'll think? emoticonSUSAN

  
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MNOT2THICK 7/15/2011 3:23PM

    Yes, the ultimate decision is yours. If you choose to do so, I agree with getting a tape of it so there are no gray areas. I do agree with dealing with the problem so you can forgive and or forget and move on. emoticon

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MARYHOLMAN 7/15/2011 12:45PM

    Do you own a tape recorder?-maybe your therapist does.

Maybe it would feel easier if you could record the session and then listen to it.

Getting hypnotized sounds really cool to me emoticon

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RATFINKROB 7/15/2011 8:57AM

    I was hypnotised once in college. All I know is I opened my eyes feeling great and two hours had gone by. I have always wondered what happened in those two missing hours. Did she read me like a book, did I dance around the room like a monkey, or did she go out for coffee and wake me on returning.

Now that I am grown with a little more experience, I wouldn't let anyone hypnotise me that I didn't trust with my life.

I wish you the best in your quest!

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BETTERHEALTH123 7/15/2011 8:29AM

    I wish you the best.

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KIND2ME 7/14/2011 6:18PM

    I too suffered a lot of anxiety. But I knew why. I have been seeking
answers for a long time. I finally had a lot of them realized in a book. If you love to read and you have some good, close girlfriends I suggest you
go through it together. It will really help you heal and bond you more to
your women friends. It's called The Wounded Woman by Dr. Steve Stephens and Pam Vredevelt. It's extremely therapeutic, but also not all
of it is easy, but worth looking into. Blessings to you on this day! emoticon

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MARVEEME 7/14/2011 5:01PM

    Interesting timing on this one, in consideration of my "moral" statement yesterday. While I will not tell you what I think, I will ask you to know in your heart what you truly think.

What is the incentive to obtaining this knowledge? Will having the knowledge of this horror event absolutely cure the dreams from occurring, guaranteed? Is it at all possible that this hypnotic event could do more harm than good?

If you have answered these questions for yourself satisfactorily, then you have your answer.

Blessings!

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HANKENSTEIN 7/14/2011 5:01PM

    I guess it depends on why you are going to him in the first place. If there's always been a feeling of something inside you holding you back, or stifling you in some way, and if you want to know, then let him try. Just be prepared that what comes out may create a whole new set of issues to deal with, you know?

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 7/14/2011 4:57PM

    Only you know what is best for you. I do know that past hurts effect our present lives and that healing sets us free. emoticon emoticon

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My security blanket

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

I had a very enlightening moment today!I am sure that ya'll have emoticon moments too but,I was shopping at wally world and spied a plus size top with a sparkly butterfly on its front.My first thought was "If I gain my weight back I'll have a top to fit"!!This little korean woman looked at me and said in her best english....NO NO,TOO BIG FOR YOU HONEY!!and took the top from my hand.YOU TOO LITTLE TO FIT IT!!I looked at her and my face was red.I have been carrying my extra weight around for safety.I'ts like a blanket that has kept me safe from moving forward.Each time I get close to reaching my goal,I start doing something to hurt my progress.It's comfortable to not think about calories,fat,sodium,sugar,carbs,exercise,b
uying smaller sizes.The fact of it is I'm scared if I lose my weight,I'll lose my security.My husband hugs me lightly because he might"break a bone" and my oldest daughter said she thinks I've lost enough weight and I need to Quit!!Kayla says"Mom do what is right for you"I'm in a danger zone right now and I dont know What's going on.But,I'm gonna see my therapist tomorrow to shed some light! emoticon emoticonSUSAN

  
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BETTERHEALTH123 7/13/2011 6:36PM

    Sounds like your first thought may have been an "excuse" to buy something new. It seems to me that you might have liked the sparkly butterfly on the outfit -- was there any sparkly butterfly outfits in your size.

Sometimes change is a little frightening.

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MARVEEME 7/13/2011 6:06PM

    When I was little, my mom entered into a $50 bet with a friend to lose 25 pounds. She won the bet, but after she was as her goal weight, I hugged her once and was startled to feel her bones for the first time. Being a little kid, I reacted like one stating "Mommies are SUPPOSED to be soft and squishy, not bony an brittle!".

When she gained her weight back, she blamed that comment as her reason.

Moral: Be careful to identify incentives, not excuses, for your behaviors.

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MARYHOLMAN 7/13/2011 4:16PM

    Beware those diet saboteurs!

When I divorced my husband many, many years ago, I let myself gain weight because I wanted no men coming near me. I fought of all my desires.

At 58 and after having a hysterectomy, I've lost any desire for sex that I once had. After years of yo-yo dieting, I accepted myself as a fat person. I didn't have to change and I didn't really want to change. I too wanted to hold onto the security of being fat.

But now it's down to my health, I'm going to die from heart failure or diabetes if I don't make a drastic change in my attitude. I want to live!

Hope all goes well at therapy emoticon

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LHLADY517 7/13/2011 2:35PM

    So completely understand.

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SHEILAB64 7/13/2011 2:28PM

    I understand - it is why I never get rid of my fat clothes just hide them in the back of the closet but not this time - when I outgrow them - out they go. You should go find a figure hugging cute top in your size now - I have discovered 3 spaghetti string tops with built in bras that my husband says are very very sexy so I have been wearing them around the house and may even wear them in public soon. I hope your therapist helps you love your body.

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 7/13/2011 2:19PM

    Your family sounds like mine. *smile*

How do you feel? Do you feel physically strong? Does your goal weight keep you in a healthy bmi?

Hope your therapist can help you feel better about things. emoticon

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FLAFLUTTERBY 7/13/2011 2:14PM

    Susan, I know exactly what you mean ... I have a security blanket, too! I love butterflies (hence the screenname FLAFlutterby) and as I read your blog I could see myself in your shoes, reaching for that same top. I just bought 2 pairs of pj bottoms (lounge pants) that are at least one size too big and soon will be two sizes too big. Lounge pants should be a little big to be comfortable, but falling off big ... not so much! LOL! Eager to hear your therapist's take on all this. I'm thinking "self-fulfilling prophecy" -- if you think you'll gain your weight back, then you will. So, rid yourself of the negative thoughts, tell yourself a different story and make it come true. Remind me of what I just said when I get to where you are. emoticon

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VINNIELOU 7/13/2011 2:14PM

    I hope you can put your thumb on it. I think I may understand a little bit of what your are feeling. I am scared to lose weight/I am scared to not lose weight. I am just beginning my baby steps and I really do not want anyone to say a thing to me. I don't want any compliments like "you've lost weight."

Everyone thinks they have an opinion that you need to hear. (ha- including me, i guess.) as Winnie the Pooh would say I think you need a good think on it. I can relate to the security blanket. I can imagine it is hard to always be moving forward as you have, there have to be moments of second guess, or of that little voice that you thought you had tamed into liking yourself. emoticon

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